I was hoping I had a body two sizes small,
My thighs a little smaller,
Wish I were a little tall.
Wish the world wouldn’t remind me about, the huge size of my hips,
And the scars on my hands
And my thin and chapped lips.
Wish I didn't have piles of school work left to do,
Wish I finally found the pair of jeans I fit perfectly into,
And maybe one day could pass without me hearing 'why'd you look so sad',
Wish I were a bit on the edge or atleast a little rad.
Wish my voice was slightly better or something out of the box,
And I wish I was straight or society wasn’t orthodox,
Wish my arms were firmer and my teeth a bit more lined,
I know she calls me pretty but I can't help but think she's lying.
I was hoping,
I had a family that wasn’t so broken,
And the one I fell for wasn’t taken,
And I had that smile but I know she's been faking,
And all the crazy things in my head are better left unspoken.
I was hoping we were on the beach,
Looking at a sunset pink and peach,
The waves and sand just out of reach,
I was hoping we still were something.
Wish I was a little smarter and science didn’t fly over my head,
Wish I didn’t feel like dissolving into my bed.
Wish my cats were nicer to each other and didn’t want the butterflies dead,
But life's not fair, well i don't know, because that's just what I've read.
Wish the world was a bit kinder to everyone it attacks,
And instead of algebra you’d be teaching kids morals.
And the cages caging all of us would eventually break,
And I wish I could take my life but it isn't mine to take.
I was hoping we were on the hills,
Away from liquor and the pills.
And we'd take long walks on the dew dropped grass,
Sounds like an impossible task.