[R18] My Step Brother

47: Distance between us

A/N: I'm back. One and half month din walang kuryente since bagyong odette😭😭😭

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YEONHEE'S POV

It's lunch break, kakatapos ko lang kumain dito sa cafeteria kaya nagbasa muna ako ng libro habang wala pa yung oras...

"Hey you!"

Someone I don't know came over to my table.. They're group of three girls, hindi ko sila kilala kaya hindi ko sila pinansin..

I rather spend my time on something productive than wasting it by talking to these kind people cause I can't gain anything.

"Look what is she doing! She's doing the same shit every single day! Hahahaha!"

"Hahahaha! Kaya walang nagkakagusto sa kanya, who wants to play around with this kind of girl anyway? I bet she's a virgin! Hahaha!"

I ignored what they said and keep on reading. I'll let them make fun of me whatever they like, Wala rin naman akong pakialam kung anong sabihin nila sakin.

"You!! Nakikinig ka ba ha?!!"

"Fcking bitch, I'm talking to you!"

Bigla nalang may humila ng buhok ko sa likod at iniangat ang ulo ko..

"You bitch! How dare you ignore us!!"

"Sino kayo at anong kailangan nyo saken?"

This is not my first experience when it comes to this.. I've always been bullied and make fun of since I was in elementary and I'm used to it.

"You and Keiji Aihara.."

Si Keiji at ako?

"Fcking thickfaced bitch, You think you're pretty dahil kinausap ka nya?!!"

I see, they're one of that guy's crazy fans.

"I don't know what you're all talking about."

"Hahahaha! Don't play dumb! We saw you both during the school festival!! How dare you hold his hands like that?!"

School festival?

Maybe they're talking about the time nung hinila ko ang kamay nya para hindi sya mawala sa tingin ko dahil dadalhin ko sya sa wedding booth... sobrang dami ng tao kaya ko yun nagawa but It doesn't mean anything to me because I like someone else..

"What about it?"

That guy is really this popular?

I can't believe anyone would go as far as doing things like this dahil lang nakita nila kaming dalawa.

Girls are really... scary sometimes...

"We're about to approach him but you came!! You ruined our plans, you fcking bitch!!"

"We followed you and even saw Keiji holding your shoulders!!! How dare you seduce him!"

I don't know what these girl's way of thinking works. They're bunch of brainless people who's more focused on their looks rather than their brain.

"I'm not seducing him. Keiji and I know each other, but what about you three?"

"You bitch!!!!!"

Nakita ko na kinuha nung isang babae ang bottled water na binili ko..

Akma nyang ibuhos saken iyon kaya pinikit ko nalang ang mata ko...

"May I know what is going on here?"

Dumilat ako nung may narinig akong pamilyar na boses..

?!?!!!!?!!

K-Kai?

Laking gulat ko nalang dahil nakatayo sya sa likod ng mga babae...

I knew it...

He came..

"I-It's not what you think, Lee! We're not doing anything! We're just-------"

"Please explain yourselves in disciplinary office."

"It's all this bit---girl's fault!! She------"

"Enough, come with me"

"Pero-------"

Hindi natuloy ang sinabi nung isang babae dahil nagsimula nang maglakad si Kai...

They gave me a dirty look at sinundan naman nila ito...

Hindi pa sila makalayo ay nakita ko si Kai na lumingon sa direksyon ko at nginitian ako....

I smiled back and watched him walking...

Then I touched my chest... that was racing right after I saw him...

.... He really.. never fails to make my heart flutter like this...

May natanggap naman akong notification sa cellphone ko, pagkakita ko ay galing yun sa kanya..

He gave me his number a week ago.. nung napapadalas na yung pag uusap namin..

Somehow, we always end up seeing each other around the campus at kapag nangyari yun, we'll talk, eat or go to library together..

From: Kai :)
Can you wait for me there? I'd like to return the book.

To: Kai :)
Sige! Dito lang ako! 😄

Sent.

Binalik ko naman ang cellphone sa bulsa pagkatapos ko syang replyan..

Bullying is not even new to me and it doesn't affect me anymore... but.... this once, I'm glad that I was bullied.... and then he came..

?!!?!!!

Aaaah! I'm so weird to say that!!

Inihiga ko nalang ang ulo sa mesa...

I can't help it... I just.... like him... so much....

Ever since that day...

~ FLASHBACK ~

Freshman ceremony ngayon at late ako!

It will be held on the auditorium and all freshman are required to attend the welcome ceremony for new students..

Late ako ng 30 minutes dahil mali yung oras na nalagay ko dun sa alarm clock!

I'm walking towards the entrance of the auditorium.. The ceremony is starting and it's full of students cheering... they are so loud..

I got nervous after seeing it because I... hate crowds.. Ever since I was a kid, I've always avoided crowds.. Hindi ako comportable.. It's making me nervous and wary about my surroundings..

Should I enter?

But my feet won't take a step forward..

I can feel my body shaking a little bit..

I just hate crowds and places full of people especially when it's loud.. that's why, I've never been on a concert, or parties..

I...

I can't do it..

Nagtungo nalang ako sa likod ng auditorium at umupo sa bench..

I feel comfortable.. No one is around, It's peaceful and quiet..

For now.. I'll just sit here and wait for the ceremony to end..

I closed my eyes and rest my head on the bench..

.
.
.

"Hi.."

?!?!!!

I startled and jumped out of the bench when I heard a voice..

I saw a tall guy standing at the back of the bench I'm sitting in..

"S-sino ka?" Tanong ko sa kanya..

He smiled at me..

"Sorry for startling you. I'm Kai Seojoon Lee, SGA President. My job as of now is to make sure that all freshman are able to attend the ceremony considering how important it is for the new students. I have received a report that we are missing one student on the ceremony.. and judging from the ribbon you are wearing, You must be that student.."

Napabuntong hininga nalang ako..

"A-ako nga.."

"Are you alright?"

?!!?!!!

Nagulat nalang ako nung nasa harapan ko na sya..

"Why didn't you attend the ceremony? You have everything you need to know before attending it, your seat number and the row you are assigned with. Did we miss any information?"

"N-No! I-I..."

I paused when I was about to say the reason why..

Sasabihin ko ba sa kanya?

But... Is it even a valid reason for me not to attend the ceremony?

"I'm listening..." he said and gave me a reassuring smile..

"I-I hate crowds... but if It's really needed, I-I'll manage..."

There was a long silence before he talked..

"Here.."

May inilahad syang panyo saken...

"You're sweating a lot, You don't have to be nervous around me.."

"Hindi---O-okay lang! Baka-----"

Hinila nya naman yung palad ko at inilagay yung panyo nya dun..

"Come with me.."

Naglakad naman sya, tinignan ko yung panyo nya na nasa palad ko..

Pinunasan ko naman yung mukha ko, pinagpawisan nga talaga ako...

Pagkatapos ay inilagay ko yun sa bulsa at sumunod sa kanya..

I really hate it... the thought of standing in the middle of the crowd...

Hindi ko alam kung bakit ganito ako, I was born being like this and I can't do anything about it.

Pumasok naman kami sa entrance na nasa likod ng auditorium...

Sinundan ko lang sya...

Nagulat nalang ako nung nasa ibabaw kami ng auditorium... sa may parte na merong mga balcony.. which is away from the crowds...

Napansin ko na walang estudyante na nakaupo sa itaas dahil lahat ay nasa baba..

"B-bakit dito?"

Hindi ko na maiwasang magtanong...

"Take a seat first.."

Umupo naman ako gaya ng sabi nya...

"You said you hate crowds so I'm keeping you away from it.."

"P-pero bakit walang tao dito.."

"Because It's prohibited"

"Ha?!!!!"

He chuckled. "It's fine, I'll make sure we don't get caught.."

Nagtungo sya sa isang seat dun sa gilid ko at umupo.. there is a two seats between us..

"Pero-----"

"Just listen to the ceremony, It won't take that long.. I'll be here until it ends to make sure we're not seen."

"S-sige.."

He smiled at me...

Nakinig nalang ako sa ceremony, they told us everything we need to know about the school and its system.

Hindi ko maiwasang mapasilip sa direksyon nya..

He mentioned he's a SGA President. It must be some kind of student council.

"We might get caught.. and It will be a trouble for you" nasabi ko nalang.. dahil SGA President sya, ibig sabihin mataas yung rango nya sa student council dito.. at baka ano na ang gagawin sa kanya kapag makita sya na nandito sya sa taas kahit ipinagbabawal na pumunta dito..

"I can make excuses if that happens, the important thing is for you to attend the ceremony comfortably.."

Tumango nalang ako...

"Are you feeling comfortable now?"

"O-oo.. S-salamat..."

Ibinaling ko ulit ang atensyon sa nagsalita dun sa stage, I wasn't able to listen properly of what the speaker is discussing..

I kept on glancing to his side...

"Is there something on my face?"

"W-wala!! Wala! M-may tinignan lang ako..."

Ngumiti naman sya ng matipid..

Pinatuloy ko nalang ang pagkinig hanggang sa matapos ang ceremony...

Kahit na wala akong masyadong naintindihan dahil wala ang atensyon ko sa ceremony..

After the farewell speech, I saw the students heading towards the exit for school tour..

Tumayo na rin kami sa kinauupuan namin..

"Let's head back.."

Tumango naman ako at sinundan sya patungo sa likod na exit ng auditorium..

Pagkalabas namin ay agad ko syang pinasalamatan..

"You're welcome. It's my duty to help students and make them comfortable studying here.."

"U-um... Lee.. A-ako nga--------"

*RINGGGG!!!!RINGGGGG!!!*

Kinuha nya naman ang phone nya sa bulsa at sinagot yung tawag na kaharap ako, hindi man lang umalis sa kinatatayuan nya.

"Yes.... I managed to find the student... Yes, she was able to attend the ceremony..........okay, got it. I'm heading to the office now.."

Pagkababa nya ng cellphone ay binalik nya ito sa bulsa..

"Sorry I have to go, there's an urgent on the office. See you around!"

"Lee-------"

Tumakbo sya paalis kaya hindi ko na naituloy yung sinabi ko...

I was about to introduce myself to him..

Kai Seojoon Lee.....

~ END OF FLASHBACK ~

After that day, I often see him around the campus... but he never looked at me..

I become interested to know him better nung makita ko kung pano sya magtrabaho dito sa school..

Everyone is really looking up to him..

If there's a role model this school represents, It has to be him..

In years of me trying to get to know him by myself, I learned a lot about him..

I knew about his interests, based on the book he's reading, I always check the logs if I saw him in the library..

Mas lalo ako naging interesado nung malaman ko na pareho kami ng hilig...

I read the books he's reading, that way, I can learn a lot about him based on what he reads.

And there was a time when I saw him at the back of the building, he cussed one time It's as if he's letting out all his frustration, I can see how tired he is sa trabaho nya dito sa school..

I was shocked, hindi ko akalain na magagawa nya yun but I become more and more interested... to get to know the real him..

That was the side of him that he doesn't want to show to others.. It made me realize that.. all along, he's pretending to be someone he's not.. He's trying his best to satisfy and meet everyone's expectations from him.. and he's tired because of that but he can't show it...

And I... want to get him out of that situation, I want him to express himself more..

For years, I'm satisfied watching him from afar and I got used to it and It went to the point where I can read him, I know whenever he's tired, frustrated or angry.. He's good at hiding his emotions but I can see through them..

And That time we met, I wasn't expecting it.. even a bit.

Someone bumped into him and broke his glasses, I was walking on the same hallway and I saw it, that's why... I never missed the chance to talk to him.

I was also so surprised that he has the same prescription as me, That time, I want to believe that It was fate but I don't want to assume things..

I was so happy and nervous that I'm shaking when I talked to him again after the ceremony.. after almost four years...

I know he doesn't remember me but It's fine..

It doesn't change the fact that I like him....

But If only I can say it...

Hindi na importante kung malaman nya yung nararamdaman ko o hindi, Just having him as a friend is more than enough for me..

Kinuha ko naman ang panyo sa bulsa ng palda ko..

His handkerchief..

I forgot to return it to him before so I used it instead..

"What's that you're holding?"

?!?!!!?!!!!

Nanlaki naman ang mata ko nung marinig ko yung boses nya, agad ko namang nilagay yung panyo sa bulsa ko.

"W-wala A-ano------"

"You were staring at it for too long... Does that handkerchief means anything to you?"

?!!!!

Nakita nya!

Alam ko na matagal na yun pero p-pano kung maalala nya na sa kanya pala yun?!!

I don't want him to think that I'm weird for keeping his belonging with me..

Tinignan ko sya na nakaupo ngayon sa harap ko..

Mukhang hindi nya naman naalala na sa kanya pala yun base sa reaction nya..

"Y-yeah.. It does.."

"I see.. By the way.... I'm here to return this to you.."

Binigay nya naman saken yung libro na hiniram nya..

"Thank you, It's really worth to read.. Having to learn something new feels great.."

Nginitian ko naman sya at kinuha yun..

So he doesn't remember anything...

Somehow... I felt a little bit of disappointment..

"Yeonhee, the girls earlier, do you know them?"

"H-hindi.. Nilapitan lang nila ako kanina, they were mad at me because of something I did.."

"Something you did?" Magkasugat kilay nyang tanong..

"It was during the school festival.."

He let out a heavy sigh.. "If only I can make this school a peaceful place.. I'm sorry, I came late.."

"H-hindi.. Okay lang.. Sanay rin naman ako.."

"You know, I'm the same as you but, If it weren't for this specific person I would've been bullied until now.. I wouldn't have any confidence nor courage to stand up for myself.."

A specific person....

Wala na akong ibang kilala na malapit kay Kai kundi si..

"Si Keiji ba yung tinutukoy mo?"

"You're sharp." He said with a smile on his face but it slowly disappeared...

"Kai?"

Now.. He looks... worried and sad..

Pansin ko lang... parang nangingitim na yung ilalim ng mga mata nya at nagkaka eye bags na sya..

Wala ba syang tulog? He looks really worn out..

I wonder what happened... It worries me..

"M-may problema ba?"

"I-it's just...."

Naghintay ako kung anong sasabihin nya.. pero hindi nya yun tinuloy..

"You can talk to me about it.. I'll listen.."

Ngumiti naman sya ng matipid..

"It's Keiji..."

Napabuntong hininga sya bago magsalita ulit...

"He.. never talked to me since our fight, hindi nya na rin ako tinatawagan o tinitext, he ignores me whenever we pass by each other.. I know I said things that made him mad at me but I didn't expect him to completely ignore me for days because of that.."

"A-ano?"

Last week pa yung school festival...

Ngayon ay huwebes, ibig sabihin mag iisang linggo na syang hindi kinausap ni keiji?

"Maybe.. I really am not a good friend.. but I don't know what to do.. Somehow.. I could feel that he become distant... It's as if we're drifting apart... and I really don't want that to happen, Keiji is the only true friend I have.."

Teka....

Sinabihan ko si Keiji na ayusin yung away nila ni Kai at mag sorry sa kanya nung school fair kapalit ng paghanap ko kina Meiko at yung kaibigan nya...

Pero bakit hindi nya kinausap si Kai?

Last time we talked, tinawagan ko sya nung makita ko si Meiko at Ivan sa rooftop.

"Yeonhee?"

"H-ha---S-sorry---"

"You seem preoccupied, are you thinking about something?"

"N-nothing important.."

Ano kayang nangyari dun sa rooftop nung araw ng school festival?

Bakit hindi nya kinausap si Kai...

Tsaka... hindi na rin sya pumapasok sa klase nya.. Huling kita ko rin sa kanya ay nung school fair lang..

Something really happened that night..

Kung ano mang nangyari nung gabing yun, kailangan ko pa rin syang kausapin, a deal is a deal.

"Kai, Mauna na ko sayo ha, may hahanapin lang ako.."

Kinuha ko naman ang libro at tumayo sa kinauupuan ko..

"Who?"

"Si Keiji at----"

"Keiji?! What are you going to do? A-are you even that close with him?"

"Hindi.. pero may kasunduan kami and he failed to do his part... I want to remind him of that.."

Bago ako umalis sa kinauupuan ko.. I saw that he's confused about what I said that it made him speechless..

Nung medyo makalayo na ako ay sinilip ko muna sya..

He really looks upset..

That guy must be so very important friend of him..

I.. I need to do something..

Sinubukan ko namang hanapin yung lalaking yun..

Inilibot ko ang buong campus pero hindi ko pa rin sya nakita..

I wonder where that guy could be?

Hindi na kasi sya pumapasok sa klase simula nung matapos yung school fair..

Naalala ko na madalas ko silang nakikita ni Kai sa rooftop, sana nga nandun sya..

Naglakad naman ako patungong building at pumasok sa elevator.

Pagkarating ko dun sa top floor ay umakyat ako sa hagdan patungo sa rooftop..

At ngayon, nakatayo na ako sa harap ng pinto..

Pagkabukas ko nito ay nakita ko syang nakatayo sa railings... and he's smoking..

Mabuti naman at nandito sya.. Nakakapagod kayang maghanap.

Naglakad naman ako patungo sa kanya pagkatapos kong maisara yung pinto..

He immediately turned around when he noticed my presence... and I was already beside him when he did..

"Dito lang pala kita makikita."

"The hell are you doing here? Get the fck out of my space"

"I'll tell you why if you throw that cigarette, alam mo bang bawal yan dito?"

"I'm not stupid enough to not know about that. Now tell me why you're here"

Binuga nya naman ang usok sa harapan ko.

"Yet you're stupid enough to know and still do it. Itapon mo nga yan!"

He really doesn't have any manners! Ang laki ng pinagkaiba nila ni Kai!

"Dammit, I will so you can shut your mouth!"

Tinapon nya naman yun sa may malapit na trash bin.

This jerk.... Pinapalabas nya talaga ang ugali ko!

"Now why the hell are you here?"

"We had a deal Keiji so why didn't you reconcile with Kai?"

"Ahh... That... I almost forgot.."

He's acting like he was annoyed when I asked him about it.

"Keiji... are you even... being a friend of Kai?!"

Hindi ko na maiwasang itanong yun sa kanya dahil sa mga kinikilos nya ngayon na parang wala man lang syang pakealam kung magkaayos sila o hindi..

He went to the bench at umupo dun..

Nagulat naman ako nung biglang bumukas yung pinto ng rooftop..

Nakita ko na may babae na naglalakad palapit sa kinatatayuan namin..

Gayon nalang ang paglaki ng mata ko nung pumatong ang babae sa kanya at umupo dun sa hita nya..

He whispered something to the girl and she starts kissing his neck..

Wag mo sabihing... Pinapunta nya yung babae dito bago ako dumating...?!!!

Are they planning to do something here in the rooftop?!

But...

He likes someone.. right?

How can he do such thing...?

"Yeonhee, This is all none of your fcking business really.. I know you like my friend but If I want to reconcile with him or not, It's all up to me.. You should stay away with our goddamn business. That guy can manage without me so you---------"

Hinila ko yung babae palayo sa kanya at hinawakan ko ng mahigpit yung kwelyo nya dahil sa pananalita nya!

"Wala ka bang utak Keiji Aihara?! Alam mo ba kung gano nag alala yung kaibigan mo dahil hindi mo na sya kinausap na para bang kinalimutan mo na yung pagkakaibigan nyo?! ang sama talaga ng ugali mo! Hindi ko alam kung bakit natatakot si Kai na mawala ka eh di ka naman kawalan!"

Hindi ko na matiis na sabihin yun sa kanya dahil naiirita ako sa ugali na pinapakita nya!

"Fcking bitch! Sino ka para itulak ako ha?!" Ika nung babae.. Akma nya akong sugurin pero hinawakan ko agad ang kamay nya.

"Kung ayaw mong makarating sa nakakataas yung ginawa mo dito sa rooftop umalis ka na! kung hindi, I re-report kita sa office at sisiguraduhin kong ipapasuspend ka!"

Tinignan nya naman ako na may takot.. saka tumakbo palabas ng rooftop..

"What the hell... You scared my thing away.."

"Yan pa yung unang iniisip mo?! Yung kaibigan mo nag aalala sayo! tsaka bakit mo yun ginawa kahit na may gusto ka na?!"

"Now, you're dragging meiko with this talk. This has nothing to do with her!!!"

"Of course It has!!"

"Shit. This doesn't concern you at all, Yeonhee."

Tinignan ko naman sya ng masama...

"Alam mo, Keiji... Kung ganyan lang din ang ugali mo walang magkakagusto sayo, Kung meron man hindi rin yun magtatagal. You like that Meiko right? Then how can you do this thing? Keiji, Don't ask yourself why no one will ever truly love you for who you are.. kung gusto mong seryosohin ka, ayusin mo ang sarili mo. Kung ganito ka rin naman then don't expect her to like you back!"

He smirked.. "First things first, I'm not expecting her to like me back. Second, Even if I do this kind of thing and she saw it, she won't give a single shit about it.. You know why?"

"B-bakit..?"

I can't help but wonder..

"Cause she likes someone else.."

Ano?

M-may gusto na yung Meiko...?

Could it be that guy na malapit nyang kaibigan?

Si Ivan...?

"Yeonhee."

He stand up from sitting at Inilapit ang bibig sa tenga ko saka bumulong..

"If you don't want the same thing to happen to you, you better make a move or else, you---------"

Nagulat nalang ako nung may humila saken palayo kay Keiji..

Teka...

Tumingin naman ako dun sa may humila saken..

"Kai.."

Bakit sya nandito...?

"Ah let me guess, you're thinking I might do something to her just like what I did to Meiko.. then go ahead and take her away, Seojoon!!"

Huminto naman si Kai pagkasabi nun ni Keiji..

He stared at me and left a heavy sigh..

"Yeonhee, You know what kind of a person Keiji is, right? Did he do anything to you?"

"W-wala naman.. Bakit?"

He sighed and patted my head..

"You should head down first.. I'll talk to him."

I nodded and left the rooftop..

Right when I was about to close the door, I took a peek and saw him waved at me goodbye..

Nginitian ko naman sya at bumaba ng hagdan..

A question suddenly came to my mind, Why did he went there knowing I'll talk to Keiji..?

Maybe he's trying to protect me thinking that Keiji might do something..

Even if he did.. It doesn't mean anything special... That's just the kind of a person he is..

Mabait si Kai.. at alam ko na kahit sino poprotektahan at tutulungan nya, kahit hindi nya pa iyon kilala..

He will help those who needs it..

I should be grateful to be his friend atleast.. I wasn't even expecting us to talk again after the freshmen ceremony..

A friend..

That should be enough....

But...

The more we spend time together...----

*Sigh*

It's really hard... liking someone one sidedly..

Now I know what Keiji felt..

Back there when he said that Meiko likes someone else, I can see the sadness in his eyes.. and I got scared..

What if the same thing will happen to me? What if Kai will meet a girl and like her?

But.. telling him what I feel is scarier..

🥀🥀🥀🥀🥀🥀🥀🥀🥀

KAI SEOJOON'S POV

As I walk towards him, I can see his smirk on the distance..

With that, I conclude that he doesn't care about what's happening nor how to fix our fight..

It pains me but I have to fix this.. even if I have to make an effort of it alone.

He's still my bestfriend.. and he will always be, Even if his personality doesn't sit in well with me sometimes.

"So? Am I right about what I said?"

He said right after I reached him to where he's standing..

"What do you want me to think after what you did, Keiji?"

He smirked and said.. "You always believe what you want to believe, Seojoon. You're hella smart but you can be foolish sometimes"

"I believe what I see Keiji, and what I see is you having intercourse with three women and saying you like Meiko. Do you think it's making any sense?"

His face aggravated.. He looks like he was about to say something but changed his mind..

"You know what? Let's just stop arguing about this bullshit, Seojoon. You already got what you want."

What I want?

"You want me to stay away from Meiko after what I did, right?"

"You're not making any sense right now, Keiji."

"Well, You don't have to worry about it cause you're right. I've already decided that I should keep a distance between us and let her live her own life.. especially now that she found her happiness"

I was confused by what he said at the end.

Meiko's happiness? What does he mean by that?

"Be specific if you want me to understand you in one go, Keiji."

"Damn four eyed..." He murmured..

"I can hear you."

He went and sat on the bench after grabbing a cigarette on his pocket and lighted it..

"You remember our call right? When I told you that Ivan bastard is going to court her."

"What about it?"

He blowed a smoke out of his mouth and said.. "The thing is... It happened.."

"And?"

He finished his cigarette before responding back to me and said..

"She said yes.."

I couldn't help but be in shock....

Then it means that..

Meiko and Ivan... are now lovers? She agrees to be his girlfriend?

But..

Meiko doesn't like him that way..

I can sense and see it..

How is that possible?

I went and sat beside him, that is leaning his head to the bench and closed his eyes, it's as if he was thinking about something.

"Keiji, are you certain that she did agree to that? Maybe you've misunderstood something.."

How can she say yes when she doesn't even like him romantically?

He grinned and stared back at me.  "You can't say that when you saw them kissed that night.."

I can't help but widen my eyes when I heard what he said..

I may not be as close with Meiko like I am with Keiji but everytime I see her and Ivan, what she says or what she do, I can't tell that she has some sort of romantic feelings for him based on my observation on her actions.

Meanwhile on Ivan's side, It is very clear on his part that he has feelings for her cause he's not hiding it.

Is my observation wrong?

Am I missing something?

Or Maybe.. Meiko is developing some feelings towards Ivan Chen.. and I missed to see that, that's why she agreed with it or... maybe it's something else..?

"And that's not the only shit that happened that night..."

He paused and took a deep sigh..

"I ended up telling her what I feel, Seojoon."

"You what?!!"

He told Meiko he likes her?!

"Stop being so shocked about it. It was a sudden impulse, my mind was so damn messed up that time."

I really thought that he would keep it from her knowing he was hesitant and denial at first.

"Then.. what happened?"

"You're smart, I'm sure you already know that, Seojoon.."

He gave me a bitter smile before resting his head back to the bench again..

I couldn't say anything...

Just as I thought...

It really is impossible for them..

"What are you going to do from now on?"

"I can't do anything but to forget all about it.. It's for the best for both of us afterall.."

Somehow..

I can feel the sadness in his voice when he said that..

"... You seem to think things differently now compared before where you act without thinking.."

Keiji has never experienced something like this, usually he won't give a single thought about anyone but towards meiko, there is not a day where he doesn't think about her.

"I don't know if I should be happy with that". He grinned.

"Are you really giving up, Keiji?"

He's the type of person that won't easily give up whenever he wants something...

That's why, It's a bit shocking to me that he let it all go that easy.

"She already chose that guy. I'll be a fool If I fight a battle that I already lost."

It does makes sense..

"I-I'm sorry..."

He chuckled at binatukan ako ng mahina..

"Dumbass, don't think about it.. Shit happens.. Sometimes.. things doesn't go the way you want.. and you have no choice but to accept it.."

Keiji's words left me in shock but I managed to hide it, he just never say something like this before, I wasn't even expecting that he  could think this way.

"Y-you're right.."

"Anyway, I'm sorry, I acted like shit after we fought.. I know you only did that cause you wanted to protect Meiko.. You're right and nothing will change the fact that I did what I did.."

It's good for him to realize it all now..

I sighed, We rarely have a serious fight together..

"By the way, did you came here to talk to me?"

"I did.."

"Liar. If you did then you could've done it days ago. It's been like a week since our last talk"

Right...

It wasn't on my mind to talk to Keiji when I came here..

"Admit it, You knew that girl is going to be here. You think that I'll do something to her and you came here to stop that from happening"

What he said is true..

Earlier, I can't stop thinking about what will happen if Yeonhee's with Keiji alone rather than how should I reconcile with him.

"If I did then you can't blame me. You always do those indecent things when you have a chance"

"Aww, That hurts.. I wouldn't play with my friend's thing you know. Well, atleast you're an exception.." He said and winked at me playfully.

"She is not my thing and don't call her that."

He really needs to choose a proper words to use when he constructs a basic sentence, It is not a nice thing to hear calling someone such word.

"Whatever you say, Seojoon. You were hanging out a lot with that girl these days I thought you already forgot about me.."

"It's because you are ignoring me. We only share the same interests, Keiji which I do not find among those people I knew. It's hard to find someone you can talk everything with."

"What about me?" He pouted.

"You always talk about indecent things and you won't even listen to me."

He chuckled.. "Good for her huh.. She might have a long way but I think she'll get what she wants.. unlike me.."

I don't quiet understand what he meant by that.

"Be clear with your words if you don't want people to get confused and ask questions"

"Nah, I'll keep that to myself and her.. It might be the end of me If I spill it out.."

To himself and to Yeonhee?

Perhaps, they both share a secret?

"Nerd, no need to overthink about it. It's not a dirty little secret" He laughed.

"Even if it is, It's her and your own matter and that's none of my business."

"So if we do something, It's also none of your business?" He said and smiled cunningly.

I know he's just teasing me but still, Something just hit on me when he said that.

He do have a point but..

"I don't like you treating her the same way you treated Meiko before"

"What if I do?"

He's making fun of me yet part of me doesn't want that to happen..

"Let's forget about each other then"

His eyes wide opened when I said that, he really doesn't realize that I'm only joking.

"Woah! Easy there, Kai Seojoon Lee. Relax, I won't do anything to her.. She's not my type!"

"That's not something I get to decide. I don't want you to do those things to her but if she insist and allow you so then I have no right to stop you but if she didn't said or do anything then you better behave yourself around her."

He chuckled and patted my back..

"Hey, I get it, I get it. Calm down.."

Napailing nalang ako..

It's a relief that we're now okay but..

Will he be fine?

I know that he's acting like what happened doesn't bother him and that he could easily let it all go.. but when I tried to observe him, It's like he's ready to throw away his life anytime..

.. It's only a matter of time for him to get over it..

He's going to be fine..

"Hey Seojoon.." He said with a serious tone so I took a glance of him to my side, staring at the sky..

"What is it..?"

"I had a talk with dad when they went home days ago... Ah, No.. more like.. we had a deal.."

A deal?

"And..?"

"I have something to tell you.. but.. Can you not tell Meiko about it? I'm sure she'll find a way to know it, knowing her, she easily gets concerned without caring what the person has done to her.. Meiko is that kind of person that easily forgives when you've done something good to her.."

He doesn't want me to tell Meiko what he's about to say to me..

I wonder what he and his dad talked about..

"Tell me about it.."

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⏩⏩ FAST FORWARD ⏩⏩

MEIKO'S POV

"Meiko, mag iingat ka. Kita nalang tayo bukas sa school.."

"Ikaw din, Ivan.."

Hinalikan nya naman ang noo ko bago nya ako pinababa ng kotse..

He waved goodbye and I waved back saka nya pinatakbo ang kotse..

Isang linggo na simula nung sinagot ko sya...

At...

Isang linggo na ding hindi umuuwi si Keiji..

Pumasok na ako sa loob at nagtungo sa kwarto ko para magbihis ng pambahay..

I stared at the ceiling after laying in my bed..

It's so quiet..It feels like I'm slowly going deaf..

Ako nalang mag isa dito sa bahay..

Nasan kaya nagpunta si Keiji...

Hindi ako makatulog ng maayos sa kakakiisip kung san sya umuuwi.. Sinubukan kong tanungin sila mama at tito clive pero sabi nila na alam na ni Keiji kung anong ginagawa nya, hayaan ko nalang daw sya.. May kutob ako na alam nila kung nasan si Keiji pero ayaw nila yun sabihin saken..

Sana nga mali ang kutob ko.. dahil wala namang dahilan para itago nila saken kung nasan sya ngayon.

Naiyukom ko nalang ang mga kamay ko...

Does he not want to see me that bad after what happened?

I wonder where is he right now...Sino ang kasama nya o kung anong ginagawa nya ngayon..

Dahil kahit nasa iisang skwelahan kami.. o kahit nakikita ko pa sya sa dun, hindi kami nag uusap o magkatinginan man lang... para bang nilalayuan nya ako..

Hind ko na rin naririnig yung boses nya..

At dahil dun... nararamdaman ko na may distansya na saming dalawa.

Gusto ko syang lapitan at kausapin sa tuwing nakikita ko sya sa skwelahan pero hindi ko magawa dahil palagi nalang syang may kasamang babae..

Hindi ko yun kilala.. pero ilang beses ko na silang nakikita na magkasama..

May mga pagkakataon na alam ko na nakikita nya ako pero binabalewala nya yun...

Parang wala lang sa kanya ang nangyari... Hindi ko parin kayang kalimutan lahat ng sinabi nya nung gabing yun... at kung gaano kalakas ang kabog ng dibdib ko sa tuwing naiisip ko yun..

Hanggang ngayon, hindi pa rin yun nawawala sa isipan ko, patuloy kong tinatanong ang sarili ko kung bakit o ano ang nagustuhan nya saken..

I want to know why..

But there's no point asking him now... cause looking at our situation, he looks like he already forgot what he said to me..

*Sigh*

Ayoko ng mag isa dito...

zzzzz....

🥀🥀🥀🥀🥀🥀🥀🥀🥀🥀🥀

Alas says na ng umaga ako nagising...

Hindi man lang ako nakapaghapunan kahapon..

Bumangon na ako ng kama saka naligo dun sa CR ng kwarto ko.. pagkatapos ay nagbihis ng uniporme..

It really feels lonely... Ni wala akong ingay na maririnig, dahil sa sobrang laki ng bahay at ako lang ang mag isa dito..

Bumaba ako at nagluto nalang ng ready to cook.. wala din naman akong ganang kumain para magluto pa ng putahe.

*RINGGGGG!!! RINGGGGG!!!!*

Agad ko namang kinuha yung cellphone ko sa bulsa at sinagot yung tawag ni...Ivan..

[Meiko? Tapos ka na dyan? Nasa labas na ko..]

Ang aga ata ni Ivan ngayon.. Sabay na nga pala kami pumasok ng skwelahan simula nung hindi na umuwi si Keiji ng bahay...

"O-oo, malapit na ako matapos dito.."

[Sige, hihintayin nalang kita, nandito lang ako sa labas ha]

*END CALL*

Tinapos ko na lahat ng kailangan kong gawin saka lumabas ng gate..

Doon, nakita ko si Ivan na nakapark sa gilid..

"Ivan.."

"Meiko!"

Pinagbuksan nya naman ako ng pinto mula sa loob..

"Tara?"

Tumango nalang ako..

Why...

Why am I feeling alone..

Kami ni Ivan, pero bakit parang...

Hindi ko na talaga alam...

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IVAN'S POV

It's red light so I stopped the car.

Sumilip naman ako sa direksyon nya...

Hindi na kasi sya nagsalita pa nung makaupo na sya dito..

Nakatingin lang sya sa bintana.. ang lalim ata ng iniisip nya..

Wag mong sabihin na..

Iniisip nya naman yung Keiji na yun..?

Isang linggo na daw yun hindi umuuwi sa kanila, wala syang alam kung nasan sya nanatili..

Napahigpit ang paghawak ko ng manibela..

Why...

Why does she have to think about that guy... Wala naman syang dapat ipag alala, pinili ng lalaking yun umalis sa bahay nila..

I hate it..

I hate how he can still manage to mess us even when he's not around..

But I won't let happen..

I'll make her forget anyone else and only think about me.

"Meiko."

When she turned her head to my side, I kissed her.

Hinawakan nya naman ang braso ko at pilit akong ilayo sa kanya but I kissed her so deep... that she can't think of anyone else..

"Hmmmm!!!"

Meiko...

Please, focus on me.. Don't think about anyone else when I'm around..

"Hmmmppp!!!!"

Cause I want you for myself only...

And I'll never let anyone take you away from me!!!!!

"Ivan!!"

She pushed me away.. Nakita ko naman syang humihingal..

"M-meiko..."

"Ivan, h-hindi ako makahinga sa ginawa mo.. bigla mo nalang idiniin ang ulo ko, hindi mo man lang pinaghiwalay yung labi natin habang ginawa mo yun.. Ivan.. bakit ka ba nagkakaganyan?"

"S-sorry.."

What did I just do...

"Okay lang..."

A-ano bang nangyayari saken... Nagalit lang ako dahil alam ko kung sino ang iniisip nya habang kasama ako.

Simula nung hindi na umuwi yung Keiji na yun, parang may kakaiba na sa kanya.

Palagi nalang syang nakatingin sa malayo na parang may iniisip, kagaya ngayon... minsan hindi ko sya nakakausap ng maayos dahil parang lutang sya sa dami ng iniisip nya.

Alam ko naman na wala syang ibang iisipin kundi ang lalaking yun, napaikot nya si Meiko kaya sya nagkakaganito.

Kaya kahit magkasama kami, o kahit may ginawa ako sa kanya.. Hindi nya parin mawala sa isipan nya yung Keiji na yun!!!

Gusto ko syang angkinin.. Gusto ko na ako lang ang nakikita nya... Gusto ko na ako lang yung iniisip nya!!!

*PEEEPPP!!!! PEEEEPPP!!!*

Nagulantang naman nung may bumusina samin..

Green light na pala.

H-hindi ko man lang namalayan..

Tinignan ko muna sya bago ako magmaneho..

"Meiko, sorry.."

Nginitian nya ako.. "Okay lang talaga, mag drive ka na, may naghihintay sa likod.."

Tumango ako at pinaandar na yung kotse...

I really didn't meant to do it back there...

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⏩⏩ FAST FORWARD ⏩⏩

YEONHEE'S POV

"Why are you here?"

"To read because this place is peaceful."

He suddenly snatched the book I'm reading!

Wala talagang modo!!!!

"Keiji ibalik mo yan!!"

"I will if you go sit somewhere else"

"Nauna ako sayo dito! Ikaw ang lumipat!"

Ang daming bench dito sa garden area dito nya pa naisipan umupo sa kinauupuan ko sa may ilalim ng puno!

"This is my favorite spot!"

"Pano kung ayoko?!!"

"Then.."

He opened my book and touched the page of it..

"Then you wouldn't mind me tearing this off right...?"

?!!!?!!!!

Agad akong tumayo at akmang bawiin yung libro nung umaksyon sya na parang pupunitin nya na yung page dun!

Inabot ko yung libro na hawak hawak nya, itinaas nya pa yung kamay nya para hindi ko yun maabot!!!

"Akin na yan!!! Keiji!!!"

"Then leave--------"

*Cough*Cough*

Napahinto naman kami at napalingon sa gilid..

"K-kai?"

Nakaramdam agad ako ng kabog sa dibdib pagkakita ko sa kanya..

I saw Keiji letting his guard down so I snatched my book, then he rolled his eyes on me.

"Seojoon, why are you here?"

"I'm here for Yeonhee.."

A-ako?!!!

Tinignan naman ako ni Keiji..

Hindi nya ata inasahan na ako yung pakay ni Kai sa pagpunta nya dito..

"Ah I see, I'll leave you two alone then.."

"No need. I'll just talk to her for a minute then you can continue what you two were doing."

Napatawa naman si Keiji sa sinabi ni Kai.. "Four eyed, It's not like we're doing anything indecent"

?!?!!!

Ha??!! As if!

Thinking about it makes me want to puke!!!

"Yeonhee, can you come here..?"

Nilapitan ko naman sya sa kinatatayuan nya..

Si Keiji naman ay humiga nalang sa bench..

"Remember the Art Museum we talked about before?"

Oo nga pala, may pinag usapan kami nun tungkol sa bagong Art Museum na mag o-open daw... gusto namin yun puntahan pero hindi pa iyon nagbukas dahil bago palang yun natapos..

I never thought he also have a thing for art..

"O-oo, naalala ko pa yun.."

"U-um.. D-do you still w-want to go there..?"

I saw him stuttering and it almost made me laugh, Kai isn't the kind of person who stutter cause he's always composed in every situation he's in.

"Oo naman.. I've never went to any Art Museum.. and I heard There are all types of Arts we could see there.. kaso.. hindi pa bukas yun.."

"T-the thing is, It was opened yesterday..."

"Talaga?!!.. gusto ko sanang pumunta dun kaso malayo.."

Malayo yung location dito.. Ilang oras pa yung byahe..

"We can go there together.."

?!!?!!!

Halos mapanganga ako sa narinig ko.. Tama naman siguro ang narinig ko diba? Gusto nya kaming pumunta dun? Ng magkasama?

I-Is this for real...?

Me and Kai... going out..

.. with just the two of us?!!

?!!!?!!!

I don't know what to-------

"Yeonhee? Are you alright? You look pale... do you want to go with me?... Or not..."

"Oo naman! H-how can I decline you.."

He chuckled. "Then.. you'll have to wait for my text. I'll let you know when I'm available.. Is that fine with you..?"

I nodded happily..

"Lee!"

Lumingon naman kami sa may tumawag sa kanya mula sa likod..

"Rei? What is it?"

"The admin needs you right now in his office. They need your help"

"Alright, I'll go.."

Tinignan nya naman ako.. "Yeonhee, I'll get going. See you around"

"S-sige.."

He smiled at me before heading back with the guy that called him earlier.

My heart still can't stop beating so fast after what happened..

Are we really... going out?

I can't wait for it..

It's making me nervous... and excited at the same time..

Bumalik naman ako sa bench..

The moron is still there.. but I don't want to ruin my mood because of him.

"Shorty, what are you smiling like an idiot for?"

"None of your business. Umalis ka na, hindi pa ako tapos magbasa and please stop calling me names!"

He's laying down the bench and took all the space!

He grinned. "What? You two kissed or something?"

?!?!!!!

"J-jerk.. I'm not like you!"

Something like that isn't even possible!!!

Tumawa naman sya ng napakalakas.. "Hahaha, do you know how red your face is? What? You imagined it just now, aren't you?"

"Don't ruin my mood Keiji!"

He smirked and closed his eyes, mukhang hindi sya aalis sa pwesto nya!

Tinignan ko naman ang paligid, there were vacant benches pero mainit dun, dito lang yung hindi dahil may malaking kahoy sa likod..

I sighed and sat on the table instead, then took my book for me to continue reading..

I was about to read but something's caught my attention...

Hold on..

Is that...

Meiko?

She's walking with someone.. Maybe it's Ivan..

And they're... walking towards our direction!

Are they also going to sit around here?

Tinignan ko naman si Keiji... He looks like he was sleeping..

"Keiji.."

"What?" Sabi nya nang hindi minumulat ang mata.

"Si Meiko at yung Ivan.. papunta dito.."

I stared at them again..

They're really walking towards here!

But.. It looks like they haven't noticed us yet...

"Ignore them."

Huh?

"Bitter?"

Dumilat naman sya at tinignan ako ng masama.. saka umidlip pabalik.

Gusto kong tumawa, he looks like he was triggered about what I said.

Tinignan ko ulit sila..

H-huh?

T-they left...

But before that... Meiko and I made an eye contact..

She saw us here..

Maybe they changed their mind after seeing Keiji..

But Ivan seems like he hasn't noticed us yet dahil si Meiko lang ang nakatingin sa direksyon namin..

May sinabi sya dun kay Ivan saka sila naglakad pabalik..

She really doesn't want to see Keiji..

I wonder what happened between the three of them during the night of school fair..

"Keiji.. they left.."

Bumangon naman sya sa pagkakahiga at umupo..

"I knew it.. she really can't stand seeing me around. I can't blame her."

"Can I ask you something?"

I have an idea about what happened but I want to make sure of it.

"You're already asking"

Can I hit someone for a second?!!!

"Nevermind!!"

Tumawa naman sya. Ang saya saya nya ata sa ginawa nya?!

"Short tempered shorty, What is it that you're going to ask?"

"Stop calling me names!"

I shift from glasses to lenses for him to stop calling me nerd and now he's calling me a different name!

"Alright. Alright. Calm down, so? What is it huh?"

"I was going to ask if you got rejected by her."

"And then what? You're gonna laugh at me if she did?"

"Why not?"

"Then I'll make sure the same thing happens to you and I'll laugh at you too!"

?!!?!!!

"E-eto naman hindi mabiro.. I was just asking because you said that you can't blame her for not wanting to see you, so I thought that maybe you confessed and got rejected that made her awkward to see you.."

He grinned... and didn't say anything after that..

Instead, he lays back on the bench and closed his eyes..

I guess... I'm right...

I can't believe it somehow.. Keiji is someone that every girl wants and dreams of... but got rejected by the girl he wanted..

I thought something like this only exists in dramas and books..

Right... I almost forgot, they're step siblings..

I'm certain that's the reason behind the rejection..

I resumed from reading....

Everything feels so peaceful when he doesn't talk.

"Yeonhee..."

I changed my mind!

"You better not call me names again, Aihara."

There was a long silence before he spoke..

"Do you think someone like me can change..?"

H-huh?

Why is he suddenly asking weird question out of nowhere.

"You're the only one who can answer that."

"I really want to.. but the world is telling me that I should fcking live my life the way it is for someone like me.."

I took a deep sigh and closed the book I'm reading..

Hinarap ko naman sya... and he was already staring at me.

"Keiji, the world will tell you this and that.. but it's you who owns your life and the only one who's capable of changing it.. So if they tell you that someone like you can't change, will you listen to them?"

"Right... but It might be too late for that.."

Napailing nalang ako..

This jerk.. I can have a serious talk with him and then fight afterwards.

But when he's asking me things like this out of nowhere..

I know that he's deeply thinking about something...

"Fck!!"

Muntik na akong mapatalon sa gulat nung bigla nalang syang sumigaw at tindyakan yung bench!!

"Ano bang problema mo?! Kita mong nagbabasa ako dito!!"

"Dammit...!!!"

Napasabunot naman sya ng buhok.. and buried his face to his palms.

He looks really annoyed..

"I really want to talk to her again... I haven't heard her voice for a fcking week..."

Si Meiko na naman ba yung iniisip nya?

"Why can't you talk to her then?"

"Are you crazy? Wala na akong mukhang ihaharap sa kanya. I'm so fcking ashamed of myself because of what I said. I don't even know what she thinks of me after that. She must have grossed out by it.. Shit... If only I could undo things."

"Did she said or do something that makes you say that she was disgusted about how you feel towards her?"

"Maybe.. I don't know.. but normally, you'll feel that way if you're being confessed by your damn sibling only in the eyes of people.. I'm sure she thought of it the same.. She even refused to believe what I said.."

I can't even disagree with that..

But..

"What if you're just overthinking things?"

"W-what?"

"She refused to believe that it's possible for you to like her but It doesn't mean that she was disgusted by it.. unless if she said it herself. Don't you agree with me?"

"Nevermind, She's with that Ivan bastard so I can't fcking do anything but to accept what happened and let it go.."

"I-I see.. you really do have a point with that.."

He sighed and went back to sleep.. and I resumed from reading until the lunch break ends..

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MEIKO'S POV

"Dismissed! You may now go to back to your classroom! We still have 20 minutes left, use that time to change into your uniforms! Good job everyone!"

"Meiko, Inumin mo to.."

May inilahad si Ivan saken na bottled water, binuksan ko naman yun saka uminom..

Nakakapagod yung ginawa namin, Naglaro kami ng tennis by pair..

"Bakit ba kasi may P.E.."

Kailangan pa namin mag perform ng ibat ibang sports.. Next next week, ay volleyball naman..

Hindi naman lahat magaling sa sports kagaya ko..

Kanina nga kay Ivan lahat ng puntos namin.. Mabuti nalang at panalo kaming dalawa dun sa laro laban sa kaklase namin.

"Hindi na yan mandatory next school year.. Iligpit mo na yang mga gamit mo.. magbibihis pa tayo ng uniform.."

Tumango naman ako at kinuha yung mga gamit ko saka iyon nilagay sa bag..

Bumaba naman kami ng bench pagkatapos at nagtungo sa locker dito sa gymnasium.. nasa gilid lang din ang Restroom at shower room..

"Ivan mauna na ko.. Dun nalang tayo sa labas magkita.."

"Sige.."

Kanya kanya kaming pumunta sa locker namin, magkahiwalay kasi ang locker ng girls at boys..

Kinuha ko naman ang uniform ko na naka hanger sa loob ng locker...saka nagpunta ng restroom para magbihis..

Pagkatapos ay nilagay ko yung P.E uniform na ginamit ko dun sa may basahan malapit sa laundry ng shower room..

"Hi Meiko!"

????

Napalingon naman ako sa likod dahil may tumawag ng pangalan ko..

Isang babae..?

"S-sino ka..?"

Teka.... parang pamilyar sa saken..

"Oh come on! Are you that forgetful? You really don't remember me?"

Tinignan ko naman ang mukha nya ng maigi...

~~~

"You're really a lucky girl. Anyway, I'm here because I want to know what is your relationship with him"

"Step brother ko sya, yun lang"

"Wow, you're pretty honest. So, second question, Did both of you had done it already? Just like what we did on the video?"

~~~

S-sya yung nakausap ko dun sa CR...

Yung may video kasama si Keiji...

Nakaramdam nalang ako ng pagkabigat ng dibdib nung maalala ko yung nakita ko...

"We had a talk on the Girl's Restroom before and it wasn't a nice encounter. I guess you already had a bad impression about me, Am I right?"

Sya yung kasama ni Keiji galing sa tree house..

"B-bakit?"

At sya din yung babae na nakita ko na... na may ginawa kay Keiji dun sa likod ng building..

Hindi..

Pinapunta nya ako dun para makita ko yun!!

"What do you mean why?"

"Bakit mo ko kinakausap? Ano bang kailangan mo saken?"

May ipapakita na naman ba syang video nila ni Keiji o ano?

"I just..."

Nabigla naman ako nung hinawakan nya yung kamay ko..

"I-I.. want to apologize about that time. I was really desperate kaya ko nagawa yun.. I'm really sorry, Meiko.. I hope I can change your mind about me.."

I don't know if she's being sincere or not..

But...

She seems sorry about what she did..

"O-okay lang.."

"Really?"

Tumango naman ako..

"Does that mean... we can be friends..?"

Gusto nyang makipagkaibigan saken?

"Please?"

Nagdadalawang isip ako.. Hindi ko kasi alam kung anong iniisip nya ngayon pero wala namang masama kung pagbibigyan ko sya..

"S-sige.."

"Thank you Meiko!"

Niyakap nya naman ako ng mahigpit...

I guess.. The unpleasant feeling I'm experiencing right now is just all in my mind..

She seems like a nice person despite our bad encounter before.

"Oh, I'm so rude for not introducing myself and doing something like this.. I'm Megan Park by the way.."

Inilahad nya yung kamay nya at Tinanggap ko naman yun..

"Meiko.. Meiko Guilherme.."

"I pretty much know you already!"

"H-ha?"

"Everyone knows you're Keiji's step sister! Also... you and your loving bestfriend, or should I say.. boyfriend?"

Kinindatan nya naman ako..

"T-teka.. Pano mo------"

Naputol ang sinabi ko nung bigla nya nalang hinila ang kamay ko..

Dumaan kami sa kabilang exit.. at dinala nya naman ako sa likod ng gymnasium..

"B-bakit tayo nandito? May klase pa ako tsaka si Ivan naghihintay saken sa labas.."

"You really love your boyfriend that much that you can't ditch him?"

"H-hindi naman sa ganun.."

"It's fine, Meiko. I just want to talk to you while we're walking to your building. You can text him na mauna syang pumunta sa room nyo.. Please..? I rarely have a chance to talk to you like this.."

"O-okay.."

Kinuha ko naman ang cellphone ko at tinext si Ivan na mauna nalang syang pumunta sa room dahil matatagalan pa ko sa loob ng locker..

Mabuti nalang at agad syang pumayag.. Hindi na rin sya nagtanong kung bakit..

"Tapos na.."

"Thanks! Then... let's go?"

Tumango ako at nagsimula naman kaming maglakad...

It was quiet for a minute until she talked...

"Meiko.."

"A-ano yun..?"

"You're really a lucky girl... aren't you?"

Maswerte? Anong ibig nyang sabihin?

"Bakit mo naman nasabi?"

Napahinto ako sa paglalakad nung makita ko na huminto sya.. kaya lumingon ako sa likod..

There are few steps between us..

"Megan? May problema ba?"

Hindi sya kumibo...

Tinignan nya lang ako sa mata ng ilang segundo..

Huh?

????

May sinabi sya pero hindi ko yun narinig.. dahil parang mahina ang pagkakasabi nya nun.

Naglakad naman sya papunta saken..

"May sinabi ka ba? Hindi ko kasi narinig.."

Nginitian nya ako ng malapad.. "Nothing! Let's go? I don't want you to be late in your next class because of me"

Tumango nalang ako at naglakad naman kami ulit..

"Meiko.. Can I ask you something? Have you had any relationships in the past?"

"W-wala pa.. bakit?"

"So.. That Ivan guy is your first boyfriend.. It must be nice, huh? How's your relationship going?"

Sinagot ko si Ivan dahil gusto kong subukang mahalin sya dahil baka darating yung araw na masusuklian ko yung nararamdaman nya para saken..

Pero sa ngayon.. wala pa akong sagot dun dahil ang gulo ng isipan ko netong mga nakaraang araw..

"O-okay lang.."

Yan nalang ang nasabi ko dahil wala na akong ibang maisip na isasagot.

"You two really look good together.. You should be with him, Meiko.."

Napatahimik ako dahil hindi ko alam kung anong dapat kong isagot..

Bago kami makapasok ng elevator ay..

"Wait.."

Huminto ako at Naghintay sa kung anong sasabihin nya..

"Ano yun, Megan?"

"Meiko.."

Ano kayang sasabihin nya?

"I-I.. like your step brother.."

Nabigla naman ako sa sinabi nya..

Gusto nya si Keiji..?

Why..

Why do I.. don't feel good after hearing it..

"So... Will you help me out?"

"A-anong gusto mong gawin ko?"

"Can you please help me get closer with him? You're the only one who can do that.. We've hang out a few times but he's still not opening up to me.. And I hardly get closer with him these days.. Keiji is just... so hard to get when you want to be with him.."

A-ano?

Is she making me a matchmaker..between her and Keiji?

But Keiji... he told me he likes--------.

"Meiko?"

Ayoko...

Ayokong makita silang magkasama..

''Meiko!!"

?!!?!!!

"A-are you listening to me..?"

Ano bang pinag iisip ko?

"M-megan... Sorry.."

"What?" Taas kilay nyang sabi..

"Si Keiji.. hindi na sya umuuwi ng bahay.. we're not in good terms kaya hindi ko muna sya makakausap.. Sorry.. pero hindi kita matutulungan.."

"Hold on.. Keiji isn't going home? For how many days?"

"M-mag iisang linggo na.. Hindi ko alam kung san sya umuuwi.."

"Oh..."

Mukhang nagulat sya sa sinabi ko..

"Thanks Meiko.."

H-huh?

"I'll see you around here in the campus, if we ever pass by each other, don't forget to say hi!"

Naglakad naman sya paalis.. She waved at me at the distance.. and I did the same thing..

Megan Park..

G-gusto nya si Keiji...

Napahawak naman ako sa dibdib dahil nakaramdam nalang ako ng pagsikip doon..

Si Megan at Keiji...

S-something happened between them before..

At nararamdaman ko na hindi lang yun isang beses..

*RINGGGGG!!!! RINGGGGG!!!*

"Ivan?"

[Meiko, mag sta-start na yung klase.. Matagal ka pa ba dyan?]

"Papunta na ako.."

[Sige, bilisan mo na dyan habang wala pa si Prof]

*END CALL*

Napabuntong hininga nalang ako ng pumasok ng elevator..

If Keiji and I were on good terms... Should I help her get closer to him?

I..

Napayukom nalang ako ng kamay..

I.. don't think I can do it..

But I don't know why... I just don't want to see them together..

I've seen them multiple times before.. even doing those things and I felt like my chest has been crushed when I did..

🥀🥀🥀🥀🥀🥀🥀🥀🥀🥀

⏩⏩ FAST FORWARD ⏩⏩

MEGAN'S POV

*KNOCK*KNOCK*

Who could it be?

The class is already dismissed.

"Come in."

"Ma'am. Megan, the car is already waiting for you outside."

"Can't you see I'm still doing something?!"

"Sorry, Ma'am. Maghihintay nalang po kami sa labas."

"Then go!"

This annoying bodyguard..

I didn't even want to work in this shitty boring place!

The only reason I'm a member of SGA is to get close with Lee and use him to get close with Keiji!

Thanks to my mom which is the school's principal, and to my dad, the school's owner, I got in so effortlessly.

Meanwhile.. my mom really thought that I wanted this, only because I didn't tell her the reason why I joined.

~~~

"Si Keiji.. hindi na sya umuuwi ng bahay.. we're not in good terms kaya hindi ko muna sya makakausap.. Sorry.. pero hindi kita matutulungan.."

~~~

Ah.. That useless bitch..

What is her name full name again?

Meiko.. Guilherme.?

Ahh.. So easy to fool with.. I wonder what Keiji sees in her?

Her looks? It's obvious that I'm more prettier than her.. or is it her performance? Haha, she looks like she doesn't even know how to suck a dick.

So... why is Keiji so into her?!

What is it that she have that I don't?!!

I..

I've been doing everything.. just for him.. For years.. but why can't he see it?

~FLASHBACK~

(High school)

"Megan.. papasok ka ba sa chemistry mamaya?"

Nandito kami sa school grounds nakaupo ni Rhian dahil break namin..

"H-hindi ko alam.."

Pagkatapos ng nangyari...

"They're really have gone too far with their pranks. Pano nila nagawa yun sayo? Do they think it's fun putting those handmade firecrackers on your bag? I bet si stephen ang gumawa nun! He's the only one who can make that firecrackers and the only genius in our chemistry class! Bakit ba kasi nandun lahat ng ingredients..."

Bakit ako pa..?

"Rhian.. ganun na ba ako kapangit..? Para laitin ng ganito.."

Dalawang taon na ako nagtiis ng ganito..

Pero wala akong magawa kundi iiyak nalang lahat.. dahil dito, wala akong kakampi.. kundi si Rhian lang..

"U-um...."

"O-okay lang.. a-alam ko naman yun.. hindi na sana ako nagtanong pa.."

Hinawakan nya naman ang magkabilang pisngi ko at tinitigan ako sa mata..

"Megan.. makinig ka saken... You're not ugly okay? It's just that your pimples is covering your beauty.. a lot of pimples! Some of it are even bleeding.. gosh.. also the way you dress and your posture.."

"Sinasabi mo lang yan para-----"

"I'm telling the truth! Diba your family is wealthy? Why can't you do something about that?"

"W-wala din naman akong magagawa dito.."

"Why not try skin care for acnes?"

"Baka tumanda na ako hindi pa to nawala."

"Haha, oo nga naman.. It really does takes time for that.. especially in your case! Then.. what about acne surgery..? It's faster that way.."

"Surgery? Meron ba nun.?"

"Gosh of course! Something like acne treatments, lasers, injections,------"

"Wag na.. wala naman akong alam sa mga yan tsaka ayokong abalahin si mama.. halos di na nga yun umuuwi sa bahay dahil busy sya dun sa Wallstonecraft Academy tapos hihingi pa ako nun.. ang mahal kaya nun.."

"Y-You're right.. ahhh.. how miserable can you be, megan? But i still think you need to do it, we'll be graduating next year. You don't want to ruin your yearbook and graduation photoshoot right?"

*Sigh*

"Bastard! How could you do this to me?!"

?!?!!!!

Napatingin naman kami sa may sumigaw di kalayuan..

Nakita nalang namin na sinampal ng babae yung lalake..

Nag aaway ata sila... they could've done that in private..

?!!?!!!

Sinampal nya ulit ito..

"R-rhian..."

Nagulat nalang ako nung umiyak yung babae..

"Oh that... It's as expected. Haha, I guess the girl thought he's being serious. Maybe she doesn't know him too well or she refused to believe the rumors"

"Expected? Anong ibig mong sabihin?"

"Don't you know that guy..?"

"H-hindi.."

"Well.. he's the one and only Keiji Aihara... the famous womanizer slash ladies man slash ladykiller slash----"

"Ha?!"

"That's right.. and did you know..??"

"Ano?"

Bumulong naman sya saken.. "I did it with him once too.."

?!!?!!!!

Halos manlaki na ang mga mata ko sa sinabi nya..

"Hahahaha! Your reaction is really priceless."

"Nabigla lang kasi ako sa sinabi mo.."

"Haha but I'm serious really... You know.. there's just something about that jerk that will make you submit yourself to him..."

"A-anong ibig mong sabihin..?"

"That Keiji.. is the type of guy every girl thirsts for.. He's someone who can satisfy your high standards when it comes to sex.. and your fantasies too that you can't even say no but that bastard is breaking everyone's hearts.."

Tinignan ko ulit yung Keiji.. nakatayo na sya habang nag ce-cellphone..

Umalis na ata yung babae..

"He only had sexual encounters.. So.. he doesn't have any girlfriends.."

Hindi ko maiwasang hindi mapatingin sa mukha nya..

Napaka perpekto nga talaga ng mukha at pigura nya..

"He's so handsome...right..?"

"O-oo.."

Someone as perfect as him...

"Rhian.."

"Yes?"

"G-ginawa nyo ba talaga yun..?"

"We did.. and it was like the best experience I've ever had.. That guy.. is so damn attractive in bed.. He can make you wet in a minute plus... He's... a monster holder.."

"T-tama na nga yan.. yang bibig mo talaga.."

"Hahaha Sorry!"

If I were to have someone like him do that to me------.

"Hey.. don't tell me you also want to do that with him?"

?!?!!!?!!!?

"H-hindi ah------"

"You have zero chance. He doesn't like virgins.. like you. Hahaha"

Hindi ko pa nga yun naranasan sa buong buhay ko..

Wala namang nagkakagusto saken.. dahil sa itsura ko..

And Rhian... She's the opposite of me.

Napaka ganda nya... minsan ay para akong hangin kasama sya dahil ang daming kumakausap sa kanya habang magkasama kami..

Mabuti nalang at mabait sya.. Sya yung unang kumausap saken.. nakita nya ata sa room na walang gustong makipagkaibigan saken..

"I hate to break it to you Megan but... looking at your appearance.. I don't think Keiji will even look at you in the eye."

"G-grabe ka naman.."

"I'm telling the truth! Didn't you know that girl who slapped him earlier? she was like the famous girl in the campus for having that dollish look!"

May nangyari sa kanila ni Rhian...

Tinitigan ko ulit yung Keiji...

Napaka perpekto nya tala---------

?!?!!!!?!!!!!

A-ano yun?!!

Did he just.. look at me in the eye?!!

H-hindi ko kayang tumingin ulit..

My chest is racing...

I've never had someone like that look at me..

No one..

No one ever paid any attention to me..

"Megan, you okay? You look so tense right now."

Baka nagkakamali lang ako.. baka si Rhian yung tinitignan nya.. pero..

Nagkatinginan talaga kami sa mata..

"Are you even listening? Ano bang nangyayari sayo ha?"

"S-si Keiji..."

"Yeah? What about him?"

"Tignan mo nga kung nandyan pa ba sya.."

Tinignan nya naman kung saan naroroon si Keiji..

"He's gone."

Napabuntong hininga nalang ako..

Is it what Rhian means when she said there's something about keiji that will make you submit yourself.. To him..

"R-rhian..."

"Yes..?"

"A-anong tipo ni Keiji sa babae?.."

Tumawa naman sya ng malakas sa tanong ko..

"Don't tell me.. you already took a liking of him at first sight?"

"U-um.."

"Hahaha well, definitely not like you."

"Hindi na ba talaga magbabago yang pananalita mo ha.."

"But I'm being honest! Kung gusto mong mapansin ka nya, you have to get his attention."

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

It's been a month since I saw that Keiji Aihara..

Mag iisang buwan na rin na... palagi ko syang sinusundan..

Nalaman ko yung mga paborito nyang lugar dito sa campus... at dun nya.. ginagawa yung bagay na yun..

I learned from Rhian that we're on the same year.. ibig sabihin... sabay kaming gagraduate sa susunod na taon..

Pero.. mapapansin nya kaya ako..? Bago mangyari yun?

Hindi nalang ako aasa pa..

Pero.. gusto ko na tignan nya ako ulit sa mata.. gusto kong mapansin nya ako..

Masama bang umasa? Kahit alam kong impossible?

"Oh my god, look guys, Miss Palay is gaining another pimple again!"

"Hahahaha! Oo nga! Tignan nyo!"

"I bet her face doesn't have enough space for that! Hahaha!"

"If they were rice I could've gain one kilograms or two. Hahahahaha!"

"Hahahahaha gago ka talaga!"

Umalis ako ng classroom at nagtungo sa isang empty room..

Palagi nalang...

Kung wala si Rhian... they'll take that chance to make fun of me.

Wala akong magawa kundi iiyak nalang lahat ng mga sinasabi nila tungkol saken..

"Hanggang kailan pa ba ako magtitiis..? Ganito pa rin ba kaya ako? Pag college na ako..?"

Ayoko...

*SHUT!*

?!?!!!!

A-ano yun..?

Napasilip naman ako sa room.. mabuti nalang at nasa likod ako at natatakpan yung katawan ko sa upuan..

?!?!!!!

Nanlaki nalang ang mata ko sa nakikita ko..

Si Keiji...

M-may kahalikan syang babae...

"Are you damn sure no one's coming? We might get in trouble."

"Well.."

Nakita ko naman na nilock nung babae yung dalawang pintuan ng room..

Mabuti nalang at hindi nya ako nakita!

Pero.. pano ako makakalabas neto..?

"Better?"

Tinulak naman nung babae si Keiji sa teacher's table kaya napahiga ito..

Teka..

B-binubuksan nya yung pantalon ni Keiji..

?!?!!!!!

Napaiwas agad ako ng tingin nung makita ko kung anong gagawin ng babae!!

"C-can you do it faster..?"

?!?!!!!!

This sound... Its so weird...

Pero..

Wala namang masama kung titingin ako diba..

"You're pretty good at this aren't you?"

?!?!!!

S-she's choking...

Sumilip naman ako ulit..

Halos manlaki yung mata ko sa nakita ko..

That's... Keiji's----?!?!!!!!

K-kakasya ba yun sa kanya?!!?

Why is it.. So...

"That's enough.."

They kissed again..

Pinagpalit nya naman yung pwesto nilang dalawa kaya nakahiga na yung babae sa teacher's table..

Keiji.. is kissing her body... after she undressed herself..

Nagulantang nalang ako nung iniangat ni Keiji ang dalawang paa nung babae..

"K-keiji----hm-----"

A-anong?!!?!!!!

Tinanggal nya yung--------

?!!?!!!?!

"Ahh!!!------"

"Shit.. don't make any fcking sound or we're dead."

Tinakpan nya naman yung bibig nung babae.. at... ibinaba ang ulo nya dun sa-----

?!!!?!!!

"Hmm------"

I-Is he... licking it...?

"Hmmp!!"

Naramdaman ko nalang na unti unting kumabog ng malakas yung dibdib ko...

"Hmmmm---!"

I can't stop... looking at them...

"K-keiji----! S-stop-----P-put it in.. Hurry!"

"I can't endure it anymore too.."

"Please.. hurry..."

Idiniin nya naman ang magkabilang paa nung babae sa gilid neto at...

"Aaahhh!!!"

T-they're doing it..

"Ahh----!"

"Be quiet... here.. suck my fingers.."

"Hmmm!"

Something's..

Something's weird feels inside me..

"Hmmmp----!!!"

I...

"AAAAHHH!!! I c-can't!!!"

"Shit!!"

"I-It's---- t-too deep!!----"

Please..

I can't take it anymore...

My body is getting so hot while watching them..

The girl looks like she was about to cry while being ravished...

She looks like she's going insane...

I want him..

I want him..

To do to that to me too...

While looking at me in my eyes...

Please...

I'm getting....

"Keiji!!!"

Tumayo naman ako at isinigaw yung pangalan nya..

"Shit!!!"

"Oh my god!!!"

"We're dead!! Keiji what if she's filming us?! What if------"

"Shut the fck up will you? Let's stop for now. You should head back to your room. I'll take care of this."

"Make sure she won't say anything!"

Umalis naman yung babae pagkatapos nyang magbihis...

Nilapitan nya ako sa kinatatayuan ko...

At nararamdaman ko ang lakas ng pagkabog ng dibdib ko habang papalapit sya saken..

"If you tell anyone what you saw, I'll make you regret it"

Pagkasabi nya nun ay naglakad sya papuntang pintuan para lumabas pero bago pa mangyari yun..

Hinarangan ko ito..

"What the fck are you doing? Move."

Hindi ako makagalaw sa kinatatyuan ko dahil ayoko syang umalis.

"Hey...."

Tumingala naman ako para tignan sya nung tinawag nya ako..

"You like me don't you? You were staring at me like I'm a fcking dish on the menu, Do you think I wouldn't notice? On the field?"

A-alam nya?! Anong sasabihin ko?!

"It's pretty funny don't you think? Someone like you dreaming for a perfect guy.. Have you felt ashamed of yourself? If not, then you should be. That perfect guy will never make your dream come true"

Nasaktan ako sa sinabi nya, alam ko naman na wala akong karapatan magkagusto sa isang tulad nya pero wala namang masama magkagusto diba? Lahat naman tayo pwedeng magkagusto kahit kanino..

Hindi ko na naiwasang umiyak dahil sa mga sinasabi nya..

"H-hindi naman masamang magkagusto diba?"

"So you admit that you like me?" He said with a cunning smile..

Tumango nalang ako dahil alam ko na nahalata nya na ako kaya wala na ding kwenta kung itatanggi ko yun...

"And then what? You want me to do the same thing I did with your friend? Am I right?"

Hindi ako makapagsalita... p-pano nya nalaman?!

Tumawa naman sya ng napakalakas..

"Is that what you're dreaming of? That you want to do such thing with your dream guy... which is me."

Sabihin mo Megan....

Hindi...

Hindi ko kayang sabihin sa kanya!

"Speak or I won't be able to make your dream come true"

A-ano?

Tama ba yung narinig ko?!

Gagawin nya saken y-yung bagay na yun?! Pero... Ang isang katulad ko----

"Damn, you took too long. I'm getiing bored already, Get out of my way, I'll go-----"

"Oo! T-tama ka!"

I ended up telling it to him...

He laughed so hard when I said that..

"Girls are really...."

He smirked and touched my chin..

"Since I'm a nice person, I'll be honest with you, I can't do it with someone that will gave me an eyesore, You know what I mean right? I tried my best not to say it directly in order for you not to get hurt...."

Dahil pangit ako...

Hindi nya kayang gawin yun dahil hindi nya kayang tignan ang mukha ko habang ginagawa nya yun!

"But....."

Tinignan ko ulit sya nung hinawakan nya ang tenga ko...

"I can only do this much for you"

??!!!!??!!!?!!!

H-hinalikan nya ako!

Anong gagawin ko?!

Teka... Totoo ba to?!

Ipinkit ko ang mata ko nung ipinasok nya ang kanyang dila sa loob ng bibig ko... tanging pag bukas lang ng bibig ang nagawa ko dahil hindi ko pa to naranasan sa buong buhay ko...

Parang sasabog ang dibdib ko sa nangyayari...

Hindi ako makapaniwala...

Na hahalikan ako ni Keiji....

This is my first kiss....

Nung huminto sya ay nakaramdam ako ng pagkadismaya...

"You suck at kissing but I don't blame you, someone like you probably haven't had their first kiss, Anyway, That somehow made your dream came true, even if it was a bit. Your welcome"

Aalis na sana sya pero piniglan ko sya... bago pa sya makalabas ng pinto..

"C-can you do it with me...?"

Gusto kong maramdaman kung ano ang pinaramdam nya sa babaeng yun..

Earlier..

I was about to touch myself...

"What? I told you i can't do it with you, I'm afraid I could puke looking at your face and you don't have any experience.. So.. get out of my fcking sight and Move."

"If I change myself and be better than them then.. will you do that to me..?"

Tinignan nya naman ako ng ilang segundo..

"Move."

Umatras nalang ako at pinalabas sya ng room...

Tinignan ko sya habang naglalakad sya palayo..

Hinawakan ko naman ang labi ko... nakaramdam agad ako ng matinding pagkabog ng dibdib nung maalala ko yung nangyari...

I never thought he would do that, I never thought that he would notice someone like me..

Keiji Aihara...

I'll do anything... to get your attention.. again.. but this time, it will be different..

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

"Mom."

"Megan? What is it?"

"Can I ask for something?"

"Tell me. I'm busy doing my work."

"I want to get a surgery."

"What?! Why?!"

"Mom can't you see?! The way I look, no one ever wants to talk to me! And everyone is making fun of my appearance! I'm sick of this! Mom I want to experience what It feels like to have everyone look at you and praise you! Sawang sawa na ako sa mga nangyayari saken------"

"Okay."

"What?"

"I'll have an appointment. What surgeries do you want?"

"Mom.. A-are you serious..? Akala ko hindi ka-----"

"Tell me, megan. I'm busy so don't waste my time."

"My face. I want it to be done.. I want to change it fully.. Also my.. body.."

"Megan are you thinking about changing your whole appearance?!"

"Mom please!!!"

"Oh god.."

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

I took a break for months because of the surgeries I've had..

The school only lent me modules, sheets and papers for me not to fail while taking a break..

It was hard..

Everything about my body is painful but as time goes by.. It slowly went away..

Until the day where I am completely healed finally came...

Right when I was about to step at the campus.. everyone is looking at me..

They were amazed about how I look..

And when I entered my classroom, pinagdagsaan ako ng lahat.. na hindi sila makapaniwala na nagbago na ako..

Girls got jealous of me.. Guys are hitting on me..

Everyone who tried to mess me before apologized..

Ang laki ng nagbago sa buhay ko..

Only because I got beautiful and a perfect figure..

I've never.. heard someone said that to me before.. instead, they were insults..

But now..

My world turned upside down..

I abandoned my old self.. and made a new version of myself..

"Megan.. H-hindi pa rin ako makapaniwala.. n-na babaguhin mo halos yung buong katawan mo.. Akala ko yung acne-------"

"It's not enough for him to notice me."

I got.. the attention I've been finally waiting for my whole life..

But...

He... still never looked at me no matter how hard I try...

"Megan.. Ganun mo na ba talaga kagusto si Keiji? You went as far from doing this just for him to notice you?"

"Well.. It's still not that bad at all.. I got to live like a normal girl because of it. Why do you seem so upset? Is it because... the boy's attention went from you to.... me?"

"Hindi yan yung ibig kong sabihin."

"Hey Rhian.. you told me.. Keiji doesn't like virgins.. right?"

"O-oo.. bakit?...."

"Why don't we... go to the club and mess around..?"

"Don't tell me you------"

"I want to be good at it.. and I won't learn if I don't experience it myself.."

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I lost my virginity.

And had multiple sexual encounters after that only because I want to be good at doing it..

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"Rhian!! Bakit?!! Kahit anong gawin ko bakit hindi nya ako mapansin? Binago ko na yung sarili ko para lang sa kanya pero walang kwenta lahat ng yun! Sinubukan ko syang lapitan but he's always giving me cold shoulders! Isn't my appearance enough?!"

"Megan tama na yan..."

"But I like him.. and I want him to notice me..."

"Don't cry... We're going to graduate tomorrow and enter college so we should celebrate.."

"I promised to myself that I'll get his attention before I graduate but I failed.."

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Weeks after graduating from high school... I found out that Keiji is going to study in Laketon University, I tried to enroll there but..

"Megan, You're going to study in Wallstonecraft Academy on your university year."

"But mom-----"

"Enough. I'm already the school principal and your dad is the owner! Aren't you ashamed of yourself?! Dun ka papasok sa ibang skwelahan?! Balak mo bang sirain at ipahiya yung pangalan natin ha?! Megan?!!"

"I understand.."

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I have no choice but to study in Wallstonecraft Academy.. where I can't see him anymore..

A year after college... I found out that Keiji has someone he's close with that's studying in the same school as me..

His name is Kai Seojoon Lee and he's a member of SGA ever since freshmen year..

So..

I asked my mom to let me in the SGA.. without any efforts, I become a member only because...

I want to get close to Kai Seojoon.. and use him to get closer with Keiji and see him again after all these years..

But..

That guy.. is hard to get along with.

He's treating everyone the same with that emotionless face and coldness of his voice.

I tried to get close to him but he seems to have this big wall between him and other people.. that no matter how much you put an effort for you to get close with him, it will be useless unless he let's you in himself.

In the end.. my efforts were all useless..

That guy won't help me afterall.

I won't be seeing Keiji anymore... I don't know anything about him but there has not been a day where I don't think of him..

I like him... so much that I'm going insane...

Just when I thought I won't see him anymore...

A student exchange program has been mentioned during the SGA meeting..

And he's that student....

From then on.. I immediately grabbed the chance..

A chance that was given by the destiny for us to meet again...

~~~ END OF FLASHBACK ~~~

"But that... was all ruined because of that fcking Meiko!!"

*Knock*Knock*

"Ma'am. Megan, It's been 30 minutes, your mom will be worried if we haven't gone home."

Ah.. these impatient pests..

"I'm almost done!"

I fixed my things and went outside the classroom where my bodyguard is already waiting.

"Let's go."

As we are walking, students bid at me goodbye. They all know I'm the daughter of the school principal.. and the owner.

No one ever tried to mess with my life here but if they do.. they'll regret it... I'll make them regret it...

Pinagbuksan naman nila ako sa kotse pagkatapos naming makalabas sa main gate.

"Hurry cause I still need to do something at home."

"Understood."

Pinaandar naman ng driver ang kotse..

I leaned my head to the seat and stared at the window...

????

Wait....

Is that.. Keiji's car in front of us?

I'm certain of it..

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"Si Keiji.. hindi na sya umuuwi ng bahay.. we're not in good terms kaya hindi ko muna sya makakausap.. Sorry.. pero hindi kita matutulungan.."

~~~~

"Ethan."

"Yes, ma'am?"

"Take note the plate number of that car."

"Copy that."

He listed Keiji's plate number on a note.

"I want you to.. track the location of that car."

"Yes ma'am."

Ethan Ryu is my 29 year old bodyguard, since I entered high school. He's an EX-detective and undercover spy because of his big debt to our family.. that reached almost a billion.

The reason of that debt is confidential that only my parents know about.

He can't afford it himself without any help of who he's working for but It's his own problem so he has to deal with it himself... So in exchange, he quit his job and offered to be my bodyguard, My family immediately approved it for my security.

Not only he's my bodyguard but... he also do any dirty work..

Whenever I want to do a background check on someone, or track their location, he's the only one I could count on.

"Is he someone you're interested with right now?"

"So what if he is?"

"I see."

⏩⏩ FAST FORWARD ⏩⏩

"You're late, Megan. Class has already been dismissed two hours ago."

My mom said when she noticed my presence. She's in the living room watching TV.

Dad is always busy at work that he always come home late.

"I was doing something in the office."

"Eat the dinner chef prepared for you after cleaning up yourself"

"I'll skip for dinner, ma."

I went to my room upstairs at humiga sa higaan ko..

This day has been so tiring... but..

That Meiko Guilherme.. Is she that  stupid..?

She immediately believed my kindness without any hesitation.

Is that why she got fooled by Keiji?

No.. Not anymore..

Cause Keiji... is already harboring feelings for her!!

That he can't even get her.. out of his mind!!!

He was calling her name while doing it with me the first time..

Yeah..we had sex.. but his mind is with someone else when we did it!!

"Meiko you fcking bitch!!!!"

I threw my phone on the floor because of the irritation I'm feeling!

He only did it with me because of that deal.. if the deal didn't happened, I'm sure... I'm just an air that passes by him..

Keiji will never pay any attention to you if it weren't for doing it.. It's like he's a man made for sex without any emotion..

He doesn't care if people get attached or wants to be with him.. He will do whatever he wants without caring about it..

He's incapable of feeling any emotion and he doesn't give a fck about his reputation..

That day where we did it the first time.. He was calling another name..

'Meiko'

Tinandaan ko yung pangalan na yun.

And I did everything to find out who that Meiko is, thanks to Ethan, I got to know her relationship with Keiji and their paren'ts background..

I had a hunch why he's calling that name while doing it with me.. but I ignored it because Keiji will try to mess with whoever he wants..

But..

"Don't you fcking dare do or say anything that will ruin her or my damn image"

It was the first time he's worried about his and that Meiko's image..

That got me thinking that keiji.. cares for her..

And I hate it....

After that, I did everything.. to know them more.. with Ethan's help..

That's why..

I know what's going on between the three of them.

Ivan, Meiko and Keiji..

I knew that Keiji has feelings for her because I followed him after I eavesdropped his and Kai's phone call before School fair..

And it was confirmed when I spied on them during the school fair on the rooftop..

It seems like he ended up telling Meiko he likes her after seeing Meiko and Ivan..

After going out in the room, he seems devastated.. so I followed him around, there's only one place he will always go to.. and that's Vannya Eshana's bar, one of the people he's close with.

I figured he was rejected.. so I did everything to help him and get his mind out of that wench..

But...

I still.. can't do it..

He just can't forget her...  He cares for her.. so much that I got mad because of jealousy...

Keiji wants to change... he's slowly changing because of her yet that bitch... has the fcking nerve to reject him!!!

But it's fine.. since I can make my move now that he knows he doesn't stand a chance for her anymore.

He'll give up anytime soon.. and be with me..

It will take time but I'm willing to wait for that to happen..

Haha...

Who am I kidding?

~~~

"Shut up.. I don't fcking need you and I barely fcking know you. Even if you fcking kneel in front of me, I will never take an interest in someone like you. Now get off me and fck off"

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"AAAAAHHHHHH!!!!!"

I screamed my lungs out dahil sa matinding galit na narararamdam ko.

"MEIKO YOU BITCHHH!! You ruined everything!!! Why can't he get you of his mind?!!! Fcking bitch!!!"

What does Keiji likes about her huh?!!! That even if she ignores him he will fcking chase her around!!!!

Keiji never chased anyone yet she....

"FCKKK!!!"

*RINGGGGGGG!!!! RINGGGGG!!!*

I grabbed my phone on the floor and answered the call from Ethan.

This better life my mood up or else..

[I found the car owner's location and It's already been sent to you]

"Alright."

That was quick.. as expected from someone like Ethan, having him as a bodyguard surely is useful.

I went to my computer and opened the address he sent to me on my email then searched it on the google maps..

Haha... So this is where he's staying...

An hour drive from here...

I took a screenshot of the location and sent it to my phone..

*Message Notification*

Who's number is this that texted me?

I opened the message and...

From: 0915XXXXXXX

This is Keiji. My last day on the school is in three days right? I'll leave on that day and I won't ask for any extensions. Btw, I'll block your damn number tomorrow so don't go try contacting me again and get your face out of my sigh from now on.

W-what?

He's leaving the school?

Right.. he asked for an extension weeks ago..

What should I do? Hindi na ba kami magkikita?

No!!! It can't be!!!

I called his number and he answered it.

"Keiji! You can't do this! I can still ask my mom to get an exten-------"

[Did you understand what I said on the text huh? Or are you just fcking dumb not get it? I'll leave your fcking school in three days and won't come back. Now don't ever try to stop me or you are damn dead to me!]

*End call*

I see... I can't do anything about it then...

.
.
.

What about... A farewell party...? I want us to have fun together on his last day there..

I went to the living room..

"Mom."

She's doing something on her laptop..

"What is it this time, Megan."

"I want to organize a farewell party on the last day of Student Exchange Program."

She closed her laptop and stared at me.

"What you're asking for is complicated, Megan. You're delaying our school's lesson and activity because of that nonsense party you're asking for. It's not even on the school's event list!"

"Mom please! I know you and dad can do anything about this!!"

"Megan-----"

"I just want to have fun! Y-you see... Keiji Aihara-----"

"That Keiji again huh?! Megan?!"

"Mom please!!!!"

"Did Keiji asked for it himself?"

"N-no.. It was me.. I just want us to spend time together on his last day.."

"I see. If he weren't the son of your dad's close friend I wouldn't even agree to this, Megan."

"Thanks Mom!"

I hugged her from behind..

"Now go to your room and get some rest."

"Okay!"

I went back to my room and lay in my bed..

*Ringggg*Ringggg*

[Yes, ma'am megan?]

"Ethan, I asked my mom for a farewell party on our school. I'll sneak drinks secretly but no one should know about it.."

[Alright. I can do that. I'll be on your school that day and I'll sneak one for you. I can disguise as a student to get in---]

"It's an open house so outsider will be able to get in."

[Okay. What else do you want me to do?]

'Meiko is pure and innocent....'

I heard those words on Keiji's phone call with Kai long ago..

Is that why Keiji took a liking of her..?

Because she's pure and innocent...

I see...

If that's what made him like her then.... I'm going to ruin it...

"Love drugs and aphrodisiac.. Sneak one for me, I need it that day."

Let's see if he can still call her pure and innocent..

[Got it.]

"No hesitation as always. That's what I like about you, Ethan. Then, I'll be counting on you"

I'll ruin the image of meiko that's on your mind Keiji... and when that happens.. I wonder if you could still like her the same way...?

For now, I'll take advantage of her kindness for me to able to do what I'm going to do...

Prepare yourself, Meiko Guilherme.

In three days, you'll get to see... a different side of you...

*****

To be continued...