I wake up and find myself cuddling with him, how wonderful he's alive while he slept in my house. Good no one cares about how im doing. Im still feeling a bit weird but better than yesterday. I play with his fluffy hair while he slowly wakes up. "What are you doing?" He says with a sleepy voice while going trough his hair. I slapt his hand away "stop, your ruining my master piece." I say jokingly. I part his hair and put it to the sides. I giggle. It just doesn't suit him.
"What the fuck did you do?" He says. I laugh even louder "i can't take you serious right now." I say while im still laughing. He stands up and looks in the mirror "you ruined my hair!" He says. He puts it back in the right position before dropping hisself next to me again. I see the doorknob twist and quickly push him off of my bed. He's suffering in silence and im trying really hard not to laugh.
I look at the door and see Raf coming in. Im biting on my lips so i won't burst out of laughter. "Are you okay?" He asks. I just nod. "Im sorry i ignored you yesterday, i was just pissed you were with that douche." Oh god this is even funnier i can't. "Its fine, i get it." I say hoping he would leave. There is a long silence. "I want to change could you.." i say. "Oh yeah sure." He says and leaves again.
I burst out of laughter while i hear Arsenio groan in pain. "Get up douche." I say. "Was that really necessary?" He says. "Oh come on wimp. It was either that or you would be dead right now." I tell him. "Wimp? This bed is higher than a average bed, do you want to be pushed off?" He says while laughing. I hold my hand out for him to grab it so i could help him up. He grabs my hand and pulls me off of the bed causing me to fall on him. We both laugh.
Our faces are inches apart. I can feel his warm breath on my lips. We look deep into each others eyes he has beautiful grey eyes, man i could get lost in them. "I- uhm, i should get dressed." I say after a bit and get up. He gets up too. I grab some clothes and walk to the bathroom. I take a quick shower and change. I get out of the bathroom as he admires me. "I think you should go home. Change and stuff." I say. "Yeah i should." He says.
He climbs out of the window. "Hey douche." I say. He turns his head back around to look at me. "Thank you for staying with me." "Anytime bellissima." ( anytime beautiful) He says and he climbs down.
I walk downstairs and see everyone sitting at the table. I bet my dad is mad at me, very mad. I walk towards them. "Good morning" i say. "How are you?" My dad asks. "Good" i say.
"Talking about yesterday that Romano kid i don't want to see you with him again." He says. "You wont" i say. That he doesn't want to see it doesn't mean its not gonna happen, he just wont see.
Ava: wanna meet?
Me: sure, where?
Ava: beach.
Im not hungry anyway so I walk outside and get in my car. Ava gives me strange vibes, she always has but i think i just ignored it. I arrive and get out of the car. She arrives a few minutes later.
"Heyy liss!" She says and hugs me. "Heyy." I say while hugging her back. We walk onto the beach and just walk and talk. "So you were talking to this guy, how is that going?" I ask. "Oh yeah, we're still talking." She says. She has been a little secretive about it. "Enzo is in town how do you feel about that?" She asks. "I feel disgusted. Thinking about him already makes me want to vomit." I tell her.
I never really had a other friend than Ava, she always has stopped me in making new friends. But i think that friendship looks a whole lot different than this. "Talking about the devil." I say when i see Enzo. He walks towards us, great. "Hey Enzo!" Ava says happily. What the actual fuck, isn't she supposed to be a bitch to him. They even hug, im even more disgusted now. While they hug Enzo smirks at me, i hate that damn smirk of his. "Hey Lexi." He says.
"Stop calling me that, dick." I say. He gets that look into his eyes again. I said i was scared of him, well im fucking scared of him. He knows that im scared. "Stop being so rude." Ava says. I look at her in shock. She knows what happend, fucking bitch! "Yeah, im just trying to say hello to you." Enzo says. "You know what, fuck both of you!" I say and storm off.
I feel my head get red from the amount of anger inside of me. I get into my car and drive to the park. I arrive and walk to my spot. I stand infront of a tree and start punching and kicking it. My knuckles slowly turn red as im still hitting the tree. "Ale? Ale stop your hurting yourself." I hear Arsenio say. Why is he fucking everywhere. He turns me around. "Get the fuck away from me!" I scream and hit him in his chest a few times. He pulls me closer and hugs me. "Get away from me." I say angrily while i try to get out of his grip. But he just holds me even tighter.
"Get away from me, please." I say as my voice starts breaking and tears start to run down my face. I stop struggling as i cry in his arms. "Let it all out, its okay to be sad." He whispers.
Its about 10 minutes Later and we're sitting on the swings. "You can always talk to me, you know that right?" He tells me. In this couple of days i started to trust him, but still i don't know if i should tell him. Something is holding me back. "I just thought someone was my best friend but shes just a fucking bitch." I tell him. "What did she do?" He asks.
"Shes being fucking nice and close to Enzo when she shouldn't because she knows-." I cut myself off.
"Because she knows, what?" He asks again. "Because she knows what he has done to me." He's listening really carefully and he really cares. "What did he do." He asks once again. "He- did.. i- uhm." Tears start streaming down my face again. He walks towards me and kneels down infront of the swing. He grabs my hand "you don't have to tell me, just take your time okay?" He says softly while rubbing his thumb over my hand.
I wipe my tears away. "No, i should tell you." He should know and i trust him enough, to tell him this. "We didn't have a relationship." I start. "He played me into having sex even if i didn't want to." There, its out. I could've called it abuse or raping but this was the easiest way to say it, and i think he's smart enough to understand. His eyes widen. He seems angry? Well at least he's already a better friend than Ava and i've known him for like a week.
What the actual fuck did she just tell me. No wonder she doesn't want him to even touch her. Im mad, im furious at him but im also mad at myself. Shes hurting because all of these fake people in her life and yet im faking too, i fucking drugged her what was i Thinking. I should tell her, i should tell her and start over. Or maybe i'll should just stay out of her life. Yeah, I should just tell her, she'll be mad but i just can't lie anymore. I can't lie to her or myself anymore.
But i won't tell her now shes sad enough already. "Are you okay?" She asks. "Oh, uhm yes sorry. Thats just disgusting." I say. I don't know what to tell her, shes fucking raped. I want to kill him, and i will. Her phone buzzes. "Oh, i should get home." She says while standing up. "Alright. I'll cya tomorrow?" I say. "Mhm." She walks off. "Be careful!" I yell after her. She puts her gun in the air as i laugh.
I go home and once again look for my dad. I can't stand him. I find him in the living room. He stands up "want to tell me anything?" He says. "Yes. Enzo is not working here!" I say. He smirks "and why is that?" "You know why!" Im fucking angry i never been so angry in my life. "So she told you, i thought you didn't care." Im so done with this fucking prick, he's been playing mind games for too long now. "I Care! I care fucking much about her! Is that what you want to hear!? And im not working with a asshole who raped her!" I scream.
"Do you really care, you drugged her." He says emotionless. "Listen up you MANIPULATIVE DICK!" I start and slap him in the face "HE'S NOT WORKING HERE." im shaking of anger that slap was nothing compared to what i want to do to him. I don't even care that its my dad anymore, its not like he give one crap about me. "Okay." He says calmly. "But you listen now. The love you have for this girl will be your death." He says and walks out of the room. I just stand there staring at the wall.
My mom comes into the living room. "Come on sit down." She says. I sit down and she sits next to me, rubbing my back. "You were right. I care about her." I tell her. Like she hasn't heard i just screamed it through the whole fucking house. "And i already fucked up." I say. "Im sure it isn't that bad." She says. "Mom, i fucking drugged her."
"This isn't unfixable, you just have to tell her truth. Let her be mad and make up again." she says. Easier said than done. I hear my dad scream my mom's name. "Just fight for her." My mom says before she walks out.
I'll tell her tomorrow, even tho i don't want to. She has to know.
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