my body yearns for
the warmth that surrounded
your bodily glow
i miss the the love that you didn't give,
the friendliness i mistook for romance
i miss the smile that plaster
upon your face, bright like the
burning sun that makes my eyes squint.
i still remember your body:
tall and slim, i had to look up
something i'd never done before
the way your hands felt in my body
each touch feverish, i could feel it
through my clothing.
i thought about you day and night.
you soon became the source of my dreams
even in the gleaming day.
i never said goodbye to you
even if i was the one that left,
and i am forever sorry that i abandoned you.