Please give me your opinion on my situation at the end. Read the AN after 'REALLY'. I would really appreciate some thoughts on it.
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Max closes the door after Sia and Dylan leave. I go into the living room and crash down on the couch, exhausted. But happy. I had a good day with my boyfriend and friends. Mom and dad are not home yet either.
"Do your parents know about last year? " I hear Max from the doorway behind me.
"No... " I look up at him with my best puppy dog eyes.
"Don't worry, I'm not going to snitch on you for something you did a year ago. " Max says before a evil smirk takes over his face. "Why don't you go put that silver dress on. "
He wasn't asking. But I really don't feel like downing anything right now. But I really want to please him too. I don't realise this but as I think about what to do, my face seems to have given away my inner conflicts.
"Is everything okay baby? " Max asks with worried eyes as he comes over and helps me sit up.
"Yeah.. " I nod. Everything is okai, I just don't feel like doing anything sexual right now.
"But? " Max raises a eyebrow at me, making me sigh internally.
"But.. I just... I just don't feel like doing anything sexual right now." I mumble at the end, not knowing how he will react.
"Oh baby," Max shakes his head before pulling me into him and hugging me close, "it's okay if you don't feel like doing anything sexual. I don't want to do anything that might make you uncomfortable. I need you to tell me and stop me anytime something like this happens, okay? "
I nod at him. I don feel like talking either. I just wan to be quiet for now. I tell him this.
"That's okay princess. You don't have to talk if you don't feel like it. Are you feeling small, love? "
I nod and snuggle more into him.
"Hmm, how about we eat dinner and then we can do something together. One for movie and cuddles and two for story and cuddles."
I think for a few. I don feel like watchin a movie. I love daddy's voice tho. I can't describe it bu I love it. I show him two.
"Alright little sugar, let's get some yummy dinner in you, yeah? "
Daddy gets up with me and walks to the kitchen with me clinging to him. He goes to the fridge and gets a pre-made lasagna out and puts it in da oven to warm it.
Daddy sets me down at da table, making me whine. I wan daddy! I make grabby hans at him but he no take me. He tells me to sit at da table but I don wanna. I pout bu sit cuz cuz I wan be daddy's good girl.
Daddy praises me an an tells me he gonna let me get a treat!!!! Yeppyyyy!!! I sit at da table quietly an watch daddy get plates an an spoons an an my sippy.
I go to daddy and pull on his short wen he goes to da fridge. I wan juce. I point to it wen he look at me an an he gimme a kissyyy!! He kiss my head an an tell me to go sit bac down so so I do it wike a good girl.
After dinner, I take out da brownies mum made from da fridge an silently ask daddy if he wan an an if I can has it. He smiles an take a piece an an say I can has!!!!
I smile an an take a piece an an den we go to my room. Daddy sits on my bed an an tells me to get a story I wan to read.
I look at my bookshelf while eatin my brownie an gets my Harry Potter book for daddy. We den snuggles up in da bed an an he reads me da story.
I no no when I go nini bu bu I happy.
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Hi hi!!! So so so, vaccination for teens just got started here and I took my first dose yesterday and it is safe to say that I am not looking forward to the second dose.
I hate needles. Plus, my arm is so damn sore and tender, like I can barely move it, let alone use it.
Another thing is that I have been thinking about trying egg for like the past 4 hr. -_-
I woke up around 2 am and couldn't fall back asleep. I was trying to sleep for an hr! Like without phone and all. But couldn't fall asleep so woke up, played some games, read a bit and am giving you this short update.
I REALLY need you opinion on this.
Okai so, I have grown up around people that do not eat anything non vegetarian at all. My religion says that we shouldn't even eat roots like potato and onion. And I didn't eat these things until fifth grade after which my family started eating these things so I did too.
My religion doesn't want us to eat non vegetarian because it means taking the life of that animal. But I have, for some reason, wanted to try at least eggs for as long as I can remember. But whenever I think about actually trying them, I feel so damn guilty. In fact, whenever I even think about trying even eggs, I feel so guilty. Like, I shouldn't have these thoughts. But I still do and it kinda makes me hate myself sometimes.
So the ultimate question is, what do I do? Should I try it? Or not?
Love, love. See you soon.