a/n: this chapter contains mature content. please read at your discretion! thank you.
"He's not picking up."
Chaeyoung hears her friend groan from the front passenger seat. "God, seriously? Call him again."
She feels her heart speed up in her chest out of nervousness as she presses the dial again. Just like the last time, the call went straight to voicemail.
"Joy... He's not picking up." Her bottom lip quivers, "What if it's too—"
"Do not finish that sentence, Park Chaeyoung." Joy interrupts her, her tone serious. "We are getting you to Suwon and you will find him, you'll talk to him, say you love him, kiss and makeup, or make out, I don't know. But you'll be fine. Trust me."
"Hell yeah! It's not nine yet." Joy's cousin, Seulgi, looks at her through the front mirror and smiles broadly. "Besides, if it doesn't work out, he'll come back in 2 weeks. You can talk to him then."
The girl is a few years older than the both of them and had vibrated in excitement when Joy had told her about Chaeyoung's plan.
But as much as she likes the bubbly extrovert, she was far too nervous and worried to play along with her positivity. So instead, she nods slowly, chewing her lips.
Chaeyoung doesn't think she could wait for another two weeks.
The rest of the drive on the way to Suwon had been fairly quiet if one doesn't count the sounds of rain pattering against the car, the nervous tapping of Joy's fingertips against the dashboard, or the incessant murmuring of the radio DJ playing softly in the background.
By the time they reached the location Yugyeom sent her, it was almost nine.
"Jungkook lives here?" Joy's eyes widened in surprise.
Chaeyoung looks out the window, overseeing the apartment. The Hanrim Plaza is a handsome high-rise building in what seems to be one of the most affluent neighborhoods in Suwon.
She had paid no mind when Yugyeom initially texted her the address. She had been far too distracted by other things anyways.
"This Jungkook guy sure is rich." She hears Seulgi snicker as she drives them towards the entrance. "Good for you, Chaeyoung. I like my man rich too, y'know."
"It's his brother's apartment," Chaeyoung replies absent-mindedly then unlocks her phone to check the time.
Five more minutes till nine.
"I should date his brother then." She hears the older girl rattle on, "Get his number for me, will you? Who knows, we could be in-laws."
"Shut up, unnie." Joy chides. "He might be an old man, y'know."
Ignoring the two, Chaeyoung looks ahead to consider her next course of action.
There were a couple of cars in front of them waiting to get through the gates too so it would take some time for them to reach the front entrance.
Then her gaze landed to her left. There was a smaller gate where visitors could walk in.
She curled her hand on the car door handle.
"Hey, I like older men too!" Seulgi dramatically gasps towards her cousin, "Remember my ex-boyf—"
As soon as the car slowed down to a pause, Chaeyoung wasted no time unbuckling her seatbelt and throwing open the door.
"Wait, where are you going? We're not there yet!" Joy exclaims, turning around quickly from her seat.
Adrenaline rushes through Chaeyoung as she hastened out the door, not bothering to look at the two girls. "It's fine! I can run from here!"
"Call us if you need a drive back!" She hears Seulgi shout from behind her.
"I will! Thank you, guys! I owe you!" Chaeyoung says one last time before walking away quickly through the gate, not caring that she wasn't sheltered from the rain anymore.
Raindrops course down her body and she shivers.
She ignores the stares given by the guest service officer at the front desk, her mind too buzzed from the thrill of running through the rain.
Thankfully, Yugyeom had registered her as a visitor (unbeknownst to Jungkook) so all she had to do was show the officer her ID.
She takes note to remember thanking the guy later. He has proven to be a great friend to Jungkook after all and an even better wingman for her, no matter how weird it was that he used to countlessly flirt with her a few months back.
When she reached the lobby, Chaeyoung centered herself with a deep inhale then pressed the elevator button.
She was nervous and worried, her negativity getting the best of her as she pictured Jungkook had already left and she might have been too late.
The nerves doubled as she entered the elevator, even as the jazzy music drowns out in her ears, and doubled even more as she rushed out the hallway leading up to his door, her footsteps loud against the marble flooring.
Apartment #370.
Chaeyoung swallows hard. This is it.
She rings the doorbell, shifting her weight from one foot to another, as she waits for someone to answer.
She rings again.
Then again.
Then again.
Then again.
When several seconds pass by with no response, Chaeyoung bangs on the door, bangs on it like her life depended on it. Her knuckles were starting to hurt but she didn't care. She desperately wanted to know if he was still here.
She feels a lump formed in her throat. "Please."
The sudden thought that she had been too late wrecks her mind and tears start to brim in her eyes.
She raises her fist again to bang one last time.
This was it.
And just as her hand was about to meet the wooden surface of the door again, it swung open, revealing the one person she had wanted to meet.
Jungkook.
He looks just as she had seen him last.
Though his eyes were pained and tired, as if he hadn't slept the night before and his hair a tousled mess on his head, he still looks as beautiful as she remembers.
But then the memory of the way his eyes flashed with hurt entered her mind, causing a breath to shudder out of her.
Jungkook's mouth falls open, "Chaeyoung..?"
He blinks at her a few times then his eyes register the way she was soaked from head to toe, the way her chest was heaving as if she had just run a marathon, the way tears were clinging to her lower lashes and the way her lips were quivering as she takes a shaky breath.
He couldn't tell if he was dreaming or if Chaeyoung was really right there in front of him.
"What are you doing here?" He asks, his voice husky and slightly confused.
He sees her take a deep breath before opening her mouth.
"I'm sorry," she chokes out.
Before he can even think to respond, Chaeyoung continues, "what I said that night, you didn't deserve any of that. I was wrong, I was angry and I was confused, and I took it out on you and for that, I am so sorry. God, I'm so fucking sorry, Jungkook."
She meets his hardened gaze.
She focuses on the taut stretch of his features, the shape of his lips, and the creases around his eyebrows.
And something about the way his expression flashes with emotion spurs her to continue.
"I've hurt you and I feel terrible for doing so. And I know I can't erase whatever I said that night but if I don't say this right now, I will regret it for the rest of my life." She gulps.
"Look, Jungkook, before you, I was with someone else and he—well, you know him already. And for over the three years when I was with him, it screwed me up. I gave all my love to a guy that wasn't worth my time and energy and in return, I was betrayed. He betrayed my trust. With him, I felt like I've hit rock bottom and I didn't know how to pick myself back up. And yes, I eventually managed to call things off, I managed to run away and I thought I've finally left my past behind but sometimes it haunts me. Whenever I see him, it's like a reminder that I could never be good enough for anyone. Seeing him that night, felt like a knife to the gut. I hated him. I felt angry and I felt humiliated. I was looking for someone to blame. I was hurt and I lashed out and projected all of that hurt onto you. But nothing from my past could hurt me more than the way it felt knowing I've hurt you."
Chaeyoung breathes out, and even with the tears blurring her vision, she gazes into his eyes, then says, "Because I love you."
"And you might not want to hear this or you might hate me already, and you can tell me to leave and you can tell me that you don't want to see me again but nothing could stop me from loving you because I do. I love you. I love you so much, Jeon Jungkook." A sob breaks out her throat, and she feels the first tear drip down her face.
"I love you so much that I can't breathe or think because everywhere I go, I see you. It's like the whole world stops when I'm with you. You made me the happiest I've ever been and the thought of you not being by my side kills me. It really, really kills me. I know it took me so long to realize this but it has always been you, Jungkook. Only you."
She sees him look at her now, through the tears in her eyes and she waits for him to say or do something.
And it felt like time stopped at that moment as if an entire eternity had passed as she stands there, waiting for him.
She couldn't tell if it was hesitation clouding his expression but the idea of it causes her lips to quiver more and she feels another set of tears stream down her face.
Please forgive me. Please don't leave me. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love yo—
"Jesus, Chaeyoung," she hears Jungkook rasp out before he takes a step closer to her.
His hands reached up to cup her face, tilting it so she was looking up at him.
Chaeyoung feels an intense relief coursing through her body and she sags her shoulders, leaning more into his warmth. The fact that Jungkook is in front of her, stroking her tear-stained cheeks, wrenches another sob out of her and she blinks back the tears away.
"I could never hate you," Jungkook whispers as he wipes her tears that were falling.
The warmth she feels now pushes through her chest and she whimpers.
Jungkook stares into her eyes for a couple of seconds before he dips his head down and fuses their mouths in a long-awaited kiss, his hands threading through her hair at the back of her head to pull her against him.
He feels her shocked whimper vibrating across his lips but that had only made him kiss her longer and harder.
His tongue then glides across her lips, parting them. The sweet smell of her fills his nostrils as he tangles his tongue with hers.
He didn't know how long they stood there, just taking their time to savor each other's mouths but as the kiss intensified, Jungkook can't help but emit a low, guttural groan especially when he feels her fingers start to explore the planes of his chest.
The action spurs him to break the kiss then they rest their foreheads together, catching their breaths.
A moment later, Jungkook pulled her face up to look at him again before kissing her tear-stained cheeks.
Then he kisses her forehead, then both her eyes, then her nose, and then lastly, he places a slow, gentle peck on her lips.
"I'm so sorry, my love," He finally says, voice no longer strained.
"For making you cry. And I'm sorry for leaving that night. I should have stayed and listened, but I was too blinded by my own sadness. I just thought you didn't want me as much as I wanted you..."
"Jungkook," Chaeyoung grabs his wrists, shaking her head. "You're the only person I ever want in this world and I will always want you so please don't apologize."
Then she wraps her hands around his neck, pulling him into a hug, her body melting into him.
Jungkook breathes her in then tightens his hold around her too. "I love you too. God, I love you so much, sweetheart."
For a moment, the two of them just stood there, entangled in a hug, their hearts pounding in their chests before Chaeyoung starts to pull away.
She runs her shaking fingers along his jawline, memorizing his features, then she whispers, "how much?"
Her eyes no longer teary as she looks at him. Really, really looks at him. Every hidden vulnerability.
"How much do you love me?" She whispers again.
The question takes him by surprise but then his eyes went soft, his gaze full of love, telling Chaeyoung everything she needed to know but he answers anyway, "with my whole damn heart, baby."
A beat of silence passes before Chaeyoung sucks in a shaky breath. She is done playing games. She is done with wanting him but never having him.
A tremor runs through her as she says her next words carefully.
"Show me. Please show me, Jungkook."
Jungkook stares her down for several seconds and she swears she feels her heart trying to push through her ribs. She knew he understood the underlying yearning in her statement when his eyes flickered with a different kind of emotion.
One minute they were only watching each other as they stood by the door then the next they were kissing again, this time, deeper and with more intensity.
There was no more talking, just two people kissing long and hard before it turns into short and desperate ones.
Chaeyoung didn't know how or when she ended up in his apartment, with her back pinned against the wall, but she likes it a lot.
She pushes up on her toes and engages him passionately, her hands wrapped tightly around his neck.
Emotion and need surge in between them like a tide.
As he sucks on her bottom lip, her fingers thread through his hair, tugging at the roots causing him to groan in delight.
"I love you," Jungkook breathes into her mouth as he nips at her lips.
A burst of pleasure courses through her and she angles her head to deepen the kiss. It feels different now. Their kisses before were sweet, innocent, and exploratory but now it was just pure hunger and lust mixed with love.
His hands clamp around her hips and Chaeyoung hears herself moan. She rocks against him making him groan again. Her heart was beating so quickly and loudly in her chest that she was sure Jungkook could feel too, with the way her clothed breasts were now crushed against his hard chest.
His lips then finally meander from her lips to her jaw then to her neck in slow, hot kisses, sending another wave of pleasure through her body.
"You don't understand how long I've wanted to do this," Jungkook murmurs against her skin, voice thick with emotion.
Her hands ran down his back and up to his rigid stomach which earned her a husky growl from him.
Without realizing it, her hips rise to meet his again and she gasps at the sensation. She couldn't get enough of him.
"Jungkook," she cries out, "come closer.."
She tugs at the hem of his t-shirt and within a matter of seconds, he's off without his shirt. He feels her fingers now exploring his abs and chest.
Chaeyoung gasps at the feel of him. His body is a work of art. He is long, lean, and muscular and she wants every naked inch of him slapped against her body.
With deft fingers, she works the material of her shirt up too and eases it over her head then hastily takes off her jeans, leaving her in only her bra and panties.
Quickly, their mouths joined together in another kiss and before she knew it, Jungkook's strong arms had already lifted her off the ground.
She wrapped her legs around his waist as he carried her across the apartment and into his room where it was darker and quieter, with only the mellow glow of the light coming from the living room.
Jungkook sets her down on the comfort of his bed, before he climbs right over her, his eyes watching her with so much love.
Chaeyoung feels the light in her belly easily turning into a raging fire in her core. Jungkook's gaze was doing too much to her body.
His arms rested against the mattress on each side of her head and he leaned down to peck her lips over and over and over again. She feels herself smiling now and she lets her hand glide up his chest before wrapping it around his neck.
"I love you," Jungkook whispers into her ear.
"I love you too," Chaeyoung whispers back.
She lets him trail his hand across her skin and pleasure ignites inside of her when he cups her right breast over her bra while kissing her once more. He sweeps his thumb over her nipple through the lace of her bra and she groans softly.
She wants to feel more of him on her body.
As if reading her thoughts, Jungkook reaches behind her to unclasp her bra and she helps him take it off completely then throwing it away.
She hears Jungkook suck in a breath as his eyes draw her in, memorizing her bare body.
"Jesus, Chaeyoung," Jungkook whispers lowly as he cups her breasts.
She fits nicely in his palms and his hands feel like fire against her skin. When he sweeps his thumbs over her nipples, her head falls back and she moans in pleasure.
Jungkook's lips immediately pressed over her skin, as he licked a path down from her neck to her collarbone, his fingers still playing with her nipples.
"Jungkook.." She moans.
He moves his head lower on her body and whispers, breath fanning her nipple. She feels the hard bud tightened painfully.
"What do you want, baby?"
Chaeyoung mumbles an answer even she couldn't understand, her body only focusing on the way his lips were hovering so closely over her breast.
"Tell me what you want."
She mumbles again under her breath, her brain no longer knows how to make words with her mouth.
"What was that?" He teases.
"Please." That was all she said before Jungkook flicks his tongue over one nipple and pleasure shoots out her pores, and she holds his head closer to her.
Jungkook closes his lips around the hard bud and draws it into his hot, wet mouth, earning him another moan from her. He sucks long and hard before switching to her other nipple.
Chaeyoung shivers and whimpers at the sensation as she clenched her thighs together, turned on by the work of his lips.
His lips then cascaded lower down her body and she gasps when she feels a touch of his mouth right over her panties and his tongue skims over her skin as the underwear comes off.
The pulsing between her legs started to hurt and she rasped out, "Jungkook, plea—"
"Oh!" A sudden wave of pleasure waves through her when she feels his tongue run the length of her sex causing her body to jerk up.
Amused, Jungkook lets out a husky chuckle before he grabs her hips to steady her. He kisses her inner thighs before moving his lips back to the bundle of nerves between her legs.
It was as if nothing else mattered at the moment but just Jungkook and his wonderful mouth.
"Oh my god," Chaeyoung moans when Jungkook plunged his tongue inside of her, feeling something building up. "Please don't stop."
And right before he knows she will explode on his tongue, he pulls back.
"Condom, please. Now." She rasps, impatient.
Jungkook feels himself hardening painfully at the sound of her needy voice and with quickness, he leans across the bed to open his bedside drawer.
Then he quickly frees himself of his sweatpants and boxers until the length of him springs free, slapping his hard stomach.
Jungkook watched her watching him as he covered himself with the condom. Her cheeks were flushed red and her eyes were hooded with lust. He has never seen a sexier sight.
"You're so sexy." Chaeyoung steals his thoughts and Jungkook laughs before moving his body in between the cradle of her thighs.
He kisses her again and she wraps her arms around his shoulders while rocking her hips towards him, wanting to feel him closer to her.
"I love you," Jungkook groans out before he lifts her knee then slips into her, inch by inch, the feeling of her wet muscles stretching around him igniting more pleasure.
He leans back to look at her, breathless and flushed, then slowly going deeper until he was all the way in.
"Ohhhh," Chaeyoung moans loudly, as the size of him stretches her down there. She could feel the familiar burn in her belly and the pulsing between her thighs.
Their eyes lock in a hazy stare before he starts to move, his thrusts slow and steady, which has her toes curling in delight.
"Fuck, baby. You feel so good." He breathed out as he looked down at her body moving with his.
Chaeyoung runs her fingers down his back, her nails scratching lightly across his skin and the sensation causes him to groan again.
What started as slow, lazy then picks up into a fast and furious pace of lovemaking when Jungkook starts thrusting harder and deeper.
Her orgasm comes quickly after and she gasps in pleasure, feeling the rush of bliss racing through her body.
She is still catching her breath when his hips snap up to fill her over and over again until he finally gives one last thrust before his body tensed. She sees him close his eyes and his teeth clenching before he lets go with a long, low groan.
For a moment, the both of them lay unmoving as they try to catch their breaths. And when the pleasure finally ebbs away, he leans down to peck her lips a few times before he slides out of her then climbing off the bed to throw away the condom.
Chaeyoung frowns from the loss of his warmth but happiness quickly takes over when Jungkook returns to the bed, pulling her into his arms.
"I love you." Chaeyoung sighs into him and he kisses the top of her head.
The two of them lie there for a while, scratching each other gently, while exchanging tired, lazy kisses, and more I love you's.
Well, that's until a sudden thought pops into her mind causing Chaeyoung to jerk awake with a gasp.
"What about Busan?!" She exclaims, her eyes wide opened as she looks up at him from her position on the bed.
"What?" Jungkook asks absent-mindedly, still slightly woozy from their intense lovemaking.
Chaeyoung sits up completely now, her arms stretched across the sheets covering her chest and Jungkook frowns at the loss of contact.
"Weren't you supposed to leave for Busan at nine?" She asks with genuine concern and worry in her voice.
Jungkook furrows his eyebrows as he slowly gets up, his elbows digging into the bed.
"Baby, I don't understand what you're talking about. I'm not going anywhere."
Now it's her turn to frown. "Yugyeom told me you were about to leave. I guess he lied."
"He did?"
"Yeah. He told me you had a train to Busan at nine o'clock."
He registers what she said in his head before he quirks an eyebrow, now smiling with his dimples showing. "Is that why you came here looking like you just ran a marathon?"
She pouts, "I was scared, okay? Yugyeom said you were gonna leave Seoul for two weeks with your brother. I can't wait that long."
Jungkook has a shit-eating grin stretched across his face now. "My brother?"
Chaeyoung nods earnestly before another thought enters her mind, causing her cheeks to heat up in embarrassment.
"W-Wait. Where's your brother?" She asks, her mind instantly wanders to their abandoned clothes outside his room. "Please tell me he's not home."
Jungkook laughs heartily before pulling her arm and gathering her back into bed with him. He nuzzles his nose into her hair, rubbing her back lovingly.
"Baby, I don't have a brother."
"You don't have a—oh, I am going to kill Yugyeom." Chaeyoung groans. "Then this, this is your apartment?"
"Well, technically it's my parents'. I just live here."
"Oh." She pauses, "Where are they?"
Jungkook hums as his fingertips lightly graze her elbows. "Working. They rarely come home. Either they sleep in their office or a different apartment. This is just one of the places they have."
Chaeyoung is silent at first before she relaxes back in his arms and sighs.
"Do you miss them?" She asks, her voice quiet.
"No," Jungkook replies easily. "I got used to it."
He could practically feel her frown when he said that and he rolls his eyes before leaning down to plant a kiss on her forehead.
"I'm not sad or anything so don't worry, baby. I am perfectly fine with this arrangement. Besides," he pauses to think for a moment, "now I have someone special in my life."
He hears her breath hitched in her throat but Jungkook continues. "She's my girlfriend."
For a moment, Chaeyoung just smiles to herself before another flush of warmth washes over her.
Girlfriend.
She likes the sound of that. And by the way she can feel his heart beating faster and his body tightening under her, she knows he likes it too.
"Your girlfriend, huh? Since when?"
"Since ages ago but she didn't know then. I think she knows now though. And it's too late for her to change her mind, anyways. Especially since we just had the most mind-blowing round of makeup se—"
"Jungkook!" Chaeyoung whines, slapping him on the chest.
In the relative darkness, he could still see the red flush painting her cheeks.
"Babe, relax."
"You're so annoying. Did you know that?"
"Yeah, but you still love me." There is a smile in his voice.
He hears her sigh again before she nuzzles her cheek on his chest, her palm just above his heart.
"Yeah, I do." She whispers, "I love you."
Jungkook's heart explodes at the three words and he's sure she can feel it beating wildly because he can't believe he has the most beautiful girl in the world in his arms and that she loves him back.
He presses his hand on hers that was resting against his chest, then whispers back. "I love you too."
He promises he will forever before the two of them fall asleep that way and finally, finally, everything feels right again.
a/n: FINALLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!! can i get a hooya