"YOU MOTHERFUCKER! FUCK," Dream yelled into the mic. Sapnap had just beat him in a PvP on the Hypixel server, again. "Reamatch! I'm not going to lose to you!"
"Just admit it Dreamy, I'm better than you," Sapnap remarks, a smirk permanently on his face. Yes, the boy was good at PvP, but Dream was better. And beating him with a 3-2 lead was gratifying.
"No, I'm not letting someone who used to call themself 'PandasCanPvP' beat me," Dream sassed. "I'm inviting you to another game, you better join."
"Awe, is your fragile little ego getting depleted," Sapnap snickered in a baby voice. "Is Mr. Leo man finally realizing he's not the best at everything?"
"Fuck off, just going the game," Sapnap sighed as he clicked on the 'accept' button, entering the arena, getting met with the stupid, bright green block character of Dream.
When the timer finished the countdown, they raced toward each other, axe in hand and shield up, blocking the crits they other tried to imply. It was silent, other than the patterning of the rain on Sapnap's roof, and the angry huffs that would emit when someone managed to get a hit on their competition. Five minutes, multiple close encounters, and way too many golden apples, Sapnap got on final hit on Dream, and his character turned into a puff of smoke.
"YESSS! EAT THAT, BITCH," the brown haired boy screamed. "You fucking suck! Go cry like the piss baby you are."
"You are an asshole, you know that right?" Dream sighed, hands coming in contact with each other with a very audible 'smack' as he pushed stood up from his chair and paced around the room. "How many hearts?"
"Only half, thought you had me to be honest," Sapnap chuckled as he heard a very faint curse come from Dream's end of the call. "I'm better than you, Dream. Just admit it."
"No."
"Just say it."
"Not a chance."
"Dream-"
"Fine," he took a deep breath. "Yourebetterthanme."
"What was that?" Sapnap teased, cupping his headset with his hand, just to mock the other. "Gotta speak up a little, oh, and slow down."
"You. Are. Better. Than. Me," Dream made sure to punctuate each word with a sharp inhale. "Happy?"
"Very," Sapnap leaned back in his chair, crossing his arms.
"You're a menace, you know that, right?" Dream sighed in defeat, finally siting back down in his chair. "Earth has started spinning slower since we met."
"Oh boo hoo, you love me," he laughed again at how frustrated his friend was.
"Let's make a bet, yeah," Dream proposed, having a trick up his sleeve for the next round. "You win, I'll take a shot, I win, you take a shot."
"Dude, I'm 20, I can't buy that shit. My name, face and age is all over the internet. Could never get away with it," Sapnap responded, a teasing tone laced in his words.
"Steal some from you parents, you say they never drink anyway," Dream remembered one night when Sap had called him, drunk. He saw a spider and got scared, called Dream for help completely forgetting that he lived in an entire different state.
"Oh, I never told you did I?" Sapnap got excited, he sat back up, wiggling his hips to add effect. "I moved out last weekend! I'm free."
"That's awesome!" Dream was excited for his friend. "How is it? Being on your own, living without rules."
"Honestly, it's lonely. Don't get me wrong, I love having my own space, but I miss the chaos of my house. Mom and Dad always finding something to laugh at, my sisters arguing every 30 minutes," he laughed, thinking back to all the stupid things they'd fight about.
"Yeah, I understand that. You get used to it though. Becomes peaceful," the two kept talking for another few hours. Eventually, George, Karl, and Quackity joined. Another few hours passed, just enjoying each other's company. A very interesting conversation came up, and two of the boys were very into it.
"The fuck do you mean?" Quackity yelled at Karl. "How do you not know?"
"I haven't experienced it, I don't know if I'd like it or not," Karl protested.
"It's a simple yes or not. Would you or would you not suck another dude's dick, maybe even go all the way," Quackity was so into it, more than the two who actually have experienced those things, but no one knew about it.
"Sap, what about you? You seem like you'd know the answer, being all quiet and stuff," George cut in, drawing the bickering from Karl and Quackity to quiet down.
"Why'd you put me on the spot," he nervously laughed, trying to get out of it.
"You've just been quiet, wanted to know what you were thinking," George smirked. Only a few people had their cameras on. George, Karl, and Quackity. Sap just didn't want to go back to his setup, and Dream for obvious reasons. "C'mon, penny for your thoughts."
"I- uhm," he took a deep breath. "Yeah, I would. Has happened already if I'm being completely honest."
"WHAT?!" the three all yelled, Dream was dumbfounded, still keeping to himself.
"When?"
"Did you like it?"
"Were you fucking or getting fucked?"
"Do I have to answer those?" Sapnap felt like he was in a room where the walls were caving in. He hadn't felt like this ever really. Just as he was about to speak, Dream did.
"No, it's none of their business anyway," he snapped. A few clicks on his keyboard were heard before a notification popped up on Sap's phone.
'noticed you were uncomfortable. if you wanna leave i will to, just so it's not too weird'
'yeah, i think i will. thank you'
"I think I'm going to head out, early morning," Sapnap faked a yawn, hoping to make his claim believable. "Talk to you guys soon."
"Yeah, me too," Dream added. "My mom wants me over for lunch, and it's 3am here."
A mixture of 'awes' and 'byes' were heard before both boys disconnected. Sapnap tried to fall asleep, he really did, but his mind was racing. Did everyone hate him now? Was it that obvious he was uncomfortable? Why was Dream being so quiet? His actions got the best of him, and without even realizing it, he was facetiming Dream.
"Hey, you alright?" Dream's voice was quiet, somewhat raspy.
"Shit, did I wake you up? I forgot you had that thing tomorrow," Sapnap mentally cursed at himself.
"No, I've been up. I don't have anything, just needed an excuse," he responded, some light peaked through his window, illuminating red puffy eyes, and tear stains on his cheeks. "What's up, it's like 6?"
"I just wanted to talk to you. Are you ok? Your voice is all messed up and you've been crying," Sapnap was concerned about Dream. He wasn't much of a crier, only when he had a lot on his mind and it all just let itself out.
"Yeah," he sniffled, wiping his nose. "Fuck, no I'm not," he let out a few sobs. Sap's heart broke, he wanted to be able to hug the blonde, comfort him. Be able to tell him that it'll all be ok in the end. Hold him.
"Hey, hey it's alright. Let it all out, ok? I'm here, I like to listen," he comforted, a few tears escaping from his own eyes at the broken image that he called Dream. It took 10 minutes, 10 awful minutes of hearing the other scream sob until he settled down enough to breathe normally again. "Talk, it'll help."
"I just," Dream took a deep breath. "Fuck, I don't know how to say it. Ok, when I was, I don't know, 16 I think, I was hanging out with my friend, Max I'm pretty sure you had talked to him before. But Max, he's gay, very open about it and stuff. He was staying the night at my house and we were drinking a bit, and I let it slip that I was curious about like sleeping with a guy and stuff."
"Take your time, a few deeps breaths ok," Sapnap reassured, and a few moments later, Dream was talking again.
"We uh," he laughed. "We ended up like making out for like 2 hours, seeing where it'd go. And we, yeah, we fucked. I had always thought I was straight, always was with girls, but fuck, was that night like a goddamn eye opener. Don't get me wrong, sleeping with girls was fine, but after that night with Max, I couldn't finish. No matter what. I started going through some shit, it wasn't pretty I'll save you the details. But yeah."
"I mean, that's great man, I'm happy for you," Sapnap smiled into the camera, and got a smile in return. "But, why were you so upset? If you don't mind me asking of course."
"No, of course not," he took another deep breath. "I've just always wanted to tell you. Like, only you. You've been there for me for what, a decade now? And I just feel like I've been lying to you. You're the only person who has stayed with me, Max stopped talking to me because he got a boyfriend and he found out what happened, and with you tonight I knew I would be able to tell you, I just didn't know how or when. I was scared you'd get mad at me for not telling you sooner."
"Hey, it's alright. I'm not mad at you, hell I haven't told you either," he laughed. "It's ok, Clay, this doesn't change anything."
"Good, I'm glad," they both laughed, then sat in silence for a few moments. Sapnap knew the question was coming just not sure when. "Hey, Nick."
"What's up?"
"What- how, I don't even know how to ask," Dream was stuttering.
"I know what you're asking, calm down," he laughed. "It was like 8 months ago, I downloaded Tinder because I was curious as well, wanted to explore a bit. I met up with someone named Lucas, he was a nice guy really, pretty hot too," they both laughed.
"We met at a hotel, fucking sketchy ass motherfucker," they both laughed again, harder this time. "But yeah, it just kind of happened. I told him I wanted to test things out, he's a switch so I was able to try both, and honestly, it was fucking amazing. Just like you, I'd only been with girls in the past, and I still have been, but I really like it."
"What the hell man! You don't tell me you move out, and you don't tell me about this? Has these past 10 years meant nothing to you?" Dream placed a hand over his heart, pretending to be hurt.
"You just scared the shit out of me, I hope you know that," he laughed, running a hand though his hair, taking a shuttered breath.
"Oh shit, sorry I thought you would have realized I was joking," he started laughing, no. Wheezing. It wasn't even funny, but here he was, laughing his head off at absolutely nothing.
"I didn't at first, but at the end yeah," Sap started laughing as well. "What the fuck, are you ok?"
"Sleep deprivation," Dream said in between breaths.
"Ok, I'm gonna go then, get some sleep," Sapanp was about to hang up, but remembered about a Tik Tok he saw that instantly became his favorite. "Silly goose."
Dream's laughter started up immediately, enough where he had to be lightheaded from it. Sap stayed on the call for a moment before hanging up and plugging his phone in, and drifting into nice, comfortable sleep that he most definitely needed.