so maybe he doesn't like me
i wasn't friendzoned
but the thing he called me
seemed worse
"just a band person"
how does that matter?
how do i matter?
does this mean i was wrong?
all the stolen glances
all the taken chances
was that not love?
or anything close to like?
it feels like i've just been broken up with
but the truth is we never dated
i just imagined a world where you loved me
until your words caused it all to shatter
"it's weird when band kids date"
then why do the only guys who
make me like myself play instruments
maybe i just have a type, but it still
hurts when it doesn't work
ok, so this work is definitely a bit embarrassing. this is about a guy that i liked. he was the first guy who really made me feel anything special since i broke up with my boyfriend. i met him through band, but we later shared math class, still do in fact. it kinda hurt when he called me "just a band person" so i scribbled down my thoughts on the back of my math paper and here we are.