Liza^^
School
A place for which i have mixed feelings. Earlier it was nothing but a safe haven from my stepdad and a breath of fresh air. But it was also a place where I was verbally abused and also pressurized to be the best so that Erick is happy with my performance.
I have a feeling it can change for me now.
For better or worse i am still contemplating.
The best thing about this is i can choose my own subjects which earlier was not the case curtsey to Erick. Elio asked me which subjects i wanted to study and i was glad I was given a chance to choose. It felt good and empowering.
One thing that i observed about myself is that it's been almost a month and i am not scared anymore. Not more than earlier atleast. My brother's are scary but their presence provide me with a sense of safety even I didn't knew i needed. At first it felt surreal that Erick was dead but now i don't hesitate to call him by his name instead of dad that he made me call him. I don't follow all the rules he used to give me. It's like i am slowly liberating into a better version of myself.
The part where my mom died to protect me linger in my head along with the guilt. She deserved to live. And she died protecting me. But later that night Alonzo came in my room and told me how mamma wanted all of us to outlive her and live for her in the best way possible. He asked me to be selfish for my happiness and live the life because with my eyes like my mother's she can always take a peak in the living world through my eyes.
That did it for me. I don't know what I will do in future or what I want in my life but I want to be contented with beautiful memories.
My mamma had that. She had beautiful memories with all of us and she died protecting her only daughter. As a women i can feel the contentment she would have felt. She sacrificed so that her youngest child could live.
But that costed her her life. Was it worth it?
I don't think so. As a 3 year old child i didn't even have some sort of self consciousness but she thought I did have something to offer to this world. So for her i promised myself to be better.
I have started to improve and discover myself. I am also starting to understand my brother's more but I am still curious about what Riccardo said. I started learning Italian from Alonzo from the last few days so that i feel connected with my family and also to understand what they are hiding from me.
I am not going out of my way to get to know what is happening but I am still trying to subtly understand it ? I guess.
Back to the topic. School i going to school and that to a private one. Write now i am wearing a white shirt and a maroon checked skirt which almost reached my knees. Along with that i am wearing a tie and knee length stockings.
It felt weird to look myself in the mirror with these expensive clothing. I still have some doubts that they might regret taking my Custody after all. But the way they accepted me gave me hope to be a better sister or sorella for them.
After going down and greeting everyone i quickly ate the delicious pancakes in front of me.
When Nicòlo, Ezio and Elio looked at me they all gave me an approving look.
"Thank God you are wearing your uniform perfectly or else I would have to beat all the boys, left and right" Alonzo said jokingly.
"Shut up Alonzo. Hope come here." Nicòlo said gruffly.
I came closer to him. He slightly opened my top button of shirt and folded the sleeves of my shirt.
"Don't be insecure of your scars. Wear them proudly. You look even more beautiful like a knight. Moreover it's hot." he said.
That was the most thoughtful thing he did for me. He noticed that i was not comfortable but I also didn't want anyone to see my scars but after Nicòlo said to me i felt courage to face my fears. He didn't gave me long speeches or tried to convince me but it was the way he said to me and the emotions i saw behind those blue orbs that gave me the strength. It felt good.
I smiled and said "thank you"
Maybe living with my brother's is going to be my happy ending afterall. I hope that i don't jinx it.
When Alonzo and me reached school, he guided me to the office. He had already explained how things go around in this school on our way. I was still confused and anxious and did I mention i hate changes.
"Hey, don't worry no one is going to hurt you and if someone tries to just take my name and they will run like a pest." Alonzo said with a mischievous smirk.
"Umm why ?"
"Because I am that awesome. No one wants to mess with me. Now your first class is English so all the best you will do great" he replied.
I shrugged my shoulders and entered my class. It had almost 20 students. I settled near the window seat and waited.
The teacher came after a few minutes and said
"Before we start we have a new student. Please stand up and introduce yourself"
I nervously stood up and said
"Hey, my name is Agnelle Vitale and i am from Manchester, England. It's nice to meet you all"
I ended with a very awkward smile.
I was tempted to face palm myself but I controlled the urge. And also i think i will be having identity crisis soon.
I was lost in my thoughts that i didn't realise that people were looking at me with wide eyes even the teacher.
This is the most cliche'd thing that ever happened to me!
And the weird brain syndrome is back.
"Dear are you by any chance related to Alonzo Vitale" the teacher asked.
Confused i replied
"Yes, he is my elder brother"
"Oh ok sit down and let's start the class"
She said nervously.
Maybe she was confused since we don't look alike much.
After the class i befriended a girl named Liza who helped me around. She was really sweet and even invited me to sit with her group in cafeteria. I informed Alonzo through a text my plans.
While in classes i felt really good. I chose English, Italian, Science,art and history as my subjects. Along with this i was a born lefty but Erick forced me to write with my right hand which messed up my writing and my brain. So now even though I can write with my right hand, i prefer left.
(A/N : lefty is a left handed person)
During Lunch
I came across all of Liza's friends. While Ben and Brittany are the goofy twins, Aliya looked like a total nerd but in a cute way. She even offered me to help with my subjects which was very sweet of her. Liza is the wild card of the group. She is the crazy friend but at the same time really kind at heart. They all welcomed me warmly but they acted weirdly when they got to know that i am a Vitale.
I think it is related to their crazy reputation or the 'secret' which i am not allowed to know.
All in all the classes went amazing. My last period was art and since i was discussing some instructions of science from my previous teacher i got late. I hope the teacher is not a bully.
While running through the hallway, i was pushed down by someone who I guess was late to his class. He didn't look back. He just shouted a sorry and went his way. And the hope that i will be on time was killed. I think with all the first day jitters and the pressure for everything to be perfect finally broke me. With my books scattered and a defeated expression on my face all i could think was
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.
.
Indeed having hope is sometimes a Headache.
Until I heard a deep voice
"Need help?"
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And bam.
So first, my crush once bumped into me and he just mumbled a quick apology and went his way. My Wattpad heart who was hoping for the happening' to happen didn't so i will never do that cliche'd scene it brings back memories.😫
Second hope is In school and living a teenage life.
Who do you think is the guy who helped her?
How do you think she will do in school?
And how were her friends?
Also anyone who is a 'lefty' here?
some terms i have used from British English and some from American to depict that she is still learning.
Pls like and comment to make my day.😊
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