Chicago, IL 📍
BREASIA CONNOR
"Breasia where is u going this early in the morning, hell wrong wit you" my mama said smoking a cigarette. Looked like she didn't even get any sleep last night.
"It's my first day of senior year.. u really that behind on my life damn" I said shaking my head mumbling the last part.
"Who you talking to? Don't get fucked up Breasia" she said standing up and pointing in my face. Literally all I smelt was alcohol and cigarettes
I didn't even respond, I just got out the house as fast as I could and started walking to the bus stop. I didn't check how long it was, just wanted to get away from her.
"Wassup lil mama" drunks on the street said as I walked past. I just ignored them and sat down at the bus stop and put my headphones in.
"All I had to do is rub it
The genie out the bottle
Pussy so wet
I'ma need goggles
She tell me that's it's mine
I tell her stop lyin'
Mine and who else?
She say worry 'bout yourself
Lil Tune
They holler at me, but it's you
You, this ain't high school
Me and my crew, we can slide through
Give it to you whenever you want
Put it wherever you want
Baby, it's yours
Anywhere, everywhere
Baby, it's your world, ain't it?
Baby, it's your world, ain't it?"
I mumbled listening to my music until I saw the bus come and stood up. I used my Ventra card and walked to the middle of the bus sitting down with my book bag right beside me.
Sometimes I just thought and realized how much I hated my life. My "mom" was a drug addict and alcoholic, my dad died a couple years ago, my mom can barely afford for us. So now I have to work at a strip club because it's the fastest way for me to get money.
I hate working there, I feel so uncomfortable and feel like I'm disrespecting myself as a woman, but it brings in good money for me to eat and have clothes so.
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When I got to school, I just saw the usual people, some new people. I couldn't wait to graduate and get out of here
"My fault" a girl said when we accidentally bumped each other. I immediately noticed her from the club, she was Kianna.
I almost nearly broke down crying right in the hallway, but I pulled it together and went to the bathroom and went in a stall to cry.
This has got to be so embarrassing
Couldn't I get expelled?
Would if she tell everybody and I get called all kinds of names and they come to the club
I should've just got a regular job.. oh my God.
After my lil breakdown, I went to the sink to wipe my face and then proceeded to head to class.
"Ms Connors, you're late" my English teacher Mr Grate said as soon as I entered the room.
"I apologize, I had to go to the restroom" I said sitting down and take my books out. He gave me a head nod and continued teaching the lesson. I was zoning out the entire class overthinking about the worst that could happen.
I tend to overthink and have negative thoughts about almost everything. I wish my brain operated differently..
I had turned 18 in July and started working there immediately after my birthday. It was gonna be more difficult trying to work now because of school, plus I'm a cheerleader..
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3 classes had went by, and it was now time for lunch. Since I was a senior, we could get off campus lunch.
When I walked outside, I saw Kianna with a group of people, boys and girls. I felt so nervous around her and tried to cover my face.
When I looked up, she looked directly at me and I turned my head so fast and picked up my walking pace.
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*that morning*
KIANNA NICOLE
"Hey y'all so it's 6:29 am and it's officially my first day of senior year.. I already have my outfit set out and my hair is already done, period" I said swiping under my chin
"I'm finna go brush my teeth, wash my face, etc. then ima make my bed and start getting ready" I said getting up and walking to the bathroom
I set the camera up and put it on time lapse while I played "Power Trip" by J Cole ft Miguel.
"Got me up all night
All I'm singin' is love songs
She got me up all night
Constant drinkin' and love songs
She got me up all night
Down and out with these love songs
She got me up all night
Drownin' out with these love songs
She got me up all night (Yeah)
All I'm singin' is love songs
She got me up all night (Yeah)
Constant drinkin' and love songs
She got me up all night (Yeah)
Down and out with these love songs
She got me open all night (Uh-huh)
Got me open all night, hey
Okay, back when I was sleeping in my mama crib
Or even back when I was up there in Mohammed crib
Paying seventeen hundred for the rent, money well-spent
No heater, but a nigga made heat, may I vent
Had a thing for ya, even wrote the song "Dreams" for ya
'Cause I had dreams for ya, thoughts of a ring for ya
Childish shit, you know child and shit
Anonymous flowers sent, you know coward shit"
"Ok so I'm finna make my bed, and then start getting ready." I said bringing the camera back in my room and set it up on time lapse again while I made my bed
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"Ok guys this is my outfit, my nails match it and stuff too, you already know how Big Mf Kianna stepping." I said posing in the mirror
(Imagine this is Kianna with a side part🤣)
"I'm finna go downstairs and eat some cereal, then make some Tiktoks and stuff you know you know" I said grabbing my book bag and going downstairs
"Oh and it's 7:39 so I got time. I don't have to be there until 8:20" I said sitting the camera down and giving some more angles of my outfit while dancing
"Ima start taking this channel seriously, I be nervous to upload cause I feel like my videos gon be boring. Give me some suggestions if y'all can" I said pouring some Cinnamon Toast Crunch in a bowl and adding the milk
"I hope y'all know it's cereal.. then milk. FYI" I said grabbing a spoon out the drawer
"I'm finna watch TV and ima leave at 8:00 cause the school ain't that close. See y'all later" I said stop the recording and getting on Instagram
"what time u leaving out" Kamora said FaceTiming me doing her lashes
(Idk if I said Kamora was out of highschool or not but if I did, she's In highschool now and is also a senior, sorry for any confusion 🙂)
"Bout 8, u?" I said scrolling on Instagram looking at peoples stories
"Girl like 8:15, school right around the corner from me." She said fanning her face
"Awe ok, u look cute" I said smiling
"Thanksss U look good too. That side part so fye on u" she said taking grabbing her phone and going downstairs "But Ight I was jus asking, see u" she said hanging up
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"Hey y'all so it's 8:00 and I'm on my way" I said setting my camera up in the passengers seat on my book bag
"I'm finna call lil wassaname" I said going to my FaceTime log and FaceTimed Keon
"Why u call me at 8 ina morning" he said in a sleepy voice with the camera facing the ceiling
"Cause I wanted to see what u was doing, say hi to my YouTube" I said facing the phone towards my camera
"No fuck all y'all" he said hanging up. He gets on my nerves
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"Ight y'all, ima try to record while I'm here on my phone, if not then I'll see y'all after school" I said stopping the recording and putting my camera in my glove department and then got out while locking the door
"What up Ki Ki" My childhood friend DJ said dapping me up
"Wassup DJ" I said smiling. I missed my friend, we barely talked during the summer
(Btw he pronounced it as "kai kai" not kiki )
"m m m, u be acting Hollywood and shit like u can't answer the phone for mfs" he said shoving me and mugging me also
"Nigga when you call Me" I said frowning
"Man jus know I called, it's cool" he said nodding his head
"Boy she ain't obligated to answer the phone
for u, who u think u is" my volleyball teammate/friend Ashley said
"Heyyyy" I said hugging her extra tight and smiling. Me and Ashley been friends since we was sophomore year, that was my dawg
"Heyyy boo, I missed youuu" she said hugging me back and rocking us side to side
"Y'all lame as hell" DJ said waving us off and walking away
"U still doing volleyball this year?" She asked nervously
"Of course, hell kind of question is that" I said frowning. "Are you?" I said raising my eyebrow
"U already know my answer" she said shrugging
"Ight I'll see u later tho, I got English" she said rolling her eyes and hugging me
"Ight see you, I got biology" I said walking in the school.
"My bad" I said when I accidentally bumped into this girl. I think I seen her before but I jus brushed it off and went to class.
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"So then I'm like that's why yo baby pigeon toed and ugly and she gon say I went too far and slapped the shit outta me" Kyrie said while we stood outside school figuring out what we was gon get for lunch
"U can't be talking bout people kids, specially yo sister kids" Ashley said shaking her head
"Exactly, jus foul." I said laughing
"Kianna we just gon forget about how u talked about wassname grann-"
"Yea we are gon forget, anyway I'm finna get some Wendy's" I said turning around and seeing the same girl from earlier look at me and immediately look away. Did I used to bully her or sum wtf
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Chapter 13 ovaaaaa
Was this chapter too long? I tried making them longer but lmk if this one was too long. 😬
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