I stare at the tree above, lunch next to me; usually at this time Komori would be telling me about his plans for us this weekend, I would always disagree but still ended up going. As I lay daydreaming I heard what I call satan's scream or the bell, I slowly pack my things up and head inside.
I look towards the window ignoring what my teacher was saying and zoned out, I thought about what's keeping me here, on Earth, the more I think about it I have nothing Komori's gone, I don't care for a future, I don't have or plan on having a crush, and my family doesn't care about me; so maybe I should follow in my cousins footsteps.
I look at the ground watching as my feet trudged towards my house, not a home because it never felt like one. When I opened the door I was meet with my father sleeping on the couch, when you first meet him you wouldn't think his such a bad guy but he has the a temper and gets abusive when upset, I walk past my parents room looking in to see my mother passed out on the bed; my mom used to be and still kinda is the most beautiful woman I've ever seen but she got trapped in a abusive relationship and went in a spiral after that.
I place the final pillow on my bed and hop in it, should I really do it? Should I really end it all? Most people in this type of dilemma would cry and say I won't and decide to not do it but I'm not most people, also I won't like to be with my cousin again, my real family.