Edwins pov/thoughts:
Edwin starts to right in his journal:
So 3 months has gone by and prince still hasn't popped up and the police haven't gotten any leagues on the case
But they ended up just labeling him as dead so tomorrow is his funeral and I don't really want to go Because I know prince is somewhere out their and he's not dead and the cops aren't looking they're just eating donuts and going on the news promoting a new phone tracker app life 360
(It's actually a really good app😩)
But I have been spending more time with laii (laiilani) for a long time I thought I was just gay but maybe I'm bi or pansexual.
I don't really even know but I do know that I love her and that I have moved on from prince
I'll always have love for prince the fwoineeeee peasant but he's not here and yk he might actually be dead
And he would want me to move on....... I think you know he was a lil slow just a tad bit
plus I only knew him for 37 hours 56 minutes and 45.8 seconds
I get a call from my best friend anastasia
The phone call
Anastasia: hey bestie how you holding up
Me: I'm doing fine I'm a little nervous about tomorrow you know I have to speak at the funeral
Anastasia: well you know I'll be there for you
Me: yea ik what if he's not really dead what if he's just gone you know
Anastasia rolls her eyes and says "the first stage of grief is denial"
Me: "plz miSs me wiTh thAt I'm not iN dEnial BeCause He's noT dead ik it I juSt knOw iT"
I said while was my voice going up and down in the mist of all of that
Anastasia: "ok I'm gonna need you to bring it all the way down to a 6 your at a 9 right now babes-respectfully 😌😘" she said with blowin me a kiss at the end
As if she cleared me
Me: "gurl tf bye I'll see you tommorow ole box built-"
Before I could finish that ole raggedy Anne treesh hung up in my face (The disrespect 🙄✋🏾)
I sat there in my room bored in my draws so I decided to go on ig
I see my cousin kassiah (from both sides 😬) on live....
I click on her live and she on their with 3 other people
Rando #1: murda just left my house fytb
KASSIAH: girl murda does not want you he never will and I mean never girl get over it your pregnant and you don't know who your baby father is which is sad asf doesn't mean you have to throw yo baby off on other people's man like girl gtfo somewhere you look bout dumb asl rn and it's sad and pathetic 😭
"And that's how you clear somebody"- rando #2,#3, both said in sync
I got off her live cuz all they was doing was screaming and yelling but also if y'all was wondering she wasn't referring to my uncle murda she was referring to his son that's how she's my cousin in both sides Because she's my mom's niece and she's my dad's niece in law if that makes sense....
I get bored again so I call my luh baby laiilani
Phone conversation:
Wassup bae I said to laiilani as she picked up the phone
"Hey" she said
"You gon be their to support me tomorrow" I said licking my lips
When I'm around her I just feel so different so so- so lightskin
"Yea I'll be their but don't you think it'll be weird you going to your ex's funeral with your current like isn't that ungodly or something like that?"
I got mad as she asked that dumb question
"No it's not weird BeCause me and prince were never together for one and misS me with that GOd mess because if he's such a good peRson why doEs he tAke peoPle aWay from us huh if he's such a gOod person why does he mAke Us live in this evil word if He's suCh a good persOn whY doEs he send people to be tortUred Because of who they love". I said in anger
(A little A/N I don't believe in hell so that last little part is fictional to me but when I was going through the grieving process I did think God wasn't such a good person Because he took someone I loved)
She replied with "ummm well you're going through the second stage of grief which is anger so I'll just let you be"
Me: "you and anastasia are getting on my nerves with this "stage of grief stuff" you can't go through the grieving process of someone's alleged death if you didn't and don't love them-"
"But didn't you just say- yk what Edwin your being confusing and I don't like it whatsoever so I'll just see you tomorrow" she said with a stank additude before hanging up...
The next morning I wake up to my now 11 month pregnant who's ready to bust anyday now shaking me
"Get up sweetie"
"Gm mom I'll be down in 30"
I get out my white button up some black church pants and my creme jordan 4s and my versace sunglasses just in case I shed a year or two and place it all on my bed like it's the first day of school
(IYKYK lol 💀)
I hop in the shower with no music today and quickly get out put my undies on and some deodorant then body spray then I brush my teeth then I start to throw up
My dad runs up into the bathroom seeing me in my underwear and throwing up
(whew chileee embarrassing)
"What's wrong son" he said
"What if it's my fault what if I was holding onto him what if I was with him the whole time what if I could've did something and I didn't" I said crying my eyes out
"There's nothing you could've done son but what it seems like is your going through stage 3 of grievance bargaining
But what you can do is clean ya self up and get ready fa you boy he wouldn't want to see you like this and he wouldn't want you worrying about this"
"Why does everyone keep saying I'm grieving"
"Cuz you are we all are" he said walk out of the room
Ik he was lying beacuse he didn't even like prince but anyways......
I put my clothes on and then I head downstairs and we pull up to this funeral home filled with tons of cars as we're parking we hear someone slam on the brakes behind us he gets out and says
"Why y'all spreading at my son funeral at herbert son funeral really is this what we doing now-"
He looked like a drug dealer who was in drugs but that's neither here nor their but I did kinda see a resemblance between him and prince
My father says "sorry" then
Herbert says:
I look at him in disbelief as my dad spits on him and speeds by-
As we walk in they hand us an obituary
We then take our seats I notice this one pretty girl in front who I believe was prince's sister she waved at me and I waved back about 5-7 minutes later
Laii and anastasia both show up at the exact same time they sit a row behind me they speak to me and I speak to them and the service starts
Thy do a quick prayer read a poem then say his sister is gonna sing
She sings:
And she sings it so beautifully
They then call me up to speak and I go
Nervous asl but I go
"H-h-hello many of you may not know me but I'm prince's friend um i-i- just wanted to say prince was a really good friend and a really nice person to talk to yk and it want and it hasn't been the same without him" I start crying restlessly all over the floor my bestie and laii have to come pick me up from embarrassing myself any further............
Then his father starts to speak
"Excuse that little f@gg0+"
He says under his breath
"Now everyone knows my son isn't perfect but he didn't deserve to go now can I get an amen"
**Crickets**
"Well f y'all too you old hags half y'all can't even have kids" he says as he walks away back to his seat
The funerals over and I go home as I'm laying in bed I notice the cute blue bear prince gave me
I thought to myself from this moment forward this is gonna be my child that prince gave me and I'm gonna name it
"Eanes'hermes"
(None of y'all bet not take my child's name or we will be fighting and that's prrd)
3 days has passed since the little death party or whatever u wanna call it and today I have a physical check up
I walk into the doctor my father checks me in and they call us back a couple minutes after he did what he did
"So we're gonna give you two shots and we're gonna have you pee in a cup and run tests on the pee"
"Ok" i said ice never rlly been afraid of needles
They gave me the shots and had me piss in the cup it tingled a little when I did tho......
He came back about twenty minutes later and he asked if I wanted my father in or out of the room
"He can stay" I said confidently knowing my results would be clean
"Well mr.edwin you have HIV a std a sexually transmitted disease"
"Have you been having sex without wrapping up" my father asked
I just sat their with a look like:
Then I just thought to myself:
What did you guys think I tried to make this one a lil longer yk📍
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