Ok I admit it, I may not be the nicest person... Who am I kidding? That's an understatement.
'Mean'. 'Cruel'. 'Bitch'. Hell that's not even the worse I've been called. They're all right though.
All the words I've said to others have been much harsher. It was bound to catch up to me some day. With all of the utterly ridiculous things that I've said and done to everyone I'm surprised it didn't happen sooner. Surprised how they were able to put up with it for so long to be honest. I've lost everything and I deserve it.
Well not everything. That's a bit of an exaggeration. My family is still rich after all. Sure my dad may not be the mayor anymore since his 8 years are up but we still live in the hotel he owns of course. Even if we didn't Audrey is still the best fashion designer in New York and would still have money. So I haven't lost everything.
But here I am walking to school today, hair down, wearing my glass over my sleep deprived face, earphones in my ears, a white cashmere cropped hoodie accompanied by yellow and black striped bergdorf wide legged pants and, white bottega sandals. Still always have to wear designer to please Audrey. Funny, I can remember her name but she can never seem to remember mine.
I haven't drove in the limo to school in almost forever. Clears my head I guess. Anyway first day of senior year since I've decided to go back to normal school again . I stopped going to school after... Sabrina stopped -following me around- hanging out with me... which was well deserved. Especially after the last thing I did to her. Remember her New York boyfriend? Yea... I may have ruined that for her. It's what made me realize I'm actually a terrible person. All the things I've done was low but this was the lowest.
~ 8 Months Ago ~
"Camille, your father said we should do some ridiculous bonding activity or something of the sort," mother said as she rolled her eyes which I missed while rummaging through my closet from the excitement I had when my father announced that my mother had agreed to hang out with me. "Shouldn't you have had your servant girl already picked something out for you? You're wasting my time Clarie," she said with a look of utter repulsiveness.
"Servant girl...? Oh you mean Sabrina! She's not really a servant, more of a lackey but she's also my friend. Also she was busy on a date today so we're hanging out tomorrow." I reply still trying to get the new designer shoes daddy had gifted me.
"Friend? Clarissa what have I told you? We don't have time for friends, friends don't serve any beneficial value therefore are a waste of time. Wait! Did you say date?!" Mother said with not only confusion but disgust in her voice
"Oh yea, she caught some feelings at some ridiculous dance to a boy when we went on the trip to New York. At first I was repulsed by why she would want him too especially with him have no status but I guess they're happy so," I said finally slipping on my shoes ready to head out. She stopped me by my shoulders and bent down into my face.
"Chloe how can you let your servant girl have a relationship before you? That will be utterly embarrassing for you at school! You want your status to drop?! Embarrass me??"
"Well i tried to be with Adrikins but he already has a girlfriend, Kagami... and she's kind of scary..." i whisper that last part. "And all the other guys at school are utterly undateable. I would rather be seen single than be with one of them" I cross my arms in a huff.
"Well then it's simple, you will just have to break them up." Mother said standing back up straightly.
"Break them up?" I asked questioning her authority. Mother is normally what I look up to but I don't know, something about this felt devastatingly wrong.
"Yes, break them up. Make sure he'll never want her again too! You can't have her making you look weak." Mother said firmly
"I don't know mother..." I hesitantly say.
"Nonsense, you will do as I say now! I cant have my daughter being shown up by her servant. That would be absurd. Do you want to embarrass our family Carla? Show that girl her place! Until you do as I say I will be going to handle real business instead of wasting my time," She says with an intense glare.
I have no idea what I want to do. Mother's respect is all I want but Sabrina really planned this date while her boyfriend was in town... Mother's stare is piercing though. It's the type of intimidating that leaves people running. The room feels like it's heating up as sweat starts to form. Is she right? Will I really be thought less of? Will I really be an embarrassment to her?
"Ok mother." I finally say. With those words mother pats my head and walks out the room with her head held high while I set out to go...
ruin my best friends date.
~ Present ~
First day back. Yay. I shouldn't even complain though. That's all I ever did. Complain. Cried to daddy. That's the only thing I knew how to do anyway. Mimicking Audrey's behavior in hopes of being praised by her. Stupid. I was stupid.
I start seeing the Françoise Dupont High School feeling nervous as I walk up to the building I had left behind for a while.
I stop in my tracks staring at the sight in front of me. My sister getting out of the limo and meeting up with her friends. Dupain-Cheng, Césaire, some other extras, and... Sabrina... all of them grinning widely and embracing in a group hug.
I step back. I cannot let them see me. My eyes are darting from place to place, looking for somewhere to hide. Next to me I see a bush behind the wall on the stairs to the school. I quickly duck there hoping to be unnoticed.
I cant really see or hear them well so I decide to just sit there for a few minutes hoping soon that they'd go inside. After what I deem acceptable time i pop my head back up and see if they're still there. Gone. Phew. I slowly walk towards the stairs.
Something in me stops me again. Is THE Chloe Bourgeois getting nervous? My body feels tense and I feel like I shouldn't be here. I don't belong here anymore. I put everyone through a lot and deserve nothing. Maybe I should just go-
Some thing taps me on my shoulder. I look to my right and see a guy with blue-dyed hair, nails painted black, skater wear, and a guitar on his back. He looks at me with a small -cute- smile.
"Hey, First day? You're standing here alone like you just saw a ghost" He asks smiling at me softly with kind eyes. His smile is warm and feels safe. At first I just look at him.
"Uh- I guess you could say that," I manage to get out.
"Welp luckily for you it's also my first day," he says grin growing. "First day jitters are common but I'm sure you'll be fine. If it helps at least you know you're not alone!" He exclaims cheerfully. Alone. Something I've been since I've isolated myself from pure disgust of who I am. He's new so he hasn't heard of me, I'm guessing. Too bad that he'll never want to be near me when he does.
I look at him and nod with a slight but unsure smile knowing that I'll probably never have another conversation with him so might as well not try now right.
"I just transferred here cause I heard about the killer music program they just opened up from my twin sister." He says as they walked up the stairs. I try my best to avoid eye contact. "I'm Luka."
"Chloe," I say hoping he doesn't recognize my name. Just cause he's new doesn't mean he does know me from times I was akumatized or something. His twin could've told him about me for all I know. My reputation isn't really the best I admit, if he does knows me and hasn't run away it's probably out of fear or something.
"Chloe. Nice! Well now that we're finally officially introduced, after you," he grins still while opening the door for us. I walk in with my head lightly down still not ready to face everyone again. "You seem shy like my sister. It'll be ok though, she's told me everyone here is nice so there's nothing to worry about." Yea nice. Everyone is nice since I left.
"Uh- Thanks... I'll keep that in mind" I say now facing him. The smile of his lights up again.
"Welp we should go now before we're both late, I'm in class 3b. You?" He asks me while looking at his schedule.
"3c." I respond back taking mine out of my bag. He glances over to mine and his eyes are now filled with excitement but somehow still cool.
"Well we have the same lunch! I guess I'll see you there! Now I'll know someone other than my sister and her friends" He says happily. "We should go to class now Chloe but I'll see you at lunch!" He says as he softly waves goodbye and goes in the opposite direction. I give him as forced small smile and wave back.
Time to go face the day.