In a world where I find money not worthy of my needs,
I cried,cried and cried but my tears fell off freely,
Tirelessly I slept with faded dry tears on my cheeks,
Marriage has changed my past so forward,
But could one move forward with a forgotten past?,
This question triggers my curiosity all time,
Life gives you happiness and everything in it,
With all the thinking money is life,
One could think money has all solutions,
But In today 's world money is just a name,
And happiness could be money itself even without a naira,
Life gives you the unexpected at the least you expected,
Looking back at the past,
If one told me I'd be in a dilemma where money can't solve a problem,
I'd never believed,
And today I'll reverse back to the past,
To pick up those fallen leaves I've all forgotten about,
One piece after another,
Maybe I'd find my sex!!!
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"In those days we were the number one party girls in town"Carly said
"We were called with different names but mostly "ROCKIN'ROLLICk"I replied
"Ooh and do you remember the"BRING YOUR OWN BOOTY DANCE PARTY"?it was by far most the best we enjoyed"
"We caught up Carly kissing with a guy she recently met"Aaria said
"Wow it was a hot make out session"
"Which I enjoyed mehn" Carly said as if rewinding the memory fresh
"And Maya was up in the room,almost all drunk up caught up with a "kisscondom" on her hands trying to do the impossible"I said
"S.εﾒ,you got the baddest mind on sex then,you wanted having s.εﾒ with all the cute guys out their with no care in the world if he has HIP it is called yeah?"Aaria asked Maya
"You fool what's HIP?its HIV"Carly corrected
"Wareva,that newly disease got almost everyone scared running for their life"Linda said in a tone full of hurt.
"Preventing each other from any kiss,romance or anything that will lead to sex
"I was carried away with the way sex was described to us at first,I instantly fell in love,I was desperate"linda said
"Well I wasn't that desperate with the tone of hearing the last part about getting pregnant,you know kids..."
"Hudyan was the dumbest,sex was something she couldn't understand then,even after countless times of explaining,I gave up explaining to her"Aaria said
"Yeah we all did" Carly replied
"I know right,but I wasn't that dumb to give myself out to just any guy"I replied
"Ooh that wasn't nice"Linda replied
"I care less"
"We had such a wonderful experience,that made us laugh for a long time while clutching our hands on our stomachs,and some made our hearts sadden with little droplet of tears falling down our cheeks,it was a small gathering and we had no idea of what they were gonna talk about,when we thought we knew it all...all this while they shared their crazy experience about s.εﾒ and we enjoyed"Carly said in remembrance
"Ooh the talk sex girls night?"
"Yeah exactly"
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Talk sex girls night party
A gathering where we don't talk to anyone,as you come you sit,and we take rounds talking about our experience.anything funny,crazy or sexy!
"Elizabeth(the leader/founder of the club party girls night)explained
One night we were getting hot and heavy and he began to orgasm. He bit into my toe - hard. I began screaming. He thought I was coming too, and didn't realize he was hurting me so he just kept going.
Finally my cries of "stop" mixed with the sudden taste of blood in his mouth made him come to his senses.
He had broken the skin and my big toe was now gushing blood all over the bed. Apologizing profusely, he cleaned up my foot and kept suggesting we go to the emergency room.
I refused. There was no way I was going to describe to a doctor that I just got bitten by my boyfriend...during sex...on my toe.
Some butterfly bandages finally did the trick and we laughed about it. But I never again let him suck my toes in flagrante. He was bummed about that."jessi said making we all laugh hard"
Mine was so disgusting,my 17 year old Boyfriend had been begging me to give him a BJ and swallow. We were in the shower and I went down on him, he came, I swallowed, felt sick immediately, jumped out of the shower and vomited into the toilet (which was in the same room as the shower). What makes it worse is the force from my vomit made me fart as well. So I'm dripping wet, vomiting semen and farting, while my poor boyfriend is watching from the shower. There were no words."Mara said" and we all went ewww
" my adolescence as well as my current life was poor in some enthralling and revelating experiences. May I call myself a very boring and stickler girl.
The main theme of my life is that I like guys I can't get while I have been friendzoned by them.
I've been approached by few guys who pretended to have some interest in me, but they were tedious as heck and we didn't really share my common ground. At least, I was bluntly straightfoward and fulfilled my duty to be honest and clear about my intentions,so at that time I knew any guy who comes out of the blues must have a hidden agenda"
"Well as a girl I never knew what love was,I loved my parents yeah,but I couldn't different between love and dislike...I was never told and thought by my parents,the feelings were not explained to me,whenever I tried to understand them,I fail,I always feel some type of way,some strange feeling stroking me and making me feel uncomfortable,when ever a guy comes so close to me I feel good at the touch of their hands on my soft breast,I've never felt that way ever,it reached to a stage in my life that when they don't touch me,I feel angry and irritated,I got addicted to their touches...it doesn't matter a boy,grown up or married...I begged and followed guys for touches,my nipples and breast got bigger at a time and my mum would just keep looking at me intently,one night she stopped me and smelled me attentively,I got the worst beating of my life,I thought I wasn't doing any thing wrong,no one explained a thing to me,and it became my fault just like that,I hated myself,I hated my life and lastly I wasn't given the chance to speak,to say my opinion and talk free all that I had in mind,my words were caged too,I got depressed and at some instant I hated my mum"this is so touching,some said it's so said and the next person took on
"I loved sex and I was one who was willing to research on it more and study it like a university course,I took it serious even more than my studies,I found out many things,alit which leads from one thing to the other,step by step I found out about menstruation,adolescence stage and lot more.
As a child I thought why not ask mummy to tell me about it more,I was just thirteen and I was curious,it's some thing of education,I should have known like every other child
"Mummy what's menstruation?"her eyes popped up in shock "where do you know menstruation?who told you about it?"
I saw the word and I was curious to know about this new word,so I thought I'd ask like any other time
"It's just a unique toilet utensils,don't bother about it ,I'll explain better when the time comes"
Okay I replied her with a disappointed look and when I finally had my first menses 1 year after,I treated my self right,bought my first pad and searched on the net how to use it,what to do and what not to do.yeah I wanted my mum to be the one to do all but I was sad at the first ask,and I never told her I saw my periods nor hide them away when I'm on them,she found out and until now no questions,no advices nothing nothing"
That's so not fair.
*End of flash back*
"A lot happened back then,we learnt a lot of things a whole lot and after that first time we never went again"
"Well cheers to all the sad talks that brought tears to our eyes and the one's which made us cry and strong"we cheered sipping our champagne.
"Well my break is Over,I have to head back to office"
"I said good bye and left to the office to finish some works"
"Hello ma'am you have some paper reviews,may I"My assistant said through the phone.
"Yes please masha come In"
"Ma'am we have a new contract for AIR-SIA LIQUIED company in America,they want a new branch in America"masha explained.
" I'll read about the details when I get home,I have some place to be at"
"Okay ma'am be safe"
"Thank you"
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"Assalamualiakum mama"I Salim-ed entering the main door of the SHAHZAIB IQBAL ASHFOUR Mansion.
"I'm so mad at you Hudyan,I won't talk to you"mama said turning her face over another direction.
"Mama I'm so sorry mamana"I said hugging her tightly.
"Mama Allah babibibty I've been occupied with work"I said with my puppy dog eyes
"Okay you're forgiven,so how have you been?"she said looking at me closely as if expecting a good news"
"I'm good mama and you?"
"I'm also good sweetheart but how about you?are you're okay?You've loosed weight,is my son disturbing your peace?"
"Uhmm,not at all mama,it's just work load stress"
"Well as a CEO you deserve it and more even"she said with a little chuckle.
"Tell me now,honestly is everything okay between you and shahzaib?"
"Mama trust me,we're perfectly okay"I said replied nervously,as I thought whether or not to tell her the truth,but then privacy was something Shahzaib respect.
"Okay dear I totally agree with you"
"Uhmm,where are the girls?"
"They're upstairs let me call them for you"
"No mama I'll give them a surprise,let me go meet them"
"Well they'd be happy seeing you,they said something about visiting you tomorrow luckily here you are"
"Yes but they will still come,they'll come stay with me,I miss them long time"
"No problem,they meet them upstairs"
"I think I'll work at ya Hudyan's office,I'll be her new assistant,it's gonna be fun"I heard Aamna saying loudly as she tells her sisters.
"Ooh yes girl,I'd be glad...you're accepted"I interrupted and they all looked at me in surprise.
"Yayyyyy,look she's here"they all said as they came over to me hugging me tightly.
"Ooh yes I'd"
"We'll we were gonna visit tomorrow"Aafaf said sadly
"Now you've ruined it all by coming"Afreen said disappointed too
"We'll calm your nerves,I just told mama that y'all coming to stay with me,it's gonna be a holiday"
"Ayyy,thank you"they said in unison their sad faces lighting up with smiles.
"I hope your husband won't send us away with our loads just like he almost did the last time"
"Don't worry he won't"I said with a little chuckle
"I'll surely fire my assistant tomorrow"
"No no ya Hudyan,you don't have to do that,you could hire me according to my CV"Aaman said.
"Anything for you,so girls I have to go right now it's getting late"I said checking the time as it reads 5pm
"We would have stop you but we can't wait for tomorrow"Afreen the youngest said with an "I can't wait for tomorrow" smile.
"Okay let's walk you to the door"Aafaf said as we walked down.
"Don't tell me you're leaving without eating anything "man questioned at the sight of us"
"I would have but I'm in a hurry mama"
"I don't want to hear that please"
"Well mama,I u-Uhmm I have a date tonight"I said looking away
"Well that's a good reason,go ahead then"she said with a chuckle and all the girls go like "awwwwn,awwwwn"
"We'll see you beauties tomorrow"
"Okay bye"
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As I drive,I drive my thoughts closer,
What then happens in the future?,
What happens when everyone is worried from now,
Will we find a way or will all this end,
All we ever had,
Just because of a blurry problem,
An unclear and Unsaid reason,
Is our fate being tested or will speaking up become a happy ending or the end,
Our end.