Chapter 19
It had been about a week since I saw Nathan again I haven't been eating much or doing much I stopped doing my missions for a while till I felt better, I just stay inside with the kids watching tv having fun just what you do with your family
I guess it is the shock from seeing Nathan again after all he was like my real brother and knowing he was working for my biological brothers has messed me up somehow.
I am currently on the way with the kids to a kids cafe (play area) to have fun just the three of us. it has been a while since we last went together to do something fun with nobody else but us.
I am currently wearing some checked trousers with a big black t-shirt and white shoes.
hana outfit^
Violet is wearing a flower dress with a red hat along along with some light pink shoes
violet oufit^
whilst Evan is wearing a red sweatsuit with a white hat and some black trainers
Evan outfit^
Once we got there Evan and violet ran ahead holding hands whilst I walked behind them making sure they don't get hurt or lost
As soon as we got in and paid Evan and violet quickly took their shoes off passing them to me before running off to play together
I was on my phone taking photos of them laughing at the little funny thing they did suddenly somebody sat next to me making me turn my head to look who it was
"Joshua," I said surprised
"Hana," Joshua said also surprised
"You brought your son here," I asked looking at the little boy having fun
"Yeah they grow quickly don't they, you just don't know when the last time might be before they want to stop doing certain things," Joshua said will love in his eyes
"I am glad we agree on something," I said smiling sadly
"Hana I do want to say sorry though," Joshua said avoiding my eyes
"About what," I asked confused
"Hana, I always thought you left but I guess I was wrong I mean you was only 4 and you disappeared nobody knew where you were I always thought you ran away and was angry at you for it and I now know that it wasn't true I guess I just really wanted it to not be true that you left because of somebody so I tried blaming you I knew it was wrong but I guess it is how I deal with loss of somebody not knowing if dead or alive," Joshua said sadly
"What about you bullying me though" I questioned
"I never knew you were my sister and when I thought you were I kept saying no because I honestly thought you were dead or living a much better life than you wouldn't be at the school especially since you are the second youngest of my family I just hoped you weren't but you looked just how I imagined you to be so I got angry and started bullying I regret it every day I do," Joshua said feeling guilty
"How about we start over we never really know each other much since I left at such a young age so I never really truly got to know you I will never forget the things you did but I am willing to try and put the past behind us and move on so how about we start over" I suggested
"I would like that Joshua," said smiling widely
"Well Joshua hello I am Hana park your younger sister," I said smiling
"Hello Hana I'm Joshua park your oldest brother," Joshua said smiling widely
For the rest of the day we talked about things and had lunch with the kids together they seemed to get on well after all they were cousins
I felt like I was finally happy but how could that be true something always happens that can change everything I just hope that me and Joshua can finally start over and be true siblings.