Tories POV:
I woke up exhausted from last night, almost forgetting it was my birthday for a second. That was until I saw a few messages on my phone. Opening them one by one, a small smile sat on my face.
Mom
Happy birthday my love,
I wish I could be here to celebrate with
you😢 your gift is in the mail on the
way to you💕 i love you honey
Hannah
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BEAUTIFUL
I LOVE YOU AND I HOPE YOU
ENJOY YOUR DAYYYY!!!!!!
IM SO SAD I CANT SPEND IT WITH
YOU:( HAVE THE BEST DAY
Chelsea
HEY BIRTHDAY BITCH
HAPPY 20th CUTIE💗
Me and the girls still coming over
later so don't forget! Love u sis!!<3
I smiled at the sweet messages I woke up to, replying to them all one by one. I got out of bed and tiptoed to madelines room to wake her up.
"Hi baby." I whispered as turned on her bedroom light. She yawned and kept her eyes closed as I picked her up. "Excuse me i said hello!" I said tickling her. She squirmed around and laughed as her eyes opened up a little.
"Lets get breakfast." I said to her and sat her in her high chair. I cracked a few eggs into a bowl and whisked them thoroughly. I grabbed cinnamon and sugar and the bread. Both me and madeline love French toast so why not make it.
I put the bread in the pan and let it cook. While doing so I grabbed madeline a little cup of juice and made myself a cup of tea.
I don't want any stupid little tears today. I wanna be happy. Whether I feel happy or not, im gonna put on a smile.
"Momma!" Madeline called pointing to the french toast I was cutting for her. "I know, baby. You're hungry." I said softly as I put the plate on front of her. She smiled big showing her 6 little teeth. Two small ones on the top, four on the bottom.
I grabbed a slice for me and sat down with it and my tea. I took a shaky breath in as I broke off a piece to eat. Eating has gotten a little less scary. Its more the throwing up part that scares me.
But I did it. I managed to eat the entire slice without feeling sick. I was so proud of myself. I could barely eat the food I ordered yesterday with hannah. But I actually finished this without even feeling slightly ill.
I drank my tea and put me and madelines dishes in the sink before taking her from her highchair. It was already like 1 p.m. I slept heavy last night I guess.
I excitedly brought us to my bedroom and turned the TV on for maddy while I picked out our clothes for today. Finding maddys was easy, it was more mine that took time and effort.
I eventually found a nice outfit and layed our clothes out on my bed. I grabbed a towel and brought it to the bathroom, laying it nicely on the little table we have in there. I filled up the bath tub with hot water and put a pink bath bomb in from bath & bodyworks i had been meaning to use.
So far the day has been good. The only good day I've had for quite a while. With the whole breakup thing I've just been so depressed. And I think what hurt most is that I was finally happy with billie. I hadn't been happy in so long after madeline died and never wanted to date again. Having this newborn baby I had no clue on how to take care of was so stressful but finally life is kind of at peace.
I'd be lying if I said I didn't miss billie and desperately want her back. Because I definitely do. God, I miss her so so much. Just knowing her door is just a few down from mine makes my heart race a little. I wonder if she ever misses me like I miss her.
I sunk down a little in my bath, letting my chin go below the water. My hair was up in a bun so it didn't get wet. I only cleaned it yesterday.
Madeline was sitting in the bathroom with me. I cant just leave her on her own. Its too dangerous for a baby. She got her toy and threw it in the water with force, making the water splash everywhere. "Maddy!" I gasped. She squealed and laughed as she ran away and hid behind a cabinet.
I sighed and rubbed my eyes, restraining myself from laughing.
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"Mommy." Madeline patted my shoulder as i did my makeup. "You want some?" I asked. She nodded and clapped her hands. Its so cute how she does that any time she wants something. "Okay, close your eyes." I told her. She didn't understand so she just kept them open as I put a little bit of glittery eyeshadow on her eyelids.
"Beautiful." I smiled at her. She spent her time looking at herself in the mirror while I finished my makeup and put it away. I took pictures of us and posted them to Instagram. Madeline looked so cute I literally couldn't handle it.
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"We missed you girl. It feels like we haven't seen eachother im years." Alysha laughed as we sat in my balcony. "I knowww! I missed you guys too." I said as madeline played with alyshas daughter.
"So how are you and that billiana chick?" Chelsea asked as she grabbed an apple cider from the cooler. It was absolutely freezing out here, we didn't even need the cooler. But we all had coats on. "Her names billie," I laughed. "And we actually broke up just a while ago." I said as I looked down as my hands. "Oh babe, im sorry. She was cute and everything." Chelsea frowned rubbing my knee. "Its okay. Don't worry about it." I shook it off, forcing a laugh.
I secretly just wished she could have been here tonight though.
The rest of the night went relatively smoothly though. I had fun. I danced and sung and drank a lil bit. Still underage and shit.
It was around 10 p.m. and I heard a knock on the door. The loud music filled my ears as I walked to the door to open it.
"Billie?" I shouted over the music. She stood at the door biting the inside of her cheek. "Hi." She shouted. She started saying something but I couldn't understand her because of how loud it was. "Wait, come in for a sec." I told her. She awkwardly walked in and followed me to my room. It was a lot in there.
"Whats up?" I asked a little nervous as I closed the door. "Well, um, happy birthday." She said. "Thanks." I gave a small smile. "I have these for you." She mumbled as we both sat down on my bed. She handed me a cd and card. "Thank you." I smiled genuinely and I opened the card. She nodded and fumbled with her hands as I read it.
Hi torie
Writing this card is really hard because there's so much love I still have for you. But I know its not really appropriate to say all that lovey dovey stuff now. Firstly happy birthday. In the time that I've known you, you've opened up so many doors in my life. You've brought me genuine happiness i haven't felt in so long. All you've ever done was love me. I guess it was more my fault that we ended things but maybe it was meant to be. I miss you though. I cant believe you're 20. I hope this year treats you well. Even though we aren't together there wasn't a chance I wasn't gonna get you anything for your birthday. And I didn't know what to buy you so I just didn't buy anything. Instead I made you a lil song. Solely dedicated to you. I don't want it published or anything. It wasn't hard to write since my feelings for you are so visible but recording it was hard. I kept crying and shit LMFAO. I love you though. Enjoy the song.
I exhaled and placed the letter down beside me. Billie looked at me with anxiety filled eyes.
It was silent.
Not a word spoken from either of us.
"Wow.." I mumbled. "Do you like it?" She asked as she bit her nails. "Of course i do. I like anything that comes from you." I admitted. "Oh okay good. Well there's the cd and stuff. The song is called Come Out And Play." She said. "I'll make sure to listen to it. Thank you." I smiled sadly. "Yeah of course." She nodded.
We sat in uncomfortable silence until billie remembered something. "Wait I have something else for you." She said suddenly. "Come with me." She stood up. "Oh, okay." I mumbled as we left the room. "Close your eyes while we go get it." She said gently.
"Why?"
"Just do it torie. Please?" She begged. I exhaled and closed my eyes. I felt her soft hand hold mine. Her little fingers interlocking with mine. "Just so you don't bump into anything." She said. "Yeah." I nodded and chewed on my bottom lip.
A soft breeze hit my face as we went outside. "Why are we outside, Billie?" I asked confused. "Just keep your eyes closed." She chuckled. We walked a little before stopping.
"Okay, open your eyes." She said.
I opened them and looked around before looking ahead of me. It was a brand new white ferrari. "Jesus christ, billie. You didn't." I said as felt my heart beat faster and faster. "I did." She laughed. Our hands stayed interlocked as I dragged her around to look at the car.
"Billie why would you do this for me?" I asked, sad she spent all this money on me. "Because I love you." She smiled. My cheeks felt hot as I let go of her hand. "I love you too." I said and wrapped my arms around her neck. She wrapped hers around my back and rubbed it softly.
I pulled back and looked into her greenish blue eyes. It was so quiet. Not a sound heard in the parking lot we stood in. She tucked my braids behind my ear and cupped my cheek. She glanced down to my lips and I licked them unintentionally. "Fuck it." She mumbled. "Wha-" She grabbed my other cheek and brought our lips together.
I let it happen.
I craved her soft, plump lips. The way her tongue swirled in my mouth sent my heart racing. The way she rubbed my cheeks softly had me head over heels all over again.
She pulled back out of breath, tucking hair behind both of my ears as her eyes traced my face.
I know I said I didn't want any stupid little tears falling today but these ones weren't stupid.
"Happy birthday, angel."
THE END