Author POV
Never in his dreams sid thought he will be weak
He was never afraid even when he saw his father on bed may be aahil didn't let him feel that..
Aahil is great brother who always supports and stand like pillar not letting them fall.
But right now sid is scared of losing siya at the same time he is feeling like he failed in securing her.
He is blaming himself for not protecting her..
Where his thoughts taking a toll on him
I don't know the one who is behind us and what they want..??
But the one is making everyone suffer who is close to me..??
But what they will gain for doing this .??
What if something happens to her..??
Can I live without her..??
Atleast can I forgive myself..??
I love her to my heart but now she is suffering because of me..??
When she shouted in pain it scared me to the death that she will leave me and go..
Can I live without her..??
The thought itself making him shiver..it's haunting him every second that not letting him think in peace
I never wished to see her tears but now I'm only the reason for her pain..
She suffered alot in her life..
Where she always craves for love that she can share her feelings..
I always want to be her love but right now I became her suffering..
I took her peace that now the fear in her is not letting her live..
"I'm fine" siya said while wipping tears of sid.
Sid didn't even realised when his heart pounding his feelings through tears..
Siya cupped his cheek and looked into his eyes.
Sid kissed her palm while placing his hand on her.
"Will you leave me" sid asked out of nowhere without leaving her hand.
He never felt insecure but today he scared to think of any negative that all heart and mind blaming him for her..
From the day sid born, he surrounded by love.
He never knew the meaning of pain and that credits goes to his father abhiram.
He never leave their side not even once not atleast when he is not well.
Abhiram is like a foundation to his family. He believes without a proper foundation there will be no long life structure and he implies the same in life that he guides them and teach them in every thing.
He stood beside them in every step they took whether it is right or wrong that he never stopped of doing anything but he always guided them with the consequences and leave them to choose the path they want.
He said the difference between good and bad, right and wrong.
He showed the importance of life and love rather than the money.
He encouraged them when they fail, he praised them when they achieve.
He never wished that his kids to be perfect but he never let anyone show their finger on his kids or family.
That he said the difference between I and US
Life is not I it's us. It should be I when you are possessive about your achievements not for the family because if you think only of I then there will be nothing to see, and no one beside you.
Because the family we love, the family we built, the family we share is like a pillar in every step
Now sid understood the meaning of US.
It's being long ago when he was I but now he want to build a family of his own like his father.
The one infront of him looks so pale and tired of winning the battle of darkness.
The smile on her lips said a untold story rather than the tears in her eyes..
"No I won't unless until you leave me" she said while lingering her lips on his forehead
It's first time that she took an initiative but it hold the warmness which he is craving when he saw her all broken.
Her words held a promise of togetherness that he smiled in joy which didn't last longer.
'Do you want to see her suffer' his conscious screamed at him.
Right now sid is in confusion that he took a decision which make his and her heart crumbled and soul shattered.
He left her hand and stood abruptly "don't talk with me.
Maintain distance with me" finally sid said where his heart is bleeding.
His eyes held a pain, his face turned hard, his smile went pale. His hand turned into fit that his nails digging into the skin.
Slowly the white cloth around his wound turning into red.
"How long" siya asked holding his bleeding hand into her while masking her pale skin with smile
The smile which didn't reached her eyes. Her shuttering voice said the pain of heart. Her touch said how her soul craves.
"Till.." sid couldn't complete his sentence
Siya took his hand and started doing first aid to his hand where sid sat like a rock as his wound is not more painful than his heart.
Her tears welled up seeing the cut on his hand.
"Is it paining alot'" siya asked while hissing and cleaning
"Are you going to give me a trophy" siya asked again as sid didn't gave any reply to divert his mind from different thoughts.
But of no use sid sat with no emotions on his face but his soul screaming at him in silence.
"Don't worry, I won't show my face to you until you ask me and buy me a big chocolate and you should give me your trophy too" siya said with teasing smile but got betrayed with her tears which she trying to hold from long.
Sid hugged her tight without caring anything feeling the warmth of soul.
They both stood in silence where their emotions are pouring their heart out in their hug.
They don't know how long they stood in eachother embrace that their raising heart got relaxed but the turmoil inside never let them leave in peace.
A knock on door disturbed their peaceful yet tough moment and both stood awkwardly looking here and there but not eachother.
Anu came inside first and followed by everyone.
No one spoke anything but every one understood the tension in air.
"Don't worry or stress yourself. Every thing will be alright." Sanjay said to no one particular but everyone nodded their head as assuring themselves.
"I will leave" siya said looking at sid
"Wait siya we will drop you" almost everyone in the room said but not sid which pained her more.
"Thankyou but no I will go in bus even vyshali is waiting for me" siya said and took her bag and left.
Aanaya didn't understand what happened..?? She don't know what to do but little did she understood that something happened between them and stood watching her retreating figure.
"Di ping me when you decide the time for tomorrow"
-vishaka di
- siya messaged to vishaka
Siya left after bid bye to everyone bit not to sid.
She was hurt because of him and his behaviour that she consoled herself and left.
Sid went to practice and did for sometime. Later vivek and sid left the college.
Sid straight away went to his room and got freshup and went his parents room.
There his mom anitha is clearing the mess created by her husband everyday after he come to home.
Sensing someone presence anitha looked round and gasped seeing her beloved son Aarav in mess that his eyes shows the pain of his heart.
Sid rushed towards her mom and hugged her tight where his tears flowing freely.
"What happened chottu..??" Anitha asked caressing his back
As she didn't receive any reply she broke the hug and pulled him towards the bed.
Immediately sid found his place on his mom lap and slept hugging her.
Leaving his mom in her thoughts. With in no time sleep embrace him due to tiredness of both mentally and physically.
Abhiram came out of washroom listening to commotion.
"Don't start.." abhiram stopped and stood at his place seeing her wife tears
For a while he didn't understand what happened.
"What happen anitha" abhiram asked while caressing sid head
"Don't know what's wrong but he is not being himself from few days.
I never saw him weak even when you are not well.
But now what happen that my son is suffering like this.
He is always strong and naughty now I saw his tears today" anitha cried
His heart ached seeing his wife and kid
"Life will not be same all the time anitha" abhiram said
"I don't want your lame philosophy now"anitha whispered yelled at abhiram to not disturb his son sleep.
"I will talk and solve. You don't worry" abhiram said and kissed on her forehead and caressed his son head lovingly
At night, anitha feed his son with great difficulty where sid showing his tantrums for eating.
Aahil and aanaya came to their parents to witness sid pain.
Aanaya ran towards abhiram and slept by keeping her head on his lap.
Aahil looked at them and smiled but anitha took him in embrace amd let him sleep on her lap.
Both sons slept on anitha lap where aanaya slept on abhiram lap.
Anitha leaned towards her husband shoulder and slept while smuggling towards him.
Abhiram looking at his family lovingly but got disturbed by notification sound and received a video and message of every single detail of incident and the info what happened in college too.
Where siya skipped her half meal saying full and ate half meal with great difficulty.
She want to cry her heart out. She want someone to hold her console her but alas she can't say nor share her pain or feelings with anyone.
She decided to be fit and fine not to show her suffering or pain to others.
She didn't liked even single percent when she got got cramps infront of others.
She hated herself for showing her weak side.
But now she is craving for someone to lessen her pain of heart, the grief of soul.
Without any delay, she slept hugging her nisha to heart where trying to feel some warmth.
She covered herself totally with a bedsheet that no one can see her tears nor listen her sob.
She slept keeping her head on nisha and snuggled closer to herself seeking warmth as she consoling her heart and soothing her soul with her tears which she is hold from the college itself.
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