My love was as cruel as the cities I lived in
Everyone looked worse in the lightThere are so many lines that I've crossed unforgivenI'll tell you the truth, but never goodbye
I don't wanna look at anything else now that I saw youI don't wanna think of anything else now that I thought of youI've been sleeping so long in a twenty year dark nightAnd now I see daylight, I only see daylight
-taylor swift (daylight) {this is lev and karlissa's song}
Karlissa Smith
8 January
Isn't it funny? when i first landed here in New York, i knew no one. i called myself 'the-lonely-girl-in-New-York'. but now in 13 days, it felt like i had a another family here.
After lev and i fell asleep at 4 am, we soon woke up around 6 am. we didn't move from our position, we just held each other close. that silence spoke so many things. around some point i started crying and lev held me tighter but i knew he was silently crying too.
thats one of the many things i like about lev, he isn't like those alpha-men who are afraid of crying because 'it is not manly to cry'. sure lev wont cry in front of anyone but he was comfortable enough with me and it made me feel kind of special. it showed that he is not afraid of sharing how he is feeling with me.
then around 8:30 we finally decided that it was time for us to get ready. i showered first and changed and waited for lev to shower too.
Lev Night
i step out of the bathroom after showering. i see karlissa pulling on my sweatshirt that i wore last night. once its over her head she turns around and her eyes widen like a kid caught stealing ice cream after midnight.
"it's for if i get cold at the airport" she smiles sheepishly. my eyes dart to the jacket pushed hallway into her hand bag and i smile
if only she knew that i put 5 of my sweatshirts and shirts inside her suitcase
and i sprayed her perfume on most of my stuff
"it's fine. cmon we have 15 minutes till you need to check out. the limo is already here"
yeah, we couldn't take my motorcycle as we had to take her suitcases too. she was really bumped out because she wanted to ride it one last time.
after we are finally checked out and say bye to hason one last time.
we were sitting in the limo and the twins were meeting us there. karlissa had her head on my shoulder and i could just hear the wheels spinning in her head
"dont overthink babe" i say softly and she sighed
"what if this long distance thing doesnt work?" she whispers
i snap my head in her direction. i pull her head up and look her deep in the eyes. i pull her close and kiss her. she closes her eyes and deepens the kiss
"we will make it work" i say confidently. then to make her smile i add
"we'll read an instructional guide on how to make it work"
she laughs and i kiss her forehead "dont doubt anything, and if you need anything or ever doubt for a single second, just call me and i will fly out there to kiss all your doubts away"
she hits my arm and narrows her eyes "you will not do anything like that" but she was smiling
we finally arrived at the airport and did all the important security work and the twins were looking after her bags
there was the annoucement for karlissa's flight
she looks back at us "so this is it for now" she drops her hands and chuckles when tears start flowing out.
aiza was crying too. they started hugging and aiza whispered something and they both laughed and wiped her tears
she said goodbye to armaan and hugged him. then she moved on to me and new tears started flowing down
"left me for last huh? here i thought our relationship was better than that" she laughs and lets out a sob at the same time
"kiss me you idiot!" she scolds. i laugh but oblidge. i pick her up in my arms and kiss her longingly
when we pull away she hides her head in my shoulder "its ironic isnt it? when i first met you, i was crying then too" she laughs "but this time its for a better reason"
i tighten my hold around her waist
"guys that was the last call for karlissa's flight" aiza pulls us out of our own little world
kalrissa smiles at me "if you need anything or wanna talk about something dumb your parents did-' i chuckled "just call me. no matter the time, i love hearing your rants"
"same goes for you" i smile and put her down.
she raised her little finger "promise?" she asked. i laughed at her childish ways but connected my finger with hers in a pinky promise
"promise sweetheart" she leaned in and kissed me with our fingers still connected.
i finally let her go and we all watch as she walks through the gateaway.
this is gonna be harder than i thought
A/N
this is the end.
of part 1
YOU HEARD THAT RIGHT THERE IS GONNA BE A PART 2
and no not another book (i hate when authors do it and I'm not a hypocrite) it's gonna be in the same book
dont archive this book yet, just read the next chapter/ author's note which will be out in 72 hours
Who else hates it when authors give away what's going to happen in the next chapter in the A/n?