⚠️ Quick warning there are some touchy subjects talked about In this chapter ⚠️
After leaving, you guys got to your car and the drive to your house.
"So Helena do you want me to drop you off or I have a guest room at my house that you could use for the night ?" You asked as you continued driving
" I think I'll stay at your house it will be much easier and you can drive us to work tomorrow if that okay with you ofc." Helena said
" ofc it's okay with me, you can borrow some of my clothes for the night and we can swing by your house before work to pick up clothes."
"Sounds good" Helena respond
As you were driving one of your favorite songs came on and you began to sing, you completely forgot anyone else was in the car till you heard a small giggle, and your blushed slightly. The rest of the car ride was comfortable silence.
(TIME SKIP YOU GUYS ARE AT YOUR HOUSE)
"This is a really nice house the decor" Helena stated as she walked in
" thank you so much, it means a lot. Do you want to come up stairs I'll show you your room and we can find you some clothes?" You asked
" that would be great I'm getting a little tired"
You both walked upstairs to your room and you showed Helena your closet and told her to pick out anything, you went and took off your makeup and got changed. As you went back into the room Helena was in the middle of changing, you quickly covered your eyes blushing at what you had just seen.
" omg I'm so sorry I didn't realize how fast you were going to be back" Helena laughed as she said that
" No it's me who is sorry I should have knocked I'm super sorry" you said worried she was mad
" it's not like you won't see it soon" Helena said filtering
" What" you said surprised
" the movie there is a couple moments, are characters become love interest silly"
" I completely forgot oh my" you nervously laughed
" should I be sad that you forgot about me" Helena jokingly said
" oh I don't mean.. I just forgot about the scene ... I just" you stumbled over your words
" I'm just joking with you love, where is the room though I'm awfully tired" Helena asked
" oh it's right down the hall if you need anything feel free to come get me I'll be here good night"
" thank you so much for letting me stay and goodnight" Helena said as she walked out.
(TIME SKIP MIDNIGHT)
You heard the door squeak as it opened you jumped up and saw Helena there
" sorry to wake you but it's really cold in my room also sleeping somewhere new makes me a little nervous I was wondering if I could sleep in here maybe" Helena asked nervously
" ofc" you moved over and patted the bed next to you after she got in the bed you rolled over facing the wall as you were falling back asleep you felt her arms snake around your waste and you felt so comfortable by her you didn't know why. You could not have feeling for your costar and hopefully a friend you can't ruin this she won't have feeling back she's straight right?
(THE NEXT MORNING)
You woke up the next morning and look over at the empty bed space next you, then you hear something down stairs, you get up and walk down there to see Helena in the kitchen making breakfast.
" good morning, I thought I would make breakfast for us, for you letting me stay here, and driving me to work." Helena said as she saw you standing in the door way.
" you didn't have to do this it is really okay, and I should be thanking you, I kinda ruined your night at the party." you stated
" you did not ruin my night at all, I really mean that, you should probably go get dressed so we can head over to my house,ill drive so you can eat in the car."
" that sounds great"
you went back to your room and today was you first day of work, so you wanted to look nice but not over do it, as you looked in the mirror tears formed in your eyes as your mind created insecurities. You quickly got yourself together and got dressed
( thats the outfit I choose feel free to change it)
You ran down stairs grabbing your keys and bag Helena handed you a plate of food, you took the food and said
" I think i'm going to save this for later not super hungry at the moment"
" Okay are you alright, you could call in if you need?" Helena asked concerned
"Im alright, here are the keys"
Helena decided to drop the topic, you both got in the car Helena drove to her house, it was a beautiful house. She ran back down to the car and began driving to work. You both got there and set workers came up to you guys getting you guys to hair and makeup
" ill give you a ride home if you would like after work" You stated to Helena.
" that would be amazing ill meet you here at 7" Helena responded
" Okay will do"
you both walked away to your own trailers. While getting ready you looked over the script
( so quick note about what the movie is about, So Y/n characters name is Charlette, and she is the assitant to Helena's character, Laura McCane. and they slowly form a relationship and a love for each other. But the problem is Laura is married to Rob's character Kevin McCane. Your characters closest's friend is Ben's character Liam. Sorry if thats confusing)
you got changed into you outfit for shooting today,
You walk out and see Ben, you walk up to him and you guys start making jokes and having a very good time, you see Helena out of the corner of your eye and she looks a little mad but you dismiss it she might just be stressed about filming.
(TIME SKIP AFTER FILMING)
You head back to your trailer, you were so tired but you had a great time today, You hear a know at the door
"COME IN" you yell
Ben enters,
" Hey, just wanted to come say how much fun filming was today, and heres my number so we can hang out some time" Ben said handing a piece of paper to you
" I had a great time today to,"
you got up and gave him a hug, you pulled away as you heard the door open. It was Helena
" Sorry to inter up you guys , but i'm ready whenever you are" She said looking at Y/N
" Okay ill see you tomorrow, Ben" you turn to ben and said grabbing all your stuff you and Helena got close, you both turned as you heard ben shouting your name running after you.
" Y/N you almost forgot this, Unless you don't want it" He jokingly said handing you the paper with his number
" Ofc I want it thank you ill text this number tonight to make sure its yours" you laughed starting to walk back to your car Helena had continued to walk back to the car while you talk to ben so she was already there. As you got in the car Helena seemed, mad almost.
" Are you alright, you seemed off today. " you asked
" yea i'm fine"
you dropped the topic, whenever Ben's name was brought up in a conversations on the way to her house she sounded digusted talking about him. When you got to her house she went to get out of the car but before she got out you grabbed her hand
" Are you sure your alright, you can talk to me did i say something" you asked hoping she would talk to you
" you did nothing, it's just... how about you come into my house and we can talk" she stated getting out of the car walking to her home.
You followed her inside you sat on the coach she came and sat down next to you
" Do you like him?"
" Like Ben, no he's just a friend, why "
"Its just.. I think I like you, in more than a friend way but i just don't know" she said
" I.... " you couldn't form any words
" I really do like you Ive never felt this way about a women, but when I met you at the party I felt someway" she said as she leaned in to kiss you, you kissed back, you realized what you were doing you could not fall in love with one of your cast mates, you started thinking about all that could go wrong.
" I have to go" You got up fast and ran out the door and started to get in your car
"Y/N" Helena yelled
you started driving when you finally got home you bursted you in tears what had you just done, your phone started ringing off the hook it was Helena, you reluctently answered it,
" Y/N i'm so sorry, I shouldn't have done that please talk to me"
" Helena its not you its me, your Helena Bonham Carter how could I be enough for you, you need someone better than me i'm sorry, but i cant do that to you, do you know what people would think"
"what do you mean you are the most beautiful woman i've seen, and I don't care about what people think"
you started to think about her carer and you could not ruin her it for yourself.
" Im sorry, I cant to this any more" you cried out the stress of everything was getting to you, your past that you told no one about made the depressive episode worse
" what do you mean you cant do this any more, please don't do anything stupid please ill be over there in 10 minutes"
" please Helena don't worry about me, " you hung up the phone running up to your room flopping on your bed crying, as you look over and see the pills on you bed side table................
AN- sorry for the cliffhanger <3