Genre: angst to fluff
Third Person's POV
Y/N was sitting on Spencer's bed as she did her science homework. She had asked the girl if she could come over as she needed help with her homework.
It was actually just an excuse for her not wanting to be home as she was avoiding Jason and she didn't want to have to answer her mom's question about why she is refusing to see him.
Y/N had tried her best to stay away from the said boy simply because of their one and only tormentor, A. She didn't want Jason to be in any danger because he was involved with her. She had rather he be safe and happy with someone else than putting his life at risk because they were together. She wanted to protect the boy she loves but Jason does not agree with her decision.
Jason had known about A as he had found out about them by accident, thus he didn't agree to the break up when Y/N had tried to keep him away to protect him. He knew that she was trying to protect him but similarly he wanted to protect her. He wanted to be there for her when she is suffering because of A.
But Y/N wouldn't let him, she didn't want to risk it, she wouldn't forgive herself if Jason got hurt because of her. She had made her stand clear to Jason but he didn't give up, believing that they could overcome everything together.
He had been using his ways to try to get Y/N to accept him again. He continues to text her everyday and approach her as much as he could to show his love for her and tried to take away the fear she held in her heart.
There were so many times which she had to control herself from running back into his arms. Her heart still desires to be with him and she wanted to give in but she knew that she couldn't. She couldn't put him in danger because of her selfishness. Thus, she started to avoid him as she was scared that she would give in to her feelings.
Y/N was snapped out of her daze as she heard Spencer clearing her throat beside her. "You have been staring at the same page for the past 10 minutes." Spencer says as she took note that the girl had been playing with the necklace on her neck.
She had subconsciously played with it as she get lost in her own thoughts. It was the necklace Jason had given to her and she doesn't have the heart to take it off. "Maybe he's right. We shouldn't let A control our lives, you breaking up with Jason is what they want, but we shouldn't live in fear of them." Spencer says as she knew what was on her friend's mind.
"I know what you are trying to say. But I couldn't risk it, I could live with it if he is healthy and safe with someone else but not putting himself in danger because we are together." Y/N sighs as she looked at her friend.
"I would have done the same with Toby but from the guy's point of view, Jason probably wants to protect you too! He wants to be there with you even if it means getting himself in danger in the process." Spencer replied.
Before Y/N could answer back, Spencer's phone rang.
Spencer picked up the phone as she stood up from her bed. When Spencer was talking on the phone, Y/N looked back down at her necklace as she processed what her friend said.
"Yeah, she's here beside me." Y/N looked up curiously at her friend as she heard Spencer said to the person on the phone.
Y/N got worried when she saw Spencer frowning as she listened to the other person spoke on the phone. After a minute, Spencer ended the call after saying, "I will bring her there."
Y/N was about to ask what it was about but Spencer was quick to explain the situation. "It was Toby. You need to go to Jason right now, Toby had found him drunk in a bar. He had too much to drink and I'm scared that he might have to go back to rehab if this goes on as he had started drinking again since you broke up with him."
Y/N's eyes widened when she heard what happened, she didn't know that her leaving caused Jason to start drinking again. Feeling worried for the boy, she asked Spencer where Jason was at. "Toby is with him at his house right now but he refused to stop drinking."
Y/N nodded as she quickly stood up from the bed and packed her things to go to the boy. Spencer and her walked to Jason's house together.
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When Y/N and Spencer got into the house, they saw Jason sitting on the floor with a glass of alcohol in hand as he talked about his feelings to Toby. His face was red and there were tears streaming down his cheeks, which clearly showed that he was drunk. He didn't notice the two girls as his back was facing them and he continued mumbling about why he is so upset.
Toby who had noticed the two girls, approached them. "Thank you for sending him back home." Y/N said as her heart breaks seeing the boy in this state.
Toby shook his head, "It was no problem. You should probably talk to him. He really loves you and has been bottling a lot inside." Y/N nodded as she looked sadly at the boy, thinking it was her fault he had became like this.
Spencer and Toby exchanged glances as they decided to leave the two alone. "Sometimes what a guy wants is really just to be by your side and protect you." Toby says before leaving with Spencer.
Y/N slowly placed her belonging on a nearby chair and approached the boy whose back was still turned at her. She slowly sat down on the floor behind him as she heard what he was mumbling, "...she don't want me anymore... she doesn't listen to me...all I want is to be able to hold her hand and see her smile everyday... why is that so hard?"
Y/N's eyes teared up as she continued listening to the boy rumbling about his feeling. "I don't know what to do anymore... I want to make her not afraid... I want to protect her... but she doesn't let me... she wouldn't let me in... she's gonna leave me too... but I love her so much... I need her."
Tears streamed downed her face hearing all those words as her heart broke looking at the boy. She slowly placed her hand on Jason's shoulder, hoping to give him some comfort.
The sudden touch had made Jason turned and looked at her.
Y/N looked back at him as tears continued running down her cheeks and she rubbed his shoulder hoping that her presence at this moment would help.
Jason had stared at her for awhile before he spoke again as more tears fell from his face seeing the girl. "I love you so much...how could you leave me? I know you want to protect me but you can't continue living in fear and keep pushing me away! I need you in my life! Please! I'm begging you please don't leave me! I really really love you! Please don't leave me...there would be no meaning in my life without you..." Jason had choked out his words as he continued pleading to the girl not to leave him.
Y/N didn't say anything, but she hugged Jason tightly, trying to reassure him that she was here right now with him. The couple cried in each other's arms and didn't want to let go of each other.
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(Next morning)
Jason woke up in his bed as he felt his head throbbing. He then took the pills Y/N had left for him with a glass of water.
As he proceeded to walk down the stairs, he smelled the delicious smell of food coming from the kitchen. Just in time as he reached the kitchen, he saw Y/N turning off the stove and placing the food onto the plate and carried it to the table.
Y/N noticed him as he approached the table. She smiled at him as she said, "I made your favourite!" Jason took a seat before looking at her, wanting to ask what it meant for them after last night. And as if reading his mind, Y/N spoke, "We have a lot to talk about afterwards but let's enjoy the breakfast together first!"
Jason nodded as he picked up his utensils. He could remember the events from last night clearly and hoped that she wouldn't decide to leave him again.
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After breakfast, Y/N brought Jason to a place that held the memories of them together. It was a special place for both of them. The place was surrounded with trees and was very quiet, the only sound coming from the cars passing by. The couple had been there rather often when they go on dates as they didn't have to worry about being disturbed by others and they had their time all to themselves. They would have picnic and sat there for hours in each other's embrace.
They stopped in front of a big tree and Y/N ran her fingers around the words that was curved on the tree. This was the place where their relationship began. Jason looked at the tree as he thought back to the day he confessed to Y/N.
<Flashback>
Y/N had gone to the place where Jason had asked her to meet him but she didn't see any sign of him. When she looked at the tree in front of her, she smiled as she saw words that are curved on the trees. Feeling curious, she walked over to get a closer look at the words.
"I love you", Y/N read the words on the tree. She chuckled as she thought, 'Aww, this is so romantic! The person who curved this must have wanted to show this to their lover.'
She was snapped out of her thought when she heard footsteps behind her. She turned around, seeing Jason holding a bouquet of flowers.
She was surprised as she processed the scene in front of her. She blushed furiously when Jason handed the flowers to her. She took it and Jason smiled as he walked towards the tree, touching the words on the tree.
"Were you the one that curved this?" Y/N asked.
Jason then nodded slowly and turned around, speaking the message on the tree. "I love you, Y/N. Would you go out with me?"
As Y/N heard those words, her smile widened and ran up to embrace the boy. "Yes! I love you too!"
He then returned the embrace as he smiled happily. That day, they had made the promise that they would always be with each other.
<Back to present>
"I'm sorry for breaking the promise." Y/N said as she stared at the words on the tree, remembering the promise they had made.
"But I really don't know what to do anymore! I didn't mean to hurt you so much! I know you do not agree with my decision but this is the only way I could think of to protect you! This is hard for me too, I am also in pain not being able to be with the person I love! You have always been by my side, supporting my decisions and that was what I needed every time. But this time is different, without your support, I felt so lonely and scared. I just really really don't want to risk losing you!" Y/N continued as tears streamed down her cheeks and she slowly squatted down hugging her legs to her chest.
Jason wiped away a few of his own tears as he heard what Y/N said. He then moved to squat next to the girl, pulling her into his embrace.
"I know that you just want me to be safe, but I don't want to live in fear or with any regrets. Even if it means that my life is at risk, I still want to be with you! You are the only person I want and without you, I don't think I can live with that! I love you so much so please stop pushing me away. I would protect myself and you! I promise I'm always gonna be right here with you, I wouldn't want to leave you easily so I definitely would not let A split us apart!" Jason said to the girl who was still crying in his embrace.
Y/N didn't say anything and only tightened her hug on the boy. She didn't want to let go, she wanted to feel him and feel assured that he was still there with her. Her fear was still somewhere in her heart but she couldn't help but give in.
"Please! Please! Just don't leave me alone in this world! I can't breath thinking that you are not gonna be here with me anymore." Y/N pleaded as she expressed her fear of losing him to Jason.
"I promise I am not going anywhere!" Jason whispered repeatedly to the girl in his arms as he run his hand through her hair, trying to comfort and reassure her.
At the moment, Y/N thought 'Maybe this is the right decision'. The fear may always be somewhere in her heart but maybe the both of them could overcome it together. It was time to be brave and show A that they are not backing down without a fight. They would protect each other and never ever would they leave each other alone again.