The Mist

By okay_we_meow

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A stroll down misty streets in the hilly terrains of poetry. Foggy nights on the radio. Every chapter is a st... More

vices
paralysed moons
losers of the mind
vows
letter
the cringe
Contained
While Missing Him
scary self
incense
Gasps
what can i hold you with?
jaaN
God

Average to Him

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By okay_we_meow

To
My Him,

As much as we've grown fonder
Of our vices and beauties alike
It seems the otherworldliness of my endeavours
Keeps on pulling me away
As if I'd let free on you and cry
On the minutest confrontation with warmth
And there would be no barricades
Which scares me.

Honestly, I haven't seen much
Apart from what all I have seen
I used to find it a lot and now I laugh at myself
Perfections are a mirage
I'm screaming out to you, my love
Glance beyond what my achievements show
As much of a pest I am
My achievements seem to belie those perceptions.

Everytime the loop keeps going on
What scared me wasn't my hurt before
At least I wanted to change things
Now I've gotten used to
Soon I might be on the verge of making someone used to this too
Every hope blooms only to be twisted cut under my string of achievements
And yet, only those achievements are counted that I wouldn't wish to boast about.

I can see the gates, soon I'll touch them
Fleeing isn't under my control
I'm selfish, and I won't deny you the truth
You ought to love me in my entirety, love!
Or just reject me in any manner you deem fit..
There wouldn't be much complaining
Just glance beyond my mirrors.

I keep myself on the edge, I love you
I love you so much, I keep away
With every whisper I melt
I melt and try to move farther
Because on this road upon which I am -
salvation and satisfaction are only two blind-alleys.

Don't think I'm asking you to give up
Too selfish for that, my love
I want you, I can't have you go
I can't have you stay without knowing too,
I want you so much
Your being makes me realise that H isn't a bad letter
Hope, Home and Happiness are all attainable
Only I fear -
Such terms are too big for my small heart.

This is me trying to reach out
Letting you know that I'm trying
I've pushed you away ignorantly for a few days now
I don't intend to push you away more -
I cherish you
But, love, look at me for who I am
Not what my achievements make me
I'm only a woman in love
With her man - irrefutably.

I'm trying to get out of this mess
It's only confusing that I leave one cage to find myself in another
But I'm not going to lie
To pretend I'm a free bird doing my own will
My entire set-up has been a cage
Just like everyone's
I might be a bit farther than someone in breaking out
I'm slower than many too
I'm me, and you see that
I hope you also saw that my achievements are expendable when it comes to you.

From,
Your Average Woman.

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