need
/niːd/
verb
require (something) because it is essential or very important rather than just desirable.
"I need you, alright."
A/N - why does Lando look like a disappointed dad in the above picture?
I look down at my buzzing phone as I read the caller ID once again, sighing as I put the phone down. The buzzing finally stops, but seconds later it's starts up again. I grab my phone in anger as I throw it across the room to land on the couch in my room. Even with my couch being far away, I can still hear the buzzing sound. I throw a pillow over my head, attempting to block the sound out, but to no success.
I didn't want to talk to him. No way was I talking to Lando after he broke my heart. We had been dating for just a few months, meeting at one of his races. He walked into me, causing my ice cream to fall on the floor. He felt so bad that he took me after his race to a great place he knew. That little ice cream shop in the middle of Italy was the start of something new between us.
It was going amazing, at least I thought it was. I was so happy, spending time with him as often as possible. I even started traveling alongside him, but it all fell away about a month ago. I received a text message, yes a fucking text message, from Lando saying we should end it. I asked him why but he couldn't give me a good enough answer. In my opinion, "work" was no excuse when I genuinely was not getting in the way of his work.
I barely messaged him when he was racing during weekends because I knew how stressful it was. I always wished him luck and congratulated him but I never over texted him when he was working. As for traveling with him, it was his idea and I never got in his way, sitting far away from him when it came to racing day so he could stay in the mode. But, apparently I was getting in the way of his work.
To say I was, and still are, heartbroken is an understatement. I genuinely thought we would go far, but as life always does to me, it proved me very wrong. After about 2 weeks of ignoring each other, Lando started calling me. I answered him the first time, curiosity getting to the better of me, but he put the phone down quickly when I answered. I thought it was just a prank, but now he is calling me on a daily bases.
Normally, I wouldn't mind, but the fact that he broke up with me over text AND gave a rubbish excuse, I ignored him and still are. It was getting difficult though. I just wanted to know what he wanted, but I was fearful that he would just end the call once again, leaving me to look like the complete idiot and the desperate one.
I groan as I hear the phone buzz once again. I toss the pillow aside and sit up, walking to my phone. I read the caller ID, sighing in disappointment and sadness as I watch his name flash across my screen. As soon as the call ended, I unlock my phone and go towards his contact. I bite my lip as my finger hovers above the block button. I shake my head as I press it, meaning he would have no way to contact me directly from his phone.
I toss my phone aside as I lay back down on my bed. I feel tears prick my eyes, falling slowly down my face, leaving wet stains across my cheeks and temples. I shake my head, rubbing my eyes as I hear a soft knock on my door. "Hey hun. You've got a visitor." My mother says as I sigh, "Please don't tell me it's Lando." I say as I remember him being in London this week as the F1 was taking place at Silverstone. "No, no, I wouldn't let him in! It's Jane." My mom says as the door opens wider.
My best friend, Jane, walks through. "Hey Y/N." she says as she lays down besides me and hugs me tightly. My mom closes the door after admiring our friendship, "I blocked him." I say with no context, but she knows exactly what I'm on about. "Thank god. Finally, you can live your life." She says as I smile at her. "By the way, I finally found people who want to buy the Silverstone tickets from you. They-" "Actually, I want to go." I cut her off as she frowns at me.
"Y/N, you need to get over him." She says as I scoff, "I still love F1, Jane. I'm not letting Lando ruin the love I have for it. And plus, they were free." I say as she chuckles. "Only if you're comfortable with it." She says as I nod, "I'll be comfortable as long as you're there with me." I say as she smiles, "Of course I'll be there with you." She says as she hugs me tightly.
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I walk hand in hand with Jane as we skip towards the stands. "Let me tell you, it's a lovely day." She says as I nod, "I know right, pretty rare." I say as she nods. I fix my Ferrari shirt as I place my sunglasses on my eyes. "So we have Paddock passes, but I'm assuming you don't wanna go?" Jane asks, despite it being a statement, as I shrug, "I actually don't know. Paddock is amazing, but I don't wanna see him." I say as she nods, "It's up to you." She says as I nod.
I think for a second, finally deciding to go. If I see him, I can keep a straight face, but if I see him with another girl, I definitely will break down. "Lets go." I say as Jane nods. We make our way there, being greeted by some of the McLaren workers. They all knew about our breakup, but they didn't make it a scene which I appreciate. I walk straight to the Ferrari garage where the tour was starting.
"Welcome ladies and gentlemen. This right here is the Ferrari garage." The guide says as he shows the garage. I block him out as I stare in fascination at the car. I knew everything he would be saying, I've been on these tours so often anyway, but I adored the cars way to much to not steal this opportunity to get close to them after months of not seeing them in person.
As I'm staring at the bright red livery, I feel a nudge in my arm. I ignore it, assuming it's just someone bumping into me. But the nudge gets harder, "What?" I question as I look at Jane. She looks almost pale as she stares ahead of her. I follow her gaze which lands on Lando. He was stood alongside Carlos. He was laughing with Carlos, possibly not spotting me which made me feel better. He looked amazing, making me feel terrible as I know I took a beating once we broke up. I lost a lot of weight because of the lack of eating and sleeping. To add to my miseries, I also have terrible bags under my eyes now.
"We can leave." Jane says but I shake my head, "Trust me when I say I can survive." I say as she raises her eyebrows. "If you cry, Y/N, I'm acting as if I don't know you." She says as I scoff, "What a friend you are." I say as we both laugh. Our laugh catches everyone's attention as the guide looks at us. "At least you two are having a good time. What are you two's name?" The guide asks as Jane turns a bright shade of red, matching the Ferrari in front of us.
"Jane and Y/N." I say as I smile at him. "Nice to meet you ladies. I'm glad you two are having fun, but we got some kids here who get a little grumpy if they don't get their way.' The guide says as he walks towards us, saying the last part softly as we chuckle, "Not an issue. Sorry about that." I answer as he scoffs, "Please, I'm glad you two are enjoying yourself." He says as he makes his way towards the Williams garage, ushering us to follow him.
"Uh Y/N." Jane says but I ignore her, following the guide to the Williams garage. But before I can even take a few steps, I'm yanked away from the line. I go to shout at Jane but Lando is the one who has my arm in his hand. He pulls me quickly inside the Ferrari garage and towards the drivers rooms, specifically Carlos and Charles, which were just through the hallway.
I try and protest, pulling away from him but to no success. We turn into Carlos's room as he closes the door behind us and locks it. "What the fuck is wrong with you, Lando?" I question as I frown up at him. "Why did you block me?" He asks as I scoff, "Really, that's all you have to ask?" I ask in disbelief. "You know what, I blocked you because I couldn't understand why you kept on calling me. Like, what the fuck?! You break up with me to only start calling me nonstop two weeks later?" I question, letting everything out.
Lando mumbles something under his breath. "What?" I ask as he sighs, "I need you alright." He says as I frown, even more confused. "I know it doesn't make sense but... I miss you and I need you so god damn much." He says as he takes a step towards me. I take a step back, keeping the distance between us. "But you broke up with me." I state in a more calm manner. "I know and it was a stupid mistake." He says as I laugh
"That's not gonna make it all better, Lando. You broke my heart." I say as I look down, feeling those familiar tears prick my eyes once again. "I wasn't thinking straight. I thought you were the problem for my poor performance, but actually you were the reason for bettering my performance." He says as he steps forward and grabs my hand, "I know I'm asking for a lot, but please give me a second chance." He says as I look down at my feet.
"I can't. I can't give my heart back to someone who I know is capable of breaking it." I say as I look up into his eyes. I look back down, feeling myself getting lost in them. I pull away from his grip as I start walking away. "Y/N." he says as I look back at him, "I never wanted to break your heart in the first place. I thought I was protecting you and I from damage in the future." He says as his bottom lip quivers.
I look down and sigh. I unlock the door and walk out, leaving him alone in the room. I walk down the passage slowly, thinking about what he said. I mean, I get it. He thought his bad performance was because of me and if he stayed with me, he would've probably broken up with me later, ultimately causing more damage. I stop in my tracks as all the dots start connecting right in front of me.
Lando was just trying to protect us from hating our relationship and further heart break. But Lando being Lando, didn't handle the situation as well as he could've. I turn around and run back to the room to see him seated on the chair, looking down at his hands. He quickly looks up at me, confusing evident in his eyes. "Come here." I say as he stands up and tackles me with a strong hug.
We cry in each other's arms, more so out of joy knowing we would never leave each other's arms ever again. "I'm so sorry." Lando says as he sobs loudly. "It's okay. I understand now, I understand." I say as I rest my head in his chest. Our sobs start dying down as we stand holding each other, never daring to let go. I lift my head up as I look up at him. He leans down and presses his lips to mine. The kiss is special, something I've never had before.
I pull away as I look up at him. "Aww!" I hear behind me as I turn to see Jane and Carlos. "I'm so happy for you two!" She exclaims as she tackles us in a strong embrace. "Me too." Lando says as he looks down at me. From then, I knew I'd never losing him ever again.
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Y'all got a TREAT of +2100 words. It's because I love you guys. Anyway, this was good but also quite shit but anywayyyy. Stay safe lovies xx