minji sat down with the rest of the kids on the carpet, she was bored, she hated circle time.
"so, the question for morning circle is, what is your favorite fruit?" he smiled, placing his lesson plan on the floor, "who wants to go first?" he asked, a kid raised his hand, it went on from that kid. it wasn't very well when it got to minji.
"minji, what's your favorite fruit?" the teacher asked, minji stayed silent, she didn't want to answer, "do you want me to come back to you later?" he asked, it was silent, "i need you to say something" namjoon said, minji shook her head, "alright, ha-eun, you can go"
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"today during morning circle, you didn't participate, is something wrong?" he asked as him and minji ate, "nope, i just don't like it, appa told me to give you a letter, it's in my folder" she said, eating the fruit seokjin has chopped up for her.
namjoon hummed, taking the letter from minji's blue folder, he unfolded it to read it.
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hello mr.kim
thank you for writing to me, i am doing okay and working on getting better.
i am in the hospital for mental health, there's no point in hiding the truth. i just wanted to write back, i don't have much to say. if you want to know anything about me, let me know, it's kinda boring here and i spend most of the time here like :|
please let me know how minji is doing if you can, and if u have any advice on how i can be a better parent :]
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namjoon smiled after he finished reading the letter, he had only seen yoongi a couple times but he knew he was cute.
"your appa is really cute, minji" the boy laughed, minji smiled, "appa the best!" she giggled, namjoon admired yoongi. a single parent with a job and was a college student? that's so...wow. namjoon couldn't find a way to phrase it besides, 'wow'.
"your appa is the best, start finishing your lunch, okay? i need to write your appa another letter" he said, he couldn't stop smiling at the thought of yoongi.
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"why can't we go in yet?" minji furrowed her brows, "appa is having a bit of a rough day but the doctor said he'll let us in soon" seokjin said, minji let out a scream and hit seokjin, the boy stared at her with wide eyes.
"that's not good at all, don't do that" he sighed, minji huffed, "i want my appa!" she shouted, seokjin pinched the skin between his brows.
he didn't understand how yoongi could deal with minji all by himself, he could barely do it with jungkook.
jungkook was at work so he couldn't see yoongi or help with minji, he was upset about it but there wasn't much he could do.
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"hi seokjin and minji" yoongi mumbled, waving at both people. today he was feeling more suicidal than the previous days, he wanted to sleep his days away.
"appa! mr.kim got you another letter and i brought you a drawing!" she giggled, yoongi forced a smile on his face, of course he loved minji but he was exhausted.
"let me see" he said, minji handed him both papers and sat next to him, a smile on her face.
on the drawing, it was a picture of him and her, on top there a messy letters that said, "love you appa!".
yoongi wanted to break down in that moment, his little girl was learning to write. she was growing up and the fact made yoongi want to cry every time, he appreciated how kind she was and her thought. tears brimmed in his eyes and his hand began shaking which made seokjin panic.
"yoongi?" seokjin said, the small boy looked up, "y-yeah?" he stuttered, he wanted to cry, "are you okay?" he asked, yoongi bit the inside of his mouth, "i just" he began crying, tears streamed down his cheeks. he hugged the girl and sniffled, "i-i'm so proud of you minji, appa loves you a l-lot" he cried, he was an absolute mess.
minji let out a small hum, "love you too appa, y-you're a very h-hard working" she said, seokjin's heart melted at the sight, they were so cute
"okay, i need to stop crying" yoongi sniffled, wiping his tears and pouting. he opened namjoon's letter.
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hi yoongi!
you don't have to call me mr.kim, you can just call me namjoon! thanks for writing back! you're amazing!
i have a few questions for you!
1. how are you able to be an amazing parent?? minji is such a good girl and so smart, she's above prek
2. do you know when you'll be out the hospital? minji misses you so much
3. random one, what's your favorite food?
4. who's 'kookie' and 'jinnie'
you're an amazing parent yoongi! also, if 'jinnie' or 'kookie' take minji to a therapist, they might ask about how she's doing at school so here's my say:
minji is a smart and amazing student but has time focusing in general and trouble communicating with peers. from what i've seen, there's been a decrease in appetite and energy because of what happened. 'jinnie' and 'kookie' can add if they have anything more to add'
you're loved :)
signed, kim namjoon
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"so about the child therapist" yoongi said, looking at seokjin, "yeah, the appointment is tomorrow at 1pm, it's just like an evaluation i guess, a little get to know her sort of thing" he shrugged, yoongi hummed, "well the teacher left a note here if you to take the behavior part of it" yoongi said, seokjin took a quick picture of it and nodded.
minji looked at both boys, child therapist? her little brain to make it make sense. therapist was a feelings doctor. was she the one going this time?
"what's a child therapist?" minji asked, playing her leggings that had paint on them from art class.
"so minji, you know how appa is going to a therapist who is a feeling doctor? you're going to one too" he said, minji hummed, she turned to face yoongi, is the"feeling doctor fun?" she asked, "i'm sure the doctor will have colors and toys for you to play with, if they don't, i'm sure jinnie can take you to the ice cream shop afterwards"
minji nodded, "very fun" she giggled, yoongi smiled and nodded, "i need you to try your best at the doctor, okay?" yoongi asked, she held minji's small hands as he talked, "mhm! will you try your best for the doctor too? i want you to be home soon!" minji said with a smile.
yoongi wanted to cry, "i'll try my best"
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after seokjin and minji left, yoongi sat there with an emotionless face on display. he started to think of minji and only minji.
he remembered all the little milestones with her, he missed her giggles waking him up at the crack of dawn, even if it was exhausting. he missed making her food every morning and he missed doing every part of the day with her.
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"you can do this!" yoongi chuckled, minji was about to take her first steps and yoongi had everything prepared. he had the camera, her toys, and some water for her. he was shaking from how he excited he was.
"appa!" she giggled, yoongi smiled and made grabby hands, "come to appa" he said, he grabbed the stuffed animal and showed it to the small girl.
she gasped and took two steps towards yoongi, yoongi jumped up, a huge smile on his face, "you did it!" he squealed, minji made grabby hands towards the boy, "appa!" she said, yoongi held her in his arms and kissed her forehead, "i'm right here, i love you so much"
"l-love!"
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yoongi wished to relive that moment, he wished to be with minji again, his daughter.
he hated how seokjin and jungkook were pressured to care for her, he wanted the girl in his arms.
but at the same time, he knew he couldn't mentally do it. he knew he wasn't mentally capable of being a parent at the moment. he owned jungkook and seokjin so much that he didn't know how he would pay them back.
he went back to sleep, a temporary escape from the world and his thoughts.
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stay safe and healthy! drink water and eat some food! sorry for any mistakes, i love you all! qotd: last thing you drank?