It was insane!
Letting Cam stay here inspite of what happened between me and his stupid fucking moron brother is insanity! Now I couldn't move around the house like I'm used to because I'm hyperaware of his presence! Ngayon ay nakaupo ako na parang may nakatukod na stick sa likod ko habang nanonood ng telebisyon habang ito naman ay prenteng nakaupo sa one seater sa gawing kanan ko at nakikinood rin sa kung anumang palabas sa TV.
Panaka nakang tinatapunan ko siya ng tingin. I didn't know how I fucking mistook him for Taylor. They are different as night and day. Oo, magkamukha silang dalawa. But the way Cam carries himself is far from how Taylor behaved himself last night.
Even the way he dressed and his posture is different. Cam's back was straight against the backrest of the sofa even as he watches the television. Kung dahil man iyon sa naiilang siya sa presensya ko ay hindi ko alam. But he's... how do you phrase that? Prim and proper?
It seemed like he was raised properly by his parents and his twin brother by a pack of rabid wolves. Pino ang mga galaw nito at articulate magsalita. Siguro kung hindi lamang ito kapatid ng demonyong Taylor na iyon ay baka nagustuhan ko siya. He's exactly my type.
"Are you watching this?"
"Ha?" maang kong tanong. Why is he talking to me? Go back to ignoring me you gorgeous piece of shit!
"I asked if you're watching this," he gestured the TV's remote control towards the moving people on the screen. "kasi ililipat ko na kung hindi. Who likes watching these fucking midgets---do you have a thing for midgets?"
"Gago ka ba?"
Humalakhak si Cameron at inilipat sa ibang channel ang palabas.
"Bakit mo ba hawak yang remote? Kala mo naman talagang bahay mo na 'to. Hindi naman ikaw ang bumili niyang TV. Akin yan!"
"Wala naman akong sinabi na akin--"
"Then why do you act as if you own it?"
"Do you hate me?"
No, I don't hate you and that's the problem! I think I should hate you because you saw me being fucked by your stupid ass licking bastard of a brother but no! I don't hate you! In fact, I think I'm having a crush on you!
"I'm sorry that my brother nutted on your vagina, okay? Stop hating me." tumayo siya at iniabot sa akin ang remote. "Here, para hindi ka na magtampo. And then tell me what else is yours in this house so that I won't touch it."
I watched him walk towards the kitchen and opened the refrigerator. He pulled out a bottle of water and before he was able to uncap it, I blurted out, "I bought that water, too." damn this fucking mouth!
Cam glared at me before putting the bottle back into the fridge. Napabuntong hininga na lang ako saka napipilitang tumayo mula sa sofa at lapitan si Cam. I gave him back the remote control.
"Ikaw na lang ang manood, I'll be on my room pag hinanap ako ni Renée."
Laglag ang balikat na pumasok ako sa kwarto at iniwan si Cameron na tulala. I don't want to be a bitch to him. Ako naman ang nagdesisyon na patuluyin na lang siya sa bahay instead of sending him off dahil ayokong makatunog si Renée na may problema. Knowing my best friend, she will not stop asking and I don't want to tell her that I had a one night stand with her cousin and that he nutted on my vagina.
I winced. I should stop saying that!
Maghapon akong nagtago sa kwarto ko at walang ideya kung anong ginagawa ni Cam sa labas. He's been awfully quiet for the rest of the day, I don't think he even continued watching TV after I handed him the remote. Kung hindi pa nga ako tinawag ni Renée para kumain ay hindi ako lalabas.
"Cam ordered some take out, let's eat!" hinawakan ni Renée ang kamay ko at hinila ako papunta sa kitchen. "I don't know why he didn't cook. Pangako niya sakin ipagluluto niya tayo lagi kaya pumayag akong dito siya tumira."
"Hindi ko kasi pag-aari ang mga gamit dito. I need to know which one I'm allowed to touch."
I curled my lips at him while I'm still standing behind Renée. I can't believe he's being a child about this!
Well, ikaw naman ang naunang mag-asal bata.
"You're allowed to touch anything," ikinumpas ni Renée ang mga kamay niya. "H'wag lang itong best friend ko ha? Off limits 'to!"
Cam smirked. "Of course," makahulugan na tumingin siya sa akin at wala akong nagawa kundi suklian iyon ng isang irap.
Hindi porket nakipag-sex ako sa kakambal niya, tingin na niya ganoon kadali niya akong makukuha. Napakayabang ng hambog na 'to! Nakahalukipkip na naupo ako sa silya sa tabi ni Renée matapos na pangalawang beses niya akong tawagin.
Habang kumakain ay di ko maiwasang panoorin din si Cam. He was sitting in front of me, anong magagawa ko? It's not as if I have a choice.
Of course you do, Max, you can concentrate on eating instead of watching him like you're a fucking lovesick puppy!
Nang mahuli niya akong nakatingin sa kanya ay tinaasan niya ako ng kilay. Snuklian ko naman iyon ng irap. It's hard not to notice him. He's handsome. Parehas silang gwapo ni Taylor. Ang kaibahan nga lang, fascinating panoorin si Cam dahil nga sa pino nitong mga galaw. The way he holds his spoon and fork. The way he opens his mouth.
Oh, no! Max! Please stop this!
May crush na talaga ako sa damuho na ito at wala pang bente kwatro oras kaming nagkakasama sa isang bahay. Di yatat talagang easy to get ako!
Renée retreated to her room early. According dito ay napagod ito sa shoot dahil kasama daw nito iyong Ava Grace. I don't know much about that woman except that she's involved in several scandals involving a rich businessman. Hindi iyong tipo ng scandal na kagaya ng sa akin--I internally winced at the thought. Ang balita ko lang ay inexpose nito ang relasyon ng businessman sa ex-boyfriend niya. Ang kalat ng babae na iyon. Taliwas sa ugali ng pinsan nitong si Calrb na isa rin sa mga barkada ng pinsan kong si Ram at ultimate crush kong si RD.
Naiwan tuloy kami ni Cam sa kusina at di kami makapagdesisyon kung sinong maghuhugas ng pinagkainan.
"Go to your room, ako nang bahal dito magligpit," he said without sparing me a look. Pinanood ko siyang sinupin ang mga plato at pagsamasamahin ang mga tira. Hindi ko na napansin na nakatitig pala ako sa mga muscles niya sa braso kung hindi pa siya tumikhim.
"I told you--"
"No. Ako na d'yan." inagaw ko ang pamunas mula sa kanya at sinimulang punasan ang mesa. Nakakahiya naman dito. Bisita siya. At ako itong umaasal na parang bata sa ginagawa ko sa kanya. Wala naman siyang ginawang masama sa akin.
"So, matutulog na ako?"
"Oo, matulog ka na." grabe? Talagang iiwanan niya ako para magligpit mag-isa? Medyo nag-expect pa naman ako na mag-ooffer siya na tulungan ako like a fucking gentleman but what do I fucking expect? Kahit pa sabihing mas matino ito kaysa sa kapatid nitong si Taylor ay nananalaytay pa rin sa dugo nito ang pagiging damuhong bastos.
I was grumbling to myself while washing the dishes when Cam left. Hindi naman karamihan ang huhugasan pero sana man lang nag-offer siyang tumulong. Kahit half-assed lang.
"Kala mo sinong gwapo, tamad naman pala!"
"Sino bang kausap mo d'yan?"
I looked over my shoulder to glare at him, fully prepared to be greeted by his smug face and irritating smirk but instead I saw him, wearing just his boxers with a towel over his right shoulder. His hair was still dripping, and his skin was covered with droplets of water and I can't help but want to lick it off his skin. What the hell? I had to summon all the self control left in me not to stare at him open mouthed.
"You're getting water all over the floor," nakaismid kong sabi sabay talikod. Nanginginig ang kamay ko habang ipinagpapatuloy ko ang paghuhugas ng pinggan.
"Sorry,"
Napasinghap ako nang maramdaman kong nasa gilid ko na siya.
"Anong ginagawa mo?"
"Helping you with the dishes," maingat na kinuha niya mula sa kamay ko ang isang pinggan. Tinuyo niya iyon saka niya ipinatas sa lalagyan. "I don't want you to think na pabigat ako sa bahay n'yo. Nakikitira na nga lang ako."
"I didn't mean--"
"It's okay. I should know my place."
Tahimik naming tinapos ang mga hugasin. I was hyper aware of his presence and his nakedness kaya naman may ilang beses kong muntik mabitawan ang hinuhugasan ko. I heard him chuckle the third time at hundi nakatiis na siniko ko siya. He just laughed.
"Next time, tell me kung ayaw mong maghugas I would gladly do it. Hindi iyong bubulong bulong ka."
"I told you--"
"Goodnight, Max."
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