your pov
just go ahead and say it .
it's not like Tsukasa would know .
" I want to be with you just one more time . "
you say to the empty world .
no ,
no , to drag things out would be annoying .
he had left you .
you remember it clear as day .
you fell asleep in his embrace one night ,
and awoke to every trace of him gone .
all you had was pictures .
the only thing that told you he wasn't just a dream ,
was the pictures on your phone of him .
you had text him all day that day .
" I'm sorry . "
" please come back . "
alas .
he didn't .
you felt lost .
like your very own oxygen supply was taken .
and now you were suffocating .
but .
someone pulled you from that .
Shinonome Akito .
even if he told you you were selfish ,
you would only lap it up .
you truly seemed to have fallen for him .
or so you deluded yourself .
it's not uncertain .
there's no future for you .
even if you flipped over his words of hatred ,
you couldn't find words of adoration .
I hate you .
it won't become
I love you .
why won't he return your affection ?
it hurts .
it's almost like when you first met Tsukasa .
he wanted your attention .
you refused to give it .
hah .
funny how the world works like that .
mad with idealism .
you're imagining his smile again .
the image is distorted ,
you can't tell the difference between Tsukasa and Akito no more .
there's no love in the friendship from Akito .
that's just fine .
you wander the streets ,
late at night .
Tsukasa used to join you on your sleepless night walks .
Akito refused .
saying he doesn't care enough to .
fair .
you were simply at the mercy of an endless love .
ah .
shit .
you'd walked right into someone .
" ah !
I'm so so sorry ! "
before you stood an eccentric looking boy .
" it's quite alright miss ,
my name is Kamishiro Rui ,
what might yours be ? "
huh ?
he wanted to know your name ?
why ?
" (Y/N) (L/N) "
why on god's green earth did you tell him !?
he could be some obsessive creep for all you know !
" pleasure to meet you miss (Y/N) ,
may I ask what's troubling you ? "
deep breaths .
it's fine .
meeting a strange purple haired man at 2 in the morning roaming the streets .
perfectly normal :) .
" I detest love . "
odd way to phrase that you can't decipher your emotions .
do you truly love Akito ?
or did you project you love of Tsukasa onto him ?
" bad breakup miss (Y/N) ? "
you shrug .
" in a sense . "
he offers you a kind smile .
" do you wish to speak about it ? "
did you ?
it would help to get outside perspective .
you nod .
you spent the rest of the night talking at a park with Rui .
he seemed to genuinely care for you .
he invited you to come and watch his robots .
you were in the moment you heard robots .
he made robots for god's sake how cool is that ?!
he told you he would also introduce you to his troupe mates .
the two of you met up later ,
and he led you to a stage area .
three people stood on the stage ,
two girls ,
and a boy who had his back to you and Rui .
" is this who you wanted us to meet Rui ? "
the green haired girl spoke ,
and finally the male turned to you .
and your heart stopped .
" Tsukasa . . . "
he's just staring at you .
you wanted to shy away .
" you know him already miss (Y/N) ? "
you give a small nod .
" remember the ex I told you about ? "
Rui let out a small oh upon realising what he had done .
" it's fine .
I don't hold anything against him . "
Tsukasa seems surprised at your words .
" aren't you angry ? "
you shake your head .
" I'm not angry . "
perfectly in sync .
yet entirely off beat .
honestly .
if your life was a show ,
although you'd endure it till the end ,
you'd never watch it again ,
it's all to cruel .
from the beginning ,
to the middle ,
to the end .
after introductions ,
Tsukasa approached you .
" how've you been (Y/N) . "
you fake a smile .
" I'm just fine . "
he lets out a chuckle .
" you think I don't remember that lie ? "
you sigh ,
shaking your head .
" it's not a lie .
I should go . "
without another word .
you left .
just like he had left you .
was this really worth continuing ?
was it worth it to keep up this charade ?
you love Tsukasa .
he doesn't love you .
the simplest result .
the simplest escape .
was to die .