sage marie walker.
1:37 a.m.
"FUCK!" i heard banging and crashing from downstairs after jumping out of my sleep.
i threw on a oversized shirt before walking out my room. i crept downstairs slowly just to see asir pacing back and forth.
i sped my pace up trying to go see what the problem was.
"asir! what is going on?" i followed him down the hall just to see all the decorative frames that was hanging up were shattered on the floor.
i followed him in his room which was a mess also.
he wouldnt answer me he just kept mumbling things that i couldnt make out.
i turned on the lights in his room and its like he snapped, finally realizing what was going on.
his eyes got soft and he looked around at everything messed up in his room before just plopping on the bed.
"asir? whats wrong?" i looked at him and he just broke down crying.
i sat against his headboard before just pulling him to my lap. he cried while i just rubbed his waves.
"you're okay, shhh you're okay" i calmed him and he just scooted closer while his arms were wrapped around my waist.
i just rubbed him and i looked around his room trying to figure out how this even came about.
i looked next to us, the pills.. they looked full.
its the end of the month.
i looked down at him to see he was half asleep, i scooted my hand over to try and grab the pills but they were too far, i did end up twisting the bottle though.
he hasnt gotten a refill in two months.
i tried to ease up and he just grabbed on to me tighter.
"dont leave me" he mumbled.
"im gonna go get you some water okay?" i tried to move and he looked back up at me.
"im not leaving you, I promise to be right back"
he nodded before moving so i could go get water.
i stepped over the broken glass, after looking back down the hallway I shot up the stairs to my room.
I looked through my sheets for my phone, I sighed in relief finally finding it.
i went to safari searching, "Zoloft 50 mg"
Sertraline Brand name: Zoloft
It can treat depression, obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD), posttraumatic stress disorder (PTSD), premenstrual dysphoric disorder (PMDD), social anxiety disorder, and panic disorder.
50 milligrams is a strong dosage, strongly NOT recommended to stop taking suddenly. Contact doctor if any major side effects to prescription.
I took a deep breath before clearing the tab and walking back out my room.
i walked down the stairs, jumping out of fear after seeing the silhouette of asir just staring at me.
"asir!" i held my chest, stopping in my tracks.
his eyes were low and puffy, he looked so out of it.
"the kitchen is over there" he pointed to the kitchen while staring at me.
"i had to get my phone" i held it in the air and he nodded before sniffing and walking back to his room.
i havent seem him have a episode like this since we were in highschool.
they happened frequently in middle school but the last one I seen was in highschool. I hope I didnt trigger it yesterday.
"here" i passed him the bottle of water. he raised up in the bed where he was laying.
"take these too" i grabbed the bottle off the nightstand trying to hand it to him and he just stared at me.
"please?" i poked my bottom lip out and he chuckled a little.
"no"
"please"
"no sage, im not sayin that shit again" he closed the bottle and rested up against his headboard.
"why not?" i climbed in the bed beside him.
"it be fucking with my erection plus i cant remember nothing when im on it" he waved me off and I slapped his chest.
"boy! would you rather be sane or have a erection?"
he stared at me and i just shook my head, "well talk to your doctor or something...dont just cold stop it"
"okay sage" he said dryly snugging me in close to him.
"im not crazy" he blurted after a small silence.
shiddd
i just looked up at him and he stared at me back.
"go to sleep" i muttered, finally closing my eyes.
hours later...
"sage!" i heard making me jump out of my sleep.
ezra bursted the door open, making me sit up faster than a bunny.
"hey" i smiled glady realized i was back in my own bed.
"why you still in the bed baby? its 2 o'clock" he walked in making my heart drop.
"uhh long night" i scratched my head still in slight confusion at what was happening.
oh shoot the mess-
"i dont know how, it seems more quiet since your roomate moved out" he responded and i just nodded.
"yeah i guess- wait what?" i hopped out of my bed quickly, walking out my room to go downstairs.
the house was spotless, you can just tell something was missing.
"sage whats up with you?" ezra chuckled while walking downstairs.
i ignored him walking down the clean hall way that was full of broken frames last night.
"asir wha-" i bursted in his room and it was empty. nothing but a bed and an empty closet.
"you didnt know he left?" ezra followed behind me and I shook my head.
I just plopped on the couch in disbelief.
"well atleast we got the house to ourselves-"
"ezra..."
"yes?"
"shut up please" i responded still staring in the air.
he just.. left.
with no explanation, no warning.
left.
bck2bck?
- tay 🤍