"Action!"
Slow jazz music played in the background, people chattering and dancing to the music, drinks in their hands. Few students clicking photographs. "Ah, Olivia" Slughorn greeted me.
"Sir" I said politely. "Who's your date?" he asked looking at the tall boy beside me. "My lovely friend, Theod-" I said and he nudged me lightly. "Theo Nott" I completed.
"It's nice to see you both" the professor said and was about to leave when he turned back and said, "I had a piano arranged just for you tonight. I would love to hear you sing. I think we all would"
"It'd be my pleasure, Sir" I said and he happily went away.
"Cut! Let's take the scene where Filch bursts in with Draco" David said and I went back to Emma. We talked while Tom, David (Filch) and David talked about the scene. "So, did he ask?" Emma asked making me tear my eyes from Tom. "The first thing when I reached my trailer" I said sighing loudly. "And?"
"And I told him, even if it hurt him, I told him, it's not like I'm not trying but this time rather than letting the hurt taking over me, I calmly made him understand. Don't worry, we're good" I said as David told us to take our positions.
We were talking when suddenly I felt an arm around my waist. "Nott, can I steal your date from you?" Rafael asked and Theo nodded. He pulled me to the dance floor, where an annoyed Hermione was dancing with McLaggen, but when she saw me on the floor as well, she smiled and mouthed 'thank you'
I am only doing this for Hermione. I placed one hand on Rafael's shoulder, while the other was in his hand. His other hand was on my bare back, rubbing soothing circles on it. "You look beautiful" he said looking down at me. "Thank you, you look handsome as well" I complimented him back.
We were dancing in close proximity, when the door burst open. "Take your hands off of me, you filthy squib" a voice said grunting. I knew exactly who it was. "Sir, I just discovered this boy lurking in an upstairs corridor" Filch said holding Draco by his collar.
He looked sad. He was looking around for someone. For me. And upstairs corridor? That's the Room of Requirement. What is Draco doing there always? "He claims to be have invited to the party" Filch said and before his eyes could meet mine, he looked at Slughorn.
"Okay, okay, I was gatecrashing. Happy?" he said annoyingly. Why did he need to crash the party? If he wanted to come, then I asked him he should've said yes. He looked at me and seemed to calm down. But as he was calming down, he saw Rafael's hand on my exposed back, his eyes darted up to mine and then to Rafael's.
Oh boy.
"I'll escort him out" Snape said coming to his rescue. Draco freed himself while looking at the professor. "Certainly" he said and took a pause, "Professor" he spat like he was taunting him. He looked at me for one last time and left with Snape.
"All right, carry on, everyone. Enjoy" Slughorn said to lighten up the tensed mood that was just in the room. I saw Harry follow them, if he hears something, I- "Raf, you'll have to excuse me" I said and left behind Harry.
"Cut! Y/N, Tom, Alan and Dan, come on, prep for the next scene" David said and we took our positions. I went to the hallway with Dan and smiled at him. "I haven't seen you smile in like ages" he said making me chuckle a little.
"What can I say? For sometime, I didn't have a reason to smile" I said to which he gasped sarcastically. "Whatever do we mean to you, huh?" he asked making me hit his hand and we waited for our scene to start. "Okay, Y/N, when Alan walks off, you will reveal yourself from behind the wall, so enter through here and Tom, just for a second, you will look scared of Y/N, okay?"
"Scene 119, take 1 - Action!"
He was resting the back of his head on the wall and was eavesdropping their conversation. I stood beside him, rubbing my arms. "Maybe I did hex that Bell girl" Draco said and Harry looked at me like 'i-told-you-so'.
"Maybe I didn't. What's it to you?" he completed and Harry rolled his eyes. We heard a thud and Snape said, "I swore to protect you. I made the Unbreakable Vow"
"I don't need protection. I was chosen for this. Me. Out of all the others" Draco said and with listening just that Harry left. "Harry!" I whisper yelled but he didn't stop. "You're afraid, Draco. You try to hide it, but it's obvious. Let – me – assist – you" Snape said as I watched Harry walk away.
"No!" Draco yelled and I flinched. "You're not afraid for yourself, are you?" Snape said and I listened carefully. "He's threatening Olivia, isn't he?" Snape asked and I gasped slightly at my name.
"No, I can protect-" Draco said but before he could complete Snape cut him off with another push I assume, as I heard another thud. "If something happens to my goddaughter and you are to blame for it, Draco. I will kill you before the Dark Lord does" Snape said and I heard one set of footsteps walk away.
Of course, it had to be Snape, because after the killer line he just said, if he stood there and Draco walked away, that would be embarrassing. Does Voldemort know about me? Did Draco risk his own and my life? What task has he been given? That is it. He needs to talk to me. Now, I don't care if he needs time or space or whatever the fuck he wants. He will talk to me.
I showed myself from behind the wall and stood in front of an angry looking Draco who was marching in my direction but stopped dead when he saw me standing with my hands folded over my chest and a leg in one direction stretched out and the other side's hip a little out with a raised eyebrow.
He seemed to have tensed up seeing me like that. For one moment I thought he was intimidated by me. Just a moment. "Not here" he sneered and snatched my wrist and headed somewhere. "What the hell, Draco?" I said as we reached the seventh floor and he waited in front of a wall for it to appear. The Room of Requirement.
"Perfect! Are you guys ready for the next scene?" David asked looking at us. We knew it was the most intense scene of the movie. I sighed loudly, "You will have to give me a minute or two to cry myself out" I joked and we took our positions. "Alright, scene 120, take 1 - Action!"
He looked left and right and pulled me in. The room was an adequate size, with a fairly large bed in the center, much as I had when I stayed at the Manor. The bed had dark green sheets over it, with lots and lots of pillows. At the left side there was a couch and a fireplace, like the Slytherin Common Room. There was another door on the right possibly leading to the bathroom. And next to the bed, was a piano. A dimly lit chandelier hung from the ceiling above us.
Draco sighed as the room's scent filled his nostrils. He turned around, without me asking him, he rolled up his sleeves, revealing the dark mark. That's not what caught my attention. That was not news to me. His forearm was swollen, red scratches all over it, burn marks and slashes of knives rested on his hand. I was silent. I looked at him with tears in my eyes and back at the mark. Looking back and forth between the two.
The makeup done on his hand was just remarkable, it actually looked like he hurt himself, it was so real that before I had to check his hand, according to script, I checked it before that. It was makeup.
"Draco, why-" I asked but he cut me off. "I had to-" he said and I realized he thought I was asking about the mark. "No" I said cutting him off and touching his mark, he flinched his hand but seemed to be relaxed when he saw my fingertips brush against his skin.
"The cuts and burns, why did you do that?" I asked and he furrowed his eyebrows. "Draco-" "I can't, no, I can't put your life in danger, stop" he said pointing his wand at me. "Draco, don't. That is a bad move" I said in a calming voice.
It wasn't scripted but I pulled out my wand slowly, just to see how the scene would turn out, but Tom added to it as well, "No, no, don't pull your wand, stop" he said in fear. "O-Okay, okay" I cooed putting my hand down. "Draco-"
"No, I have to obliviate you, if you know this about me and tell-" "I won't tell anyone. I swear" I said and he lowered his wand at my words. He knew that I always kept my promise. "Good, let's sit and talk okay?" I asked as I placed my hands on his shoulder. He nodded absentmindedly and I tried to lead him to the couch, but he didn't move. So, we stayed near the door.
"Love, whatever you have to do, don't. Don't do it, you don't have to. Everyone has a choice. I can help" I said as I rubbed his back. "No!" he yelled and looked at me, "If I don't do it, he's gonna..." he said and stopped. "He's gonna what, Draco?" I asked and he looked down, "He's gonna kill you" and I gasped.
"Cut! Tom, let your voice break when you mention Olivia, okay? Let's take it from there. Action!"
"No!" he yelled and looked at me, "If I don't do it, he's gonna..." he said and stopped. "He's gonna what, Draco?" I asked and he looked down, "He's gonna kill you" and I gasped. He knows about me.
"He doesn't know, who you really are. He just knows that you are my lover, if that's what you're worried about" Draco said fiddling with his rings on his fingers. "I will protect you, at any cost, even if it stamps me as a killer" he said shaking his head and pacing around the room.
"Y-You have to kill someone?" I asked like I didn't believe what my ears just heard and I waited for an answer. He nodded and said, "I-I can live in a world where you hate me, I c-can manage that. B-But I can't live in a world where you're not there" still not meeting my eyes. "Draco, you can't-"
"I can't what?" he said cutting me off, "You think I can't protect you?"
"No-"
"I can, you are the one thing in my life, that I didn't get handed when I asked for. I had to chase you. I had to earn my place in your heart. I deserve you. You are the only thing I can proudly say is mine. I'm not letting you die. You can hate me as much as you want, but I will die protecting you" he said as he tapped his finger on my chest near my heart.
Only if Tom truly meant it.
"Draco" I said softly, letting him know that I could never hate him, "Don't push me away" I said and with that he fell on his knees and hugged my legs. "I can't do it..." he said trying hard not to let out a sob or break down in front of me or not wanting to seem weak.
"Then let me help understand you" I said stroking his hair in attempts of calming him down.
"It's not safe for you" he said giving up and breaking down in front of him. I kneeled down in front of him, so that he was facing me. His cries felt like they had been stuck inside of him for ages, that they were desperate to come out.
The scene was going so intense that even we didn't realize if we were acting or not.
I hugged him and he tightly wrapped his arms around me. Pulling me closer at every sob. I rubbed his back and he seemed to calm down, though his tears falling on my shoulder. "It's not safe for anyone" he continued as his head rested at the crook of my neck and he continued crying.
"Draco, I don't know what my father gave you as a task, but I should let you know, that I am not ashamed of who you are. Just let me in. I can help you" I said softly and he pulled away. "How can you not hate me? The whole fucking school does. How can you love a monster like me?" he said and I shook my head. I cupped his cheek and kissed him on the lips.
Tom will always have the affect of calming me down with his touch, no matter how many guys come in my life.
"I could never hate you, Draco Malfoy. I love you, enough to fight for you, compromise for you and if need be, sacrifice myself for you. I love you so much, that I believe in whatever relationship we share, to stand by it through the worst and worst of times. Enough to let you know that nothing you do will ever change the love I have for you. Nothing. If I could give you only one thing in life, then I would give you the ability to see you through my eyes. Maybe then you'd know, how beautiful you are to me, how special you are to me, how I-I love you" I said crying and looking in his eyes.
All I said was true. To my bones.
He furrowed his eyebrows and got up. He stayed silent for a few more moments and turned around and I got up, taking the hint. I turned around to face the door and held the doorknob in my hand.
"Keep it moving, you guys are going great!" David said in the mic and we continued.
"Don't cry, snowman, not in front of me... Who'll catch your tears if you can't catch me, darling? If you can't catch me, darling" I walked over to the piano he was playing.
"Don't cry, snowman, don't leave me this way... A puddle of water can't hold me close, baby. Can't hold me close, baby"
I placed a hand on his shoulder and he rested on it and continued singing.
"I want you to know that I'm never leaving... Cause I'm Mr. Snow, 'til death we'll be freezing. Yeah, you are my home, my home for all seasons... So come on, let's go"
"Let's go below zero and hide from the sun, I love you forever where we'll have some fun. Yes, let's hit the North Pole and live happily... Please don't cry no tears now, it's Christmas, baby"
"My snowman and me... My snowman and me, baby" I sat down next to him and played the tune while his hands wrapped around me and he sang.
"Don't cry, snowman, don't you fear the sun. Who'll carry me without legs to run, honey? Without legs to run, honey"
"Don't cry, snowman, don't you shed a tear. Who'll hear my secrets if you don't have ears, baby? If you don't have ears, baby" I joined in with him and looked at his blue orbs staring back into my green ones.
"I want you to know that I'm never leaving... Cause I'm Mr. Snow, 'til death we'll be freezing. Yeah, you are my home, my home for all seasons... So come on, let's go"
"Let's go below zero and hide from the sun, I love you forever where we'll have some fun. Yes, let's hit the North Pole and live happily... Please don't cry no tears now, it's Christmas, baby"
"My snowman and me... My snowman and me baby"
This song was the most intense one to sing as well. We sang it now as well and pre-recorded it too. So, whichever David would like would be kept. The words of the song touched my heart, it made me realize how Tom was actually my rock, how if I lose him some day, I'd lose a precious part of me, how my weaknesses are also his, how he knows me in and out. How Tom is my Snowman.
We stayed silent for a few moments, our foreheads touching each others. I opened my eyes and he did as well. "Talk to me, tell me everything Draco. I want to know and I-I want to help you. I can help you. I cannot see you in anymore pain, please tell me. I will never judge you" I said cupping his cheeks and he pulled me closer.
Hours and hours went by and he told me. He told me everything. He cried onto my chest, while I rubbed his back reassuringly and left small kisses on the top of his head and his temples.
He told me everything. Right from his childhood till today. How he constantly tried to make his father proud, how hard he tried to stay at the top 3 of the class, how he was still beaten by his father, how his own father was his boggart, how he had to take the mark because Voldemort threatened him about his family and me, how he has to repair a cabinet to let Death Eaters in the school, how when he doesn't fulfill his wishes, he tortures him, how he cursed Katie Bell and how he has to kill Dumbledore.
I didn't say a word, just listened to the boy in front of me, who just wanted to protect me at any costs, even if he had to kill someone. "You're very strong, love" I cooed and hugged him. "No, don't- don't lie, I am not" he said as I rubbed his back.
"You are. You have been through so much, I don't know how you do it, how you act all tough and rough in front of others and how you are broken just like me. But I wouldn't be able to do that, Draco. I would've burst out of bottling up so many feelings" I said kissing his neck lightly.
It was too overwhelming for a boy like him. Too much for him to take.
"How can you love me? I have done bad things. I have hurt people. Most of all, I have hurt you. So many times. Over and over again. I'm a monster, how could you love me?" he said as he got comfortable on the couch that we sat on for hours.
He was right, how could I love him? He had hurt me so many times, how did I still love him?
"You're not a monster, Draco. No. Not to me. A mark on your forearm doesn't define you. You are not like them. I have loved you for a long time now and once you love someone you don't just stop. Ever. Even if people call you crazy and roll their eyes at you, especially then. Draco, if I had listened to the others when they said, we were a lost cause and that I should move on, then that wouldn't have been love. No one knows you like I do" I said and he sighed a little.
Were the lines true? That you don't stop loving someone? Does it mean that I won't be able to move on?
"Did you mean it?" he asked referring to my confession earlier. "Yes, from all the love in my heart" I said and he smiled for the first time in hours. "Then this is my confession for you. As dark as I am, I will always find enough light to adore you with all of my broken pieces" he said and I cupped his cheeks and rubbed them with the pad of my thumb.
"Oh, Draco..." I said breaking up.
"Cut! Just amazing, what do I tell you? You guys are brilliant, I guess I can see an award or two your way" David said as I wiped my cheeks. We smiled and turned back to each other. "We're good, right?" Tom asked pulling me in a hug. "Yeah, we're fine" I said wrapping my arms around him. The scene was very intense for us, so we stayed like that for a few minutes, hugging each other, sobbing quietly in each other's embrace.