ー「初めて感じた」ー
[when i first felt that]
I got home and threw away the muffins on the floor. I didn't want to see them. The only thing i could think of doing was laying on my bed and crying my hearts out. My tears streamed down like storms of rain. I tried to calm myself, saying that it was alright. Did it worked? obviously not.
I thought it would be okay and i would probably move on from him after crying for some more time. But all it bought was the thing that made me feel hard to breathe because of the pain in my chest.
My mom heard my sobs and entered my room. Without wasting a second, i fell into her embrace and feeling the warmness while sobbing. My mom said, that it was too early for me to be heartbroken already. And that i was still young.
My heart still aches whenever i recall that feeling i felt because of you.