WARNINGS: The beginning of this chapter contains consensual somnophilia. If this is something you are uncomfortable with please DO NOT READ.
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Kylo woke up to his arm wrapped around your waist, to your body curled up against him. He had never slept so well and he couldn't help but smile. One of those big grins that he hadn't felt for a while. You had stayed. You wanted to be here, with him. He couldn't help but let his heart soar when you had crawled into bed with him. It felt right...perfect.
Just like you were now. So peaceful and beautiful as your chest rose and fell with your breathing. Blissful sleep. You looked content and comfortable. Your hands and arms reaching out for him in your sleep.
He needed you. To feel you. He couldn't help himself.
He moved so slowly not wanting to wake you. You had always loved being woken up this way and he just wanted you to feel good. How you made him feel last night. You had been so gentle with his wounds, cleaning them and dressing them. What you didn't see though, was how his body reacted to feeling your touch again. For the first time in a year, he was able to feel your delicate hands on his skin. Suddenly all the pain from his wounds went away and only the fire that your touch ignited on his skin remained.
Now, he wanted you to feel the same. He saw the way you looked at him at the gala. He saw the way you looked at him last night. It was the same way you used to look at him when you were completely taken with him. That look used to scare him. But now, it only makes him want to be the cause of seeing it more.
He had slowly moved the covers off of you and looked over your sleeping form. The skin on your bare legs forming goosebumps as they became exposed to the cool air. You had slept in only his t-shirt. Like you used to.
It was like your body knew to open up to him. As the covers came down, you stirred lightly, laying on your back. You looked perfect. Your beautiful golden-brown hair splayed out on the pillow; your arms stretched but bent so your hand lightly grazed your cheek. Your eyes closed softly; your lips slightly parted. He didn't know how he ever let you go.
He traced his finger up and down your thigh, letting your body get used to the sensation and watching to see if you would stir. When you didn't, his hands slowly spread your legs apart.
He let out a low groan as he eyed that perfect pussy of yours. He had missed this too. He settled himself between your legs and his finger slowly moved your panties to the side. He could see the slick that coated through you. You were always so ready for him. He wondered if it was because you were dreaming about him.
His finger slid through your folds before rubbing at your clit lightly, letting your body get used to the feeling. He watched as your body opened up more to him. Your legs spread wider, a soft whimper leaving your lips all while you were still soundly sleeping away. Your pretty head filled with lovely dreams.
With this better access, Kylo traced his tongue through your pussy lips and started to flick at your clit. More pretty noises escaping your lips as he looked up to you from his position. He saw your eyes begin to flutter as the pleasure started to become too real for it to be a dream. His mouth enclosed around your clit as he began to suck. It was that movement that caused you to gasp, eyes opening wide.
"Fuck!" You moaned out softly as you looked down to see Kylo between your legs. The sight was not unwanted. Definitely not. And you couldn't help but give in. Gods you had missed his mouth on you. He was so good at what he was doing. Fuck he was incredible at making you feel good.
As you fully woke, he stopped and looked up at you. "Is this what you want?" He asked, making sure you were okay with this.
"Yes," you whispered out as he returned to your cunt and started sucking on your clit. You felt so good. You'd wanted this back for so long. Sat and thought about him for months. Now that you finally were with him again, how could you say no?
Your back arched as his sucking intensified. He wanted to have you cumming as much as you wanted to cum. He was desperate to taste you again. To have you like this again. And after all this time, you were desperate for him too.
Your hand found his hair, tugging on those soft black waves that always felt so good in your hands. He groaned when he felt your grip adding vibrations on your clit and making your body squirm in pleasure.
"Kylo," you moaned out in a soft whisper. His hands moved from where they were spreading your legs, up your torso. Under your (his) shirt, his hands moved like magic, sending shivers throughout your body. He grabbed your tits in both his hands and your back arched again, pushing your tits into his hands more.
He teased your nipples, pinching them and making them pebble under his touch. Your moans became louder as he continued his blissful torture at your cunt.
"Kylo..." you moaned out again. His name the only word being able to form. Only this time, he stopped when he heard it. You thought you might have done something wrong but his eyes looked deep into your own, lust-filled and full of desire. Of something...wicked.
"Who am I to you?" He asked low, eyes never leaving yours. "Come on kitten, you know that's not what you call me."
Your face turned red at his words realizing what he meant. It had been so long and he was picking back up like nothing ever happened. But, no matter what your head thought, your cunt thought something different. You clenched on nothing as the words started to form in your mouth.
"Daddy." You said swallowing the lump in your throat.
"That's my good fucking girl." His mouth returned to your pussy as he moved his tongue in all the right ways. You were already teetering on the edge of your climax and you didn't want to hold off any longer. You couldn't.
"Daddy, please! I'm so close fuck! Please let me cum!" Your pleas made him smile and hum into your cunt. Your body jolted as those vibrations from him once again added more pleasure. He always loved it when you begged.
His tongue stopped as he lifted his head to look at you.
"Go on kitten. Cum for daddy. Just like you used to. So good for me."
His mouth wrapped around your clit again and his hands moved to wrap behind your thighs, hands pressing down on your hips. He held you tight and kept your body still and secure to his mouth.
Your body tensed, toes curling, eyes squeezed shut as you felt the heat in your core build. As it exploded, you screamed out, cursing and saying his name over and over as you came. You could feel him licking up every bit that you gave him. Devouring you as if it were his last meal.
Your legs shook and your breath was heavy as he kept working you, helping you down from your all-glorious high.
Once you had calmed down enough, Kylo finally broke away from you. Lifting his head and looking at you, studying you. You could see your click covering his chin and you just desperately wanted to kiss him. You knew you shouldn't. You shouldn't even be doing what you are doing now. He was with someone. You hadn't even talked about him leaving you the way he did.
"Kylo...what about Ir-"
You started speaking but he cut you off. He knew where you were going with your sentence.
"Don't worry about her. She could never mean as much to me as you do. I want you. I need you."
All of those worries filled your head but none of them really mattered when he was looking at you like that. When he was right in front of you, wanting you as much as you wanted him.
"Fuck me, daddy. Please." Your words surprised him. They surprised you too but you meant them. You could see how hard he was and you missed how he felt when you were connected.
He quickly tore off his sweatpants revealing his hard length to you as you removed his t-shirt from you. He still didn't sleep in underwear, you thought as you smiled to yourself. You swallowed hard seeing his cock, knowing that you would have to adjust to his size again. The idea made you clench. His hands ran up and down your thighs as he spread your legs wider. He watched as your glistening cunt became more exposed to him. You saw his jaw clench and you knew he couldn't wait any longer.
He grabbed his cock in his hand and gave it a few slow pumps before settling between your legs. He slid his cock through your slick folds, coating it in your wetness.
"Fuck kitten. I've missed this tight cunt. Always so wet for me. I bet no one else makes you like this do they?"
He looked down at you, your eyes looking up to him, "No daddy. No one makes me like this. Just you."
"Mm, that's my good girl. Fuck I've missed you." With those words, he slowly inched inside your hole. He watched your face form an o shape as he inched in, grunts leaving his own lips as he felt your tight walls around him.
You moaned as he stretched you. The sting only lasted for a moment as he got fully seated inside you and you adjusted. You clenched around him and watched as his head fell back, neck strained and showing those perfect veins. Gods you loved his neck. Fuck, you loved everything about this man still. Even after how he left you, you never truly stopped loving him.
"Kylo please...please kiss me."
He slowly leaned down, his hands resting beside your head as his lips pressed to yours. Hesitant and soft but you reassured him by cupping his face gently and keeping him there. You were careful to avoid his wounds and where it might hurt him. Your lips parted almost immediately, letting him in as his tongue found your own. You both hummed and moaned into each other's mouths as he slowly started moving his hips.
You had to break the kiss as your mouth fell open feeling him thrusting inside you. Your hands grabbed onto his arms as your nails dug into his skin.
"Daddy fuck!" You watched him smirk down at you before he started thrusting faster. His eyes moved from looking into your own to watching your tits as they bounced with each of his movements. He leaned down and started sucking and biting at them. Taking your nipples in his mouth and swirling his tongue to harden them. Your hands found his hair again, wrapping strands of it around your fingers as you pulled. Your head fell back and your eyes shut as you just let yourself feel him.
"You're doing so good baby, just like that fuck!" He grunted as he felt you clench around him again.
Once he had marked up your tits to his satisfaction he moved upwards. Sucking and placing small bites on your neck. He always left marks. Because he always wanted you to remember and for everyone else to know that you belonged to someone. That you belonged to him.
Quiet, heavy breaths left you as you felt him make his trail of marks all over you. The grunts and groans from him became more frequent and you could tell he was getting close. But so were you. With every thrust inside you, he hit that soft spot that made sparks fly inside you. And he could feel it too.
"Are you going to cum again for daddy hm kitten? Scream out daddy's name like the good girl you are?"
You nodded your head barely able to form any words let alone sentences. He always left you speechless but you weren't complaining.
"Come on kitten. Say it. I want to hear how badly you want to cum again for me."
"Oh, daddy please!" You managed to get out, "Please let me cum again. I want to cum all over your cock."
His grin lit up his face as he continued his fast pace. "Then cum kitten. Make a pretty mess on my cock."
You let go as your second orgasm burst through you. Your eyes shut so tight, you see stars as you cum hard, clenching around Kylo's cock. Your whole-body shakes from the sensation, your nails still digging into his arms. His name the only thing falling from your lips as your orgasm ripped through your body.
Kylo was close now too. The feeling of you cumming around him only bringing him closer to his own peak. His jaw was clenched and his breath heavy as kept his pace inside you.
"Yes daddy, so good. Fuck your big cock feels so good inside me. I want you to cum inside me. Ruin me, daddy."
He cursed as you felt his cock twitch inside you. He painted your walls with his cum, using one last thrust to give you everything he had and to keep in all in.
As you both came down and let your breathing go back to normal, you searched each other's faces. You didn't know what he was looking at, but you were just amazed by how handsome he was. You were always amazed by that. Even when you were with him, you didn't know how you got so lucky.
But as he spoke his next words you realized you might have made a big mistake.
"I don't know why I ever let you go."
You couldn't believe what you were hearing. You could feel the heat rising from your chest to your face as you turned red.
"Then why did you?" You asked bitterly pushing him off of you. You jumped out of the bed and started to put on the clothes you had come here in last night.
He knelt in bed watching you in total shock at how quickly the mood had just changed.
"I had to keep you safe. I did it to protect you." His voice was quieter than usual because he knew the topic was sensitive.
"Keep me safe? Protect me? That's so funny Kylo! And you know why hm? Because I'd never felt more scared, more alone in all my life. Do you realize that you left me alone? After being put in a coma by people who kidnapped me?"
He didn't say anything. You weren't sure if it was because he only now just realized that he had probably left you at the worst possible time or he had no excuse for leaving you like that when he did.
"Gods Kylo. You don't know how many weeks, months it took for me to just stop crying. Not to get over you. To stop crying. I gave you so much of myself. I was vulnerable, opened my heart to you which isn't always easy for me. And you just left me. And with those final words too. You have no idea what that did to me. What that did to my heart."
Silence filled the bedroom as you looked at him with furrowed brows.
"I didn't want to leave you. But I know that's no excuse for what I did. Nothing will make that right. And believe me, I regret doing it every single day. I don't expect you to forgive me. Or to...to love me again. But I just want you to know how much it killed me to hurt you like that.
"Well, that's just it Kylo. I do still love you. I don't think I ever stopped or ever will stop. But what is it that you really regret Kylo? Walking out on me and leaving me alone? Or telling me that you didn't love me?"
You saw his expression change. His jaw clenching for a different reason this time. You could tell he didn't know what to say.
And it was as if his prayers were answered that the sound of his doorbell went off.
You scoffed as you finished changing and walked out of his bedroom and down the steps. You heard him gathering himself and putting his clothes on but you didn't wait for him.
You didn't know who was at the door. It could be Iris for all you knew. But you needed to just get out of there. Kylo called after you as he started racing down the stairs to see you inches from the door.
"Please!" He called out, but you grabbed the handle to open the door. When you did you were surprised to see who was on the other side.
"Mom?" Kylo's puzzled voice behind you pulled you from staring at her.
"My gods what happened to you?" Concerned covered her face as she saw the state Kylo was in.
"It's nothing. Just a few scratches. Nothing to worry about." Kylo replied. She looked at him hesitantly but figured it was best just to drop it. She knew how her son was.
"May I come in?" She smiled at you as you stood to the side and let her in. You felt compelled to stay now that she was here. After everything Kylo had told you last night, you knew she had to be looking into things.
"What are you doing back already?" Kylo led her over to the couch and motioned for her to sit down. He looked over to you, appreciation on his face. You knew he was grateful that you stayed. Again.
"Well," Leia started as she looked over to you, "I want you to be happy son. There is more to this Snoke situation. Things we still don't know, I can feel it."
"What should we do? I need to keep her safe from him." Kylo said referring to you. "And I want to...I'm not going to date Iris anymore. I can't. I'm sorry but I just don't feel anything for her. I know it's what you want but I can't."
"I want you happy Ben. If that means not being with Iris then we will figure something out. But, I don't know if this betrothal is entirely trustworthy either." Leia looked skeptical as she started working things through in her mind.
"Do you think that it isn't something Dad wanted?" Kylo questioned.
You sat and listened, watched their conversation and how different it was between them. You had met Leia before, briefly as Kylo was practically kicking her out of his penthouse. Know they were civil, almost like family. You were happy for him. That he had that connection again. He definitely deserved it.
"Let me get to the bottom of this. I have a bit more resources than you son. I'm going to advise Snoke to join me on my next business trip. It's going to be far. Far enough that he won't have contact here. While he's with me, I'll work on getting all the facts. On finding out what he's up to. Then, once we have that information, we can confront him and take him down. In the meantime, I'd stick together as much as you can just in case."
She squeezed Kylo's knee before standing from the couch.
"I don't mean to stay long. I just wanted to tell you. And let you know that I'll be gone for a little while."
Leia reached out to you and you took her hand. She squeezed it tight and whispered into your ear, "Thank you, for looking after him." You smiled at her as she walked towards the door.
She and Kylo said their goodbyes and he closed the door behind her as she left.
Once again, the two of you were left alone. You didn't know what to say. Between the conversation you had just had with him, what Leia had said about staying together, and what she had said privately to you, your mind was racing.
"When the time comes, I can't face him alone." He spoke first, his voice startling you enough to lift your eyes and meet his gaze.
"I need you."
There was something about the way he said it this time. The way his face looked when he did. You knew he was sincere. You felt it in your bones that he would try his best to never hurt you the way he did again. And you loved him. You never stopped loving him. He made you feel safe, special, wanted. You would ease back into this. You wouldn't jump in headfirst. You missed him and everything inside you was telling you to be with him.
So, you slowly walked over towards him, closing the distance between the two of you until there were only inches left. You took his face in your hand, caressing it gently. You looked into those gorgeous hazel eyes. They had their light back in them and they looked so perfect looking back at you.
"Okay, Kylo. I'm here. I won't go anywhere." And you were never more sure about something in all your life.
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Hello loves!! I really hope you enjoyed this chapter! Sorry again, I did not edit this one before posting so big apologies for any grammatical errors. I will go back and edit at a later date. I just really wanted to get this one up for you! As always THANK YOU SO MUCH for reading! You have no idea how much I appreciate you reading my story and taking the time to comment when you do. Comments always make me feel super happy and like I'm doing something right so, thank you for those! And if you ever have any questions or comments or anything, feel free to reach out to me on twitter @adamds0lo xo, Laur