Aaliyah's POV:
After a 50 minute drive I'm finally in Manchester, I had Erling tell me what hotel they were staying in and what room Jude was in because I didn't want Jude knowing I was coming. As I'm getting ready to go into the hotel I can see paparazzi outside trying to see which players were at the hotel, I don't want them to take any pictures of me so I pull up my hoodie and make sure they can't see my face. When I get in the hotel the receptionist says I can't get in because I'm not a guest and refuses to give me the directions to Jude's room, so I call Erling and explain the situation to him. After about 10 minutes later he comes at the reception
Erling: hey, sorry i kept you waiting
Lia: no it's okay
I said as he pulled me into a hug,
Erling: when I left Jude was done taking a shower, so he should be ready by now
Lia: okay
When we get to the floor the boys are staying at, Erling decides he's going to go with the other boys to give us some privacy
Erling: I'll be with the other boys, but you lovebirds have fun
Lia: thank you
Jude's' POV:
Erling left the room in a hurry because he had to get something in his room, his room was right next to mine but he was taking a long time. I just finished getting ready and I can hear Erling's voice talking to someone in the hallway, I can hear another voice but I can't tell exactly who it is because the person is talking quietly. The talking stops and there's a knock on the door, I think it's Erling but I'm very confused to why he's knocking because when he left he took the key with him. I ignore it for the first two times thinking he's messing with me but the third time I start thinking that's it's probably not him, I pause the tv that's playing in the background and start walking towards the door. When I open the door it was Lia, as soon as we saw each other she gave me a big hug before our lips touched together. After a few seconds we pulled away from each other, we hadn't seen each other in almost three months but it felt like forever.
Lia: hey
Jude: hi, I can't believe you are here. But I'm happy to see you
Lia: I am too, I missed you so much
Jude: I did too, especially your hugs
Lia: so you're saying you missed my hugs more than me
Jude: that's not what I meant
I said as she looked at me laughing, I could tell this was a genuine one and I was glad I made her laugh like that. This girl literally meant the world to me and I don't know what I'd do if I ever lost her, I am so grateful for her in my life and I will always remind her that I love her and that she deserves to be loved.
Jude: wait how's you know what room I was in?
Lia: I had some help from Erling
Jude: oh so that's why he left in a hurry
Lia: yeah
Jude: so what do you want to do?
Lia: honestly nothing, I just want to relax and talk about random shit
Jude: okay, we can do that
Lia and I were laying on my bed with Lia's head on my chest and my arm around her, we were watching TV when Lia suddenly paused the movie and said something
Lia: can I ask you a question?
Jude: of course, what is it?
Lia hesitated for a bit before she started speaking again
Lia: Why did you choose to stay after you found out about my depression?
Her question surprised me, because I didn't think she wondered why I was still dating her.
Jude: because I loved you before I found out and it doesn't define you
Lia: do you want to leave now?
Jude: no of course not, I made a promise to always love you and as long as we're both alive I'll keep it
When I said that, her face changed quickly from happiness to sadness. This time it was a different kind of sadness and I'd never seen her make that facial expression
Jude: love are you okay?
Lia: yeah just thinking about something
Jude: what is it?
Lia: it's not really a big deal
Jude; you sure? Because you seemed really sad
Lia: yeah I am don't worry
Jude: okay, I'm going to order room service. Do you want anything?
Lia: yes, can I get a grilled chicken salad with water
Jude: sure, I'll have the same thing with a protein shake
I order our food and after 30 minutes, it was delivered. I gave Lia her food and took mine, while we were eating she kept zoning out a lot and it would be hard to bring her back to reality.
Lia: so are you ready for the match tomorrow?
Jude: yeah, the boys have been worked hard and we're going to give our best
Lia: I can't wait to watch you guys
Jude: are you coming to the match?
Lia: no, I haven't been going to school a lot in the past few weeks and I need to complete all of my assignments before Monday
Jude: oh
Lia: I know I really sorry about that, but I'm going to watch it at home
Jude: don't be, I understand that school you need to finish your schoolwork
Lia: thank you for being understanding
She said as she gave me a kiss on my my cheek. After we done eating I put the boxes we used away while Lia went to the bathroom, I can hear the sound of someone crying so much. So I go check up on Lia, as I got closer to the bathroom I can hear her sobs getting louder.
Jude: love are you okay?
Lia: yeah I'm fine, don't worry
Jude: no you're not, what's going on?
She slowly opens the door and we make eye contact with each other, her eyes are filled tears and sadness. They aren't glowing like they normally do, when she looks at me
Lia: can I have a hug?
She asked in a shaky and panicked voice
Jude: of course, we don't have to talk about it. You can cry for as long as you need, I'll be right here
Lia: thank you
I held her in my arms for a while as she cried and it was silent between the two of us, I've seen her cry before but this time it was way worse. It was so awful to see her hurt like this, she has the most precious soul I've ever seen and she doesn't deserve the pain she's going through. She is the strongest person I know and I wish that she herself knew how strong she was.
Jude: let me get you a glass of water
I fill up a glass with water and give it to Lia, who's still sitting on the floor. She takes a few sips before saying something
Lia: fuck I hate this, it all just fucking burns. I feel like my soul is on fire and I don't have any energy. I'm so drained out with everything, I can't even stay clean for one fucking day
Jude: I know it's hard, and I'm proud of you for still being here. I'm really sorry you feel like that, no one deserves it
Lia: waking up but wishing you didn't is truly the worst feeling ever, and it's something I pray you'll never know
Jude: I know it is, every day i wish that you could stop hurting but you still are and it hurts seeing you like this
Lia: i really appreciate you in my life, I hate opening up to people because it makes me feel weak and a burden to others but when I bottle up my feelings I feel like a burden to myself
Jude: listen to me love, you are not a burden at all. And you reaching out for help is not a sign of weakness, it takes a lot of courage for someone to admit they're struggling
Lia looked at me with a look I'd hadn't seen on her face in a while, she had a warm smile on her face and her eyes were sparkling. It made my day to see that look on her face
Lia: thank you for always being there to listen, I love you
Jude: I love you too
I said as she gave me a peck on the lips
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Aaliyah's POV:
It's the next day and I'm watching Jude's match by myself because Jobe's training session is taking longer than expected and Bella has an interview for an internship. It's the 80th minute with only 10 minutes left of the game and the score is 2-1 with Manchester City in the lead. The boys are starting to get a little discouraged but they don't give up and keep playing, in the 90th minute when all hope seems to be lost for Dortmund Jude passes the ball to Thorgan Hazard who nutmegs Foden and ends up scoring, making the match a tie.
While everyone is celebrating the goal I can't help but look at Jude and feel guilty and sorry about everything, but I try my hardest to ignore the feeling. I'm brought back to reality when the referee blows the whistle three times and everyone is walking back in the tunnel. I go upstairs to my room where I pull out the little box under my bed with a letter in it. I am sitting down looking at my reflection in the mirror while looking at the letter and the bottle of pills in front of me with tears starting to form in my eyes contemplating on wether I should end it all. I cry for a while before I take a deep breath and pour all the pills in my hand before swallowing all of them at once. I regret it as soon as I've swallowed them, but it's already too late. I start feeling nauseous, chest pains, severe stomach pain and my vision is very blurry. I try to scream for help but I'm too weak to say anything so I try walking over to my phone that is on my nightstand and after struggling to get up because I'm in too much pain I finally get up but because of my dizziness and shaky legs I lose my balance and fall to the floor. I can feel myself slipping away and I try to stay conscious but the symptoms are getting worse. I manage to let out a soft "I'm sorry" before everything goes black.