"I thought about doing it until I realized it would be a total waste of my time, so I didn't do it." - Red ('Angry Birds')
"I say 'go' but you say 'stay'. You can't tell me what to do. Don't understand a word I say. So phooey...phooey on you." - Donald Duck (Disney 'Duck Tales')
"ANGER doesn't begin to cover it!!!" - Nicole Watterson ('The Amazing World Of Gumball')
"This job gets very stressful. Are you just going to stand there like a half-wit?" - Squidward Tentacles ('Spongebob Squarepants')
"I'm never working again, 'cause I don't feel like it. I've wasted my whole life and I'm not wasting another second working for you. So, go ahead and FIRE me." - Benson Dunwoody ('Regular Show')
"All the years, I've wanted to be treated like an ADULT have blown up in my face." - Lisa Simpson ('The Simpsons')
"If only I were good and kind like that, but I'm not, so that's that!" - Helga Pataki ('Hey Arnold!')
"You listen to me, you little monster! I take abuse on from everybody around here but I am NOT gonna take it from you! Now sit here until I say you get up. And if you move one muscle before I smack your weird head!" - Meg Griffin ('Family Guy')
Your POV
I have a hard time coping up with my stress. I keep all my emotions bottled up like deep waters, drowning in fear as I was unable to breath or reach my hand towards the surface. I'm also not in control of my actions and I find it difficult to understand it first.
When I could go see a therapist, my test results are off the charts which means my stress level has increased. And it gets even worse too. If I can't get ahold of my severe stress for too long, I will die of a heart attack or have months to live. That was just awful....
My life is simple and I'm stuck with it. I struggled, feeling anxious or dizzy and a bit exhausting. Want to know why? It repeats in an endless loop for almost than 24 hours a day and it also felt like forever. I just can't focus on my work due to my stress.
In public, I can't handle the noise from outside or inside either. Disturbances are everywhere when people scolded me for not doing any assignments or any kind of activities which it made my stress level overflow with pressure. It bothers my mind terribly.
The doctors said if I could take a dose of anti-depressants for once a day, it will put me in ease when I have a headache. It can help me slow down the pain and suffering. When times like this felt like an emotional roller-coaster as my heart tightens in my chest.
What about my anger issues? It gets even much worse than that. Everytime I went irritatedly mad at anyone, I can feel the fiery heat starts to boil within me. Danger signs of my mental health and dark creatures known as inner demons are manifesting my temples.
What's more is my world is scary and very tempting. It consumes around my body and it drains my energy like I was out of oxygen. I then curled in a ball, both legs against my chest as I hugged myself for secure and huddle in the corner walls, sobbing for help.
I also looked at the mirror and see my own dark side reflecting itself in front of me. The question is, what is this odd feeling? Hatred, depression, sadness or confusion? Those pair of strange eyes are staring right back at me in terror that still haunts my dreams.
I glared at it, causing me to punch the mirror really hard and then, my hand is now bleeding badly. Still, it hurts too. I have to keep it together, but I can't do it alone anymore. Stress made me lose control as my anger build up a flaming furnace around me.
I can't have fun now. I can't go back to work and finish to get the job done. I can't enjoy anything or whatever that is. No NOTHING. I'm just....tired. My stress is the only destructive feeling that affects me and my whole life. It doesn't make it go away. It keeps going on and on.
Again, my stress level test results are in a critical rate and my head hurts a lot. I try to count up from 1 to 100 above on how to scale my anger or pressure. If I refuse, I won't be able to control it any longer or keep holding it for too long.
Well, this is a bunch of barnacles. The only issue is I still have another week or month to live if I have to. It doesn't matter right now....but I can take care of myself. I have almost reached my limit state and I pushed myself over.
I have a lack of healthy eating or lose my appetite. I just don't feel satisfied or being motivated today. I became very tired so fast when my life is short. I get headaches all the time, especially when I'm at work. Lastly, I didn't get a proper exercise because I was too stressed out. I hate my life....
I take anti-depressants daily just for one day. Relax all day and maybe drink a cup of hot tea mixed with herbs, that should calm down my nerves. I'm still not in a good mood. Ugh, I need some rest and go to bed early because I'm not feeling well. 😪😪 😴😴
This is gonna be a long day, alright. I only care about myself and that's what I do to make it right. I hope everything will be okay soon. After I drink my cup of herbal tea, I washed it and brush my teeth. I went to the bedroom in a sleepy slouched posture as I walked upstairs.
Change my old clothes into pajamas before going to bed. I felt my head is starting to heat up like I had an awful sick fever. I let out a cough...this is bad. I must have put on too much pressure from going outside. I'm so tired and I can't seemed to get it out.
I'm so stressed, I might explode to bits. Do you think a girl like me can flip out when I get mad?! Well, you're wrong!! I also have a tendency to destroy random stuff, lose my temper, growl irritatedly as I snapped and lines of blood veins now appeared on my head. 😠😠 💢💢
While I was minding my own business, I give them the angriest dirty look on my face as I hissed in rage which is too much for my annoyance. I avoided eye contact at all times, so I just tell them to shut the crap up or I'll lose control of my karma as my temper.
What's even worse is I shouted, yelled, bullied, snapped, pranked or tortured violently. My anger is powerful enough to throw, kick, punch or push around to get them out of my way. It made my behavior changed entirely because of the bad influence outside or watching cartoon shows that aren't for kids.
Note: Here are examples of PG-13 cartoon shows that are NOT for kids:
* 'Total Drama Island' - adult swim, dirty jokes, uncensored
* 'Spongebob Squarepants' - ugly facial expressions, annoying
* 'Regular Show' - adult swim, dirty jokes, drug trip, uncensored
* 'Steven Universe' - LGBT/lesbian relationships, gay moments
* 'Adventure Time' - horror, scary scenes (like 'Flapjack')
* 'The Loud House' - curse words or bad words, censored
Then, I groaned heavily in exhaustion as I landed on my bed, faceplant with a pillow...just wake me up when I'm dead. I adjusted my position sidewards and then, I stared at the ceiling for a couple of minutes, just thinking about what should I do next.
Will I be okay? Or getting caught up in a mental sickness like this? Now look at me, I'm stuck in a horrible state and my stress level gets much worse than ever. Maybe someone out there who can help me. I cuddled under the covers while I glanced at the window with tired teary eyes. I sighed deeply.
I took a glance at the window one last time and then, I slowly went fast asleep as my eyes are growing heavy. I hope someone out there is watching me from above or afar somewhere. Could it be a sign? Oh, well...tomorrow is going to be a better day, I think.
*~The next morning~*
Sleeping in peace, I can hear the birds chirping and the ray of sunshine. I was having a perfect nice dream....but then, I was cut off by the alarm or ringtone of my cellphone. It made my heart beats rapidly and went into a shock.
Note: Pick one if you want. Each of them are so hilarious and perfect for a ringtone!! 😊😊 😂😂
1. Pops Maellard jolly laugh
2. Homer Simpson contagious laugh
3. Red the Red Bird angry squawks
4. Spongebob characters laughing
5. Meg Griffin cute crying
Except for Meg. This one is really sad, to be honest. 😭😭😭
You miss the original 'Angry Birds' back in 2010, right? (#bringback2012, #screwyourovio). You will always be remembered of our childhood and holds a special place in our hearts...
I groaned in annoyance as I picked it up and turn it down. Another boring day, another migraine indeed. This is gonna take for a little while. I looked at myself in the mirror and saw tired bags under my eyes. I felt my face burning up in a hot temperature.
Life is hard when you're lonely in the middle of a very exhausting, stressful day. I just don't feel like going outside or being fit in with anyone right now today. I need some time to chillax, have peace and quiet. A bowl of cereals or oatmeal for breakfast and a cup of herbal tea can't hurt.
That should help me on a healthy diet and I'm on a schedule of my everyday life 24/7. Like listen to chill music, relax on a lounge chair, watering the garden, sketching or creative arts, watch some television while eating popcorn, read a 'Legend Of Zelda' yaoi manga, playing videogames...etc.
I did on my work done pretty well but my fever is still heating up. I put on a small towel placed on my head to cool down my body temperature while I was eating popcorn. As I watched any kind of show on television for 2 hours, it also puts me in ease.
I then listen to music which it relives the pain, mostly for anti-stress. I play videogames and it brings me intense chills to my chest. I take a short rest on a lounge chair with shades on because I don't mind the stupid noisy neighbors bothering me from next door.
*~Later...~*
After my daily schedule, I went back to my bedroom feeling exhausted and the wet cold towel is still on top of my head. Also, I already take anti-depressants for one dose a day but my stress will come back by itself. I covered myself under the soft blankets for comfort.
So this is why I don't go outside....ever again. I hate being socialized because I'm still sick. I stressed out too much, overwhelmed by my pressure, I coped and coped....hoping the excruciating pain will go away. It worn me out as my body began to malfunction any second.
I then huddle in a ball on the bed, legs crossed against my chest and wrap my arms around together. This is all my fault that I screwed up this time. Tears slowly streamed down my face as I let out pained sobs. I can feel myself being caged inside, I don't matter either.
I cried and cried hard. I hate my life and I hate myself! That's not the 'me' I used to be. All the emotions I have felt is too much. My stress is critical and it gets worsened. Will somebody please help me get rid of this nightmare so that I can be free?
I prayed for a miracle just to give me a sign, but nothing happened. I failed, give up on my hope for trying too hard. I suffered horribly. I have done a bad thing. What am I supposed to do now? My stress level just couldn't stop. I cried really hard once more until then....
I heard a mysterious voice calling my name. It sounded like a male. When I open my eyes, a miracle has come to me and there it was. I saw beautiful pure white wings that sparkle in the light. Shiny blonde hair and oceanic blue pools I've ever seen.
A handsome male clad in a forest green tunic and hat. A pure golden crown on top of his head and a flowing electric blue scarf around the neck collar. I can see some silver earrings underneath his pixie-ish bangs. Pauldrons, brown fingerless gloves and leather boots along with gauntlets.
We both made eye contact for the very first time, which it made my heart skip a beat and I blushed a faint pink. I can tell he's so gorgeously attractive to look at...super cute and charming. I stared at him, still in sad tears as he wipes them away with his fingers.
He gives me a loving smile on his face, his lips are as sweet as sugar and totally kissable. I blushed really hard, making him chuckle tenderly. His laugh...it was music to my ears and it also soothes my heart. I want to know who he is.
"Who are you?", I said as he placed his hand on my cheek.
"I am Link. I have been waiting for you. We meet together at last, (Y/N)."
He spoke, gently sits on the bed beside me as our both hands touched. I slowly reached for my own hand to feel the softness of his cheek, blue eyes staring at me deeply. He smiles in a cutesy way and blushed as well.
"Are you really...the Hero Of Legend?", I asked him and he nodded.
"Yes, I am. Is there something do you want to talk about, (Y/N)?", he replied.
His feathered wings folded, gracefully wraps around my shoulders for secure. Taking deep breaths before I started to explain the situation. I began to tell him on how I become so severely stressed, tremendous amount of mood swings, extreme tiredness and also, my mental bottled emotions.
"And that's how it goes....well, I...I am so, so sorry, Link. I couldn't control my feverish stress any longer and I just don't know what to do. My entire day gets worse because I was stressed out. But I was right. I am hopeless."
I responded in a weak tone then I burst out tears....again. Link snaked his arms around my waist and pulled me in a tight hug, rubbing my temples gently. I feel safe and sound in his angelic white wings. He then kissed my forehead.
"Don't cry, (Y/N). You have nothing to be afraid or being upset about. Yes...I know how you feel when your life become so stressful. And it can be hard sometimes. Release your pressures, let go of your temper and calm down your tensions."
He cupped my cheeks in his, kisses my tears away. Locked our eyes in a deep starry gaze, I did the same way too.
"Remember to what I'm about to tell you, (Y/N). Take some time, call it a day so that you need to rest for a while. Try to relax, your stress level will decrease slowly. But if you refuse, you won't be able to control it. I was worried and I also cared about you because....I have loved you from the bottom of my heart, I promise. I....I love you dearly, (Y/N)."
Then, our lips collided with a soft kiss. I kissed him back too. I shyly smiled at him, which is making him giggle as our both hands entwined together. Now my fever is turning normal.
"You have my heart as well. I love you, my darling (Y/N)", he cooed sweetly.
"I love you too, Link", I said with a small smile.
It was a miracle and it came true. My stress is now slowly fading away and the horrible pain is gone. I was healed by a brave chosen hero who saved my life and used to be my angel in disguise. I can be happy once again and stay with Link for as long as I like.
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Quotes:
"Stress is the trash of modern life; we all generate it. But if you don't dispose of it properly, it will pile up and overtake your life." - Danzae Pace
"There are days when the only two things that seem consistent in life, are stress and total chaos." - Unknown