"Lexa lets not rationalize this and just talk this through."
The papers were still glued to her hand
"There is nothing to say, you can take that home with you. If there is a need for additions or subtractions you can contact Titus and Anya, i don't have an entire day."
Her voice was strong, firm and icy. Which was confusing Clarke. Was she mad or not?
"How_why this decision?"
"Like i said before, READ!"
The burst of her anger made Clarke jump a little
"The least you owe me is an explanation." Lexa burst out laughing
"You are funny. I owe you an explanation? I'm i the one with secrets to tell, am i the one lying just so you can spend time with Nyilah? I'm i the one ashemed to be seen in public with me? Am i the one pulling out of this relationship? Am i the one building our relationship on lies?
Clarke runs a hand through her hair.
i can save us right? There is still time. I just need to come clean.
"At least let me explain." Lexa scoffed "please, I will accept your decision after."
"My decision is starring at you. But i'll let you explain because i would like to be given a second chance if i were in your shoes."
"I'm not ditching you to see Nyilah." Lexa just relaxes in her seat. Obviously waiting for Clarke to continue. "Nyilah has been helping me with something..someone."
"Do you remember the last time i was in Europe?" Lexa does not respond so Clarke just continues and explains everything that happened to her and how she found out she was pregnant and kept the baby away from everyone.
Lexa was on her feet, keeping a very good distance away from Clarke but also wanting to hold her.
It was devastating and no woman deserves to be treated in that way no matter how sour the story became at some moments. She wanted Clarke to have all the time in the world right now because she still needed to understand something. Why?
Clarke explained everything till the recent events. Her deciding to tell her friends and Madi meeting her friends and was going to meet her grandparents today.
"Madi is a nice name." Lexa said in a small voice. Clarke would have missed it if she wasn't looking out for every reaction on Lexa's face.
"I never meant to keep her or us a secret. I was just afraid of what Murphy would do if he finds out that i'm happy with you and if he finds out Madi is his daughter. I didn't want to risk it. I also didn't know if you would accept Madi or not"
She watched has Lexa's face turned to disgust. "Are you fucking with me right now?"
"Lexa you once said you didn't want kids." And she saw her mistake right there but the words were out of her mouth and into Lexa's ear.
"No, you're not going to use what I said at 17 has a fucking excuse for keeping the child as a secret from your fucking wife. Was our marriage a fucking trashcan to you because you sure threw in a lot of garbage in it."
"That is not true?"
"And what is? That you trust Nyilah over your wife?"
"You know that is not true. I was afraid of everyone's reaction."
This shit was going left and fast.
"But i'm not everyone. I was supposed to be your wife. You didn't trust me enough to let me protect you. Trust, loyalty and honesty are what you couldn't give me, instead you fucking flashed them down the toilet. I'm happy that you are a good mother to that child because she is innocent in all this."
"I'm sorry Lexa , I did what was best for us. I didn't want anything to happen to you." Sobbing "I was scared"
"Well you clearly didn't need me then, what's the different today?"
"I just need you to understand_"
Lexa cuts her off. "I do understand. Now I want you to understand that you broke our trust, you Clarke Griffin didn't have faith in me, now we can't turn back time. What's done is done."
how can I lose her? No i'm not signing this damn thing. Maybe I should give it some time because right now she is angry
Sensing Clarke's hesitation. "And you better sign those papers. Maybe for once you can actually do the right thing in this relationship."
The door opens and Octavia walks in the thick tension that can't be digested or cut with a sew. She clears her throat looks at Clarke who has tears in her eyes.
She wants to rush over to Clarke but she also needs to do her work. With the way things have being going, she wouldn't want to be on Lexa's bad side.
Plus she also knows when to intervene. And right now isn't the time or place.
"Lexa, the Car taking you to the airport is here."
Thank you Octavia . I'll be right there."
Octavia looks at Clarke one more time. The woman is frozen in her place its like she's not even here. Quickly Octavia walked out of the office, closing the door firmly like it would break.
Lexa moved about the room picking up documents that she needed and started to walk out of the door. She was stopped in her trucks by Clarke's strong grip on her foreforearm.
"When will you be back?"
"I don't know."
"You're not going for a business trip, are you?"
When Lexa didn't respond Clarke pulled her in for a hug. The tears that she managed to hold for a few seconds poured down down her Cheeks rapidly after noticing Lexa didn't hug her back.
"I'm sorry." She whispered in Clarke's ear before pulling away and walked out of the office.
Everything seemd to be in some kind of slow motion to Clarke. How she got on her knees crying mercilessly and Octavia wrapping her hand over her.
She kept wandering how long she as being on the floor before Octavia came back.
****
A WEEK LATER
"I still can't believe you two were married." Abby said
"Abby?"
"I'm just saying, have you made up your mind?"
"Whatever decision you make. Just know we are here for you." Jake added
Everything was still fresh but they also kept it PG13 with Madi being around.
A knock at the door interrupting the family moment. Madi rushed to open the door . "Hey little one, you must be Madi."
"Yes but I don't know you."
"That's because i'm ever busy. I'm Raven's friend and your mom's to."
The kid was now excited. It was refreshing meeting her mom's friends. Though she enjoyed Octavia more.
"Do you know Octavia?"
"I work with her."
Before she could say something else. Clarke had to jump in and get right to business though she was shocked that Titus wasn't with her.
"Madi please go to your room, we have something to discuss.."
The kid waved at Anya has she rushed to her room upstairs.
Anya said hi to everyone as she took a seat.
"Where is Titus?" Clarke asked.
Anya hesitated to answer. "Uh Lexa sent for him. So its just me. Are you ready?"
Abby placed a hand on Clarke's shoulder and rubbed small cycles.
"How is she?"
The room fell silent apart from the air-cone in the room. The three exchanged a look of uncertainty.
"I have not seen her." It was the only thing Anya could say. Than oh she looks like a Zombie in the walking dead and has lost weight.
Clarke nodded her head and picked up the pen to sign the papers.
"Did you read?" Anya asked not only because Lexa asked her to make sure Clarke reads the document but because if she did. Clarke wouldn't sign that paper.
"I trust her."
"Clarke its not about trust. Maybe you should read before signing.?"
Clarke grabbed the papers and signed. Anya handed her another copy she came with already signed by Lexa.
Clarke signed it to and a she felt a sharp pen inside her heart. Anya went through everything with her and it was finally over. Clarke would no longer be Mrs. woods. That's right she got her name.
Anya said her goodbyes. "I'll leave the other copy with you. Hope you can read it."
Abby and Jake frowned. Anya emphasised a lot on READING the damn divorce papers.
What could be in it that's so important