I'm now here peaceful sitting as I watch the ocean and just keep on strumming the guitar.
I excused myself kanina habang na sa dining kami. It was after dinner. My kanya kanya kaming buhay ngayon, some of them are planning to go to the near resto, ang iba naman ay gusto kumain sa kabila, For sure Alijah, Caelum, kyler, Drystan, Alejandro is going manwhoring again.
Ang iba naman ay gusto mag tour tour at sila naman ni TOP ay nasa kabilang resto din. I'm strumming my guitar here harmonically nang my narinig akong boses sa likuran ko.
I didn't bother to look at him, dahil tuwing nakikita ko siya ay may naalala ko and kung saan talaga kaming ginawa ni Amanda na kapre sa description niya dahil nakita niya kami sa veranda.
I was so shy that time at wala akong alam kung ano ang gagawin ko. That bakla even blackmailed me na kapag hindi ako sumama sa kanya sa mall ay ipagsasabi niya ang he called 'KAPRE' sa veranda kaya ay sumama na lang ako and karma muntik namatay!
And ang ending iba pala ang ibig niyang sabihin.
"Good evening, masama naman siguro na mag isa lang ang magandang binibini dito" panimula niya at umupo sa tabi ko. Umangat ako ng tingin sa kanya. And smiled at him.
"Okay ka lang ba? ang tahimik mo habang kumakain ka kanina ni hindi mo nga napapansin ang pagtawag ni Amanda sayo? do you have a problem sweetie?" He asked in a manly tone.
He gently held my chin. Here he goes with his undearments again.
"Nope nothing, ayoko lang makipag usap!" simpleng tugon ko. Bago ngumiti.
But he wasn't convinced. He look at me with a worried expression. Malapit lang ang distansya ng mukha namin since he's looking at me intently and I felt uneasy while strumming the guitar at katabi ko siya that's why makikita niya ako.
"You're beautiful!" he uttered.
Agh! Gideon I know the night is sweet and romantic and it's cooperating with your fluttering words. Stop it!
"You're very beautiful to the point na hindi mo matatago sakin, kung may problema ka ba o my bumabagabag sayo" he seriously said. At doon na ako napatingin sa kanya.
"Anong ibig mong sabihin?" I asked in confusion.
"You cannot conceal it, I can see it through your face, your angelic face tells me that something's bothering you, ni hindi ka nga makakain eh, big deal ba sayong batang iyon?" dagdag pa niya. He emphasize the word BATA at hindi naman siguro ako nagmalikmata but I saw him stiffened.
When he said the last phrase. Tango lang ang tugon ko sa kanya. Yes! it bothers me, malakas ang kutob ko na may kilala silang bata noon, at hindi ko lang maintindihan kung bakit hindi ko kilala ang bata but there's something inside me that the kid is special.
Parang gusto ko malaman ngunit wala na akong nalaman na ibang detalye. That's why I ended up with the same answers. Wala, hindi, I don't know and a big QUESTION MARK.
"Forget about it Samantha wala kang makukuha diyan, it's nothing important!" He said.
Yan! din ang sinabi ni Alijah sakin. Tumahimik na lang ako nang ilang saglit.
"You know what bakit hindi na lang tayo mag mash up" he suggested. He smiled and wink at me. Sebastian's a good singer. Sige nga labanan natin, yumabang tayo kahit ngayon lang even were not competing.
"Sige you go first, ako dudugtong!" He said.
Okay! this isn't the first time that we sang together pero tangina nahihiya ako. He was looking at me again and I felt so uneasy about it. Bwesit ikaw pa naman tignan nang lalaking to!
"Para kang timang!" I hissed at him. Kinagat niya ang ibabang labi niya.
"Wala! I just miss this moment, yung tayo lang dalawa, kailan ba ang huli nating paguusap noong nandoon tayo sa veranda" He said. Umiwas siya nang tingin ako naman ay namula nang inisip ulit yun. Shit!
"Ano ba, Mag move on ka, forget about it" I annoyingly said.
"Easy for you to say, How can I forget about it? that was the best thing ever happened to me at hinding hindi na yun mawawala sa isipan ko, Everytime I kiss you ay hindi ko makakalimutan. I always put it on a note, the date kung kailan kita nahalikan. Tulad mo ang hirap tanggalin sa memorya! you're always stuck in my mind at wala akong balak na alisin ka doon" he said looking at me intently. For real Sebastian?
"Okay, Gideon!" I basically said at him and he chuckled.
"So if that means. Palaging may schedule kung hahalikan mo ko? so kailan naman? don't tell me may iba pang naka schedule?" Biro ko sa kanya.
"What? no! it's only you! Anong iba? Whole year ikaw ang naka schedule." Sabi pa niya at umiwas ng tingin. Tumawa naman ako ng malakas.
Kanina pa ako nag st-strum ngunit walang kumakanta. eh! ito pa namang lalaki dami pang palabas may pa ala ala pang nalalaman!
"So? How are you sa opisina mo? Palagi pa bang bumibisita si Cathy?" tanong ko. Napansin niya siguro na ayaw ko siyang tignan.
"Look at me" He ordered.
"What now? you're ordering me? bakit? para lang ipagmukha mo saakin na mas palagi kayong magkasamang dalawa sa opisina mo?" I said and strumming the guitar harshly as I look at the ocean.
I heard him chuckled. Posible bang kahit kinakamusta niya pa ako sa London ay alam kung nagpapakita sa kanya ang babaeng yun. Cathy's an heiress of the Luciano family. I knew her dahil once ay nakasama ko siya when I was still a model. And I know Cathy has a crush on him.
"Look at me Samantha," He said firmly again. Bahala ka diyan.
"Look Gideon, wala akong pakialam okay, walang wala kahit ikaw pa ang mag paligo sa kanya I don't care magsama kayo" I hissed at him.
Kumot ang noo niya. Okay! I was overboard he is not like that who will just flirt back if girls cling on him. Sige try mo Gideon! pupugutan kita nang ulo.
"Samantha?" I raised my brow at him at tinignan siya.
"Nagseselos ka ba!?" Gulat na tanong niya.
Pati ako nagulat. Wait? ako magseselos? bakit naman? ka ano ano ba kita para mag selos ako? were just friends- with benefits. No way! bakit kaya bang magpatayan si Cathy sakin? if he would sige ibigay ko si Gideon sa kanya.
Nagulat ako nang hinila niya ako at inakbayan. His face was so near na pati ang mabangong hininga niya ay mararamdaman ko na. The fuck? seriously you're going to kiss me in public Gideon? Wag na wag mong subukan.
"Nagseselos ba si Mrs. Imperial?" He asked with a lopsided smile. I look at him, as he look at me.
Ang lapit lang sakin and one move ay mahahalikan ko na siya. But before that happen ay itinulak ko na siya and focused my gaze on my guitar again. He groaned in disappointment. Bahala ka diyan.
"What made you think? na pumupunta pa siya sa opisina ko? well yeah! she does, but I don't ever think that I will waste a seconds with her" he explained. Why explaining, like I care Gideon.
"oh tapos?" Patay malisyang sabi ko.
"Yan lang" He lazily said.
"OK" tipid na sabi ko.
"Ayan ka naman eh! wag kang magselos dahil ikaw lang naman ang babaeng gusto ko, porket manhid ka" He said. The last phrase was already a whisper but I still heard it. I have wide ears Gideon. Be careful!
"Hey, watch your mouth Imperial" Inirapan ko siya. And he just chuckled.
"I only want you to be my first and my last, The First woman I'm crazy over with and the last Woman I'll spend for the rest of my life" He seriously said.
Okay enough, Sebastian this is your second time fluttering me. I just smiled at him. Bahagyang tumahimik kaming dalawa. Okay singing with him wasn't a good idea. That's when he suggested na mag inoman na lang kami.
Pero siyempre there's no way that I'll be drinking with him inside a room. Baka may mag ano pa- yung ano- basta! baka may may spooky na mangyayari.
Siya mismo ang bumili at hinintay ko lang siya malapit sa dalampasigan. When he arrived ay, I set aside the guitar. He even bought snacks for both of us.
"Sam tanong ko lang," Panimula niya.
"Fire!"
"Kung hindi ka ba naging agent noon, and now you're back to be one again ay magiging tayo ba?" seryosong tanong niya. Habang hindi inalis ang tingin sakin.
Natigilan ako sa pagngunguya ng pagkain dahil sa tanong niya. He would always ask this to me and palagi ko namang sinasagot na hindi ko alam. Actually I guess I already did kung hindi ako naging agent before.
Coz' I know na hanggang noon ay naghihintay na siya. But it's on the rules of TOP TOWER. Hindi pa pwede yan. And we're young that time. Hindi naman na bata pa but like I said I'm not yet ready.
"Oo?" Seryosong sagot ko rin. Direktang sabi ko wala ng siguro- siguro.
"Bakit ko naman ba sasayangin ang isang lalaki na nandiyan para sakin? I guess it's not yet the right time Gid. Alam mo naman yan." dagdag ko pa at nakita ko siyang ngumiti.
"Hindi nga ako nag kamali sa pagpili ng babae." he said in a whisper but I still able to hear it.
Marami pa kaming kwinento na dalawa. Even in the time na nasa London pa ako. And somehow, Nakalimutan ko naman ang mga katanongan na gusto ko isabi. I guess they're right. It's all nonsense.
Wala naman ako mapapala doon. Siguro normal lang na maalala ko ang mga bagay na yan.
Bakit ko naman pagdududahan ang mga taong palagi kong kasama? siguro nga wala namang ibang ibig sabihin ang mga to. Just dreams! yun lang.
Siguro nga.
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