Ethan's POV
"P-Prince Ethan" gulat na sambit ng mga nakakasalubong kong katulong pero hindi ko sila pinag tuunan ng pansin
Nag patuloy lang ako sa pag lalakad hanghang sa makarating ako sa throne room. Kusang bumukas yung pituan at nakita ko doon si mom na may kausap na isa sa mga council pero parehas silang napatigil nang nakita ako.
Taas noo akong nag lakad papalapit sakanila at nang makapunta ako sa harapan ay yumuko ang isa sa council habang si mom naman ay napatayo at lumapit saakin.
"Anak," gulat nyang ani
"Until the coronation, can you let me decide on my own?" pag dederetsyo ko
She looked shocked on what I said but I remained serious. I already made a decision, I'll wait for her but if she's still now here until my coronation, I'll let her go even if I don't want to.
"S-Sure.." nasagot nalang ni mom
Yumuko ako bilang paggalang bago lumabas na sa kwartong iyon. Muli akong bumalik sa kwarto at nakita ko yung ilang mga servants na bitbitin ang mga gamit ko papunta sa karwahe.
Nang masiguro ko na kumpleto lahat ng gamit ko ay bumaba na din ako at lumabas sa palasyo pero nakasalubong ko sina Kade. It's been a 5 days since I last saw him, and a month since I last saw Danica and others.
"W-Where are you going Ethan?" nalilitong tanong ni Diana
"Away from this place" I answered shortly and was about to leave when they asked again
"Where exactly? Tatakasan mo din ba kami tulad ni Zen?" iritang tanong naman ni Danica
Hindi ko sila sinagot at nagpatuloy nalang sa pag lalakad. I know it's so inconsiderate of me to leave without saying nor explaining anything but I also don't know what to say. It just feels so awkward to talk to them right now and maybe I can explain once I get back here.
Sumakay ako sa karwahe at nang maisakay na din lahat ng mga gamit ko ay umalis na kami. Halos isang oras ang byahe dahil sa kalayuan ng pupuntahan ko. Nang matanaw ko na yung bundok kung nasaan ang bahay ko ay pinatigil ko na yung karwahe saka lumabas.
"A-Ako na po, prince Ethan" magalang na ani nung nag mamaneho ng karwahe
"Just get lost" walang gana kong sabi at kinuha ang mga gamit ko
It's not heavy even I'm carrying two bags and one big box. My body feels numb and the hell I care why. Sinigurado kong walang nakasunod saakin bago ako nag lakad paakyat sa bundok. I can actually just use a portal but they might figure out this place.
It took me an half hour before I saw my house. Memories of Zenadia immediately flashed into my mind when I looked around the house. Funny to say how I used to think about her before when she left us, and now I'm thinking her again with the same reason.
Inakyat ko lang ang mga gamit ko at inayos iyon sa walk-in closet ko. Usually, I commands the gnomes to fix everything before I get here, including my clothes but for the first time, I want to fix it all by myself.
Halos kalahating oras kong inayos ang mga damit ko dahil wala naman akong ideya kung paano, ni hindi ko alam kung paano iyon ilagay ng maayos. Nang matapos ako ay pabagsak akong humiga sa kama dahil sa pagod.
It's been a week since the last time I saw her, or should I say, the illusions of her. But since that day, I've been longing for her even more. I'm missing her more, and still loving her more and more. It's too fucking cliché to say but the more days without her makes me realize how much she means to me.
That's why I decided to live on my own just until the coronation, and after than, if Zenadia still doesn't show up, I'll forget her for good. If she come back before that day, I'll give up everything, including my crown and be with her for the rest of my life.
But I don't want to let her go for now, I won't give up yet.
Dahil hindi ako nakakain kanina sa palasyo, bigla akong nagutom kaya bumaba ako sa kusina. Binuksan ko yung isang maliit na pintuan kung saan nakalagay lahat ng pagkain. I was about to pick something when I fucking realized that I don't know how to fucking cook.
Inis kong sinarado muli yung maliit na pintuan at napahilot sa sentido ko. What should I do now? I can't call the gnomes because I promised that I will live on my own for now. But I can't also starve to death! Damn it!
But then.. I remembered the first time I saw Zenadia cooked at the academy. I was watching her the whole time and I got there even before my friends does. I saw how quick she is while cooking some unfamiliar dish.
Dahil tanda ko pa naman yung mga ginamit sya sa pag luluto noon at kaagad ko iyong kinuha at inihanda. Every week pinapalitan ng mga gnomes lahat ng mga stock na pagkain dito sa bahay kaya hindi ko kailangang problemahin ang mga pagkain.
"Please be good to me" pakiusap ko nang makapag suot ako ng apron
I used the knife to cut the onions but since I don't know how to cut it, I just wash it with water then devided into four. Wait.. should I peel it first?
Inis kong tinapon iyon at kumuha ng panibagon sibuyas at inalis muna ang kaunting balat nito. Hinati ko muli ito sa apat at tinabi na sa iaang gilid. Next, I grabbed the garlic but.. I don't know what should I do with this. Should I just put all of this?
I give up! Fuck it!
Inis kong nilapag yung kutsilyo at inalis yung apron sa pagkakasuot saakin. Cooking is so fucking impossible! How can Zenadia cook so easily like it was nothing? Damn, I can't imagine doing this again.
I just called five fairies to cook my food. I know I promised to live on my own but it's just my first day and I'm having a hard time to adjust, I think a little help from them won't harm. And all they need to do is cooking, no more and I'll do the rest.
While they were cooking, umakyat muna ako sa kwarto ko at pumunta sa balkonahe. Dinama ko ang malamig na simoy ng hangin. Even here in the Fire Kingdom, the air still feels cold. Well, the volcanoes doesn't affects the wind coming from the Air Kingdom since they control the sky.
Napabuntong hininga nalang ako at bumalik na sa loob ng kwarto. Sakto naman na nakita ko yung ginatara na pinabili ko pa kay Miller sa mortal world. This is the same guitar I used to serenade Zenadia before asking her to be my girlfriend.
Kinuha ko iyon at umupo sa dulo ng kama. Napangiti nalang ako ng kaunti dahil naalala ko kung gaano ako kasaya noong naging girlfriend ko na si Zenadia. I was the happiest man when she said yes and agreed to be my girlfriend.
I remembered how I woke up 3am in the morning to fix my surprise for Zenadia in Azure. Though, I was not the one who cooked the foods we ate, but still, I did the rest. I also remember how I said that I cannot lose her because she's my life and made a promise---
Wait... don't tell me that that was what Zenadia's referring to when she said that I should remember her promise?
"Do you promise me that you'll be with me until forever? Even if the whole magic realm will go against us, can you promise to love me till the end?"
Those are the exact words I said and made her swear that we'll be together no matter what. I don't want to be bitter ‘cause it's so fucking gay but are promises are really meant to be broken?
Binalik ko nalang ulit yung gitara at kumain nalang ng tanghalian. Nang matapos ako ay lumabas muna ako ng bahay at tumingin sa pwesto kung saan kami kumain noon. But I left her because of the letter that Ella gave me. It was a spell of mind manipulating that's why when I read what's inside the letter, I couldn't think straight and immediately went to Ella.
Come to think of it, I also made a lot of mistakes but Zenadia keeps on accepting it. I'm aware how possessive I am towards her to the point that I know I'm being too much but she didn't complain.
When she caught me kissing Ella because I was manipulated by that bitch, she didn't got mad, and she just become distant to me. But still, she didn't asked for a break up nor even thought of that. Zenadia still accepted me after I hurt her unintentionally.
And when she lost her memories, I got even more possessive to her. I don't want Jacob to come near her, I don't even want him to stare at her. Then she wore a fucking swimsuit. I know I was beyond the line that time because I was too pissed. I saw how men droll over and looked at her body with lust. No one must look at her that way except from me.
Napansin kong parang paulan na. Mukhang kailangan nanaman ng water kingdom na magpaulan. Every month, two straight days nag papaulan ang water kingdom para sa mga taniman ng mga mamamayan sa buong Magia. Even here in the Fire Kingdom, we still need rain.
Unti unti ng pumatak ang ulan kaya pumasok na ako sa loob ng bahay at sakto naman na bumuhos na iyon ng napakalakas. Dahil solo na ako dito sa bahay at wala na yung mga fairies, ang tanging nadidinig ko nalang na ingay ay ang pag bagsak ng ulan.
Since it's raining, I can't do anything but to lay on my bed. Sandali akong pumikit at pinatong ang braso ko sa bandang mata ko. Patulog na sana ako nang may naramdaman akong presensya sa gilid ko.. and I exactly know who she is.
Tumagilid ako ng higa at hindi nga ako nag kakamali, nakita ko si Zenadia na nakatingin saakin at pinapanood ako. I stared at her too and no one even dares to blink. I don't know if she's real or not, but I don't care. She's here and that's all it matters.
"Can I have a cuddl? It's raining" mahinang sabi ko
Ngumiti sya saakin at kaagad na lumapit saka ako niyakap. Her warmth feels so real and I can even smell her natural scent, it's still addicting as ever. Kaagad ko siyang niyakap pabalik ng mahigpit at ayaw ko na syang pakawalan pa.
"I'm living on my own now" panimulang kwento ko "I asked mom if they could let me live just until before the coronation and she agreed. And for the time being, I'll wait for you like what I always do"
Ramdam ko ang pag higpit ng yakap nya saakin "I'm sorry for always keeping you waiting" dinig kong sabi niya pero kaagad akong umiling
"Don't mind me and just finish what you need to do. For now, I won't ask why you left nor how long I will wait, but I want to know if you are doing fine" sabi ko at hinaplos ang buhok nya
She really feels so real.. damn, I'm just missing her more because of this.
"Don't worry, I'm alive and still kicking some ass" sagot nya kaya natawa ako
"Still a badass" natatawang sabi ko hinarap siya saakin "Don't make too much trouble, just come back to me when everything's fine, okay?" I demanded
Ngumisi siya at umuling "I don't take orders from you idiot" aniya at natawa
Niyakap nya ako muli pero ako ay nanatiling natigilan. Tangina naman, bakit sobrang totoo ng ilusyon na ito?
Hindi ko na napigilan ang sarili ko at hinarap sya saakin at kaagad na hinalikan. Naramdaman kong natigilan sya pero hindi ako tumigil. I don't care if she's just an illusion. Imagination or not, she's still my Zenadia, my happiness, and my life.
Ilang sandali lang ay naramdaman ko ang pag tugon niya and from that moment, I doubt that she's just an illusion. I'm not dumb to not notice the difference. When she deepen the kiss, I'm sure of it.. it's really her.
Kaagad akong pumatong sakaniya habang patuloy sa pag halik sakaniya. Pinulupot nya ang mga kamay nya sa leeg ko habang ang kamay ko naman ay nag lalakbay sa katawan nya but I choose to control myself and just stay kn caressing her waist and gently squeezing it.
Parehas kaming hinihingal nang humiwalay kami sa halik. I looked at her but her eyes are still closed while catching her breath. I can't help but to smile ‘cause finally, she's here even just for limited time only.
"I love you.. I love you so much" I said with full of love while planting small kisses all over her face
This is enough for now, at least I know that she's still mine.