Xiao Zhan
I can't believe what just had happened. I slapped myself a hundred times now, thinking how foolish I am.
How I wish I could just bury myself underneath, and disappear at that moment. I felt so envious of potatoes, at least they can hide away from the world.
I need a distraction.
I turned on the TV and scanned some channels.
"The Untamed, coming soon."
Oh God, I need some distraction, not something that reminds me of him!
I quickly changed the channel.
*music rolls*
*commercial: Uniq Wang Yibo for Head and Shoulders*
"Forget it!"
I turned off the TV and throw the remote away.
It's no use!
I stood up and jog in place trying to collect myself.
"Yeah, the canvas! I didn't open it yet. Where is it?"
I found it and gladly opened it.
This must be special because that little girl made an effort to give it to me.
I was dumbfounded when I saw what was drawn inside.
(Photo not mine: Credits to wallpapercave.com)
A tear rolled my eye without me realizing it.
I felt my knees soften like jelly so I sat down on my apartment floor.
Why am I like this? Do I like you, Wang Yibo? Am I losing my mind? Am I ... gay?
Questions flooded my mind and I don't even have an answer to any of these.
I never felt like this to anyone before. And I hate myself for it.
I looked at my watch, it's already 1 pm. Yibo told me last time that he has a photoshoot this day, so I think he's already there.
I quickly got up and took my keys. I need to see him. I need to confirm my feelings. I need to see him before I lose my mind.
***
I sneaked into Wang Yibo's agency. I wore a facemask and a black cap to disguise myself. Unfortunately, some staff still recognized me, so I just bowed down and quickly got out of their sight.
I went to the studio, but the area wasn't set up yet. I saw Yibo's assistant and slowly went to her.
"Mr. Xiao, what brings you here? Are you looking for Mr. Wang?"
I nodded slowly.
"Mr. Wang said that he can't make it today."
"What happened?"
I wrinkled my brows.
"I think he's not feeling well. I told him that he should see a doctor, but he refused to go."
"Thank you."
I nodded and went back to my car.
What if he's not okay? What if he'll be in danger?
I took out a spare key from my wallet.
Zhan-ge, if you're free you can always visit me, I will love it. Here's my spare key. Take that with you, so when you go here, don't knock anymore, and feel at home.
I remembered his exact words when he gave the spare key to me. I think, that it was meant to be for this day.
I drove past the traffic light, rushing to get to his flat.
When I arrived, I quickly parked my car and went to the 7th floor.
I hesitated for a while, but then I unlocked the door and slowly entered.
The lights are on, it means he's here.
I searched over the living room, he's not there. So I quickly went to the master bedroom.
And there he is, lying in his bedroom, covered with his thick blanket.
I went forward and sat beside him.
He's shivering, but his eyes are still closed. He looked like he's suffering, and my heart aches for him.
I touched his forehead. His fever is too high!
I ran towards the bathroom and get some towel. I also took some ice cubes from his refrigerator.
When all is complete, I went back to his bed and slowly wake him up.
"didi... Please wake up."
He didn't react. I squeezed the towel and gently place it on his forehead.
He shook from the sudden cold, but it didn't wake him.
I decided to leave it as is and went to the kitchen to prepare something.
Good thing he has some ingredients that I can use to make a porridge. Contrary to the character that I portrayed, I love cooking, and it's one of my specialties.
After some time, the porridge is ready. I got some medicine from his kit and went back to his room.
He is still lying, sleeping peacefully. At least, his trembling lessened.
"Wang Yibo, wake up now. You need to take your medicine."
I shook his shoulders, waking him up gently.
He opened his eyes slowly, then looked at his surroundings.
"didi, you're awake. You need to eat now and take your medicine."
I spoke.
"Zhan-ge?"
He got up abruptly, but then he stopped quickly.
"Careful!"
I helped him steady himself on his bed.
"Why are you here?"
He asked. Sigh. Is this how disgusted he is to me right now?
I brushed off the thought. He's sick, so his health is more important than my feelings.
"Don't ask, just eat this porridge, and take your medicine. Or else, I'll tell your manager to send you to the hospital."
He started eating, and I smiled.
***
After taking some meds, I told him to rest and he didn't resist.
I stared at this young man before me.
Flashbacks flooded my mind, the day when I accidentally kiss him again.
I felt his soft lips brush against mine, and I longed for deepness so I tried to move gently.
When I realized what I am doing, I jerked off and I saw him, his eyes is wide open!
I quickly stood up and ran away.
Just like that, I ran away like a foolish coward.
I sigh in desperation. How can I still face him?
I stood up and decided to clean his flat. Since he's sick, he won't have time to tidy things up.
I started cleaning the living room, then his gaming room. I remembered how we play in this room like we're betting our lives on it. I smiled at that thought.
I moved to the next room and noticed the room with a sign ''Unrestricted" posted outside. On the lower part of the door, there's another paper saying "For BJYX only". I'm so curious about what's inside, but I dare not peek inside.
After cleaning, I went back to his room and check on him for the last time.
His fever cooled down, thankfully.
I pat his head and brush his hair gently.
"Wang Yibo, you need to get well very soon. I'll call your assistant to assist you here. Remember, we have a shooting tomorrow, you should be there."
I talked to him as if he can hear me. I was about to go when suddenly...
"Zhan-ge... Please stay."
I turned around and saw his hand holding my wrist.
"Please, stay with me."
Yibo is talking, but his eyes are still closed.
I took a deep breath. How can I even resist this young man?
"Alright, I will."
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