After a moment,
HM: Kisne kaha mai baate nahi karti? Karti hoon. Par khud se. Kyuki dusro se karne mai mujhe daar lagta hai.
HM and RB (together): Ki kahi hum unlogo ko khona de.
There was a silence for a moment when RB spoke.
RB: I don't know. Tumhare past me yesa kya huwa par itna to pata hai ki wo past tumhe present mai jeene nahi deraha hai.
HM: hummm..... pata hai? Kabhi kabhi lagta hai ki sab kuch bhuladu. Phir yaad aata hai ki ushi yaade ke sahare to hum abhi jinda hai.
RB turned his face from waterfall to HM with confused expression.
HM: meri phele ki yaade kuch ayse hai ki jab mai bhulana chahu to daar lagta hai ki kahi wo galti mai phirse na kar bethu. Aur jab mai yaad karti hoon, to kuch haseen lamho ke sath sath aak ayesa pal ki bhi yaade sath aati hai jisne meri duniya phirse badal di.
RB: I understand. Wo kehte hai na ki "It hurts, when a person who gave you the best memories, becomes a memory"
Mere bhi to Mom-Dad nahi hai. Aur dada-dadi bhi. I was that kid of the class jo kisi se jyada baat nahi karta tha but sab pasand jaroor karte the. Hamesha ghar ke aandar aur na kabhi bahar khelne aata tha. Dada- Dadi ke jaane ke baad I was all alone. They were the one who cared about me, whom I cared about the most. Dimag ka doctor hoon, psychologist. Par khud ke dimag me kya chal raha tha pata hi nahi.
HM: meri kahani bhi kuch ayesi hi hai par... thodi alag.
Both of them turned their head to each other. RB was trying to find the truth in her eyes that why is he so comfortable with her, why is she so comfortable with him. Why did he shared his feeling with a girl who he just met a week ago.
Here, HM was lost in his eyes, trying hard not to cry.
It was a sweet and short eye lock between them.
After a moment, her eyes got blur because of the tears she was holding from so long. She turned her head to opposite direction from him to hid her tears.
He knew something deep was hiding behind her beautiful eyes. As soon as she turned her head. He hugged her. It was not too tight nor too lose. That hug gave her the feeling of warmth she needed. She too hugged him and started to cry her whole heart out.
After few minutes, she stopped crying. He gave her water bottle kept beside him. She drank it and said,
HM: thank you.
RB: welcome.
HM: pani keliye nahi, unnsab chees ke liye jo tumne abhi tak mere liye kiya hai.
RB: mera dhyaan bhatka ne ki koshish mat karo. I know I am a stranger to you. You are stranger to me. But I want to help you. Tumne kaha ke tum mere jesa aak aadmi ko jaante ho. I don't know uuska aur tumhara relation kya tha but, aagar wo sach me mere jesa huwa toh I am sure you were very very special to him.
Mujhe nahi pata what strange connection do we have. Par tum bhale hi nahi kehti par tumhari aakhe chik chik ke help magh raahihai.
(After a minute)HM: isse pehle tum meri story jaano I want you to know me. Mera aasli naam Nazia Mallik hai aur mai aak secrect agent hoon. Ye baat mere colleuges, seniors aur aab tumhare siwa koi nahi jaanta hai. Aab tum soch rahe hoge ke aasi confidencial baat maine tumhe kyu aase hi dediya.
Because I believe in you. I don't know par I see him in you.
RB: koun?
HM: Millian. His name is Millan Arora, or you can say my someone more than a special. He is the most special and important character in the book of my life. I have a best friend, JT, wo hamesha mujhe himmat deta hai jab mujhe uski sabse jyada zaroorat ho. Kabhi bhi.....kabhi bhi mujhe akela mehsush hone nahi deta hai. Abhi wo aak mission mai hai toh, 2-3 din se baat nahi huwi hai. And obviously my ammi and abbu. Bhale hi wo abhi iss duniya mai nahi hai par jaab bhi mujhe unki sabse jyada zaroorat hoti hai, ankhe band karke jab dilpe haat rakhti hoon to kisina kisi tarikese jawab mil hi jata hai.
Maine aapne jindagimai sabse jyada pyaar in 4 logose kiya hai aur hamesha karti hi rahoongi. In charoo mese, sirf Jagga hi baki hai. I don't want to loose him toh usse door hi rehti hoon.
RB: tumhe ayesa kyu lagta hai ki tum uske saath rahogi toh wo chala gayeya?
HM: Kyu ki ayasa hi hota hai. Jab mai choti thi to aabu aak mission ke dauran sahid hogaye. Ammi toot gayi. Ammi ko maine sahara diya par mai bhi aandar se toot gayi thi. Tab Jagga ne mera saath diya. Hum dono tab se best friend hai aur hamesha hi rahenge. Uska bhi papa mission ke dauran sahid hogayethe aur uski ammi ne usse janam dete hi dam tod diya. Kuch saalo baad hum dono mumbai aaye aak saath training liya aur as a secrect agent bharti bhi hogaee.
Jis officer ne mujhe kuch din pehle data tha wo, Millan ke father the. He had other 2 elder brothers, jo officers hi the. Wo cinematographer banna chahata tha par uske dad ne use allow nahi kiya. Kaha ki tumse nahi hoga, padhaee karo aur hamari tarha officer banke desh ki sewa karo. Bohot samjhane ki koshish ki par nahi mane. Paisa tha, talent tha par passion ko follow karne wale to yaha pagal hote haina. So, wo bhi aak secret agent baan gaya. Number lete bakth jo tumne mujhse kaha tha, wo usne bhi mujhse kaha tha, jab usne mujhse pehli baar bath ki.
Kuch mahino ke baad hi, hum dono ko realize huwa that we were in love. He confessed me, aur mene haa kardia. Jagga aur uuski bhi kafi achhi dosti hogaee thi. Uusne aapne family waalo se kaha, sab kush the siwaye uske PAPA. Mai muslim hoon na toh ishi liye insecure the. Unhone Millian ko saaf saaf keh diya ke woh aaj ke baad mujhse nahi milega aur yaa to woh transfer lele ya toh mai. Ye baat sunke uuse bohot gussa aaya, kyuki hamesh wo chup raha, jho uske papa ne kaha uusne kiya, yahatak ki aapna sapana bhi chood diya. Usdin bohot bada jhagra huwa Millan aur sir le beech. At last, Millan ne ghar chod diya. Usne saaman uthaya aur hamare flat me chala aaya. Hamne bohot samjhane ki koshish ki sir ko that we love each other par unhe problem thi mere muslim honese.
We decided ki jab tak sahi time nahi aajata hum living relationship mai rahenge. Hamne hamare liye aak ghar bhi leliya tha. Sab kuch thik tha untile one day. Hum investigation karne aak gas factory gayethe. Khabar milithi ke terriorist, factory ka gas leak karke hamla karna chahata tha. Hum gaye par hum kuch kar paate isse pehle unhone humpe attack kardiya. Goli se to bach gaye par aak gas ka cylinder uuske saamne leak huwa tha to extreme level of harmful chemical ki wahjase he got cancer. He told me at his last stage. Mujhe samajh me nahi aaya mai kya karu. We both tried to keep him as happy as we could. But after 2 years he died.
Mujhe daar laga rehta hai ki kahi meri wajhase Jagga ko bhi kuch hogaya toh I can never forgive myself. So mai kuch mahino baad yaha lucknow shift hogayee. Wo jidd pe ada tha ki wo bhi aayega par maine kese bhi karke usse waha rok diya. Ammi ka bhi to khyal rakhna padta haina.
Phir uske 1 yaa dedh saal baat meri mulakaat huwi Anubhav Singh se......(she told RB every thing about the betryal, mission, proposal, rejection, again proposal and also sagai incident from which she lost her ammi.)
Jab kuch mahine pehle ham sab aak mission ke liye Mumbai gaye the, Jagga ne mujhe aak camera diya jo usse Millan ne diya tha. Millan hamesha record karta rehta tha jo usse pasand aaye uss camera mai. Jis din usse pata chala ke usse cancer hai aur kuch saal baad, he is going to die, he started to record for me. All the happy moments we spent, were recorded in that camera and a song. He wrote a song for me.
She was not able to speak anymore. She tried to speak but didn't found a word to describe her feelings now. RB again hugged her, seeing her crying and said,
RB: Hey...it's...it's not your fault okay! har cheez ke liye khud ko illzam laga na band karo. Issme tumhari koi galti nahi hai. Aur tumhe koi hak nahi hai, uss galti ka kudko saza deneka jo tumne kia hi nahi hai. (emotionally)
After a minute he realize that she has fained in his arms. He tried to wake her up but she was stil unconsious. He remembers that she has not eaten anything since yesterday. So, he carries her in and move too the jeep and drove to her home.
AT THANA:
Everyone was completing their work which was left as they were not able to work yesterday because of HM's condition. Here, SS and KS were searching a file in HM's cabin. They called her but her phone was switched off and thought not to disturb her. KS was checking the rack and SS was checking the drawer where she found the VIDEO CAMERA. She called KS,
SS: Karishma Maddam, ye toh wo hi camera haina jisse maddam sir dekhke muskurati hai?
KS: haan. Usse wohi rakh do. (but you know the human nature so...) (after a minute) Achha santu isme kya hosakta hai?
SS: mujhe kese pata hosakta hai maddam, mai koi antaryami thodi hoon.
KS: toh tumhe kya lagta hai? hame ye dekhlena chahiye?
SS: mujhe toh pehle se hi janna tha ke Maddam sir yesa kya dekhti hai jisse dekhke maddam sir khush hoti hai. Par mujhe laga ke aap mana kardoge toh, maine nahi kaha.
KS: chalo phir tumhari ye iccha puri kardete hai.
SS: par maddam.....theek hai lekin ye maine khud nahi aap ke permission se maine dekha hai, okay?
KS: tumne singhade khaye hai?
SS: haa. subha bhook lagi toh khaaliya. aap ko kaise pata chala, maine brush toh kiya tha daat?
KS: tumhari baate sunkar, hum baas ye jaanne ke koshish karrahe hai ke maddamsir ki haalat yesi kese huwi.
SS: ohh.. (excitetly) toh matlab hum ye kholenge? toh mai pushpa ji, cheete aur billu ji ko bhi bulaleti hoon. okay (before KS could say anything) PUSHPA JI!, CHEETE, BILLU JI JALDI ANDAAR AIYE! HAM MADDAMSIR KA CAMER............ (KS covered her mouth with her hand)
Everybody entered the cabin, hurriedly.
CC: Ka huwa Santu ji aap thik toh hai na!
PS: Huwa kya hai Santu!?
KS: Lo aagaye saab log! (to SS) Tumko kisne kaha tha sab logo ko gala phad phad ke bulane ki? Ham koi picture nahi dekh rahe hai. (to every one) Aap sab log aapna kaam kijiye.
Billu: Lekin aap ne hame bulaya hi kyu? aap ki wahjase mai game mai mar gaya!
KS: tum ko asal jindagi mai bhi marna hai?
Billu: nahi!
KS: toh chup chap jaoo aur thana saaf karo aaj DSP sir routine visit ke liye aarahe hai.
After listining that he rush into the door to search the pocha but he fell down because the way was blocked by AS.
Every one: Jay hind sir!
AS: Jay hind, Jai hind. Shreeman aap niche kyu lete huwe hai.
Billu: Sorry sir. Woh mai pocha dhoodh rahatha aur aap se takara gaya.
AS: koi baat nahi.
Then he saw that camera in SS's hand.
AS: Santosh Sharma! Aap ke haath mai ye kya hai?
SS: Sir ye toh maddam sir ka camera hai jissme dekhke hamesha wo real wali smile deti hai.
KS: woh..woh ka haina ki santu ko dekhna tha ki issme ka hai?
AS: Acha toh kya hai issme?
Every body looked at AS as they thought he would scold them for lokking someones's private camera.
AS: nahi..matlab hame bhi jaana hai kya hai issme kyu ki shayad isme koi clue mil jaaye ki haseena ji ki wo haalat kese huwi!
PS: ohhh... toh sir aap yese aarahe the! (making that iconic hand move)
AS: haan. toh kya hai is camera mai?
KS: han kholo Santu.
Then SS turned on the camera. There were many videos. She opened a video among them. In that video 5 years younger HM was trying to make an egg. Someone was shooting it. She was trying to flip it. She said " okay...I can do it! 3..2..1.." and fliped it. But failed. "ARGH!!!!" She shouted in anger. The camera frame was shaking because of camera holder's laugh. HM: Tum jyada haso maat okay aur jao tum yaha se. Mai akeli karungi hojayega. Aur mai keh rahi hoon agar agle 2 baar mai nahi huwanaa...toh..toh mai kasam khati hoon jindagi bhar non-veg ko haath nahi lagauungi. Camera man (in very week voice): Toh fir toh tum chicken burger bhi nahi kha paogi. HM: Shit! main toh bhulhi gaii thi ki burger bhi non-veg mai aata hai. But, kasam leliya toh leliya. Aur tum jaao.
The camera man moved to the other room with camera and turned the camera to his face.
YES! It was finally Millan.
Millan (in very weak voice): Hey! So as always tumhari anda banaeki nakkam koshish ke baad tumne phirse mujhe kitchen se barkhast kar diya hai saying that issme meri galti hai. But I hope issbar tum banalo because tumne kasam khayi hai non-veg ki. (chuckes) Now apart from this, I guess ye mera akhari video hoga because Mujhme jyada bolne ki takat nahi bachi hai. So, I just want to clear that tumhe regret karne ki koi zaroorat nahi hai. And I know tum aabhi smile kar rahi ho. Ayese hi smile karti raho. Suit karta hai tumpe aur khabar dar, aasu nikal ne ki himmat bhhi maat karna warna agle jannamme cockroach banke sataunga! Bye! aur haan Papa ke bato ka bura mat manna please. I know, mere jaane ke baad woh tumse kuch jyada rudely baat kar sakte hai, tumhe guilty feel karwane ki, tumhe humuliate karwane ki...paar tumhe darna nahi hai aur naahi guilty feel karna hai, okay! Aur.. me nahi toh sayad mere jesa koi tumhe mil jaye. But, I hope tumhe mere jesa hi aak pagal mile kyuki normal log tumhe jhel nahi payenge woh bhi jindagi bhaar. Bhagwaan tumhare future husband ko shakti de aur mujhe bhi.... kyu ki ye camera mujhe Jagga ko bhhi denahai taki woh tumhe desake jab tumhe iski zaroorat ho. Last wala gaana zaroor sunlena Aur aak aakhari baar Good-Bye! And I LOVE YOU!
The video ended. Every body was more confused than ever. The next video played. It was the song Millan was saying about.
Don't stay awake for too long, don't go to bed
I'll make a cup of coffee for your head
It'll get you up and going out of bed
Yeah, I don't wanna fall asleep, I don't wanna pass away
I been thinking of our future 'cause I'll never see those days
I don't know why this has happened, but I probably deserve it
I tried to do my best, but you know that I'm not perfect
I been praying for forgiveness, you've been praying for my health
When I leave this earth, hopin' you'll find someone else
'Cause yeah, we still young, there's so much we haven't done
Getting married, start a family, watch your husband with his son
I wish it could be me, but I won't make it out this bed
I hope I go to heaven so I see you once again
My life was kinda short, but I got so many blessings
Happy you were mine, it sucks that it's all ending
Don't stay awake for too long, don't go to bed
I'll make a cup of coffee for your head
It'll get you up and going out of bed (Yeah, ayy, ayy)
Don't stay awake for too long, don't go to bed
I'll make a cup of coffee for your head
It'll get you up and going out of bed (Ayy, yeah)
I'm happy that you here with me, I'm sorry if I tear up
When me and you were younger, you would always make me cheer up
Taking goofy videos and walking through the park
You would jump into my arms every time you heard a bark
Cuddle in your sheets, sing me sound asleep
And sneak out through your kitchen at exactly 1:03
Sundays, went to church, on mondays, watched a movie
Soon you'll be alone, sorry that you have to lose me
Don't stay awake for too long, don't go to bed
I'll make a cup of coffee for your head
It'll get you up and going out of bed
Don't stay awake for too long, don't go to bed
I'll make a cup of coffee for your head
It'll get you up and going out of bed
Don't stay awake for too long, don't go to bed
I'll make a cup of coffee for your head
It'll get you up and going out of bed
Don't stay awake for too long, don't go to bed
I'll make a cup of coffee for your head
It'll get you up and going out of bed
Don't stay awake for too long, don't go to bed
I'll make a cup of coffee for your head
It'll get you up and going out of bed
(The song ended)
Everyone was quite. No one knew what to say. Just then RB entered thana.He saw everyone was in cabin.
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So, this is it for this chapter. Thank you for reading it. Hope you liked it! I don't usually insert songs but, this song really hit me especially the lyric. Hope you liked it too.
-Thank you and peace.