your pov
Touya's pov
I had been living with Touya for a few years now .
he had come to live with me due to my decreasing health .
my rapidly increasing illness .
winter had come .
winter was , arguably , my favourite season .
the voices of the wind told me winter was due .
I stood in the open cold .
straining to hear it .
my body trembles in the cold .
Touya stood beside me .
hand outstretched catching falling snow .
puffs of hot air leaving his lips .
he must be cold .
at night , everywhere is silent .
standing alone in the winter season with her .
snow fell upon my palm that was held out .
she couldn't understand why I did it .
the snow falling , melting on my palm .
it's a transient moment .
truly .
just like her life was .
just like my own life , winter was time for life to wither .
to eagerly await rebirth in spring .
I lacked that .
I lacked the ability to be born again .
I wish I had such an ability .
if I did.
maybe Touya wouldn't worry so much .
I listen to the spiral of life .
in light sprouting like a blooming flower .
I watches the snow pile up , without sound .
she gathers it with a wide smile .
"hey Touya , how does my voice sound now ? "
she asks .
even if I replied .
she couldn't hear anything I say anymore .
but.
her voice was still as beautiful as ever .
I knew I was fated to rust away .
fate was cruel like that .
even with Touya's never ending care .
I desperately wish to live longer .
for more time .
to sing once more .
but I can't hear anymore .
I want her to tell me if she was suffering .
I want her to tell me if she felt alone .
if she did ,
I'd find her where ever she were ,
and make sure she didn't feel such a way anymore .
I want to leave my mark on this world .
I want to leave proof I existed .
proof that I won't just be a fading memory .
proof that I did live .
I held her hand tight in my own .
it's cold .
please don't go anywhere .
please don't leave me alone .
aren't we forever , the two of us as one ?
I wish she could answer .
although I wanted to sing .
I didn't want to sing a sad song .
I mean it .
please ,
just this once .
as the snow piles up .
she vanishes away .
I couldn't do anything but hold her close .
all I wanted was to smile happily beside him .
next to him .
I could sing heartwarming songs .
he didn't want me to strain myself .
but I was unable to hear him telling me to rest .
unable to hear myself sing .
if only it were possible .
I wish I could hear her voice once more .
one more time .
just one more time I want to hear her sing .
even just say my name .
I want to hear her .
having been through many winters together .
I had realized that the feeling I felt towards Touya .
it was that your souls were connected .
but I was unable to tell him .
I had lost the ability to speak .
her eyes are empty .
out of focus .
she wants to cry .
but she won't let me see her so weak .
I don't think she would be weak .
but that's how she thinks .
I can't see anything but darkness .
I can't hear anything .
I'm scared .
it is painful .
agonizing .
I was alone .
in the gray world .
it was just us two .
holding each other close .
motionless .
everything is motionless .
just the snow .
that gently pours down .
but no .
Touya was there .
I knew that .
his hands held mine .
his body warmed my cold one during the winter nights .
she's getting cold .
her voice is gone .
we can't even melt each other as one .
I can't melt the cold encompassing her freezing body.
I'd exhausted my tears .
I can't stop her melting away .
if only I could end her pain .
despite my withering state .
he remained .
I remembered his smile .
I will take it with me when I go .
if I could .
I'd give her everything .
my voice .
my sight .
my hearing .
my warmth .
can't the gods just take it all away ?
please .
take it and give it to her .
my precious one .
please Touya .
even when I leave .
sing the heart warming songs we both normally sang together .
even when wrapped in a world of loneliness .
don't forget that I'll always be with you .
you'll never be alone .
if only I was able to tell him such .
if I'm to be left in this world all alone .
without (Y/N) .
then .
I'll rot beside her .
locked forever in a world .
where I can't even tell her my true feelings .
my world looks bland .
why must she leave ?
I wasn't lonely .
I had Touya .
his body kept me warm .
his warm hands stroking my hair comfortingly .
I couldn't hear him .
but I knew he still cared .
don't make it a sad song .
that's all I wish .
that it remains happy .
even if I were to scream .
her voice won't come back .
even so .
I scream .
I plead .
let me hear her .
even if it's only once more .
even as I wither .
I want to sing with him once more .
I want to sing something heart warming .
if I could .
I'd dedicate a final song to him .
a farewell song .
to tell him one last thing .
you'd never told him before .
but it was important .
"thank you "
and one other thing .
I love you Touya .
I was alone .
to the piling snow ,
I beg of you .
don't stop .
take me as I am .
rob me of all my senses .
rob me of everything .
along with the transient sound of my voice .
scratch it all away .
make it so everything just ,
goes white .
if I cannot say these words of love to you my precious one , I don't want to be here .
I love you (Y/N) .
how pitiful .
the lovers voices wouldn't reach each other .