unsurprisingly, jungkook woke up without anyone next to him at 10am.
what else could he expect? this was usual for him. he sat there and sighed. he rubbed his bump and got his phone out to text the boy.
—
seokjin
hey love <33 i have a morning class and plan on going to the library to study until 2 or so. love uu.
jungkook
was about to text you
could you study at home?
seokjin
why's that
jungkook
never mind
study well!
—
jungkook sat there until he felt his daily morning sickness. the thing about his morning sickness is that he just felt nauseous but didn't actually throw up.
he sighed, getting up to see if jiwoo was awake. he saw the girl wasn't awake so he headed to the kitchen to clean and make food.
—
"papa, i think i need more clothes. look! my leggings aren't long enough!" she sulked, namjoon looked at the leggings and nodded.
"appa and i will get you some soon. you're growing a lot, min" namjoon said, "papa, will you still be able to carry me?" minji asked, namjoon smiled and nodded.
"of course minji" he said, "hurry up and get ready, appa made breakfast"
—
"i want papa" jiwoo cried, jungkook rocked her around, "shh, he'll be home soon" jungkook reassured, gosh even jiwoo missed seokjin.
jungkook wanted to cry. he was tired. he needed seokjin, especially at these times. he was pregnant and had a toddler. even when seokjin was next to him, he was studying.
"do you want to read a book? that'll be good, right?" jungkook smiled, jiwoo sniffled and nodded.
—
jungkook felt terribly alone.
he wasn't physically alone; he knew that. but he felt emotionally alone. jiwoo fell asleep in jungkook's arms so it was just jungkook.
—
seokjin
i'll be home soon
jungkook
👍
seokjin
how have you and jiwoo been today
jungkook
jiwoo has been fine she missed you a lot today and she fell asleep
seokjin
what about you
jungkook
doesn't matter
seokjin
yes it does
jungkook
i made you kimchi fried rice!!
jiwoo helped a little bit!
she's really proud of it
seokjin
jungkook, don't ignore what i asked you
jungkook
im telling you about out daughter's accomplishments
and she also is making scribbles on paper
that's a milestone according to her pediatrician
seokjin
it is
how have you been?
jungkook
jiwoo is speaking more
seokjin
yes she is
again, how are you?
jungkook
when will you be home
are you on your way
seokjin
you're purposely ignoring my question at this point
im on my way but i have to stop for gas
how are you? answer
jungkook
i feel
???
idk
don't worry
seokjin
jungkook, you can't expect me to not worry
jungkook
just don't worry 👍👍
—
"brought you some flowers and chocolate, love"
that was enough for jungkook to start bawling. he missed his seokjinnie so much. he knew he was loved but he wanted to feel it.
"oh gosh, i didn't expect for you to react like that" seokjin spoke, jungkook couldn't stop crying.
sure, it was the bare minimum to some but for a pregnant boy who wasn't receiving much affection because of school, it meant a shit ton.
"honey" seokjin sighed, closing the door behind them. jungkook cried into seokjin's shoulder. he really shouldn't be crying like this over flowers and chocolate.
jungkook wiped his tears and sniffled, his eyes were puffy, "t-thank you" he cried again, "jungkook, you're crying a lot"
jungkook sniffled, "i definitely didn't know!" he exclaimed, crying more into his hands.
seokjin shushed the boy and calmed him down so jungkook could relax.
—
namjoon
it's 1pm
have u eaten 2 meals
yoongi
i ate breakfast with you
lunch.. eh debating
im feeding minjun
i don't really wanna eat
namjoon
you got this love!!!!
also im heading to the store after work to buy min clothes cuz her leggings are too small now
yoongi
you're making me sadder than i already was :(((((
she was so small :(
namjoon
she was much smaller when i met her
she grew a lot
yoongi
:((
minjun is growing too
he's so cute :(
my babies ☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️
fuck they're growing up so fast
namjoon
i feel like minjun was born yesterday
☹️☹️
yoongi
ALSOO
can u buy hair dye at the store
blue hair dye
namjoon
why's that
yoongi
min is gonna dye a piece of her hair
namjoon
WHAT
???
are my eyes seeing that correctly
yoongi
yes lol
i've let her since she was like 2 or 3
it's not fair that i dye my hair and she cant
and self expression joonie
i don't think min feels like a girl??
she doesn't really like feminine things but she's too young to figure that out but if she told she didn't feel like a girl, i'd help her out, yk?
namjoon
yeah i noticed that
she said the girls at her school don't really like her bc of it
☹️
but she's made friends so that's nice
yoongi
oh yeah
☹️
so blue hair dye
and uhh
markers
namjoon
ok 👍👍
—
jungkook munched on his chocolate as seokjin studied more. he felt like crying, his eyes were watering.
seokjin groaned, putting his face in his hands. jungkook stayed quiet, he was very conflicted.
—
jungkook
m sorry for coming to you again i don't know who to talk to
yoongi
dw, it's alright jungkook
jungkook
idk i just feel very unloved
seokjin brought me flowers and chocolate today and i started bawlinggg because this is really the most affection i've received in a while. now he's studying again and idk
wanan cry ☹️
oh gosh my hormones aren't helping
i ahve ti go
yoongi
feel better koo :( you feel this too much and that's not healthy :(
talk it out with him, okay?
—
jungkook was crying in the bathroom, he felt so lonely and unloved.
"c-c'mon, y-you have j-jiwoo" he cried, sobbing into his hands. all he wanted was a few kisses, hugs, and a date if it wasn't too much to ask.
he wanted the bare minimum from a relationship, however, it felt like he was asking for too much.
his head hurt, his eyes felt irritated, he was out of breath. this couldn't be good for the baby so he tried to calm down.
"in and out" he tried soothing himself, putting his arms under cold water to ground himself.
he dried his hands and washed his face before heading to sleep.
—
yoongi
hiii
seokjin
hi
yoongi
how are you and jungkook
seokjin
we're good
yoongi
ahh that's nice
have u guys gone on dates lately ?
seokjin
not really
the last one was like 3 months ago i think
yoongi
3 months?!?!?
seokjin
yeah lol
yoongi
😟😟
i thought jungkook's love language was quality time
that's what u told me
seokjin
it is
yoongi
???
and what is he doing right now??
seokjin
he went to sleep
yoongi
and what are u doing
seokjin
im studying
yoongi
ah ok
—
yoongi scoffed as he looked at the messages. he didn't want to break his promise with jungkook but seokjin was being straight up stupid at this point.
—
yoongi
how's jungkook's pregnancy treating you?
he told me he was craving more affection than usual
seokjin
really?
haven't noticed..
yoongi
what are his cravings??
seokjin
i don't know tbh
yoongi
is he eating??
seokjin
i think so
yoongi
you think so??
seokjin
im not sure
yoongi
doesn't that worry you??
seokjin
yes
—
at this point, yoongi was wondering how seokjin got into medical school.
he felt bad for jungkook, jungkook just wanted to spend time with seokjin.
—
yoongi
ahh
seokjin
why are you asking??
yoongi
curiosity
seokjin
alright well i gotta get back to studying
yoongi
what about jungkook?
he told me you were studying in the morning too
seokjin
wdym what about jungkook
yoongi
yk.. like have u given him his daily dose of love today
cuddles? dates?
kisses?
seokjin
i'm studying
yoongi
no shit sherlock but you still need to give him love
seokjin
i know
—
seokjin scoffed and set his phone down, but then he reflected on the messages.
"what about jungkook?" he mumbled, writing down some notes in his notebook.
—
jungkook
yyongi
ii dotn know what im feelign this isnt normal ffor me
yoongi
what's not normal?
jungkook
i want to die
this isnt nromal i dont kknow what tod od i dontbfeel safe
yoongi
can i call seokjin?
jungkook
nonono
pleade dont
yoongi
okay
breathe in and out
why are you feeling like this?
jungkook
same thing
ffuck ii
ii wnat to sleep more dojnt wanna be awake
yoongi
jungkook, please talk to him
this really isn't healthy, okay?
it's not normal either
—
yoongi was wondering why seokjin was so stupid.
there was a knock at the door and it was no other than minji and namjoon!
"appa! joonie bought me a book!" minji giggled, showing yoongi the book.
it was a chapter book, "she can read this?" yoongi asked, "yeah, her lexile is high enough. her lexile is 2 grades above kids her age" namjoon said, yoongi hummed, "no clue what a lexile is but i'm so proud of minji. i'll make a cake for you" yoongi smiled, making the small girl jump up and down.
—
"honey, you're still sleeping?" seokjin asked the boy, jungkook sleepily nodded, "do you mind if i go to the library?"
jungkook started crying, he couldn't control his tears now. he sobbed into his hands which worried the boy.
"did i say something wrong?" seokjin asked, "i-i want to d-die! a-all i-i want is l-love, k-kisses, a-a date! a-anything! a-am i a-asking for too much?" he sobbed, seokjin felt his heart drop.
he realized that this was what yoongi was talking about. he stayed quiet, his lover wanted to die.
"jungkookie.." he breathed out, the pregnant boy started crying even more, "b-but g-go ahead! go to the library! i-it's fine, it really is!" he sniffled, "let me talk" seokjin mumbled.
"g-go to the l-library! please!" jungkook cried, he felt out of his head, he wasn't used to feeling this way.
"i can't leave you alone because you're having those thoughts" seokjin said, jungkook began laughing now. he was like a broken toy.
"it's fine, really!" he wiped his tears, seokjin was shaking. he felt guilt consume him, "no it's not. please let me talk"
jungkook quietly sobbed into his hands, he was a mess, "i-i'm really f-fucking sorry. i didn't mean for you to f-feel this bad, a-and it was really wrong of me to a-assume that it was okay to leave you alone most of the time while pregnant. i-i feel horrible, i-i'll make up for it" he sighed, he wanted to cry.
"my head hurts, my eyes do too" he mumbled, sniffling as seokjin wiped his tears, "i'm terribly sorry" seokjin mumbled, "thank you for apologizing"
seokjin cuddled jungkook until the boy fell asleep. he stayed there with him. after a long time, jungkook would wake up with someone next to him.
—
seokjin made sure to make the boy a nice dinner and order gifts for him. there were now words to describe how horrible he felt.
he did cry while jungkook was asleep, but was unfortunately caught by his daughter, "appa likes strawberries, right?" seokjin asked, the little girl nodded.
"why papa cry?" jiwoo asked, seokjin ignored her as he made chocolate cake for the boy which resulted in a hit from the girl.
"hey, no hitting" seokjin said, resulting in another hit, "jiwoo, hitting is bad" seokjin explained, the little girl tilted her head.
"it's bad, it makes me sad" seokjin said, he turned his head when he saw jungkook walking towards him.
"how are you feeling?" seokjin asked, jungkook shrugged, "my body and head hurt. i think i'm running a fever or something" he sighed, "well that's not good" seokjin worriedly said.
"i'll schedule an appointment for tomorrow. i don't want the baby to be hurt" seokjin said, "i'll be fine" jungkook said, rubbing his head.
"fevers aren't normal during pregnancy" seokjin said, "how would you know? i've had like 3 already" jungkook sneezed, "jungkook, i'm a medical student. also, that's really concerning. why didn't you tell me?" seokjin asked, "figured you wouldn't care" jungkook shrugged.
seokjin sighed, "i do care. a lot" he spoke, jungkook shivered, "everything hurts a lot" jungkook mumbled, his eyes looked tired.
seokjin grabbed a thermometer from their first aid kit, "open your mouth" the boy spoke, the young boy did as told.
soon enough, it beeped so seokjin took the thermometer back, "101 fahrenheit, that's not good at all, jungkook" seokjin mumbled, taking his phone out to call jungkook's doctor who took care of him while pregnant.
seokjin was instructed to give the boy tylenol (he already knew that), make sure he was hydrated, and give him cool drinks.
"i don't want cold things. i'm cold!" jungkook frowned, "also take off that sweater and put something lighter on. go take a cold shower" seokjin said.
"doctor kim, i'm cold" jungkook stubbornly said, "sir jeon, i am afraid that it doesn't matter if you're cold or not" seokjin shrughed, "rude"
seokjin laughed, "you heard me, jeon" the boy said, "what's jeon?" jiwoo asked, "surname. appa's surname is jeon and papa's surname is kim"
the girl hummed, "anyways, jeon. if i were you, i would start working on reducing that fever before we end up in the hospital" seokjin said, "fine" he shivered.
—
jungkook munched on some oreos as he watched a movie with seokjin. he was so happy to have seokjin with him.
"can i have an oreo?" seokjin asked, jungkook shook his head, "i bought them, mine" jungkook said, making seokjin whine, "please, one"
jungkook shook his head, "buy your own" jungkook said, "jungkook-ah, just one" seokjin pouted, jungkook hummed, "okay, but give me a kiss"
seokjin kissed jungkook's lips that had oreo crumbs, making jungkook laugh and smile, "you still get no oreo"
the older boy whined, "meanie.." he frowned, "sorry" jungkook teased, feeling a wave of nausea.
he stood up, hand on his mouth as he ran to the bathroom. seokjin was running behind him.
out went all the food he had eaten that day, jungkook was crying. he hated all the nausea he experienced.
seokjin made sure hair didn't get on jungkook's face as the boy threw up, he hated seeing his boyfriend like this.
he rubbed his back, "it's alright jungkookie. "did you get any on your clothes?" seokjin asked, jungkook shook his head.
"are you done?" seokjin asked, jungkook nodded, "okay, hyungie will help you wash your face and mouth. i will get you some clear liquid. do you want gatorade or water?" seokjin asked, "water" jungkook said, getting his toothbrush to brush his teeth.
—
"you can have the oreos" jungkook mumbled, his whole body hurt.
"i don't want them anymore. you look really sick" seokjin worriedly said, jungkook frowned, "haven't really eaten today.. craving mcdonald's" jungkook mumbled, "i'll get you some, stay put, okay?"
—
"burger, fries, mcflurry, and chicken nuggets for my love" seokjin said, jungkook sniffled ans stared at seokjin, "you forgot the ranch" he cried, sobbing into his arms on the kitchen table.
"you didn't ask!" seokjin gasped, only making his hormonal boyfriend even more mad, "if you love me, you would have known!"
seokjin gasped again, "you hate ranch! you hated it during jiwoo's pregnancy and now you're saying you want ranch and expected me to know?" seokjin asked, making the boy cry harder as the boy nodded.
"you know what, i know better than to argue with a pregnant person so i'll drive all the way to mcdonald's and get you ranch" seokjin spoke, the youngest nodded, "leave you peasant!" making the boy laugh.
—
"here" seokjin said, making jungkook look up at him and sniffle, "thank you" he said, dipping his chicken nuggets in ranch.
"you're welcome" seokjin said, sitting down and grabbing the burger he had gotten for himself.
jungkook ate his mcflurry as he stared out into space, "my hormones are really bad these days. i started crying in front of jiwoo because my socks were too cold" he laughed, "worse than last time, i'm in for a ride"
jungkook whined, "sometimes it's hard to deal with hormones by myself. like, i know i'm reacting in a stupid way but i can't help it" he laughed,"it's fine, i know you can't help it. the best i can do is cooperate"
jungkook nodded, "love you"
"love you too"
—
stay safe and healthy! drink water and eat some food! sorry for any mistakes, i love you all! qotd: do you think jungkook will have a boy or girl??