"Sweetheart..." pag gising sa akin ni Reese who is holding my hand
Since when did I feel used to him calling me sweetheart? ugh at first it was giving me chills in my spine tho
"what izzit" tanong ko
Oo maarte pa din ako kahit kakagising ko lang
"Are you feeling well already?" tanong nya sa akin
"Better that earlier. My head still hurt though" sagot ko naman
Inilibot ko paningin ko at nakita ko si mom, Lou, tita Cindy (stepmother ni reese) and tito Jerry (dad ni Reese) tapos may doctor sa side ko
"mamamatay na ba ako?" I jokingly asked them
"You're showing the signs of pregnancy" sabi nung doctor
W H A T T H E F U C K ?
my jaw dropped because of what I heard
I-I'm what?
"Sorry sweetheart, I forgot to use protection" sabi ni Reese
di ko alam kung seryoso ba to o ano eh? NI HINDI NGA KAMI NAGKAKADIKIT DITO SA BAHAY EH!
Wait, is he covering up for me?
Is this really real?
"Here's a pregnancy test, you can test it yourself if you want" sabi nung doctor
NANANAGINIP LANG AKO! NANANAGINIP KA LANG MISTY!
Kinuha ko yun at pumasok sa cr
Good timing, naiihi na ako after that loooong sleep
I can't look at their eyes. I feel like I'm a dirty dirty little whore getting pregnant before our wedding
Di ko na ilalahad dito kung paano ko ginawa yung sa pregnancy test kit kasi ako mismo di ko alam kung ano ang ginagawa ko
I have three pregnancy test kits here and...
Two lines... what does that mean?
May manual naman kasi Misty! uh...
positive
this is bullshit
kill me now
Bakit ako naiiyak? Wait, then who is the father?
OMG nakakabuntis na ang pagtititig sa mga picture ni Brad Simpson? lol di pa ako ganun ka tanga hahaha Misty stop it
So... It's Gab then? Can't think of anyone else. Impossible talaga na si Reese yun eh?
Lumabas na ako ng CR at pinilit na smile na kunwari masaya ako na naguguluhan
"It has two lines? Am I a drug addict or what?" sabi ko then I laughed
"Oh my god Misty! This is such an early blessing" sabi ni Reese tapos lumapit para yakapin ako ng mahigpit
"Keep quiet, it's mine. This is for your own good" bulong nya sakin habang nakayakap sya
OMG so di naman pala nga sya tanga.
I should be with Gab right now. I should be telling this to him right now
Naiyak na ako because of the thoughts about Gab. Why do you have this kind of effect on me?
Gosh this is a greaaaaat sin! I feel so... unpure. that's too deep
"I'll be going now. Drink your vitamins and visit the OB" sabi nung doctor tapos hinatid na sya ni tita Rhea
mukhang seryoso si tito Jerry. they are scary.
Linapitan naman ako ni Lou then he gave me a pat on my shoulder. What kind if situation am I in right now?
"The wedding will be as soon as possible" seryosong sabi ni tito Jerry
oh gahd. sobrang soon na nga, naging as soon as possible pa. naloloka na ako!
"We should leave them alone" sabi ni mom tapos hinila nya palabas si Lou at sumunod naman si tito Jerry
tension everywhere
Nang marinig ko na sumara na pinto, mas kinabahan na ako sa gagawin ni Reese. Mararatatat ba ako nito o ibubully nya ako kasi wala nang nakakakita sa amin?
Naglakad papalayo sa akin si Reese at pumunta sa may pinto. Leaving already?
Nah
He just locked the door
Wait, what? ... locked the door?
Oh noes
He looks serious now
"Let's have a deal" sabi nya habang lumalapit sa akin
"Deal?" tanong ko
I hate deals
"I don't want my name ruined so let's forget that that child is from another man" sabi nya not removing his eyes from mine
Ito ba talaga yung bully Reese na kilala ko? Time changed him
"Why are you willing to do this? You can just back out and forget about the wedding tho" sabi ko
Bakit ba nya kailangan akuin ang di kanya kung pwede naman nyang mag walk out sa buhay ko? Pinapahirapan nya life nya eh? Pati yung akin din
"Didn't I tell you before?" he chuckled
Ako naman nakatingin lang sa kanya waiting for a continuation
"I told you that someday... You'll be mine" pagpapatuloy nya
Nako kung di ko kilala tong tao na to iisipin ko may hidden admiration to sakin!
"Crush mo ako no?" sabi ko naman
Napaka panira mo talaga ng mood Misty!
"Are you really that numb? Since before, they kept on telling na pag inaaway ka at kinukulit, may gusto sayo and I realized it's true after you transferred to another school. I know you hated me so much and I hated myself because of the things I did. I kept in touch with you... secretly. And was waiting for the right time to sprout out and love you like no one else can. I saw your happiness, sadness, and everything. I never saw a woman who can make bullying a satisfying thing for me. Can't you let me bully you with love?" sabi nya as he comes closer to me
That was loooooong. nosebleed man!
"I think this is a one-sided love so... you better give up Reese. I'm sorry if I couldn't return your love but if this wedding work out, I'll be doing my best to see the good in you and to love you like what you did" sagot ko naman
but... Gab
Please... sana makapunta ka na dito bago pa ako matali dito for life
"So, it's a deal? Are you willing to do the wedding without hesitations?" tanong nya
I just nodded
Di ko kasi alam kung ano sasabihin ko
"Thank you" sabi nya then he hugged me tightly
I hugged back and he felt at ease after
"Come down later, I'll be cooking for you" sabi nya tapos lumabas na sya ng room ko
What's up with my life?
It feels like I'm in a roller coaster ride
Oh gahd. Akala ko ito na yung chance namin ni Gab then nangyari to
Maybe... we're really not meant to be
Maybe he is just another person I need to forget and erase from my life for me to move on and have a better life
Then... I remembered Chris' words to me before
Why did I pick heaven? Not in hell
When I can be on Earth
Where I truly belong with the one I love
I know that love is not a choice, it happens in the blink of an eye. It takes time, but not something to wait for
Love cannot be forgotten immediately just because you found a new one
It's just too damn hard
This situation all over again
Yung...
mahirap mamili sa 'mahal ka pero di mo mahal' at 'mahal mo at mahal ka rin pero madaming hadlang'
Just when I thought everything is going smoothly
Sorry Gab... I can't fight for our love anymore
Let's just put everything in our memories while it's still precious
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