(You can start playing the song for the whole chapter too but also play it when Y/N sings)
I couldn't cope up with the loss. I didn't even have the courage to sleep on the bed where my first love died. I've been in the same place on the floor, curled up.
Two days, it's been two days and tomorrow's the funeral. Emma and the others flew in the very next day. All I could do is listen to Tom's voicemail again, so that I could hear him again.
Shall I call him?
He did say that he's going to be there for me always. And no one knows my relationship with Dad better than he does. I sat up straight and inserted my old card back into my phone.
My hands shook as I searched for Tom's name. 'My Snowman ☃️❤️' I smiled as I remembered his nickname. I don't even know if he changed his number or not. I pressed on the number and took my phone to my ear.
*Ring Ring*
*Ring Ring*
*Ring Ring*
*Ring Ring*
*Ring Ring*
He's not going to pick up.
*Ring Ring*
*Ring Ring*
*Ring Ring*
*Ring Ring*
I'm going to hang up-
"Hello?" A girl's voice rang from the other side. "H-Hello" I said as cleared my throat. "Tom?"
"He's not here, who's this?" The girl asked as I squinted my eyes. "Erm, he knows who I am, where is he?"
"He's not here" she stated coldly. "Fine, tell him I called" I said rolling my eyes. "Who called?" She asked again.
"What's my name on the screen?"
"Shorty"
"Yeah, tell him that" I said hanging up.
This bitch.
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I was standing next to Julius and Mum on my right, receiving everyone who came to the funeral at the Church. Everyone had arrived except for Tom and the Pattinson family, I don't think the former is going to come as he didn't call me back yet.
"I'm sorry, sweetheart" Richard (Robert's dad) said pulling me in a hug. I hugged him back and muttered a small thank you. Clare (Robert's mom) stroked my face before pecking my cheek and hugging me.
The girls (his sisters) hugged me as well before finding their seats. I smiled lightly as Rob stood in front of me.
"Hi, babycakes" he said and pulled me in a hug. I wrapped my arms around his neck and he picked me up. Tightening the hug at every sob, he hushed me.
"It'll be alright" he said and for the first time, I didn't have hope. We took our seats, I urged Rob to sit next to me. He held my hand throughout the ceremony. It was a beautiful ceremony.
Julius looked at me and I nodded. I stood up from my seat and headed up front. I opened the piece of paper in my hand and looked at everyone.
"First, I would like to thank all of you for coming. Y/F/N was my and Julius' father but he was also a father to Nick, Emma, Daniel, Robert, Tom, Rupert and almost each of my friends. He was also a dearest uncle to a lot of his nieces and nephews. My father was a wonderful man. He was my best friend, my supporter, my biggest fan, my mentor and my first love. When I was a little girl, and if it was raining, I used to go out in the rain and dance. He always got worried about me and used to stay awake till I danced in the rain. After that he used to make me some hot soup and lecture me about being out in the rain, even when Nana told me he used to do the same thing" I heard some chuckles from the crowd.
"Hopefully you all had the chance to see his college pictures or from highschool and not to sound weird or anything, but when he showed me those pictures, I was like - 'Dad's hot, more than my mum. She doesn't even stand a chance'" I laughed a little and continued, "When I started knowing about our family business, he used to take me to his business trips and meetings, introducing me as 'The future of Y/L/N Co.' which I'm pretty sure is Julius, but he was so proud of me. The woman I am today, is his doing. Right from the start, he taught me to be good, to be passionate and to be hardworking. Up until the age of sixteen, all my problems consisted of school work or my job or something like that. But since sixteen, I have had problems with love, with my job, with people hating on me, with bullying and everytime he was there. I always thought that I would rely on my friends to cry about my problems but my first thought was always my father"
"Sometimes hours can feel like minutes and sometimes a single second can last a lifetime. For me, the second that would never end was when he said his last words to me - 'Pumpkin, I hope you know that I love you and I'm so proud of the woman that you've become! You'll always be my little baby girl and I'll always be your hero. I love you so much' I did answer to him that time but..." I turned to his portrait with tears in my eyes.
"I love you too, Daddy. I look forward to the day we see each other again"
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(Please play the song above. Skip to 1.13 if you don't wanna listen to the muic but just the words and if you're listening to the Original one, then skip to 2.23. Again, creds to my lovely friend slytherin_thingsss for being my personal playlist and recommending me this song)
"Erm, my dad loved my voice, so before we say our final goodbye to him, I'd like to sing for him one last time" I said before we would bury the casket.
I sat on the seat in front of the piano that we have had arranged for this. I started playing the piano slowly.
"You taught me the courage of stars before you left... How light carries on endlessly, even after death... With shortness of breath... You explained the infinite... And how rare and beautiful it is to even exist" I started singing after playing the piano. Closing my eyes, I thought of everything he taught me.
"I couldn't help but ask for you to say it all again... I tried to write it down, but I could never find a pen... I'd give anything to hear you say it one more time... That the universe was made just to be seen by my eyes" My voice broke a little when I realised that I'll never hear him again. That I won't be able to learn new things from him. That I won't have his hugs. Or kisses.
That now, he's only a memory.
"I couldn't help but ask for you to say it all again... I tried to write it down, but I could never find a pen... I'd give anything to hear you say it one more time... That the universe was made just to be seen by my eyes"
"With shortness of breath... I'll explain the infinite... And how rare and beautiful it truly is that we exist" I opened my eyes and I thought I saw him smiling at me. I stared into space where I thought I saw him and smiled at him one last time.
I stood next to Robert, he placed a hand around my shoulder. I rested my head on his chest as the casket was lowered into the ground. I stayed there for hours talking to his gravestone.
Tom's POV
When Emma told me about Y/N's Dad, I quickly booked a flight and headed there. I attended the funeral too, being very careful not to be seen by Y/N, when she said the euology, I left the Church but stayed behind the door and heard every word.
When she sang for her father, all I wanted to do was run to her and hug her. But I stopped when I saw Robert with her. I smiled sadly as I watched the ceremony from afar.
I wanted to pay my respects, but Y/N talked to her father for hours. Finally, when it was sundown, she left. When the coast was clear, I headed to the gravestone.
'Y/F/N Y/L/N — Loving son, amazing brother, loyal husband, proud father & grandfather, a great businessman'
"I'm sorry I couldn't attend the funeral properly, Mr. Y/L/N, I wanted to but I'm sure you know why I didn't. There was something that I promised to you, years ago, but I broke it. I'm sorry for all the hurt I caused your daughter. But I make a promise today and I intend to keep it forever. I'll always be there for her, even when we're fighting or even when I'm hella mad, I'm going to be there whenever she needs me" I said as I placed flowers on the gravestone.
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Y/N's POV
"Remember that one time, when erm, we came back from Hawaii when your dad surprised you" Emma began making me nod. "Well, he arranged cars for us to take us our hotels, right? He had also arranged 'Happy Meals'for us like we were his kids. And he remembered what our favorites were as well" she ended as I smiled.
"I remember telling him one time that I started liking dragonfruit (Pitaya) on the call, just once, after that he made sure that Mick always restocked it every other day" I said looking at them. Everyone was sitting in my room, I didn't want to sleep today.
"When I started filming for Harry Potter, the very first day, remember babycakes, we got late and he got so angry. Well, he didn't stay much angry at you but me. He gave me the cold shoulder for days-" Rob said but I cut him off.
"Don't exaggerate, he only yelled at you for being late for like a minute" I corrected him as everyone laughed. "So, you don't want to live here?" Dan asked making me shake my head.
"I'm going to move out now, I mean the only reason why I stayed here was Daddy's health, Nick and Julius are here, so Mum will be fine. I already called Phil, he's arranged for an apartment near Dad's office, it'll be easier for me to go back and forth there" I said as we all stood up so that they could head home.
After I changed, there was a knock at my door. "Come in" I said as my mother opened the door. "Hi honey" she said sweetly with a box in her hand.
"This is what your father left for you" she said softly and handed me the brown box. "Do you know what it is?" I asked making her head shake no. "Okay, thank you, Mum" I said as I opened the box and she left.
A soft, sad gasp escaped my lips when I saw the teddy bear that tore off from the neck when I was younger, sowed back, the one I saw at the fair when I went with Calvin. It looked a little different, but better different, the stuffed toy now had one of my Daddy's shirt on it and smelled like him. There was a letter along with the bear.
To my dear, dear pumpkin...
If you're reading this, then unfortunately I left you. Believe me, I wanted to live as long as you, so that I don't have to be away from my little baby girl ever. But life isn't always giving... Y/N, even if I'm not here with you physically, I'm always there in your heart, aren't I?
I remember the day when your teddy bear tore off, you cried and cried and cried, didn't even talk to Tom because of it. He tried so hard to cheer you up but all you did was slap the poor boy for irritating you. So, I took sewing classes and sewed it for you. It's a little shabby, but hey, the effort counts, right?
You might think why I didn't leave you anything in the will. Trust me, I'd rather see the company in your hands than that stupid brother of yours. But he'll do. I want you to continue your career in acting, win as many as Oscars you can in your life. Never give up acting, never. I've seen so much spark in your eyes. Work until your idols become your co-stars. So, this is what I leave you.... Don't ever stop acting.
Live your life. Take chances. Be crazy. Don't wait.
Pumpkin, my guiding hand will always be on your shoulder...
From all the love, to the moon or any other plant and back,
Your Daddy...
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y/n_y/l/n - To my Daddy,
God saw you getting tired,
When a cure was not to be.
So He wrapped His arms around you,
And whispered, 'Come unto me'
You didn't deserve what you went through,
And so He gave you rest.
God's garden must be beautiful,
He only takes the best.
So when I saw you sleeping,
So peaceful and free from pain,
I could not wish for you to come back,
to suffer that all again.
I'll see you on the other side of stars, I love you...
Good night, Daddy...
The poem's from Pinterest. Sorry to those who cried. And I can't believe we're just three chapters away to the end. 🥺😭