Chapter 16
Priam Pov
"Uncle, is our baby okay?" tanong ko sa uncle ko nang makalabas siya sa kwarto kung saan si Kai. My unlce is an obstetrician and he is the who run a check-up for Kai.
"You're the father of Makaio's child?" hindi sinagot ni uncle ang tanong.
"Yes, uncle is there something wrong with that?"
Ngumisi si uncle sa akin. "No, there's none. I'm just surprised. Makaio is my patient, he is the son of my friend, Gino."
What the hell!? Kaibigan pala ni uncle Rain si tito Gino and Kai is his patient. What a small world.
"Anyways, your baby is safe be thankful na malakas ang kapit ng niya but don't let Makaio stress-out hindi iyon nakakabuti sa kanya spotting is natural for a bearer for his first two months Priam but bleeding is not in the picture, it shouldn't be. Kaya bantayan mo si Makaio."
Seryoso akong nakikinig kay uncle. Uncle Rain is my mother's older brother. Tinapik ni uncle ang balikat ko. "I need to go back, Priam. Just call me and have your chopper ready if you need me."
"Thanks uncle and please... please just keep it as a secret from my family..."
"Hindi ka pa handa na sabihin sa kanila ito?"
"No uncle, it's just that Kai and I are not in the same page."
Bumuntong hininga si uncle Rain at pinisil ang balikat ko. "Hmm, I understand. You can trust me that i will not say a single word to them about this. And by the way, you can get in now maybe Makaio is waiting for you." pagsasalita ni uncle saka tuluyan nang umalis.
Naiwan akong mag-isa sa labas ng kwarto kung saan si Kai. If only what uncle Rain said is true magpapa-party talaga ako. But just thinking of Kai waiting for me... malabong mangyari iyon. We've been living in one roof for almost two months but not even once na tinanong niya ako kung okay ba ako. Kung kumusta ba ako? Kung ayos lang ba ang araw ko? Lagi ngang pagalit siya kapag sinasagot ang mga tinatanong ko siya.
Even if Kai is cold to me and always gets mad at me. I still like him. I like him so much. Siguro kasama na iyan sa nagustuhan ko sa kanya.
I sigh before knocking the door three times.
"Kai," i called him once the door swung open. Nakasandal lang siya sa headboard ng kama. Tapos ang mata niya ay nasa dalawang kamay niya na nasa hita niya na mahigpit na nakakapit sa kumot. Agad akong lumapit sa kanya at umakyat ng kama.
Hinawakan ko ang nanlalamig at nanginginig niyang kamay. Ang nakayuko niyang ulo ay inangat niya sa akin. I was taken aback when I saw his fresh tears flowing on his cheeks.
I am bewildered. "Kai, is there something wrong? May masakit ba sayo? Tell me." ako at pinupunasan ko ang luha niya but it keeps on flowing. Fuck!
Even if I am amazed that he let me touch him without saying anything. I am still worried.
He shook his head.
"Then-"
"Muntik ng mapahamak ang baby natin dahil sa akin Priam." he started. There's something that rubbed my heart upon hearing what Kai's said. He just said our baby. Damn. Our baby. I wanna jump because of the happiness. "Akala ko mawawala na siya Priam. Akala ko mawawala na ang anak natin."
I grab his hands and have him in my arms. I let him cried on my chest while I'm rubbing his back. After a while he stopped crying but he is still sobbing in my arms. I'm so damn happy that he also wrapped his arms around me. This is what I'm dreaming off.
"Don't worry Kai. Our baby is strong just like... like you," nagdadalawang isip pa ako na sabihin iyong huling winika ko. Baka kasi matauhan na naman siya at magwala na naman siya. But i'm glad that he isn't. "And I'm always here. Hindi ko kayo pababayaan." I kissed his head.
He hugged me tighter and nodded his head. Hindi ko na nasundan pa ang mga pangyayari hanggang sa naramdaman ko na lang na mabibigat na ang hininga na pinapakawalan ni Kai. And when I take a glimpse of him. He already asleep while his nose is on the valley of my chest. It looks like he's sniffing my scents but he is asleep though. Slowly, I put him on the bed and cover him with the blanket.
I was about to go and leave him so that I can make a dinner but his hands find my shirt and tug it. I look at Kai because I thought he is awake but I was wrong his eyes were close.
"Priam." he murmurs my name. My heart jump up a beat. Fuck, this is so lame. I cannot help it but to grin. My little kitty is dreaming of me, I guess.
"Kai," i call him and brush his hair using my hand. Hindi muna ako bumaba sa kama at inaliw ko ang sarili ko sa kakasuklay sa buhok niya. Gusto ko nang ganito kami ni Kai. I want him to want me too as much as I want him for me. Good grace. I wanna be like this forever with him.
Before, i used to date almost all women. I used to date a women and change women like I am changing my clothes. I just want to get laid then were done. No women catches my attention. Lagi nga akong sinusugod noon ni mama sa opisina ko dahil lagi akong laman ng mga news because of my debauchery. It's funny but people have known me due to it. Due to my debauchery. Also, there are women who always bangs on my office door because they want a commitment after one night. But hell will freeze, i don't want any of that. Even if she's a model, a known actress and many more that I can't remember, i don't want to get involve with them aside from having a one night sex only.
Maybe, Kai is my karma. Two years ago, i went to a party together with my cousins, I honestly don't know what's the cause of the party, my cousins just tag me along with them. And I, on the other hand happened to met with Kai. He is with Jia Villanueva, the binibining Pilipinas title holder of that year. Kai was standing right next to Jia. He is holding a glass of juice if I wasn't mistaken. He was taking a little sip of it and he almost cannot keep his head high. I guess it's because he is not used to crowded places and parties.
But in one fleeting moment our eyes meet. I know back then that i was fuck up. But I also knew the first time our eyes meet that he despises me a lot. My heart almost jump off on its place. Even for a seconds i see nothing but only him and me in that place. The sound of my heart was very audible. I just can't help it but to shoot him a stare. He just so fucking gorgeous in my line of vision that night. His small oval-shaped face, his small nose and red lips that i want to mash with my own lips.
That night I want to get to know him but i know if I did it. I'll only scare him. That's why instead of knowing him and approach him, I went to Jia, his stepsister, i just happen to get to know that she is Kai's stepsister after I know her that night. After that night, I became I fucking dog without me knowing. I look like a fucking creepy stalker at the age of 32, stalking to a college boy.
Now, i cannot believe it na nandidito ako sa tabi niya. I don't need to hide anymore. I need to hide on a fucking alley, a fucking tree, a fucking car and many more. I don't need to pay for thousands just to tailed him. It's funny to remember that I did all of those acts at the age of 32. And it is all because of Makaio Villanueva. The guy that i admire from a far for years and up until now.
"Wag kang umalis." Kai murmurs once again.
Just then I choosed to lay beside him and hug him. Kai is just so delicate and soft? I laugh at my thought. I really gone crazy. Fuck it.
Kai move his body closer to mine and wrapped his white arms around me. We are basically facing each other in sideways. Again, he settle his head on my chest area. I guess he like it there. Niyakap ko rin siya pabalik and kiss his head before dozing off.
Kai Pov
Ulit! Sa ikalawang pagkakataon, nagising na naman ako na nasa bisig ako ni Priam Lacsamana at nakapikit pa rin siya. Yakap niya ako at yakap ko rin siya. Pero hindi kagaya noon na gusto kong lumayo sa kanya. Ngayon ay gusto ko na. Gusto ko ang init ng katawan niya. Parang kinakalma ako n'on.
Hindi naman siguro masama kung... kung pagbibigyan ko si Priam na papasukin siya sa puso ko, diba? Hindi naman siguro ikakasama ko kung bibigyan ko siya ng tyansang gustuhin din siya. Pinamulahan ako ng mukha dahil sa iniisip ko. Isiniksik ko ang ulo ko sa dibdib niya. Naririnig ko ang pintig ng puso niya doon.
Nakapag-isip isip lang kasi ako. Na sa mga panahon na magkasama kami ni Priam. Wala siyang ibang pinakita sa akin kundi ang kabutihan niya sa akin. Ang mataas niyang pasensya sa akin. Ang pag-aalaga niya sa akin at sa magiging anak namin. Lumaki ako na hindi ko na kilala ang isang ama ko, ang nakabuntis kay papa Gino at ayaw ko na ang anak ko ay hindi niya makilala ang ama niya. Kaya napag-isipan ko na bubuksan ko ang damdamin ko para kay Priam. Saka hindi naman siya mahirap gustuhin.
"Kai, are you awake?"
Dinistansya ko ang ulo ko sa dibdib ni Priam at inangat ang ulo ko sa kanya pero hindi ko pa rin inaalis ang kamay ko sa katawan niya.
"Hmm," humiging ako.
"Bumaba tayo magluluto ako ng dinner natin. Anong gusto mong kainin?"
"Ice cream." maikling sagot ko na kinadaing niya.
"No."
"Sabi mo kung ano ang gusto ko." ngumuso ako sa kanya. Biglang nagbago na naman ang timpla ng mood ko. Iyon ang gusto kong kainin, e!
"Fine, right after our dinner." saad ni Priam na kinaliwanag ng mukha ko.
Bumangon na si Priam dahil magluluto pa siya at ako naman ay nakahiga pa. Nakaupo na si Priam sa kama pero hindi pa siya bumababa. Kumunot na naman ang noo ko. Magsasalita na sana ako. Gusto ko na naman siyang itaboy para makapagluto na siya dahil excited na akong kumain ng ice cream pero hindi ko pa man naibuka ang bibig ko ay lumapat na ang labi ni Priam sa labi ko. Parang tumigil ako sa paghinga dahil sa gulat. Mulat ang mata ko habang nakapikit naman ang mata ni Priam. Humaplos ang labi ni Priam sa labi ko bago niya inilayo ang labi niya sa akin. Hindi pa rin ako makapagsalita. Si Priam naman ay mabilis na lumabas sa silid. Hindi ko man lang nakita ang reaksyon niya. Ito ang... ito ang first kiss namin... napahawak ako sa labi ko. First kiss naman iyon na may malay ako. Jesus! Why i want his lips again? Is it due Hormones?