SHEHNAAZ
" Jejz sirf chedne ke liye bolti thi, sachi wale kab ban gaye aap" Sanchi spoke.
" Bahut lambi kahani hai bro, Aaja aaram se batayenge " Sidharth spoke and she nodded.
I admired them both with my moist eyes, no don't get me wrong, neither am I meena kumari, nor the bahus' of the Indian television these were those khushi ke aansu type ka kuch, I mean Sanchi and Sidharth both have their own importance in my life, choosing one isn't an option and finding them gelling with each other is something I am so happy with.
"Kahan kho gayi madam", Sanchi spoke clicking her two fingers in front of me in her typical English Accent that I smiled at her.
" Part time business hai iska khayalo main kho jaana, I don't know itna kya kamati hai be ye usse, bahar aana pasand hi nhi hain I'm telling you Dude " Sidharth smirked.
" Kutta" I muttered under my breathe.
" Should I actually tell you kal kaun kutto jaise behave kar raha tha " He spoke making Sanchi frown but I widened my eyes in horror when I understood he is talking about the marks present all over his neck and the nail marks on his back when we.... Okay let's not talk about that.
" What the Fuck yaar Sidharth " I spoke throwing a cushion at him which he dodged as usual.
"Hogaya Ya rehta hai" Sanchi asked in a bore tone and we both looked at her realising we had a spectator with us all the while.
"Sanu, what are you doing here like this", she continued looking at me from top to bottom as I was standing in a beige chiffon saree ok let's not go to the color haina, a saree was what mattered her I know, I hated saree she knew, bestie for a reason.
"Bas aise hi", I shrugged knowing it's a lot I need to tell her.
"Aaja baith thak gayi hoon main", I spoke making her sit besides me on the sofa as I was drained of energy with all the events running in my head.
"You didn't slept last night right", she said studying me intently something she does often when she finds I'm hiding a lot of things.
"Shehnaaz", before I could respond to Sanchi I heard Maa calling my name from inside.
"Aayi Maa", I shouted before turning to Sanchi and speaking, Abhi aati hoon, Tu yahi wait kar ya udhar room main chali jaana, Sidharth you see her na please, I requested before going in Maa's room.
*
"Ji Maa", I said entering her room only to find her with a dupatta in her hands, it looked Royal, as if a wedding chunri.
"Shehnaaz bacha dekh kaisa lag raha hai", she said making space for me to sit.
"Bahut pyaara hai Maa", I replied honestly.
"Kal subah sargi ke waqt odhogi" , she asked with a hope packing and giving it to me.
"Lekin Maa Ye aapka "....
"Bacha Humari shaadi ka hai aur humesha se apni bahu ke liye sambhaal kar rakha tha, Nimisha aur Sidharth ki shaadi ki baat hui thi tab nikaala tha par Nimi ne bola bahut old fashioned hai isliye phir kabhi nhi nikala, Par kal ka vrat main pehli baar Sidharth ko kisiko rakhte hue dekhungi na isliye, only if you are comfortable no pressure haan.... "
She spoke getting emotional.
"Maa Nimisha ko I don't personally and isliye I won't say why she said that, but isse pyaara dupatta maine kahi nhi dekha, aur isme aapka aashirvad hai na ise zyada pyara toh kuch ho hi nhi sakta", I said taking the packet from her hands.
"Hume naaz hai apne bache ki pasand par, agar aap uska uss gahr chodne ki vajah thi, if he didn't married Nimisha because of you, toh hum bahut khush hai", she spoke happily and I felt guilty once again, she so wishes him to be settled and what are we doing is to only keep her in a blind, but I composed myself thinking of all that Sidharth spoke last night.
"Maa kuch puchu", I said hesitating and she nodded.
"Agar Aapko Nimisha pasand nhi thi... Matlab aapne....".
"Reyaansh ko pasand thi Sidharth ke liye, voh Sidharth se pyaar karti thi aur Sidharth ne bhi hume kabhi nhi bataya ki voh usse pyaar nhi karta, toh hum mana kaise karte " she spoke and I tried finding out what does it mean.
Maa....
"Shehnaaz hum ek bahut chote ghar se the, vahan pati joh kahe lakeer hota tha, so I never tried to".... She shrugged and I have one more reason to hate the society,
"Maa lekin humari khud ki bhi toh iccha hoti hai na, Matlab Sidharth aapka bhi toh beta tha, aapke bhi toh.... "
"Ye baat Tum bache samajhte ho Bacha, samaj Or duniya nhi, anyways kya baat lekar baith gayi, Nimi Sidharth ki sirf dost hai aur tum biwi, he loves you and you love him too, tumhare do pyaare se bache hai aur kya chaiye mujhe, mere bache khush toh main bhi khush, chal ab jaa thoda rest kar le, mujhe pta hai tu raat se nhi soyi hai and ye theek nhi hai bacha, jaa so jaa thodi der aur kal bhi thakavat rahegi" she said concerned and my eyes got filled with un shed tears.
"Arey kya hua, rone kyun lagi" she asked caressing my hairs.
"Maa... Maa ki yaad aa gayi", I spoke trying to smile.
"Arey isme kya hai, Sidharth ko bol thode din tujhe tere ghar chod aayega, ya phir tu khud chali jaa bacha, mil kar aa jana", she said and she thought only if that was possible.
"Nhi Maa theek hai", I said trying not to cry but my family was still a sensitive topic for me.
"Bacha dekh teri aankhen keh rahi hai, something is not right between you and your parents, tujhe lage batana chaiye toh humesha hoon main tere pass aur nhi toh it's ok because aapki life hai voh but bacha yaad rakhna, zindagi bahut choti hai gille shikwe toh bahut rakh sakte hai par kal kya hoga kisiko nhi pta, baad main rone se better hai aaj thoda dard seh lo, samajh rahi hai na" she spoke and I nodded trying to register her words, actually she is correct.
"Aur agar nhi baat hoti toh kya hua, main bhi toh Maa jaisi hi hoon, jab man kare aa jana mere pass, vaise bhi jab tak idhar hoon tu kuch karne nhi degi, toh kuch toh chaiye", she joked.
"Beti ke hote hue aap kaam kyun karoge Maa, aur jab tak matlab kahan jaana hai aapko", I asked.
"Beta Reyaansh idhar na hi rahe toh better hai tum sab ke liye, Sidharth media se kitni dur rehna chahta hai ye toh tum bhi jaanti ho aur aaj joh hua dekha maine, Main nhi Chahti tum bacho ki zindagi par asar padhe haina, Reyaansh aur Sidharth I don't know kabhi same page par aayenge ya nhi, toh unko ab saara time toh akele nhi chod sakti, biwi hoon thoda dhyaan toh udhar bhi dena padega", she replied and I nodded in understanding.
"Maa Joh bhi interview main hua kiski galti thi mujhe nhi pata, but ho gaya na, Sidharth bhi pakad kar baith gaya hai iss baat ko, aap mat, lijiye tension bp badh jayega " I spoke concerned.
" Tu Bahut achi hai" She spoke pecking my forehead and I was lost in the feeling of the motherly love I craved for the past 5 years but still I was sensitive on some topics.
" Ache toh aap bhi ho na" I mumbled because it was nothing but the truth. A common saying 'Ache insaan ko sab acha lagta hai', then Maa hai voh toh voh bhi Sidharth ki achi toh hongi hi.
*
I could hear Sidharth's and Sanchi's voice from our room as the gate was opened but the voices were very muffled. I tried eavesdropping but was only able to hear, " This you better ask her".
I entered as if I didn't heard anything.
"Hey Guys! What's up!" I spoke before keeping the dupatta safely on the dressing table.
"Ye toh Maa ka dupatta hai na", Sidharth exclaimed.
"Unhone hi diya hai, isilye bulaya tha", I replied and he nodded.
"Wait a second guys, you share this room", Sanchi exclaimed eyeing each and every corner of the room.
"Maybe" I replied and she shouted.
'What the fuck!!! Sanu You were against live in's right, fuck live-in's when did you end up in a relationship, when did you just confessed being in love, when did you even gave it a thought guys!! What the fuck, when the fuck did you both grew so closer ", she shouted at the top of her voice.
"Sanchi shsh Maa hai neeche kya sochengi", I asked afraid of the voices going out.
"Maa yahan tak baat pahunch gayi, fuck Shehnaaz don't tell me aaj ka shaadi wala article bhi sach hai, vaise jeejz aapne bataya nhi Reyaansh Srivastav ke bete ho aap", She asked.
"Sanchi, Zaroorat nhi padhi na kabhi ye batane ki ", he said in an amused tone.
"Sorry I know this was supposed to be your right, but let it be bro, I need details, What the fuck is happening here", she exclaimed.
"Fuck off Dude, can you please low down your pitch", I shouted back and saw Sidharth standing up and closing the door before coming back to the position he was sitting in.
"I need Answers, it's just two days I wasn't here and wait a second, Aahnik ka aur tera luggage bhi nhi tha vahan, tum dono yahan permanent shift ho gaye kya", she wondered aloud.
"kuch nhi hua hai worth of giving details", I retorted failing obviously. This was Sanchi we were talking about.
"Dude you both living under one roof, same room, you trying to hide the marks on your neck which are not hidden from my eyes, and you believe I'm a ch***ya..." She exclaimed and I looked at Sidharth embarrassed only to see him smirking.
"I should leave", he spoke standing up
"One second you just can't escape everything", I spoke pushing him back to sit.
"Baby, you sort this aafat out yourself yaar", he spoke.
"What's Aafat" Sanchi asked.
"Something sort of....", I was about to complete it when Sidharth said something making me shut my mouth.
"Soch le Shehnaaz, main aisa kuch bataunga na phir", he said rubbing his lower lip which still has the mark of how hard I have bitten him.
"Whoa!! Sanu ko bhi chup karwa sakti hai kya koi", Sanchi spoke.
"Sakta hai", Sidharth corrected it.
"Sidharth uski hindi ko chod, jaa tu Maa ke pass jaakar kar apna kaam", I sighed exhausted.
"Shehnaaz tu theek hai na", He asked concerned getting up at once and I nodded.
"Baby fast important nhi hai tu hai , agar zyada kharab hui tabiyat toh kal he whispered in my ears concerned and I saw Sanchi staring us but keeping her mouth shut as if waiting for Sidharth to leave.
"I'm fine baba, Aap apna kaam kar lijiye", I spoke flashing him a genuine smile.
*
"Now tell me what's happening Sanu", she asked concerned.
"I think I like him Sanchi, I confessed because I need to went it out to someone and Sanchi is the only one I have, I mean yes I have Ashu and Nidhi but I don't know what has got into her that she just can't take me with Sidharth and I don't wanna stress out Ashu"
"You like him as in love him.. ", She confirmed.
"Not Love yaar, maybe something beyond that too, Love na bahut delusional word hai, I mean through been it once vapis nhi jaana uss gali, it's nothing such but phir bhi nhi", I spoke trying to be as vocal as I could.
"You sure Shehnaaz ?", She asked and I nodded, she just engulfed me in a hug and whispered.
"Usko tab batana jab tu sure ho, like you are damn sure that he is the one for you, otherwise I'm happy for you, he is a gem Sanu.."
"He is.... " I spoke as there's no doubt in it.
"Aur ye Maa ka kya chakkar hai?" She asked raising her brows and I told her the entire episode.
"Fuck... You sure you wanna do it, you remember doctor asked you not to fast as your bp is already low, and it can drop down if you fast " she spoke concerned and I nodded.
"I am fine Sanchi chill dude" , I said and her phone rang displaying "❤" And I raised my brows just like she did a few minutes ago.
"Haan Baby, I will call you later, hnn baby in evening, yeah Oka see you " she picked up the call and declined it in a minute blushing.
'Oho Baby and all haan, kon hai ye laal dil wala insaan, Parth toh Just friend tha na" I teased.
"No one", she tried controlling herself.
"Aise toh nhi chalega bachu, bata kon hai", I asked.
"Tere aur jeejz jaise just friends", she spoke laughing and I sighed.
"Impossible hai Tu", I spoke smacking her head slightly smiling.
"Voh toh hoon main", She spoke flipping her hairs.
"Vaise wasn't he an ill mannered man a few months ago", I asked suspiciously as these were her wordings when she met him for the first time.
"Cute he is", she spoke smiling.
"Is He?" I further teased her.
"Vaise you two, Did you guys have made out" already she asked suspiciously and I turned red at the question I know.
" My God! Sanu look at you are itna kya sharma rahi hai, like I have walked on you both making out" She squealed.
" Fuck off yaar Sanchi" I spoke still blushing I knew.
" This is what just friends is" She teased.
" Hmm It is just like you and Parth" I teased back and it was her time to blush now.
"Shut Up, And take care, I will see you soon, gotta go baby", she spoke before running outside and I just laughed seeing her but I need to be careful regarding this.
*
"Sidharth", I called him once I saw him entering the room, stressed he looked.
" Bache so gaye" He asked opening his shirt and sliding on the T-shirt.
"Hmm", I spoke going near him on the bed and hugging him sideways.
We both were quiet for the longest time possible.
"Shehnaaz", He mumbled and taking my silence as a yes he continued,
"Shehnaaz you remember the day I called Nidhi but fortunately enough you picked up the call I knew somewhere deep down I have lost my case but then Ashu told me about your Kid and I like every other person thought of you to be married.
Phir destiny brought you to the project and with time I realised you are important for me, bas kabhi himmat nhi hui because I always thought you to be married, but then you spoke all that about Vedant and your past and I felt a need to protect you, I know you could have but your innocence na Shehnaaz I needed to keep it intact, we grew closer not that I waited for a chance but eventually we did, Tum meri rooh se jud gayi thi, you could understand me like no one ever did, tbh Maa ki bahut yaad aati thi, Aadia thi but I missed her, I missed having a family you know perks of being born with a silver spoon, I hated politics but I loved my family.
Then with you I felt I found everything I desired". He spoke and I shuddered at his words.
"Sidharth I really don't know what I feel for you is love or not but...." I was cut of by his eyes that screamed only truth that how genuinely he loves me.
"Sidharth Tu meri zindagi nhi but uska ek bahut bada hissa hai, I can't even imagine how would I live if someday I don't find you near me, I don't know how would it work for me if someday destiny has some other plans, I know I'm not as vocal as you but tujhe dikhta hai na, Tu bahut zaroori hai mere liye, par my past holds such an impact na Sidharth that pyaar karne se dar lagta hai, but thank you for coming in my life Sidharth and giving me this world", I spoke genuinely kissing his forehead.
"Ye thank you hamare beech main zaroori nhi hai meri jaan, I don't know kitna sath hai but ek cheez I know Tu zindagi hai meri, your decision matters but even if you walk out of my life na trust me I will be there, gussa hounga, shayad naraaz bhi par nafrat toh kabhi nhi hogi, Nimisha se kya tha pata nhi tujhse kya hai ye pata hai, aur Aadia toh teri bachi hai na, I heard her calling you Mumma today, sukoon mila mujhe usse kabhi dur nhi karunga tujhse I promise", he spoke caressing my face.
"Nhi Sidharth, Nhi jaa rahi kahin faltu kyun soch raha hai " , I spoke unable to get from where was this coming.
"Hmm kuch nhi soja it's late sargi ke liye uthna bhi hai"
I felt him tightening his grip bringing me back from the overthinking too and I smiled at him.
"You asked something yesterday night na Sidharth", I asked gazing at the moon out of the window from his room
"Tujhe chand bahut pasand hai na", he asked changing the topic.
"Bahut", I replied.
"But tu chant mat ban, bata rahi thi na main kuch" I whined and he laughed throwing his head back.
"Cartoon hai be tu, kabhi aap kabhi tu, kya chaiye be tereko", he said in between his laugh.
Cartoon? I asked..
"Meri personal, favorite exclusively meri", he replied and I blushed but composed myself soon.
"Aap jab mereko aap-pe bahut zyada pyaar aa raha ho, like not love wala love but haan, aur tu jab aao mereko tang kar rahe ho", I replied that hardly made a sense but he catched something I don't know why I even spoke that.
Pyaar? He looked at me amused.
"Usko chodo, aapke kal raat wali baat ka jawaab, I won't leave you ever, I don't know if I would be able to reciprocate it or not, but I would cherish this bond, us forever till I'm alive", I said.
"And I will always make you believe that I love you, I might behave as a jerk but I will try I would be the best you could find", he replied.
"Aap aise hi best hai Sidharth", I spoke.
Sidharth....
Hmm....
Parth kaisa insaan hai? I asked after fighting with my inner feelings for an hour now.
Matlab, he turned me to look at him after breaking the hug.
Parth I mean aapko pta hoga na, how is he nature vise aap samajh rahe hain na, I asked hesitating.
Acha insaan hai, Hardworking, passionate about his carrier well mannered, he spoke and I nodded hugging him again, from few days it has been like I couldn't get away from him, I crave for his warmth all the time nowadays, he loves me and I want to exploit it, I want him to pamper me and love me like no one could ever do. I kept my head on his chest listening to his heart beats and he held both of us.
Kyun pucha tune, He asked playing with my hairs.
Sanchi likes him and I don't want her to go through something which I went, she is so precious for me, I mumbled.
Shehnaaz let her explore, Parth is a very good human meri jaan, they will be happy and if it doesn't work out I am sure they will never hate each other he spoke and I nodded.
"So jaye " I asked and he nodded hugging me close to himself.
•••
Vaise someone looks nice in a saree, he said nuzzling his head in my neck, it was 10 in the night and I was dresses in the blue saree he liked. To say I was happy seeing his eyes shining seeing me would be an understatement. I was elated, I was contented. We were just done with the puja and Fast which I had to keep for the whole day, but I was touched by something else, Sidharth too chose to keep the fast for me.... Matlab Vedant would have not even cared and here this guy.... Okay sorry not comparing but quite natural haina, to Compare the past and present.
Ab kya kare tumhari pasand hai hi itni sexy, I teased flipping my hairs.
I know right, saree achi hai na, he spoke and I hit him slightly annoyed.
Awa baby you are the sexiest for me,soch bhi nhi sakti how have I been controlling myself, he whispered in ears biting my earlobe and I went red.
Shut up, I exclaimed.
Aww baby I won't mind but you see sab dekh lenge mereko vaise yahan,he spoke and I tried understanding what he meant, but then I realised that we were on terrace and he took the literal meaning.
Sidharth I swear muh tod dungi tera, I said.
Aww gussa ho gayi come I have something for you, he spoke leading me to our room.
Kya... I tried asking him but he made me quiet and asked me to have patience.
Sidharth.....
Shshsh.... This is for you, he spoke and I gazed at him before looking inside the polybag only to wipe the unshed tears in my eyes.
I can't take this Sidharth, it was the same dress I liked yesterday.
But Sweetheart....
Ye bahut mehngi hai Sidharth and I can't afford this, I reasoned out the actual reason.
You can meri jaan, mujhe pta hai you wanted to secure Aahnik's future but I won't let you at the cost of your happiness, and specially not when you have me, he spoke
I have you doesn't mean I will take advantage of this fact, I argued.
Tujhe pasand hai na toh price kyun dekhna hai, he reasoned.
Because dekhna padhta hai Sidharth, I sighed.
Gifts are meant for cherishing the feelings not for judging the cost, he stated.
Lekin....
Tune bhi toh diya na sab ko ek gift, maa ko saree bachon ki aaj wali dresses, mujhe kurta, diya right toh le kyun nhi sakti he stated.
Because they aren't same baba, I spoke whatever came to my mind at the moment.
Now you shut up, pura mood kharab kar diya yaar, he said keeping the packet on the table near the dressing table and sitting on the bed.
Aww mood banana hai, should I help you, I said standing in between his legs and tracing his face with a middle finger but he suddenly rotated us making me squeal
Utna hi mazaak karna chaiye baby jitna seh sako, he replied standing up and I held his hand.
Bahut pyaari dress hai, thank you I spoke standing up and his eyes shone with intense happiness making me contended. He leaned closer towards my lips
We were about to close the distance between our lips when the door to our room was knocked making him groan.
Aadia Aahnik I asked opening the door.
Mumma neeni aai Aahnik spoke.
Toh soye toh the dono abhi, Sidharth asked.
Mumma ke saath sona hain, This time it was Aadia making me giggle.
Koi na Shehnaaz kal ye ghar par nhi honge he whispered in my ears and I hit him with my elbow smirking.
Aajao dono ko neeni karati hoon, I spoke and gestured them to come back to their room when they both ran and settled themselves on his bed .
Yahan Soyenge aaj, they squealed making me laugh at my cartoon kind of kids.
Life was so full for me nowadays that I really wanted this to be the same for ever.
°°°
Haan Uncle, Meri flight Mumbai ki... Kal ki shaam ki.
Good!
Shaam ko milti hoon Uncle.
Sure bacha!!!
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