If anyone did not notice, this is a double update, so please go back and read the chapter before this as this is just part 2 of that.
Looking back on our past,
I see now that we were never meant to be.
And even though it was you,
I was still mostly me.
I pushed our love to the limits,
And brought us to the brink of insanity.
And sitting here alone,
I wish I could undo my mistakes.
Maybe then my mind be silent,
But the past, my future never escapes.
And the peace I wish I could attain,
Is one my mind yet still, awaits.
And I apologize to all those I hurt,
When I was fighting for my life,
Silently, behind closed doors.
Please understand that I could not accept,
The help that you offered,
As this wars, was never yours.
Sitting on the floor surrounded by broken mirrors,
Because I could not accept,
The ghost of a person that I have become.
Covering my ears could not quiet the voices,
And to my many fears,
I would rather be numb.
Shamiah James Blugh
Ghost - Part 2
Created on October 29th, 2021