dane's p.o.v
"and since when did you start to care?!" --- her words shut me up.I can sense bitterness with her voice.I felt really sorry.I know I am a pain in the ass.I wanna make it up to her now.But I don't know what to say,where to start.
"mabuti pa nga yung kaibigan mong si xane e.he once saved my life.And I think he cares for me ,even alittle.but,I know he's just being a good friend of yours."- --she just said when she sensed that I'm not going to answer.but why telling it to me?! but then again.
"I think he likes you.I always noticed that he has a thing for you.maybe,that's why he's always affected when it comes to you and...Don't think it the wrong way,But can you just avoid him.? It's also for you.I don't want you to be judged by other people when they noticed you two getting close" ---I know that I don't have the right to forbide her in doing so.to go near with him or even get close with her.
yeah yeah I know for a fact that he likes her.And somehow I kinda feel worried,that.......he'll steal her away from me.
I don't know why does I feel this way when in fact I should be happy.right?!. 'coz when he totally get her away from me .I'll have the freedom I want to be with sophie again.
yes,I can be with her anytime I want.but,not a total freedom when me and natasha got seperated legally.That I can show our affection towards each other.
But why does I feel the opposite?!Just by thinking about it.It feels like shit and I'm afraid ..what does this mean?.
does it means that I like her already?...this can't be.what about sophie? what will I do to her if ever this happens?Aside for the fact that I love her,I don't wanna hurt her because of her condition.
But why does I like natasha if I love someone else.
.is it posible liking two people at the same time? Or I'm just being paranoid .maybe I don't really like natasha.yes yes right! I don't like her .I just feel pity on her.
"goin' out tonight changes in to something red her mother doesn't like tht kind of dress.---
I just got back into my senses when my phone rings...
sumenyas ako sa kanya asking permission if I can answer my phone and she just nodded.
tumalikod muna ako sandali sa kanya saka sinagot ang phone.
"hello sophie.? erhmm,what do you want?" ---I asked her.
"what happened to the babe part huh,dane? are you afraid of your wife ?is she watching you right now?!" ---she's getting hestirical.
"sorry babe.uhm... what do you want?" ---I just answered
"uhm I want you here in my house I'm not getting any better I think I'm sick please,take care of me"---she said,ther she goes again.GOD what I'm gonna do to her she's always like that.
"but--- ---she cut me off as I start to reason out.She started sobbing,she's always be a crybaby.
"ok,ok I'm coming don't cry" ---I'll just give way this time
maybe I'll just do my plan next time with natasha.I just have to give way to sophie .
"sorry natasha I have to go,I wanna ask you go ut with me a while ago.but this is more important .I need to go" ---I know she'll understand
Natasha's p.o.v
it hurts tatalikuran niya na lang ako just like that?
I can't hold back my tears as it began to fall.I'm his wife,but why he's always like that?yeah right I'm not the one he loves I should not forget that by the way.I'm the one who's stupid here.
why did I ever assume that somehow mamahalin niya rin ako kahit konti.I SHOULD'VE KNOWN IN THE FIRST PLACE.
I should stop crying akala ko sanay na ko hindi pa pala nasasaktan parin ako until now.pero bakit ganun?I still love him no matter what kailan ba ko mapapagod mahalin at intindihin siya.?
ang unfair niya ,kung makapagbawal siya sakin na makipagclose sakin kay xane parang he's acting as my husband talaga.yeah,he's my husband in the paper.But kanina he sounded like a jealous husband.samantalang pagdating kay sophie di naman ako makapagreklamo.
umalis ako sa bahay at pumunta ng mansiyon ng pamilya namin.sinalubong naman agad ako ng mom ko pagkalabas ng kotse.Niyakap ko lang siya and started crying again.pinapatahan lang ako ni mommy.I really love my mom sanay na sanay na kasi siya sa mga drama ko sa buhay e.
si daddy naman alam niyang nong una di ako mahal ni dane nong nagpakasal kami.But we're acting sweet naman in front of them what his lolo and my dad knows is that we love each other.
"si dane na naman ba?" ---mom asked
ewan ko ba kay mommy kung bakit kinukonsinti niya ang pagiging martyr ko pagdating kay dane.pero alam ko naman na sobra siyang nasasaktan para sakin e.buti nga di siya napapagod patahanin at i comfort ako everytime na umuuwi ako dito para lang makapagiyak at yakapin ako.
di ko nalang siya sinagot.
"halika sa loob anak ,wala ang daddy mo ngayon kaya pwedeng pwede ka umiyak ng todo todo bukas pa ata uuwi yun galing business trip e." ---mom told me
"umiyak ng todo todo talaga mommy?" ---sabi ko ng tatawa tawa
"buti naman at tumatawa kana.haay...kung pwede ko lang talaga ipasalvage yang si denille e .ginawa ko na .mabuti na lang at alam kong sobra kang magluluksa pag ginawa ko yun kaya di ko na tinuloy." ---sabi ni mommy ng seryoso
"mommy naman e..."
"binibiro lang kita nuh." ---sabi niya ng natatawa tawa parin
nag usap lang kami ni mommy at panay kulitan.Bestfriend ko kasi yan si mommy e sinasabi ko lahat sa kanya,walang sekre-sekreto.
"Pero anak,wala ka bang kapaguran diyan sa ginagawa mo.?
lagi mo nalang pinapaasa ang sarili mo e.lumipas na ang tatlong taon at tila mahal niya parin si sophie.
pakawalan mo na kaya siya .hindi lang kasi ikaw ang nahihirapan dito e.
si dane din .kahit wala siyang kwentang asawa,may karapatan parin siyang sumaya.At hindi ikaw ang makapagpapasaya sa kanya anak.alam mo all this time iniisip nating ang sama sama niya dahil lagi ka na lang niyang sinasaktan.
pero try to think of it,naisip mo na bang nasasaktan din siya.
aside for the fact na may mahal siyang iba,
nagguilthy rin siya dahil bestfriend ka niya ayaw ka niyang masaktan pero,
napipilitan siyang gawin yun dahil ...
pilit niyang pinaparamdam at pinapaalala sayu na hindi siya ang lalaking para sayo."
-----sobrang tagos yung sinabi ni mommy,.all this time akala ko ang pinakakawawa.di ko man lang naisip na ang mas kawawa talaga sa sitwasyun naming to is si dane...
masaganang dumaloy na naman ang mga pesteng luha ko.
masakit man,pero tingin ko kailangan ko na talagang pakawalan si dane.