unknown number
hello namjoon
namjoon
who's this?
unknown number
this is your mother
namjoon
hoseok, if this is you, please stop
unknown
who's hoseok?
namjoon, it's me
-
namjoon began shaking, this had to be some sick joke. it had to be.
-
namjoon
no
unknown number
what do you mean no?
it's me, namjoon
i saw you're having a child
and have a daughter
namjoon
how do you know?
unknown number
your cousin told me
well
that's not the point
i'm sorry namjoon
-
namjoon started crying, gasping for air. he felt like his lungs were shutting down.
he felt like he was dying, he felt like he was suffocating. this had to be a joke. a sorry wasn't going to cut all the abuse he went through.
it didn't help that he was home alone, he didn't help yoongi to help him calm down. he was by himself.
-
unknown number
i quit drinking, i'm so sorry. i regret it all. i know a sorry doesn't make up for it, how about we meet up with your family?
-
namjoon truly thought it was his last day on earth. he was shaking, crying, gasping for air.
this couldn't be real. he refused to believe it was real. he wanted to wake up from this nightmare.
he heard the front door open, meaning yoongi and minji were back home.
"joonie?" yoongi asked, hearing some sobs. he opened their bedroom door and saw the boy shaking, and crying.
"joonie baby, breathe" yoongi said, slowly sitting next to the boy, holding his shaky hand.
"i-i can't!" he screamed, putting his hand over his mouth to conceal his cries, "y-yoonie, take me to a hospital" he cried, yoongi got even more worried.
"let's try to work this out" yoongi said, he really had no idea why namjoon was upset.
in all honesty, he would take namjoon to the hospital but he couldn't because it was hard to move, he could barely move from bed on some days.
"breathe in and out. 5 things you can see" yoongi said, namjoon looked around, "you" he cried, "4 more love" yoongi said, namjoon shook his head and cried.
yoongi softly spoke to him, rubbing his back as namjoon calmed down.
-
"you're okay" yoongi said, the boy had calmed down after 15 minutes. now, namjoon was laying on the ground while sniffling.
"what happened?" yoongi finally asked, "m-my mom... s-she.. texted me and said she wanted to meet up" he mumbled, "she knows about you.. and minji" he hiccuped.
"she said she quit and she apologized" he said, rubbing circles on yoongi's tummy, "oh joonie, do what you think is best" yoongi said, namjoon nodded.
"i overreacted" he sighed, "i'm sorry" he mumbled, yoongi shook his head, "you didn't overreact, please help me up though" he laughed, namjoon helped the boy up with a smile.
namjoon's smile seemed fake to yoongi, you could tell the boy was forcing it.
"how about you take a nap, joonie bear?" yoongi asked, "no" he said, yoongi hummed, "okay" he said, skeptical of the boy.
-
"hey joonie, shall we practice making bottles?" yoongi asked, trying to get namjoon's mind off things.
namjoon hummed, "yeah, i really need to work on that" he laughed, standing up from the couch and heading towards the kitchen to practice with flour to not waste formula.
-
"you made a mess" yoongi said, staring at flour and some dots of liquid namjoon had spilled.
"it's hard, you couldn't have done it better at 19" namjoon sighed, wiping the counters.
"i was amazing at making bottles for your information" yoongi said, standing up to show the boy.
"watch and learn" yoongi said, slowly standing up and waddling to the counter which made namjoon giggle.
"stop laughing" yoongi grumbled, making namjoon smile. his boyfriend was so cute.
-
"you are fast" namjoon said, "you'll learn to be fast when you have a crying baby at 3am" yoongi said, rubbing his tummy.
"i think we should pack the hospital bag" yoongi said, namjoon nodded, so they headed to their bedroom.
no matter what namjoon did, he felt the thought of his mom in the back of his head.
-
"what should be his first outfit?" yoongi asked as they looked through the baby clothes they had.
"something simple" namjoon said, yoongi hummed, grabbing a white onesie that had light grey stripes.
he grabbed some baby gloves, and a small beanie for the baby. he cooed at the small clothing.
"i can't believe he's coming soon" namjoon smiled, kissing yoongi's bump, "i can't either, he's a pain"
namjoon laughed, "i can tell" he said, yoongi rubbed his bump as he got some things ready for the hospital.
-
seokjin
GOT MY DAUGHTER A DOG
#FATHERTHINGS
yoongi
ISN'T SHE LIKE
BARELY A YEAR OLD?
seokjin
KINDA
anyway
so kook and i's 2 year anniversary is coming soon
and
i want to propose
yoongi
SEOKJIN YOU'RE GOING TO MAKE ME GO INTO EARLY LABOR WTF
seokjin
IS THAT BAD?!
ARR YOU SAYING I SHOULDN'T!"?!"
yoongi
honestly
go for it
he loves you so much
seokjin
okay
AHHSHS I HAVEN'T EVEN PLANNED IT AND IM SCARED
yoongi
GOOD LUCK
-
yoongi groaned when he felt a braxton hicks contraction.
"everything okay?" namjoon asked, yoongi nodded, "yeah, it's normal" he said, sucking on his cotton candy flavoured lollipop.
namjoon looked at his phone that lit up, taking it into his hands.
-
unknown number
namjoon
please answer me
why did you leave me on seen?
namjoon
hayoon, i have ptsd because of what i experienced living with you and chul-soo. it's not going to be easy for me to answer you
unknown number
address me as mom
namjoon
no
unknown number
why not
namjoon
you were my abuser for my whole life, you never earned that title
unknown number
but i gave birth to you
namjoon
i don't care, hayoon
unknown number
you're making me sad
namjoon
i don't care
unknown number
let's meet up
please
you can bring your boyfriend
you're gay?
namjoon
yes i am
unknown number
oh okay
let's meet up
today
since your boyfriend looks like he's going to have the baby soon
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namjoon couldn't cry.
he felt like he couldn't at all. he simply stared at the phone and then at his boyfriend who looking at baby clothes online.
"yoongi" he breathed out, yoongi hummed to answer, "my mom wants to meet us"
yoongi blinked, "uh" he said, "well, whatever you wanna do" he said, namjoon nodded.
"let's go for it"
-
namjoon was driving, honestly regretting his choice.
he was scared, terrified to meet his abuser. he was swallowing the vomit that came up his throat.
-
"c-chul-soo?" namjoon whispered, the man nodded, "namjoon-ah, my son" the man smiled, trying to pull in the boy for a hug which the boy instantly denied.
"well, this is yoongi" namjoon said, fiddling with his hands. yoongi bowed his head to not leave a bad first impression.
"this is minji" he said, the small girl bowed and waved. she was tired in all honesty.
-
"so" the mom started off, "when is the baby due? what's the gender?" she asked, "baby is due in 4 weeks, it's a boy" yoongi said, taking a sip from his water.
"oh wow, you don't look that far along" she said, "i've been told that a lot" he said, a small smile on display.
the woman hummed, "you should eat more" she said, yoongi laughed and shook his head, "i've gained enough" yoongi said, the woman hummed.
it was mostly yoongi making conversation to make a good impression although he didn't like these people.
namjoon was limited on what he could say because he was scared. he feared both of his parents.
"namjoon-ah, i quit smoking, well.. i reduced what i smoke" the man said, namjoon nodded, "why's that?" he asked, "your cousin told me to"
namjoon stayed quiet. he couldn't count the amount of times he begged the man while crying to quit and he ended up trying to quit because of his cousin?
unbelievable.
yoongi held namjoon's shaky hand under the table, "i quit smoking" yoongi said, "how'd you do it?" the man asked, "well, i had professional help, i have a therapist. she gave me advice and i had a lot of motivation, the motivation being my daughter and namjoon. i always reminded myself of them when i had a craving"
the man nodded, "thank you"
-
"i'm so proud of you. you did so well" yoongi spoke, "you think so?" namjoon asked, his voice in a softer tone than it usually was in.
"of course sweetheart" yoongi said, putting on his seat belt, "you know those muffins i make that you really like?" yoongi said, namjoon nodded, "i know, the chocolate ones?"
yoongi nodded, "i'll make some later, just for you" he said, namjoon pouted, looking at yoongi, "thank you sugar"
-
"aw fuck" yoongi winced as he put the muffins in the oven, "what's wrong?" namjoon asked, "baby kicked my rib or something" he mumbled, sitting down on the chair he had brought into the kitchen.
"what the fuck" namjoon said, yoongi laughed, "it's okay" he said, namjoon rubbed circles on yoongi's tummy.
-
"we should write our birth plan while we eat these muffins" yoongi said, namjoon hummed and nodded.
yoongi grabbed the papers, grabbing a black pen to start writing. he wrote his name on top and the date.
"you're having a medicated birth?" namjoon asked as he ate and saw what yoongi was writing down.
"labor is painful, i've literally never experienced something like it so i want an epidural as soon as possible" he said, namjoon nodded, he didn't have a say because he wasn't the one who was giving birth.
"i want you in the room" yoongi said, writing namjoon's name down, "these muffins are good" namjoon said, making yoongi laugh
"i'm nervous" namjoon spoke, yoongi nodded, "i am too, but you're great at everything, just not the bottle making" yoongi added, a small smile on display.
a knock at the door, namjoon walked to go get it since yoongi hated moving around with a big belly. well, it wasn't that big, he just hated moving in general.
"i brought gifts" seokjin spoke, yoongi smiled, "thanks" he said, standing up from his chair. he put his hands on his hips as he walked.
"you walk like a penguin" seokjin said, yoongi scoffed and sat down near the boy.
"i can't help it" he said, rubbing circles on his stomach, "how's the baby?" seokjin asked, "he's doing well" he said, a small smile on display.
"any names?" seokjin asked, yoongi hummed, "we have a couple in mind" yoongi said, "kook and i want to have another one so she has a sibling not far in age"
yoongi's eyes widened, "both of you are amazing...woah. i think 2 is enough though for me" he said, groaning when he felt the baby kick.
"i brought diapers, you told me the baby was small so i bought preemie and newborn" seokjin said, namjoon stared at them.
"what?" he questioned, "what's wrong?" yoongi asked, "what's preemie?" he asked, he didn't remember learning about that.
"diaper size for babies up to 6 pounds" yoongi said, "oh" namjoon said, and nodded with a small smile.
"and pacifiers, and bottles, clothes" seokjin said, "the clothes are so cute, i love baby clothes" he frowned, rubbing his stomach.
"we went to the mall when yoongi was around 3 months pregnant to buy baby clothes and he cried because the clothes were so tiny" namjoon laughed, yoongi pouted.
"they make me so...happy" he said, making both boys chuckle.
-
"yoongi, stop moving around and go to sleep" namjoon groaned, he couldn't sleep because yoongi moved around too much.
yoongi stayed quiet and stood up, leaving the room to go to the living room. he was mad but he wouldn't say that out loud.
he headed to the kitchen, grabbing a water bottle and sitting on the couch with a sigh.
"how come you don't kick when i'm on the couch" yoongi mumbled, disappointed in his unborn child.
he sighed, putting on a show to watch even though he was tired. he couldn't sleep.
-
yoongi was woken up by namjoon at 6 in the morning, "yoongi, get to bed, why are you sleeping on the couch?" the disappointed male sighed.
yoongi closed his eyes again, he was still mad, "yoongi, hurry" namjoon said, yoongi shook his head, "no"
namjoon sighed, "yoon, are you mad?" he asked, yoongi slowly nodded, "and why is that?" he asked, "because what you told me last night"
namjoon hummed as he reflected back, "but i couldn't sleep from how much you moved around" he pouted, earning a death glare.
"you're not one to complain! look at me! do you think i can sleep well?" he raised his voice, "careful sugar, the baby might come earlier if you keep shouting"
yoongi glared at him, "how about you get your ass to work? you're running late"
-
yoongi was left a crying, pregnant person when namjoon left. he had eaten half a tub of ice cream at 6am.
his hands were shaking and he felt panicky. he felt a pressure on his chest.
he cried harder, it was barely 6:30am and he was having a panic attack. he cried more, he felt horrible.
-
namjoon
after talking with my coworker, i learned that what i said was not appropriate and i apologize
read at 6:38am
don't leave me on read :( it makes me anxious sugar
yoongi
joonie imbhaving a oanixbattfvk
namjoon
??
yoongi
im hqvibg a oanic attck
namjoon
oh gosh
im coming home
yoongi
no
i jedd tobatop being like jis
namjoon
love you're going to pass out
don't worry im on my way
yoongi
nonono
ill be okay
namjoon
no
yoongi
STAY AT WORK
ILLSBHEOKAY
namjoon
you don't sound like it
yoongi
joon
i promise
namjoon
i don't care, i need to be there just in case
-
"in and out, sugar" namjoon reassured, letting yoongi lean on him as he breathed in and out.
namjoon stared at the melting ice cream on the table, "you'll be okay, you're doing great" namjoon said, yoongi sniffled and nodded.
the boy eventually calmed down, occasional sniffles being heard, "love, what triggered it?" namjoon softly asked, "i was scared you would leave me for arguing. i'm sorry" he sniffled, namjoon shook his head.
"oh no sugar, i'm sorry too. go rest, okay?" namjoon said, yoongi nodded, rubbing his eyes and sighing.
-
yoongi
can u get mcdonald's on ur way home im craving french fries
with ranch sauce
and i want ice cream
and i want a cheeseburger
andddd big mac
and
choco milk
namjoon
yoongi what the fuck
i mean im not one to judge pregnancy but i KNOW you're not gonna eat all that
yoongi
what's ur problem with ur 8 month pregnant husband who wants mcdonalds 😞
hello?
namjoon
yoongi what do you mean hello
yoongi
this is minji
appa is crying
namjoon
oh gosh this man
yoongi
what?
by the way papa
what do you think of my grammar 🥳 do you like it? i've been practicing 🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳
namjoon
it's amazing minji
better than yoongi's
yoongi
THIS IS YOONGI AGAIN
namjoon
oops
yoongi
NAMJOON YOU ARE A DEAD MAN WHEN U GET HOME
namjoon
so sorry but sometimes ur grammar is not good
yoongi
BUT TO SAY IT'S WORSE THAN MY 4 YEAR OLD DAUGHTER'S?!!!!!!!!!????
im not even hungry anymore
mad
namjoon
but
but i bought you the food
yoongi
ok
i'll still eat
mad at u
mr kim
namjoon
you know
im working on getting qualifications to teach college students
yoongi
sometimes i look at you and think that i really haven't achieved anything
namjoon
you graduated college while raising a child and u graduated as valedictorian
yoongi
right
namjoon
that's a lot yoonie
yoongi
yoonie 😞😞
im sad 😞😞
namjoon
where tf do these hormones come from
wtv
im omw home though
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yoongi began eating his burger as soon as namjoon got home, staring at the older male as he did so.
"still mad, sugar?" namjoon laughed, yoongi furrowed his brows and pouted, "you're the meanest person i know" yoongi mumbled, "thank you" namjoon said in english, "appa not nice" minji responded back in english.
"so now my whole family is against me" yoongi spoke, making the girl and her stepdad giggle.
"both of you, go to your room. i am tired" he groaned, letting out a frustrating sigh.
-
he ate in silence by himself. he was tired, he always was moody which drained him.
he started to feel sleepy, he set what he was eating down and decided to sleep.
he was interrupted by minji giggling and screaming as namjoon chased after her.
all he wanted was some sleep, he began whimpering.
-
yoongi
can i come over??
seokjin
yes
something up?
yoongi
eh
min and joon have been making my hormones go ↗️↘️↔️↪️↩️⤴️⤵️🔀🔁
and they're so noisy
i just want a nap
seokjin
oh kk that makes sense
kook still has his pregnancy pillow if u want to borrow it
it's washed dw 🙌
yoongi
thank you
-
seokjin's house was pretty quiet except for the ocassional screams and gurgles of a certain toddler.
yoongi fell asleep almost immediately as he got there, he hadn't been sleeping well because of the baby's activity.
"why's yoongi here?" jungkook asked, chugging down some water, "his hormones are all over the place and couldn't handle being around namjoon and minji" he chuckled, jungkook laughed and shrugged.
"he must be miserable right now, he looks so peaceful right now" the younger boy said, "he said he can't really sleep at night, poor boy" seokjin frowned, "i'll check in on him"
-
yoongi was cuddling jungkook's pregnancy pillow, sleeping on his right side.
he needed this sleep, he was extremely tired.
—
he woke up to the baby kicking his ribs, at least that's what it felt like. he frowned.
he shouted for seokjin to get him sone water as he rubbed his belly, he was in pain, he wanted the baby to be born.
"everything hurts seokjin" yoongi cried, the boy wiped his tears with his thumb, "look towards the ground, i'll massage your back" seokjin said, yoongi did as told, a sense of relief as seokjin massaged his back.
"thank you" the boy breathed out, straightening his back, "do you need something else?" seokjin asked, yoongi shook his head, "thank you"
—
namjoon
hellooo
where r uuu
yoongi
seokjins house
namjoon
why's that
yoongi
my hormones couldn't stand being at home and i needed a nap
creating life is tooooo stressful
my hips and back hurt so much
i want the baby to be born already
namjoon
ah
can i help u in some way
yoongi
no
im ok
just so tired
my legs hurt
only 4 more weeks
namjoon
noooo
i love ur bump
yoongi
i don't like pregnancy
my hair is falling out
namjoon
HEY
STOP BLAMING MY BABY FOR THAT
THAT'S UR FAULT FOR NOT TAKING UR PRENATAL VITAMINS
yoongi
STOP SHOUTING AT ME OR IM GONNA CRY 😞😞😞😞😞
namjoon
sorry 😒
yoongi
also
my hormones all over the place
it's hard
😞
i'll be home soon
namjoon
be safe love
<33
yoongi
<33
—
yoongi went home again. the baby kicking a lot like usual which made yoongi want to sob everything out.
"help" yoongi groaned once he got through the door, his hand held namjoon's as namjoon helped him flop onto the couch.
"i'm so gross..can't even walk" yoongi mumbled, "sugar, we talked about this. what did i say?"
yoongi hummed, "that i'm creating life or something but i've seen people who are like me and are lifting!" yoongi said, "and? my sugar looks better sitting at home"
yoongi laughed, "even with my chubby cheeks?" he asked, namjoon nodded, kissing yoongi's lips.
"love you, yoongi"
"love you too"
—
stay safe and healthy! drink water and eat some food! sorry for any mistakes, i love you all! qotd: baby names? hehe