12.15.16
'Birds don't sing, they just fall from of the sky
Girls don't call, and they never tell you why
That's just how they say goodbye' — tv girl
Today i was going to attend classes, go get a dress for the yule ball, i know it's last minute but i have been caught up with everything
i was supposed to go with elphias but now— i'm just third wheeling
i was in a deep sleep until that was ruined "wake up sleepyhead, don't want to be late for classes" i heard a faint voice as i was still half asleep
i felt a soft pillow hit my face, i gasped and sat up quickly
"you little bitch" i laughed out at cerelia "i'll get you back for that!"
"oh really let's see what you got" she taunted me, i quickly took the covers off of me, it was surprisingly warm
i chased her out of my dorm, i was only in shorts and a tee shirt
we ran down the common room steps out laughter filling up the empty common room
it was still dark outside as frost was around the windows you could see that it was snowing heavily
cerelia flopped down on the couch she was also still in her pajamas
she took up half of the common room couch as she rested her head on the arm of the couch
i sat on the other couch, as the fire made the castle much warmer than it already was
"lets go get hot chocolate out of the kitchens" cerelia suggested while looking at the fire
"yes please" i smiled and stood up, she followed behind me
we walked the corridors quietly making sure not to make much noise
we then busted out laughing as we saw a portrait of someone "wow they painted brilliant pictures" cerelia laughed
i laughed along with her, the thoughts of mattheo and elphias were completely gone
"for real" i agreed with her as we were both being sarcastic
she had lit her wand so we could see around us, the portrait frowned at us
we both dropped our smiles and gasped "shit i forgot you guys could talk" cerelia said, then started laughing
i chuckled "you know portraits have feelings too" the guy in the painting said seeming "sad" you could tell he wasn't actually he was just going along with us
"who's down there!" we heard a voice come from behind us it was loud but— faint
"it's filch" i said quietly, she nodded her head, "cmon" i grabbed her hand and we both started running
you could hear our feet hitting the ground as our breathing was irregular
we laughed quietly as we turned corners and ran down corridors
"shhh be quiet" i hissed at cerelia, while trying to contain my own laughter
we heard filch behind us, we picked up our pace and we finally lost him
we quietly opened the door to the kitchens it was decorated with christmas decorations the moonlight was shining in on the ground
it was pitch black besides the moonlight
cerelia said a spell and lit the wood, now a fire was going we let go of each other as she looked on the shelves
"they have cookie dough, mugs, pumpkin pie..." she trialed off
i'm rarely in the kitchen but it looked beautiful at night, sometimes
"ah that's it" she said as i looked at her and saw two hot chocolate packets
"okay now hurry" my voice was soft, i didn't want to make to much noise
"what time do you think it is" i said while sitting down on the ground by the fire place, i could feel the heat slowly coming towards me
i put my hands near the fire but don't worry not close enough where it will burn my flesh
"i think around 4am— after classes we are going to get dresses with scorpius, marco, max, leo..." she trailed off looking uncomfortable
"what is it?" i questioned her, she was hiding something from me
"well uhm... how do i say this—" she scratched the back of her neck uncomfortably while looking at the ground
i raised my eyebrow at her, she snapped her head up and looked me in the eyes "elphias and astoria insisted on going" she blurted out
i felt a knot in my throat form as my breath got slower i swallowed that knot in my throat hoping to speak clearly
"i- i don't understand... why would they want to go with us— we aren't there friends anymore" i was now furious, i was going to speak to him about this
"scorp, marco, still talk to him... max and leo refuse to talk to him" of course those two talk to the cheater still
"okay..."
"okay okay i'm done all it took was a bit of magic" she said excitedly then rushed over to me with two mugs
one of the mugs had Santa clause on it with a reindeer and the moon, the other had frosty the snowman with a red scarf and a hat
adorable i thought to myself, "be careful it's hot" i nodded, she handed me the one with frosty on it
i felt the warmth of the mug against my skin it was enough to warm up my hands
"i like these cups— i mean mugs" cerelia said quietly
— "it would be better if astoria was here though" my voice sounded hurt and fragile as i was hurt by what she did to me
"don't worry gen she will come around some day— don't take it harsh okay" she said, comforting me, her hand patted me on the back lightly
we both sat there drinking out of our cups i felt the warm liquid run down my throat the sweetness of chocolate coated my mouth and throat
after a few minutes i was finished, "okay i'll see you for breakfast" i said quickly then got up
"uh ok— where are you going, you must be in a hurry" she said raising her eyebrow, she had the face of confusion, i sat my cup on the counter
"i'll tell you at breakfast" i then rushed for the door
"everything?" she asked "yes everything..." i then ran off down the hall i was furious of course
i felt myself get pushed against the wall, my head hit the concrete wall "ow—" i hissed at the feeling
"fuck off riddle" i looked up into his cold, dark eyes, he had a few droplets of blood on his shirt— he put his wand up under my chin digging it into my skin
"what the fuck do you want!" i snapped at him, venom of hatred dripping off of my words
he took his other hand and pulled my hair back so that my neck was exposed to him
his breathing was erratic "who told dumbledore about granger giving me head... huh" he hissed at me— yes i was scared for my life he might actually kill me even though i didn't say a word to anyone
"i don't fucking know riddle maybe it was malfoys sister— why haven't you thought about her" i suggested her to him because i know how easily she can get jealous— she might have saw on accident, but how?
"wait— you might be right" his breathing slowed down and he let go of my hair then put his wand away
"anyways now that i know it's not you filthy witch, i'm going to go talk to malfoys sister and make sure granger can keep her mouth shut" he said while fixing himself up
"what about dumbledore?" i asked him while fixing my clothes
"oh he didn't believe she did, he sided with me— he's so stupid" laughed mattheo, he had a nice smile, i guess it was different from any other smile i saw. no get ahold of you're self gen. i thought to myself
i took a deep breath "i guess, i'll be on my way now" i took a few deep breaths my chest moving up and down slowly with each breath i took, he watched me carefully as he examined me
hatred swirled in his eyes, inky black eyes that saw things no one would ever want to see
"you know, if it was you who ran that stupid mouth of yours— you would have been dead by now" he sighed, running his fingers through his dark brown hair that was placed messily over his forehead
i walked away quickly i felt his hard stare in the back of my head, i know he hated me
Veronica's pov from last night—
i laid on my bed playing with my bleach blonde hair, i took a curl and wrapped it around my finger as i thought of riddle
he was perfect, i know he likes me back he has too! i thought excitedly, my thoughts were running in circles as he managed to take over my mind
i knew i loved him when i saw him, it was love at first sight, you know
his curly dark brown hair was placed on his head so perfectly, his cheek bones were just as perfect, his body was shaped like a greek god
my diary was filled with hogwarts drama, people i don't like, olivia— i never really like her but she is one of the popular people
i care about popularity even thought i'm a malfoy
but now my diary is filled with stuff about mattheo and my love for him
he will be mine one day— hopefully
i put my diary aside as i heard the door open— i skipped detention once he told me to go clean the room of requirement
"girl you will never guess what happened" said olivia excitedly as she jumped on my bed, she had a huge smile on her face, her cheeks were red as a cherry
"oh wow what is it?" i asked her while putting on a smile, i adored her, i guess a lot of people did— i was hated on for my dad being a death eater
"well i have riddle head— kinda" she was giddy, and happy i never really saw her like this.
my heart dropped once i heard those words leave her mouth, a lump formed in my throat, as tears were fighting to fall out on my flustered cheeks
"really?" i asked her as my voice cracked towards the end, as i tried to swallow the lump in my throat so i could speak clearly
"yes— oh it was amazing vee" she giggled, she hopped off of my bed and ran into the bathroom
i felt somewhat angry, i was so tired of getting pushed around, my brother got everything he ever wanted, he had friends who didn't hate him or find him annoying
olivia always got what she wanted— they will see eventually, one day i'll get what i deserve and they will get what they deserve
i felt hatred boiling inside of me along with painful tears and madness
i gripped the comforter as tears stung my cheeks and eyes, they ran down my neck
how could i be so stupid to think that he liked me back— i saw the way he looked at me, i was aware of the way he treated me
i got up out of bed and walked out of my dorm, i ran my fingers through my blonde hair as i made my way to dumbledores office
i hated granger more than i did— not that anyone is aware that i loath her
i walked fast to his office as tears were stinging my eyes
i reached his office, i took a few deep breaths before entering
"hello sir... i would like to report inappropriate behavior between a professor and a student" i spoke quietly while looking at my feet
"name?" he asked
"Olivia Granger and Riddle, Professor Riddle" i frowned at the thought of her even touching him
"any proof?" he asked another question, while stroking his long white beard, he was going to pass soon
"no but she told me about it" i sighed, fiddling with the hem of my skirt, as i was still in despair i tripped over my words
"i'll look into it" was all he said before motioning me to leave
mattheo's pov—
of course dumbledore sided with me, but he will be suspicious of me, and if he finds out about anything he isn't supposed to know i'll just obliviate him
then i'll have control over hogwarts, although i would have to go against umbitch
after running onto geneva i found out it wasn't her, i wish it was so i could kill her— she has been in her feelings lately, i liked that she was though. it made me feel something. i liked that she was in pain— aroused? maybe
i knocked on Olivia and Veronica's dorm, the blonde one answered it
"we need to talk" i said while staring down at her, her cheeks lit up red as she saw me. what could i say— women love me
"i don't want to talk" was all she said before sighing and shutting the door in my face— well she tried
i put my hand against the door stopping it from going any further
"cmon vee i can make it up to you" i said in a seductive tone, while my eyes scanned her body
i leaned against the door frame, my tie was somewhat already undone as my shirt collar was already hanging loosely around my collar bone
her lips parted as she looked like she was thinking about what to say
"fine." she pulled me down by my shirts collar, her soft lips connected with mine, she smelled of peaches and apples with a hint of vanilla
she put me up against the wall, she let go of my lips her breathing was erratic
her chest moved up and down with each gentle breath she took, her hair was slightly curled, pieces of blonde hair hanging above her eyes
she still had ahold of my shirts collar, she was looking deeply in my eyes as almost if she despised my existence
i took my defined hand and ran it down beside her forehead moving loose strands of hair behind her ear
i pushed her onto the bed, she fell back into the satin sheets, she propped herself up on her elbows looking me up and down
i turned around and shut the door, i put the silencing spell on the room and locked the door
"may i?" i asked her as i slowly got on my knees, my eyes showed lust so did hers
she nodded her head and laid straight on the bed as i opened up her legs, i ran my hands up and down her thighs feeling her soft skin
i left soft kisses up and down her flesh as i nibbled on her skin leaving love bites, her breathing was heavy
i started to pull down her red underwear off of her legs and threw them to the ground
Geneva's pov—
i knocked on his door, tapping my foot as i awaited him to answer
"what do you want?" he said as he opened the door to see me, looking furious and tired
i brought my hand up and slapped him across the face, a red hand print was across his face "ow— what the fuck was that for potter" he seethed
"why are you coming with me and the rest of the group to get dresses and suits today... huh" i hissed at him, madness was speaking
"because malfoy, max, leo, marco are still my friends and astorias so we are coming" he looked me up and down in disgust
"honey who's that" i heard a faint voice say out of the darkness in the room
i knew who it was— astoria
"it's no one" he said while rolling his eyes, then shutting the door, "idiot" i said under my breath while walking away back to my dorm to get some sleep
—
it was after classes, it was the same as usual, mattheo looked tired like usual his eyes hung low over his dark brown iris's
Veronica didn't show up to class today, i did my work as mattheo and a few other students glanced at me every now and then
it was 4:30 pm at the moment, me and cerelia were looking for marco, leo, max, scorpius and those other two
they were all hanging in library doing homework together, as me and cerelia stood at the end of the table looking at all of them
i saw mattheo in the corner of my eye talking with granger, he was clearing stuff up with her
"guys are you listening" cerelia seethed at them as they were to focused on there work
"okay what is it baby?" asked scorp, putting all his attention on her, the way he looked at her was like he was looking at the world, she was his world— only if someone would look at me as he looked at her
"we need to go to hogsmeade" she said blankly, "oh yes" he continued "guys cmon put you're stupid work away let's go get clothes for the ball" he said excitedly
he has been waiting for this moment for awhile, i saw elphias as he wrapped his arm around astorias shoulders looking at her like she was everything he ever wanted—
why didn't he look at me like that? it thought to myself, i took my eyes off of them and the thoughts started to run through my mind
everyone got up— we were now on our way to hogsmeade, snow was still falling from the sky as it landed on our heads melting into our hair making it damp
cerelia and scorpius had arms linked together walking side by side, marco walked aside from the group he always looked out of touch with reality, max and leo were ahead of all of us they also had there arms linked
as for elphias and astoria they were the same as everyone else— arms linked, whispering to each other, blushing, in a whole different world it looked like
as for me— alone— alone with my thoughts
it haunted me it really did, "Okay guys where at Gladrags Wizardwear— not my favorite store but it's good enough" said malfoy while looking at the tall store
we all walked in the heat hit my face, it was like a warm hug, the fire was going students where looking at dresses, it wasn't that packed which was good
"okay okay, me, gen, and astoria are going to go look for dresses while you guys look for suits" cerelia said happily while pulling my hand to the dress section
i didn't want something to long or short, dresses where on racks and others were on mannikins
"look at all of these" cerelia said excitedly, the decor was white flowers where hanging on the wall, some flowers had red splattered on the petals— that's paint, hopefully
there were wedding dresses too, they were in a different section though
"can i help you girls?" a old women in her 80's asked, she only had a few more years on her you could tell
"oh no we are fine" said cerelia, in response to the old ladies question
she gave us a sweet smile before walking away to do her thing
"okay so what theme are we going for?" cerelia asked me while looking through dresss carefully examining each and everyone of them
all the dresses where color coded in a rainbow theme the black was at the end
"probably dark green for our house colors or black" i thought hard as i wasn't sure which one to choose
"let's look at the black dresses?" cerelia suggested, i nodded my head in agreement
we walked down the long isle we reached the black dresses
i saw a few i liked
(you can imagine whatever dress you want though)
"i like these" i said quietly while picking up all three of them and putting them on this large chair
"oou they are okay i see you girl... hmm... let's go check out the green ones" she said then took my hand to go look at the green ones
"wow look at these" i said as i was astonished by the beautiful dresses
"wow these are pretty" she said amazed, "i'm going to go get scorpius and see what he thinks about them" she went to go get scorpius
i put all three of the dresses on another chair beside the one that had the black dresses
it was difficult— i didn't know which one to choose, i thought hard as i felt the texture of each dress
"oh wow, gen you did pick out good ones" leo said as he laid eyes on the dresses, scorpius and cerelia followed behind him
"i like the third green dress" he said as he felt the texture of it
"yeah me too— but the others are also very pretty" my eyes scanned over each and every one of them as i stood beside leo as we both examined them
"choose that one" scorpius said to cerelia, pointing to the second black dress "ah okay" she nodded her head and picked it up
she held it in front of the both of them, scorpius nodded his head, they both made there was to the front to pay for it
"i'll go for the last green dress" i said as i picked it up, it was big but it would do
"good choice, let's go pay" he took my free hand and we both walked up to the cashier
cerelia and scorpius were paying for there dress and suit
"hey gen" said max as he gave me a side hug, "heyy max" i gave him a smile, i was in the middle of the both of them as we were all silent
you could hear the fire in the background, the sun was setting, people were leaving making their way back to the castle, the snow never stopped
the smell of cinnamon apples filled the store, Christmas decorations filled the store, frost on the side of the windows
we paid for our clothes and walked out of the store together, snow flakes landed on our heads
a chill ran down my spine from the coldness of the winter weather
it was starting to get dark out now, i had to get my ass to detention soon
we made it back to the castle as yellow light spilled out from the doors and windows of the huge dark castle
"okay bye guys i need to get to detention" i said, waving to them as i parted my ways with them
"have fun in detention!" max yelled to me, i turned around and flipped him off in a jokingly way
he laughed it off and so did leo, i made it back to my dorm, i hung up my dress in my closet and started looking through my shoes for some heels
i found a par that was plain black— it would do. i know it didn't put much thought into the outfit, but it looks good at least
i grabbed my books off of my desk, i walked over to my body mirror and made sure my outfit looked okay even thought it was a skirt, vest, white dress shirt, and a slytherin robe
i made sure my hair looked okay, i then started walking to detention, i went at a slow pace because i really didn't want to go
i opened the door to his classroom, i saw him with a girl, she had long bright red hair that fell down to her skinny waist
she had a tight shirt on that hugged her perfectly, she had a tight black skirt on that went up to her mid thigh
mattheo had his hands all over her body feeling her up and down, his hand cupped her boob then made its way up to her neck gripping it lightly
"excuse me i'm here for detention" i said ignorantly— it was gross seeing them like that
mattheo snapped his head up from kissing her body, i heard her sigh so did mattheo
"oh i forgot i gave you detention" he let go of her and she got off his desk, her shirts collar was hanging down low, her red lace bra was showing
she took her thumb and swiped her bottom lip looking me up and down in a judging way
i frowned at her, i didn't dare do more
as usual i sat in the back of the class "who are you?" i finally got the courage to ask her
she laughed and grinned at me, mattheo looked uncomfortable
"oh i'm his wife and i'm also helping out this year at hogwarts i don't know how long but i'll be here for awhile" she said as she examined me, "are you the one he's telling me about?"
she asked me, a hint of jealousy in her voice even though she has no right to be jealous— i mean look at her she looked like and angel
"i guess" i shrugged my shoulders, i didn't feel anything but irritated, "so you're helping out this year?" i asked her knitting my eyebrows together as i crossed my legs, leaning back into my seat
mattheo sat down, he ran his fingers through his curls
she sat down at one of the front desks and took a strand of her bright red hair and wrapped it around her finger, her eyes were like the deep blue sea that you would get lost in
"yes only for a few months though, that's all i know... maybe if i am lucky i can become a professor" she smiled at the thought, her voice was perfect like sweet smooth honey
was i jealous of her? maybe.
i nodded my head
"anyways i best be on my way, i need to get back to my classroom— which is Transfiguration just letting you know since you might have that class" she said slyly while making her way out of the class
"what happened to Professor McGonagall?" i asked riddle
"she decided not to teach and to help dumbledore" he said blankly while fiddling with a pen
"since when where you married?" i asked him a bit furious he hasn't told anyone, and the fact he cheated on her too
"some things you can't know potter, but let's just say i don't love her, i can't love in general it's stupid power is better, i thought it was silly of her to think she can change me" he laughed out, the corner of his lips tugging upwards
"oh?" i breathed out, i continued "it must be lovely to be her" i said sarcastically
"what do you expect from me... i'm voldemort's son... i can't love— it isn't possible" he almost found it amusing that he can't feel anything
"do you ever wonder what love feels like?" i asked him, i tilted my head a little sideways as i sucked on my bottom lip examining him carefully
"i won't say much, but as a young child i did, i read books about it, apparently it's somewhat like a fairytale" his voice sounded like a purr low and smooth
"same... me and elphias broke up a few days ago" i said in a croaky voice as love was a sensitive subject for me to talk about
"not that i care but why?" he asked me now turning all his attention onto me
"cheated on me with one of my friends" i let out a loud sigh, pressing my lips together hard as i clutched my pen tightly as i thought of elphias and astoria together
"i don't have a lot of room to talk— but hey she fucks around with a lot of different boys even though she's in love with me" he sounded at a lost for words, he pressed his lips together his pen making noise as he clicked it
"oh i see" i said nodding my head, just taking in everything he said
"potter, he's a fuck boy, you can't change a fuck boy" he shrugged his shoulders as he got up out of his seat
"what do you mean i haven't seen him with anyone else besides me and astoria" i asked a bit scared i furrowed my eyebrows at him
i watched him as he made his way into a door on the side of the classroom near his desk
he came out with a bucket of water and a rag "i've seen his mind— and around the halls when i'm walking i'll see him with other girls"
"oh, so he's cheating on her... fucking great" i said sarcastically towards the end, i'll have to get up with her on that
"anyways get to work— clean the desks and you're free to go" he said, then started to make his way out of the classroom
i sighed and got up and did what he asked me
authors note—
this chapter took me three days, i'm not sure when the next one will be out since i have school all week but i'll try my best
don't be mad at me guys 😭 i also made a playlist on spotify of a bunch of songs that remind me of mattheo and draco
it's also been 11 months and i'm still in love with mattheo 😳
anyways have a lovely night/day <3