your pov
today was the day .
you were going to tell him today .
see .
you'd fallen for a classmate and childhood friend of yours .
Aoyagi Touya .
just the thought of him .
it flushed your face .
gave you butterflies .
and made your heart pound so hard you could hear it .
all in all .
you are madly in love with him .
and were going to tell him such .
Mizuki had helped you choose a way to accessorize your uniform .
best of all ?
didn't break dress code .
class felt like it dragged on for hours .
by the time break arrived you were having second thoughts .
but you couldn't back down .
that was dumb .
you'd been hyping yourself up for so so long .
and so , you took off .
it wasn't hard to find him .
he was in the courtyard , talking to An and Akito .
they both knew of your affection held for the split haired boy .
and both encouraged you to tell him .
so , with a deep breath , you tap his shoulder .
he turns to face you .
your words caught in your throat .
he's so attractive .
An gives you a double thumbs up .
Akito gives you a smirk and a reassuring nod .
deep breaths .
in .
one .
two .
three .
out .
one .
two .
three .
" Touya ? "
he hums in response , telling you to continue .
" I . . . "
An looks ready to burst .
" I love you Touya ! "
what an idiot you are .
An and Akito are celebrating .
they can't see the cold , hard glare he's giving you .
it made you want to curl in a corner and cower .
" you should know I could never love someone like you . "
you give a frail nod .
hah .
hahaha .
what a fucking idiot .
you'd just thrown your childhood friendship away
over some silly crush that'll go away .
fucking idiot .
you turn and run .
running from your problems again .
how immature .
how fucking childish .
that's how you felt .
like a little kid .
hiding away from the world .
"hm ? what's wrong my dear (Y/N) ? "
great .
your brother was going to see you weak and heartbroken .
maybe .
maybe he could give you solace .
you throw yourself onto him , crying into his shirt .
" hey hey , what's up princess ? "
you sob harder .
" oh Rui why am I so stupid ?! "
you hear him sigh .
" my dear precious sister , you aren't stupid . "
he gently sways with you in his arms .
" you're related to me , there's no way your stupid . "
you look teary eyed at the purple haired male .
" but I am ! I- "
" no . "
" big bro I ruined everything ! I told Touya how I feel ! "
you can tell he's smiling like normal .
" (Y/N) . he's the idiot . you're the most wonderous girl I know . "
you pout .
" you HAVE to say that though your my brother . "
he shakes his head .
you sigh .
you aren't gonna win this argument .
you cough into your hands .
feeling as though something is stuck inside your throat .
Rui rubs your back comfortingly .
once you believe the foreign object is out , you look into your hands .
what .
the .
actual .
fuck !?
a bloody mess was what you saw .
and there .
in the palms of your hands .
was a flower bud .
stained in blood .
your blood .
you look to Rui , distressed and bewildered .
he seemed sorrowful .
did he understand why you had just hacked up blood and flowers?
" (Y/N) . . . "
he sounds so broken .
" bro ? what is it ? "
he takes a deep breath .
he's struggling to word it correctly .
" hanahaki . "
what .
what the fuck is that ?
you were about to voice your confusion .
but he stops you , explaining .
" Hanahaki is a disease .
one where the victim of unrequited or one-sided love begins to cough up the petals and flowers of a flowering plant growing in their lungs ,
which will eventually grow large enough to render breathing impossible if left untreated . "
so you were going to die ?
" There isn't a set time for how long this disease lasts but it may last from 2 weeks to 3 months
just until the victim dies unless the feelings are returned or the plants are surgically removed . "
so you either do what's probably a costly surgery , or just die .
there's no way Touya would love you back after all .
" There isn't a set flower that blossoms in the lungs .
but it is usually the enamoured's favourite flower . "
pink carnations .
white lilies .
Touya had two favourite flowers .
great .
"it can be cured through surgical removal of the plants' roots ,
but this excision also has the effect of removing the patient's capacity for romantic love . "
so .
if you did spend a shit ton of money on surgery .
you'd never love again ?
" It may also erase the patient's feelings for and memories of the enamoured . "
forget Touya ?
at that moment in time .
didn't seem too bad an idea .
" It can also be cured by the reciprocation of the victim's feelings . "
impossible .
" These feelings cannot be feelings of friendship but must be feelings of genuine love . "
yep .
you're fucked .
absolutely screwed .
" The victim may also develop Hanahaki Disease if they believe the love to be one-sided but once the enamoured returns the feelings, they will be cured . "
he told you himself there's no way he could love you .
" other symptoms can be fever, uncontrollable shaking, loss of appetite, low body temperature, flowers breaking skin and hallucinations . "
doesn't this sound great !?
" Even after curing , with or without surgery , there can be irreversible damage to the lungs and , although very rare , in some cases the disease cannot be cured . "
so you could spend loads of money .
and still be dying ?
you could tell it broke your brother .
his voice wavered telling you .
he himself was shaking .
you give a small smile .
hugging him .
" I'll be ok Rui . I promise . "
that was almost a month ago .
you were ,
of course ,
very wrong .
every few days it got too much .
you'd have to stay in bed , resting .
the flowers just kept growing .
but this ?
this was the worst you've been through .
you'd woken up like normal .
but you couldn't see a thing .
had you gone blind ?
your hands shot to your face .
flowers .
you could feel the carnations .
and the lilies .
yea you knew they could grow through your skin .
but this ?
this was too much .
at least it meant no more hallucinations .
they'd made you look insane .
you felt somewhat ok today,
unlike the past week ,
so decided to go to school .
you'd need alot of help to do that .
" Rui ! "
you call to your brother .
five .
four .
three .
two .
one .
bang .
you heard your brother enter .
and the gasp of shock and terror .
" (Y/N) !? "
you giggle .
" that's me . "
he sighs , chuckling slightly .
" let me guess . you wanna go to school ? "
you nod , grinning .
" how did you know ? "
" because you're that stupid . "
you simply smile .
he passes you your uniform , helping you change .
you were so grateful for him .
he puts bandages over your flowery eyes .
" don't want anyone being a bitch to you dear sis "
you smile .
" let's go ! "
" breakfast first (Y/N) "
you shake your head .
he sighs .
" not hungry again ? "
you nod .
he gently takes your hand .
the two of you head to school , somehow maintaining your usual bond .
your brother was an angel really .
he sat you at your desk in 1-C so you didn't get hurt .
he kisses your head gently .
" see you at break princess "
you giggle .
" don't- "
" you'll see me but I won't see you . "
he chuckles , mumbling .
" gods sake . "
you hear him walk off .
a soft sigh leaves your lips .
your body trembles badly .
doesn't help you felt freezing .
and the hunger pains .
god the hunger pains .
but whenever you sat to eat , you couldn't .
you felt sick at the thought of eating .
you'd been living off of bread for the past month .
all in all .
it was hell .
" . . . (Y/N) ? "
what .
what's he doing here ?
he's in 1-B .
wait .
Akito sits right next to you .
how could you forget ?
Touya spends his morning time with Akito .
it was originally in his class .
but Akito must've told him to come to his class .
you've been ill for a week .
that would be why .
" what happened ? "
he broke you from your thoughts .
" what do you mean ? I'm fine . "
sometimes .
lying is ok .
especially since you don't want to hear lies .
ironic .
lying so you don't get lied to .
" (Y/N) then explain the bandages . "
hm .
" I fell . "
hah .
haha .
lies are so humorous don't you think ?
or is that just you being delirious ?
" and need bandages for all your eyes ? "
you nod .
you can't see him .
obviously .
but you can tell he's irritated with you .
oh well .
you have every right to bug him .
he's killing you for heavens sake .
speaking of .
hearing him walk off sent you into a hacking fit .
during lesson , Akito taps you .
you didn't know it was him at first .
and so .
you jumped a fucking mile out of fear .
you heard him chuckle to your right .
so you flipped him off .
" what's with the bandages ? "
you shake your head .
" tell you at break . "
he hums in agreement .
" maybe explain everything weird going on with you ? "
a soft sigh .
you nod .
nothing else you could do .
break rolled around sooner than you wanted .
you hear Akito scrape his chair up to your desk .
" go on . "
deep breaths .
Rui was on his way soon , so you could do this .
you remove your bandages .
" . . . what the fuck . "
you heard Akito mumble .
you let out a light giggle .
unaware of watching eyes .
" hanahaki . "
Akito only utters a small " what ? "
you softly sigh .
" I'm dying Akito . "
and so .
you explained what it was to him .
well .
tried .
two voices .
yelling .
actually .
one was yelling .
the other seemed to be trying to quietly defend themselves .
the yelling was Rui .
without thinking .
you stand .
rushing and gripping his jacket .
" big bro calm down ! "
he pauses his yelling to sigh , rubbing your head .
" (Y/N) I have every right to yell at this asshole . "
he cups your face in his hands .
" look at what he's done to my precious baby sister . "
that meant .
Touya .
Touya had seen your .
your .
disgusting state .
how unsightly you must be .
coughing .
ow .
it hurt badly .
Rui simply held you close .
he knew you didn't want fake words of comfort .
you just wanted to know he's there .
once your coughing calmed .
he lifted you .
he wasn't going to keep you here with how badly your condition is .
two more weeks had passed .
Rui essentially kept you on bed arrest .
literally .
you tried standing up ?
the world was fucking ending according to him .
it amused you .
even as you got weaker and weaker .
sicker and sicker .
you were still cheery .
still happy .
Rui was glad that you hadn't let you lose yourself to the disease .
today was the first day he returned to school .
you sighed softly .
standing , albeit shakily , you change into a dress .
that way you knew it didn't look too bad .
you could feel each and every flower along you fragile , (S/C) skin .
you wandered the woods near your home .
until you couldn't anymore .
your body physically gave up .
you slumped against a tree .
weak .
" (Y/N) ! "
someone was calling your name .
who ?
who would call your name so desperately ?
it wasn't Rui .
he was the only voice you recognised now .
the person knelt beside you , holding you close .
" (Y/N) , please stay . I love you . "
Touya .
Aoyagi Touya was the one holding you so tenderly .
but .
alas .
he was too late .
that was the last thing you heard .
if only he didn't listen to his father .
if only he had told you the truth that day .
that he loved you back .
hah .
but he didn't .
the father corrupted the boy .
the flowers corrupted the girl .