We ended up watching more lesbian movies and she decided to stay over that night.
Like what people say, time really does fly. One moment, it's monday, and the next thing you know, it's already sunday. Go to school, then work, then it's already the weekend. Then again, its time for school.
A week flew by and I still haven't seen the girl I've been dying to see. I never bothered calling or texting her because I didn't want to disturb her. What if she was really busy? I didn't bother looking for her at school. There was a part of me that was still scared. What if I couldn't contain my emotions when I see her?
As I went to school, the sun was not present. The clouds were grey, the sky was also rumbling, I feel like it's gonna rain hard soon. The chilly wind went by me, making me put on my jacket and hugged myself to refrain from shivering.
As I got in the library, as I expected, the rain started to fall down. It's a good thing my jacket was waterproof. I kept bringing an umbrella, and using it often in rainy season can be a burden, so I looked online for a waterproof jacket and saw this jacket. I had to buy it.
Walking through the librarian's desk, I saw the librarian looking sharply at me, figuring that she remembered me and what happened last time. I smiled sheepishly at her, telling her that it's just me this time and I won't make noise. She didn't say anything and just continued to stare into my soul.
I got into the Lifestyle section, looking for a specific book that I need for one of my subjects. As I saw the book I was looking for, before I got a chance to grab it, the book moved backwards, I realized that someone was pulling the book from the other side of the shelf. When the book pulled out, a face appeared.
"Oh sweet child of mine!" I exclaimed, gaining the attention of some people including the librarian. She cocked an eyebrow and I sent her a peace sign. I sighed and went back to face the face behind the shelf. "Lia."
"Hi, Yeji." She flashed a smile.
There it was. The smile that I've been dying to see; the smile I missed, the smile that was stuck in my mind, the smile that always makes my heart leap. The smile I liked. That smile of hers.
"Hi!" I squeaked while my mouth was opened.
"Oh uhm, are you going to get this book too?" She wiggled the book in her hand.
I shook my head, grabbing a random book. "No. No, I was getting this,"
"Sex For Dummies. Wow, is your single life that bad?" She joked, chuckling.
I checked the book with a disgusting look on my face, putting it back on the shelf and grabbed another book. "I finally found you." I blurted.
"It's been more than a week, huh?"
"You have no idea." Without thinking, I went to the other column and stopped to stare at her for awhile before walking closer to her, enveloping her into a hug.
Just like that, it felt like the world stopped turning, everything seemed to fade away. And the only thing I was hearing was the sound of the rain pelting through the windows and walls, and our heart's beating for each other. More like mine was beating for her. The smell of coconut made me hug her tighter.
"Someone must have missed me so much," She joked, putting one hand on my head and the other on my back.
That knocked some sense in me and I pulled away, cheeks were flustered. "You looked like you're the one who's missing me, so I adjusted for you," I lied.
Her eyebrow went up, smirking at me like she knew I was lying. "Well thank you for adjusting,"
"What happened to you?" I asked.
"Practice. We needed to practice more for the second game, and I was excused from my subjects so we haven't seen each other in class. Every after practice, I went straight home and slept,"
"Damn, you guys have a lot of stuff to do,"
"Yeah, we do. Good thing we have some free time now,"
"Speaking of free time, me and the couple are going to the mall on Saturday. We would love it if you came with us," I gave her a lopsided smile.
She bit her lips, seemed like she was gonna say something she didn't want to. "I can't go,"
"Why? You're gonna go somewhere?"
She gave me a nod. "I... have a date."
Remember what I said awhile ago? How the world stopped turning? This time, it felt like it was my heart that stopped beating. It took me a minute before gathering what I just heard. "A- a date, huh? With who?"
"Giselle introduced me to this girl and she asked me out. We enjoyed our time and this time, I was the one who asked her,"
Another stab through my heart. Especially knowing that she was interested in somebody else and not me. But I couldn't blame her. She thought I was straight and had no chance. And now that she has, it was too late.
We went to the check out counter, Lia telling me to get the book, but I told her that I can just search it online. The rain was still pouring hard and Lia didn't have an umbrella with her. I removed my jacket off me and draped it around her.
"We don't want you to be sick on your date now, do we?" I helped her put the jacket on her, holding the book for her.
"What about you? I don't want you to get sick either,"
"I'll be fine. I'll run like the wind," I grinned.
She chuckled. "Thank you, Yeji." I smiled. "See you next week then?"
"You better."
As she left the library, I ran to my car, all drenched up. I took a long hot bath as I got home, taking my time in the shower, thinking about our interaction today. It all went from happy cause I saw her, too sad cause she has a date. I wondered if she felt the same way that time when she found out I had a date. It did suck.
The girls were in my room as I got out of the bathroom, a bit shocked that they were here. Mom must've let them in. I plopped down beside them and snuggled my face on the pillows.
"Bad day?" Winter asked, slapping my butt.
"You could say that,"
"What happened?"
"I saw Lia," I announced.
"Seriously?! Tell me what happened,"
I told her everything. How we saw each other, asking her to come with us on Saturday, her telling me that she has a date, and how I was soaked in the rain. I left the part where I hugged her and how much impact it had on me when I found out about her date.
"A date?! She didn't tell me about that," Karina interjected in our conversation.
"There must be a reason why," Her girlfriend said.
"Why do you look sad instead of happy that you saw her?" Karina questioned. I shrugged weakly.
"Cause our baby Yedeong here, has a crush on her," I groaned, turning on my back with a pillow on my face.
"No freaking way!" Karina screamed, removing the pillow. "Is this for real?!"
"I don't know-"
"Yes, you do have a crush on her, idiot!" Winter joined Karina in jumping on the bed.
"I knew you were gay!"
"Karina What if I'm bisexual?" I said, MY cheeks red in embarrassment.
"I've never seen you like any guy, so I doubt it,"
"What about Ian?" I thought about my ex boyfriend.
"He's gay, Yeji. He's not included. Also, how did you even like him?"
"I was young, okay? I thought at 14, I should have my first kiss and boyfriend already," looking back, Ian was the first and last guy I've ever liked.
Am I really gay?
"Did you get that kiss though?"
"Is smack counted as a first kiss?"
"Fuck no!" Winter said. "Smack is barely a kiss. You won't even feel their lips,"
She had a point though.
"That means, Lia will be your first kiss!"
I sighed. "Win, she's going on a date. I'm sure she likes that person,"
"What if she still likes you?"
"What if she doesn't?"