you call me petty
never pretty
you tell me to let go of my grudges
but all i feel when i look at your face
is the pain you made possible
i look at all the faces i used to adore
i look at all the faces i used to miss
but now all i see is the endless tears
the hurtful words
i see all the ways you did me wrong
lied to me
used me
abused me
i see all the tears you left in my heart
the empty promises
but i still wish you were in my life
if i told you that
i would lose my dignity
i would lose my self worth
so instead
i keep staring at your posts
all the pictures we took together
and imagine a world
where you never said those things
a world where you still love me
i wrote this when my best friend left me. she called me names, and did everything your best friend is not supposed to do. i hated her, and still struggle to find any compassion for her in my heart. however, i've done my best to move on and keep her off my mind. as COIN says, better to leave it unsaid.