"𝘐 𝘥𝘰𝘯'𝘵 𝘮𝘦𝘢𝘯 𝘵𝘰 𝘣𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘸𝘢𝘺 𝘣𝘶𝘵 𝘩𝘰𝘸 𝘥𝘰 𝘐 𝘬𝘯𝘰𝘸
𝘺𝘰𝘶'𝘳𝘦 𝘯𝘰𝘵 𝘭𝘺𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘢𝘨𝘢𝘪𝘯?!"
As we lay together in our shared bed I can't help but feel this blossoming warmth in my chest. I'm laying with the love of my life
He was my first time, first kiss, and first love
"I love you so much" I snuggle into his chest as I feel him tense up a little bit. "You seem tense..." I point out "Wanna massage?" I offer
"No I just... I need to tell you something that's been bothering me" he sits up and I sit up as well. "Oh gosh.. if this is about me wearing those shorts in public the other day I'm so sorry I didn't realize my ass was hanging out till I saw the pi-" I start to do my thing where I ramble on and assume the worst or something
"No...no I'm not mad at you" I looks away from me which makes my stomach jump because usually he would make eye contact with me
"It's something I did" he starts "I haven't been completely honest with you" he sighs while fumbling with his hands in his lap
"Did..?Did you...cheat?" I whimper the last word. I've been cheated on several times before Eijirou. I had never learned my lesson always hopping into the next relationship just to feel like someone cared
"Well no...technically no" I scratches the back of his neck "What do you mean technically no?" My heart is racing at this point
I don't wanna hear that he cheated
I wouldn't be able to handle that
"It's about our first kiss..." he deeply sighs as he still won't make eye contact with me "What about it..? That was 6 years ago"
"I-..well you weren't my first kiss?" He admitted "Huh?" I furrow my eyebrows in complete and utter confusion
"But you said that-"
"I know what I said... I lied" his voice was full of regret
"Who?" Was all I said as I look down at the blankets, devastated to hear this
"Uhm... it was Lou... a few weeks before we started dating" he says in an ashamed tone of voice. " 'm Not surprised" I coldly state
"Babe it's not like that now I swear!" He's practically begging for forgiveness at this point
"Ya know I would ask you if you two also had sex before I came along but how the hell would I know if you're being honest now?!" I sneer
"Oh come on babes it's not like that" he starts to speak "I'm so sorry for lying.. I know how special it was to you..."
"I don't mean to be this way but how do I know you're not lying again?!"
I was livid. Not at Lou. Not at the fact that I wasn't his first kiss...
Just the fact that I was being lied to for 6 years and who knows what else he lied about?!
"I thought you weren't gonna do that to me..." I pull my knees to my chest "Boo... you're still my special girl I-"
"Well I sure as hell don't feel special right now!" I cry "Just leave me alone" I choke out a sob as I hide my face in my hands
"But babe please hear me out h-"
"Go" I sternly say through sobs
With that he leaves without another word
Was I being over dramatic? It might seem that way to most. But most people who would be quick to judge my outburst have probably never been lied to about something special like this. It hurts...
It hurts a lot...